When I was younger and I began seeing auras, it made me realize in a
very tangible way that we are all energy; our bodies, composed of this
seemingly coarse matter was energy vibrating at a certain frequency.
Different types of matter has different densities. Different things
have a different vibration, such as light and sound; all vibration. We
live in a sea of All Energy. All kinds of energy moving at different
frequencies, and yet, there is this sense that I have and that many
others seem to have, too, which is that "behind" all of this or resting
"within" all of this energy is a core energy source or force. We have
all kinds of names, and for years and years every name I heard seemed to
fall short of really explaining it. What I realize is that any name IS
going to fall short of the grandeur of this living presence in all
things. So anything will seem mundane or silly almost. Bearded man up
in the clouds? Silly! Buxom Lady, Mother to all living in the springs
and oceans? Silly! And yet, even as we say that we can dream such
images into being and experience them as virtually as any vivid dream or
vision. This is so because everything is a creation, everything IS
creative energy. It isn't nothing means anything, it means that
anything can mean anything you need or want. Understand how this deeper
level creativity works and you can find yourself living a much less effortful life. (yes-I just made that word up...)
The Gods and Goddesses are reflections of what we are able to realize or know. Its a little funny that for some a God has meant a beaded guy up in the clouds. It shows that we have pretty well excluded the feminine in ourselves and in our deity. Well, all of that is changing. A delicate vibration of bliss is coming back to us as we reach the End Times. Set your hair on fire chillens, cause the seals are about to be undone. Seven of them; right along with the seven chakras making up the pranamayakosha or light body. The End Times means that we are coming to the end of the old way and we are now seeing the New Way. And I am here to tell you that. Didn't you know? That, and the fact that by being energy we all have our effect on the world around us....and that the core of all things can have its own effect on YOU? Well sit back and let me tell you a story......
This great presence in all things I will boldly say is like a tuning fork. Its vibration is so pure, so incredibly refined.....it is like observing a master at work. I understand how those who can pause to see the incredible masterwork that exists all through creation would feel awed and become worshipful of this presence. I will tell you though that there is nothing about this presence that has ever once demanded that I go down on one knee. I think this has to do with our own limited conception of what a deity is, and what a deity was for us thousands of years ago may have been more like observing a Lord or ruler of some kind. I can tell you that this being seems to observe and flow through all things lovingly more than in any egoistic way. It wants us to be happy and to find our own freedom in expression and in fulfillment....and just as it has created so much, it is itself curious to see what WE will create. And what WILL we create?
Within this Presence lies a central vibration that is pure love. I can't even begin to tell you how incredible this thing is. I don't even know why I am using all this time telling you about it when I could be focused on the bliss that it confers. But here I am, explaining that there is something truly remarkable inside of you. It is a piece of the divine and that slip of divine has the capacity to vibrate at the same vibration as the central force in all things. This vibration is love. This love, however, may be unlike anything you have thus far experienced. It is not something that you feel FOR something, it is a force that IS everything. It is kind of awesome that way. Truly. But in order to embody it, you need to become aware of it. Can I help you to recall this?
