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Sunday, December 18, 2011

Divine Alignment Going Down For a Bit

For the next weeks, D.A. will be going down.  This will be temporary and will result in more writing, more new ideas.  This will begin this following week and will continue until a few weeks beyond the New Year.  Your interest is appreciated, and I hope to have the blog back as soon as possible!  As the Winter Solstice moves ever closer, I hope that you find joy and hope as earth swings back towards the sun in her great dance that keeps us moving round and round!

The Next Big Thing

Someone once thought what a great thought it would be to connect machines that we use for processing information so they could talk to each other.  The concept of interconnectivity rustled and moved in the mind and heart of humanity.  The internet was born.  But this new idea was reflected in a still deeper sense, expressed in the world of form veiled in technology. This is the deep well of connectivity that we each have at our fingertips, a world which rests at the outer edges of what we seem to think is real or possible.  It is indeed the next big thing.  It has in truth been with us for since....well, for ever.  Built into the windings of dna this Presence has rested, for it was creator and conciever of All Things.  It is the Creator, maker of all codes, all languages, all modes for expressing. It was Creativity itself. A Great and Mystical Power.  And it has tangled us up and eluded us, and shown itself, always present in the Moment, always ready to leap forth out of our inner code into our conscious awareness.  Rising like a tide, rising like the fiery depths of the earth.  Inside of you lies that molten core, covered in watery depths, seemingly mysterious and unfathomable.  And yet, we humans are spurned forward in our innate curiosity for understanding ourselves throught he world around us.  Truly the world is but a giant mirror, showing us who and what we are.  The degree to which we turn from the nature of nature is the degree to which we deny our own nature.  We and nature are one.  Nature and Creator are One.  One looks into the other and the trick is that they are different, somehow not the same.  But it isn't.  And yet it is, all at once.  Somewhere Creator thought it would be a great idea to make a corner of its universe capable of seeing itself in this way.  We, children of its becoming, are working out the great mystery that it is.

We are each individual and separate, all at once.  One is not illusory, one is chosen, created out of a broad realm of knowing and yearning.  The echoes of this yearning live on in our dna, a Choice to be a certain way, a sacred path of becoming.  Some call it illusory, but that is only part of the story.  To know more, you must go deeper into it.  Your mind, your very brain, is a reflection of a given choice made a long time ago, and yet it also has the innate capacity to become every form on the planet if it needs to.  As you rested and grew in your mother's womb, you moved through the long hallways of all life here.  You were reptile, mammal and primate.  You grew a tail, lost it, only to build a different body as your very dna mused over the path that all higher life has taken. Somehow, this is important as it has been stamped upon your brain, embedded in the cells of your nervous system and makes up the wiring of what makes you you. But together, we take this journey through these many lives, a family of humankind, a family that knows itself as All here. As we take the step into this next big thing, which is as ancient as the stars, a new wrinkle in our being emerges.  Now, at this place in history as the population builds and the resonant frequency allows for a broader interpretation and experience of life here and what it means to have reached this place, only to go further into the next dimension of experience, we are faced with Awakenings that are happening as a result of all of this.  Will the species bring forth a new form of life?  And what does this mean for us?  Perhaps it is as simple as getting it all right internally so that the power of an awakening can be best utilized for bringing us to this place.   Some might say its the move from what we were to something else, and while that may be true, the way that it can take form is not necessarily something that will separate us from what was before, but join us again as it has always done, deeper and deeper still, down into that world that is reflected in all of nature.  Perhaps it means that we are readying to move into a new community of souls, some of whom aren't even human, but part of some still larger community of beings who are themselves waiting for us.  Our relatives who have gone before us.  our paths perhaps intertwined in more ways than we might even know but that our myths and old stories reveal as the fire crackles in the night as we tel our winter stories and dream a whole new world into being within the shimmering screens of our imagination.  The fires we sit before now still flicker but its with a blue t.v. light as a whole world of possibility seeks to bring itself to its maker.  Maker and made, looking back at each other, all a part of each other, each imbued with the gift that was loaded in the dice of destiny from the start. 

Inside of you lives the next big thing