When the sages speak of "self realization" they aren't talking about decades worth of work and yoga postures, they are talking about a simple act of recalling who we are deeper down. We are like amnesiacs who have been shipwrecked on this planet and we wake up one day to realize we are travellers from a distant land who are all artists of one kind or another. As our memories unfold and sharpen, we realize we have all of these remarkable abilities. Some amongst us say we are here to be punished. These people, those are the ones who have not fully remembered, because were they to remember fully, they would become speechless and just stand gape-mouthed at the realization of just what we are. How do I jog your memory? All you have to do is to look inside very quietly and begin to FEEL your energy. When you FEEL your energy, you feel it from one central place within the core of your awareness. In this place, in this stillness, stop taking your own energy for granted. Ask yourself what IS this energy that is you? FEEL that energy and center on it with your attention. You do not need anything more than this except that. The quieter you can become, the more still you can be, the better. This is not easy, so by gently bringing your busy mind back into a center of focus each time with becoming quiet and centered on feeling your own core of energy, you can slowly begin to learn to develop a practice of developing a capacity to rest within this energy in a way that can lead to a revolution in memory. Breathing has in the past been connected to this process since breathing inward also helps to move energy in your body. If it helps, breathing in a deep and steady way, much like how you breathe just before you fall asleep, is the perfect way to breathe for recalling your soul self. You can also bring great relaxation by pressing one nostril closed and breathing in and out four times each and then changing to the other nostril. You can do this as many times as you need in order to drift into a deeply relaxed state. You can also press your hands together as in prayer and then focus on the place where the hands meet. The reason why this method is so powerful is because the hands when brought together in prayer actually complete a circuit in the body that helps build and accumulate energy. By placing your attention on the place where the hands meet, you are activating the quantum potential within the energy to vault yourself into a new form of awareness. This form of awareness is one that moves you from object-based awareness to what I would call field-based awareness. It is the basis for a method I call Divine Energetics which uses the power of the brain and body to accumulate the type of energy that can lead to awakening and to greater awareness. It is actually as simple as learning how to shift from an "I" object-based form of awareness and reasoning to one that is not based in objects but fields, waves, of awareness. It is in the wave or field (the forest instead of the trees) that the awakening experience awaits you. Having said that, being ready by working through the more thorny issues of your life can be a big help to you because once awakening comes small things are greatly magnified. It is my sense, though, that sometimes the only real way to work through our small things and big things is by having them magnified by the presence of awakening or kundalini. It is what it does; it helps us to see even the most minute grain of sand in order that we can cast it aside from the great turning of the wheels within us so that it does not scratch or harm or hurt our very delicate inner workings.
Our energy can serve as a tuning fork. Just as the central sun or light or presence serves as a tuning fork for us, we too also attune others whether we know it or not. The more receptive or open we are to this attunement, the more likely it is to happen.
Long before I ever had my awakening but a few months into seeing auras, I was sitting with one of my room mates as we spoke. I was talking about something, I forget what exactly, but I noticed that I was feeling what I know now to be my own core energy. This energy is strong.....its not a flowing kind of energy....it certainly wasn't at the time. It is like I am most often; animated, intense and with a brilliant kind of flash to it. That same year I had a memory from a past life where I was a native American man who had a vision that had Thunder Beings in it. Like a bolt of lightening; that was what it was like. I had felt this emerge over the years. It was in some ways what I thought to be a very masculine kind of energy. As it turned out that the Sky was most often polarized towards the masculine in native imagery and belief while the earth was considered the feminine polarity. Certainly in the vision I was being shown an archetypal image that served to merge the sky with earth in a cleansing that I was told would happen when I was reborn as a new person. The vision from that past life was a prophecy about the life I am leading now. "You will bear a power to the earth that will be cleansing...." How could I have known that kundalini would do this? Certainly kundalini was a cleansing force, yes, and perhaps, then I was here to help in the cleansing of the earth....which is within us just as we are within it. By learning to cleanse ourselves, would be manage to cleanse the earth? It turned out that there were all kinds of prophecies about this Day of Cleansing from the Navajo, Hopi, Lakota, Ojibwe, and more. All agree that we are in the Day of Cleansing period and those who teach about it tend to do so in a way that is dynamic; we are not separate from the effects that are happening before us. The junk on the face of the earth is the junk in our own minds. CLean the mind and heart and the world can itself also begin to heal. When my vibration changes, it becomes easier for you to change. It is possible to change the world this way, you see. We just need enough people here to effect this change. From all accounts, I'd say that it is happening. But on this day, I was talking to my room mate and feeling this energy. As I spoke to him, I explained what I saw in his aura. I could feel myself feeling this vibration of energy very strong. I would later think of it as my tuning fork effect. As I spoke to him, he began to look at me funny. I asked him what was up and he explained that he saw a light all around me. To test to make sure my room mate wasn't pulling my leg I asked him to do something that I knew meant nothing to him but that would help me to gauge if he was actually seeing auras. I asked him to take off his glasses. Now to understand this, you need to realize that John wore these coke bottle glasses. The poor soul had such poor eyesight that his eyes looked like big fish eyes staring back at you through those thick panes of plastic. When John took off his glasses, he was blind. But instead of going blurry, John's face grew even more amazed. He said "the light! It is so bright!" It was then that I knew that John was indeed "seeing" auras.
Over the years I would find that when I was feeling my own inner core energy and reading energy that people had a habit of beginning, right then and there, to see auras. My intuitive sense has been that all that has ever really happened is that by feeling my own energy in the way that I do, the people who were receptive enough, were able to tune into the same frequency I was on and it opened the sense up within them as well. This phenomenon has happened about five times and I often can feel when someone else around me is about ready to activate this sense in themselves. I can sense a similar vibrational frequency.
It turns out that Reiki is a healing modality that does something similar. At least this is the read I get from it. Last week I had my first attunement and what I experienced was how practicioners could help conduct universal and soul energy through my system in a way that was beneficial for my own healing. By shifting my vibration it helped to move old energy blocks in my body that had been there for a very long time. By doing this I was better able to feel my "own" energy which is itself like being a fountain for a source of energy that is the universe. The more I do this, the closer I get, I achieve a divine alignment and it is in this divine alignment that I feel peace and joy and bliss while working on what remains for me to heal in my own energy body. That we manage to hold so hard onto these old hurts and blockages is testament to how our own individuality becomes accustomed to a less than marvelous way of being and feeling.
Its weird. It really is. And yet, we all do this. All of us. Slowly and sometimes quickly, we are moved to the center of some great wheel.....to an axial point in our awareness where so much just falls away. It is like a cosmic seduction. I feel my soul grow naked under the great vibratory force that is this divine love. I find I just don't care anymore.....and in not caring, I lose my fear over what I am afraid might lie in the center of my soul. Some dark pit or some glitch or something less than perfect, less than lovable, less than beautiful. And yet, this seductive force teased me out of my shadows, out of the old feeling of not being good enough or strong enough or bold or smart enough or handsome or any of the rest. It floods me with such incredible love that I just melt.
I am returned to a baseline vibration.....to a primordial state.....and its not harps and angels. Its fiery flowers bursting open with passion and stars exploding into new worlds in the night. It is the grinding force of gravity hending space and the passionate love that bears a moon to its planet. It is the force that brings blood to churn in the heart, the nutrients to flow from root to leaf, of a boundless frequency that pervades all and makes all as it changes from one thing to another and is all things all at once. It is a dance around the maypole, it is a passionate kiss by the fire. It is a love of great art and science and devotion to all things great and hopeful. It is the incredible reach and trembling grasp of our kind as we seek to break the bonds of one cradle to recognize the bonds of a still larger one ahead of us. All of this could be some remarkable miracle or a mundane blurp of accident and for those where it is all mere accident, there is a kind of pall of death that comes over the soul.
So what do you want? Do you want to follow rules laid out ahead of you or are you willing to realize that its all in your to know the infinite realm that spreads out before all of us? In touching this wonder of wonders, doesn't it just seem such a waste that humans would spend time making war and enriching themselves when there is more than enough for everyone here and that we could be doing such incredible things instead of merely seeking advantage. Isn't it time for the Goddess within each of us, the part that sees the larger good for all, to awaken collectively so that we might all be softened by this part of us that we shoved under the rug so long ago? Isn't it time for love to reign in heaven, the kind of love where God must close the door so he might be with his Beloved Goddess? And isn't it time that we allowed ourselves to see our Gods and Goddesses as loving and affectionate instead of angry and vengeful? Aren't the Gods and Goddesses our own projections anyway? And in so being, might we not ourselves be able to remake our world in a finer sort of vibration where we become not the lost children of an angry father-god but the children of a happy and loving family of father/mother? Because, I have to point out, that it is in this vibration that their bliss is known. Isn't the bliss of this experience equal to the touch of the higher forces reaching one into the other for completion.....and isn't this the same thing that happens to us as we ourselves awaken, which is that we merge that which is lacking in us, most often our opposites, in order to know bliss and love and joy and all the rest? Isn't this what we seek the beloved for? Isn't this really just the way to clothe and describe a great mystery where there is no father, there is no mother, but there is a wondrous reality that is entirely beyond words even though we do seek to put it all to words? Touch the universal force and you shall know the product of their love, their union, their hearts as vast forces that dream worlds into being. I know that this may all sound like utter madness to you, but in the realm of the spirit, things are not always anchored to objects the way they are in the physical and this experience is very much bringing the heaven to earth. It is. It is the Kingdom. Here. So if that sounds crazy, what can I say?
All of this may all sound grandiose to you. It is. I admit it. But so is the force that turns at the core of all things. In fact, it is just beyond all description. We, so little, like ants really, we are just feeling the far edge of its wonder. What will happen when we learn to bite fully into it and know it rich flavor and juiciness? And when, really, are you going to stop your inner struggle and just let go of that river bank and trust that the river shall take you to a still greater sea? There is a tuning fork inside of you and you need only find it. Then let yourself feel it. In feeling your energy, you can know the wonder that is the universe. People seek this for lifetimes. I ti s here now on the planet in a way it has not been in many many generations. By saying yes to it in your heart, you will say yes to a great love that is what you are and that is the universe.
The Gods and Goddesses are reflections of what we are able to realize or know. Its a little funny that for some a God has meant a beaded guy up in the clouds. It shows that we have pretty well excluded the feminine in ourselves and in our deity. Well, all of that is changing. A delicate vibration of bliss is coming back to us as we reach the End Times. Set your hair on fire chillens, cause the seals are about to be undone. Seven of them; right along with the seven chakras making up the pranamayakosha or light body. The End Times means that we are coming to the end of the old way and we are now seeing the New Way. And I am here to tell you that. Didn't you know? That, and the fact that by being energy we all have our effect on the world around us....and that the core of all things can have its own effect on YOU? Well sit back and let me tell you a story......
This great presence in all things I will boldly say is like a tuning fork. Its vibration is so pure, so incredibly refined.....it is like observing a master at work. I understand how those who can pause to see the incredible masterwork that exists all through creation would feel awed and become worshipful of this presence. I will tell you though that there is nothing about this presence that has ever once demanded that I go down on one knee. I think this has to do with our own limited conception of what a deity is, and what a deity was for us thousands of years ago may have been more like observing a Lord or ruler of some kind. I can tell you that this being seems to observe and flow through all things lovingly more than in any egoistic way. It wants us to be happy and to find our own freedom in expression and in fulfillment....and just as it has created so much, it is itself curious to see what WE will create. And what WILL we create?
Within this Presence lies a central vibration that is pure love. I can't even begin to tell you how incredible this thing is. I don't even know why I am using all this time telling you about it when I could be focused on the bliss that it confers. But here I am, explaining that there is something truly remarkable inside of you. It is a piece of the divine and that slip of divine has the capacity to vibrate at the same vibration as the central force in all things. This vibration is love. This love, however, may be unlike anything you have thus far experienced. It is not something that you feel FOR something, it is a force that IS everything. It is kind of awesome that way. Truly. But in order to embody it, you need to become aware of it. Can I help you to recall this?
When the sages speak of "self realization" they aren't talking about decades worth of work and yoga postures, they are talking about a simple act of recalling who we are deeper down. We are like amnesiacs who have been shipwrecked on this planet and we wake up one day to realize we are travellers from a distant land who are all artists of one kind or another. As our memories unfold and sharpen, we realize we have all of these remarkable abilities. Some amongst us say we are here to be punished. These people, those are the ones who have not fully remembered, because were they to remember fully, they would become speechless and just stand gape-mouthed at the realization of just what we are. How do I jog your memory? All you have to do is to look inside very quietly and begin to FEEL your energy. When you FEEL your energy, you feel it from one central place within the core of your awareness. In this place, in this stillness, stop taking your own energy for granted. Ask yourself what IS this energy that is you? FEEL that energy and center on it with your attention. You do not need anything more than this except that. The quieter you can become, the more still you can be, the better. This is not easy, so by gently bringing your busy mind back into a center of focus each time with becoming quiet and centered on feeling your own core of energy, you can slowly begin to learn to develop a practice of developing a capacity to rest within this energy in a way that can lead to a revolution in memory. Breathing has in the past been connected to this process since breathing inward also helps to move energy in your body. If it helps, breathing in a deep and steady way, much like how you breathe just before you fall asleep, is the perfect way to breathe for recalling your soul self. You can also bring great relaxation by pressing one nostril closed and breathing in and out four times each and then changing to the other nostril. You can do this as many times as you need in order to drift into a deeply relaxed state. You can also press your hands together as in prayer and then focus on the place where the hands meet. The reason why this method is so powerful is because the hands when brought together in prayer actually complete a circuit in the body that helps build and accumulate energy. By placing your attention on the place where the hands meet, you are activating the quantum potential within the energy to vault yourself into a new form of awareness. This form of awareness is one that moves you from object-based awareness to what I would call field-based awareness. It is the basis for a method I call Divine Energetics which uses the power of the brain and body to accumulate the type of energy that can lead to awakening and to greater awareness. It is actually as simple as learning how to shift from an "I" object-based form of awareness and reasoning to one that is not based in objects but fields, waves, of awareness. It is in the wave or field (the forest instead of the trees) that the awakening experience awaits you. Having said that, being ready by working through the more thorny issues of your life can be a big help to you because once awakening comes small things are greatly magnified. It is my sense, though, that sometimes the only real way to work through our small things and big things is by having them magnified by the presence of awakening or kundalini. It is what it does; it helps us to see even the most minute grain of sand in order that we can cast it aside from the great turning of the wheels within us so that it does not scratch or harm or hurt our very delicate inner workings.
Our energy can serve as a tuning fork. Just as the central sun or light or presence serves as a tuning fork for us, we too also attune others whether we know it or not. The more receptive or open we are to this attunement, the more likely it is to happen.
Long before I ever had my awakening but a few months into seeing auras, I was sitting with one of my room mates as we spoke. I was talking about something, I forget what exactly, but I noticed that I was feeling what I know now to be my own core energy. This energy is strong.....its not a flowing kind of energy....it certainly wasn't at the time. It is like I am most often; animated, intense and with a brilliant kind of flash to it. That same year I had a memory from a past life where I was a native American man who had a vision that had Thunder Beings in it. Like a bolt of lightening; that was what it was like. I had felt this emerge over the years. It was in some ways what I thought to be a very masculine kind of energy. As it turned out that the Sky was most often polarized towards the masculine in native imagery and belief while the earth was considered the feminine polarity. Certainly in the vision I was being shown an archetypal image that served to merge the sky with earth in a cleansing that I was told would happen when I was reborn as a new person. The vision from that past life was a prophecy about the life I am leading now. "You will bear a power to the earth that will be cleansing...." How could I have known that kundalini would do this? Certainly kundalini was a cleansing force, yes, and perhaps, then I was here to help in the cleansing of the earth....which is within us just as we are within it. By learning to cleanse ourselves, would be manage to cleanse the earth? It turned out that there were all kinds of prophecies about this Day of Cleansing from the Navajo, Hopi, Lakota, Ojibwe, and more. All agree that we are in the Day of Cleansing period and those who teach about it tend to do so in a way that is dynamic; we are not separate from the effects that are happening before us. The junk on the face of the earth is the junk in our own minds. CLean the mind and heart and the world can itself also begin to heal. When my vibration changes, it becomes easier for you to change. It is possible to change the world this way, you see. We just need enough people here to effect this change. From all accounts, I'd say that it is happening. But on this day, I was talking to my room mate and feeling this energy. As I spoke to him, I explained what I saw in his aura. I could feel myself feeling this vibration of energy very strong. I would later think of it as my tuning fork effect. As I spoke to him, he began to look at me funny. I asked him what was up and he explained that he saw a light all around me. To test to make sure my room mate wasn't pulling my leg I asked him to do something that I knew meant nothing to him but that would help me to gauge if he was actually seeing auras. I asked him to take off his glasses. Now to understand this, you need to realize that John wore these coke bottle glasses. The poor soul had such poor eyesight that his eyes looked like big fish eyes staring back at you through those thick panes of plastic. When John took off his glasses, he was blind. But instead of going blurry, John's face grew even more amazed. He said "the light! It is so bright!" It was then that I knew that John was indeed "seeing" auras.
Over the years I would find that when I was feeling my own inner core energy and reading energy that people had a habit of beginning, right then and there, to see auras. My intuitive sense has been that all that has ever really happened is that by feeling my own energy in the way that I do, the people who were receptive enough, were able to tune into the same frequency I was on and it opened the sense up within them as well. This phenomenon has happened about five times and I often can feel when someone else around me is about ready to activate this sense in themselves. I can sense a similar vibrational frequency.
It turns out that Reiki is a healing modality that does something similar. At least this is the read I get from it. Last week I had my first attunement and what I experienced was how practicioners could help conduct universal and soul energy through my system in a way that was beneficial for my own healing. By shifting my vibration it helped to move old energy blocks in my body that had been there for a very long time. By doing this I was better able to feel my "own" energy which is itself like being a fountain for a source of energy that is the universe. The more I do this, the closer I get, I achieve a divine alignment and it is in this divine alignment that I feel peace and joy and bliss while working on what remains for me to heal in my own energy body. That we manage to hold so hard onto these old hurts and blockages is testament to how our own individuality becomes accustomed to a less than marvelous way of being and feeling.
Its weird. It really is. And yet, we all do this. All of us. Slowly and sometimes quickly, we are moved to the center of some great wheel.....to an axial point in our awareness where so much just falls away. It is like a cosmic seduction. I feel my soul grow naked under the great vibratory force that is this divine love. I find I just don't care anymore.....and in not caring, I lose my fear over what I am afraid might lie in the center of my soul. Some dark pit or some glitch or something less than perfect, less than lovable, less than beautiful. And yet, this seductive force teased me out of my shadows, out of the old feeling of not being good enough or strong enough or bold or smart enough or handsome or any of the rest. It floods me with such incredible love that I just melt.
I am returned to a baseline vibration.....to a primordial state.....and its not harps and angels. Its fiery flowers bursting open with passion and stars exploding into new worlds in the night. It is the grinding force of gravity hending space and the passionate love that bears a moon to its planet. It is the force that brings blood to churn in the heart, the nutrients to flow from root to leaf, of a boundless frequency that pervades all and makes all as it changes from one thing to another and is all things all at once. It is a dance around the maypole, it is a passionate kiss by the fire. It is a love of great art and science and devotion to all things great and hopeful. It is the incredible reach and trembling grasp of our kind as we seek to break the bonds of one cradle to recognize the bonds of a still larger one ahead of us. All of this could be some remarkable miracle or a mundane blurp of accident and for those where it is all mere accident, there is a kind of pall of death that comes over the soul.
So what do you want? Do you want to follow rules laid out ahead of you or are you willing to realize that its all in your to know the infinite realm that spreads out before all of us? In touching this wonder of wonders, doesn't it just seem such a waste that humans would spend time making war and enriching themselves when there is more than enough for everyone here and that we could be doing such incredible things instead of merely seeking advantage. Isn't it time for the Goddess within each of us, the part that sees the larger good for all, to awaken collectively so that we might all be softened by this part of us that we shoved under the rug so long ago? Isn't it time for love to reign in heaven, the kind of love where God must close the door so he might be with his Beloved Goddess? And isn't it time that we allowed ourselves to see our Gods and Goddesses as loving and affectionate instead of angry and vengeful? Aren't the Gods and Goddesses our own projections anyway? And in so being, might we not ourselves be able to remake our world in a finer sort of vibration where we become not the lost children of an angry father-god but the children of a happy and loving family of father/mother? Because, I have to point out, that it is in this vibration that their bliss is known. Isn't the bliss of this experience equal to the touch of the higher forces reaching one into the other for completion.....and isn't this the same thing that happens to us as we ourselves awaken, which is that we merge that which is lacking in us, most often our opposites, in order to know bliss and love and joy and all the rest? Isn't this what we seek the beloved for? Isn't this really just the way to clothe and describe a great mystery where there is no father, there is no mother, but there is a wondrous reality that is entirely beyond words even though we do seek to put it all to words? Touch the universal force and you shall know the product of their love, their union, their hearts as vast forces that dream worlds into being. I know that this may all sound like utter madness to you, but in the realm of the spirit, things are not always anchored to objects the way they are in the physical and this experience is very much bringing the heaven to earth. It is. It is the Kingdom. Here. So if that sounds crazy, what can I say?
All of this may all sound grandiose to you. It is. I admit it. But so is the force that turns at the core of all things. In fact, it is just beyond all description. We, so little, like ants really, we are just feeling the far edge of its wonder. What will happen when we learn to bite fully into it and know it rich flavor and juiciness? And when, really, are you going to stop your inner struggle and just let go of that river bank and trust that the river shall take you to a still greater sea? There is a tuning fork inside of you and you need only find it. Then let yourself feel it. In feeling your energy, you can know the wonder that is the universe. People seek this for lifetimes. I ti s here now on the planet in a way it has not been in many many generations. By saying yes to it in your heart, you will say yes to a great love that is what you are and that is the universe.
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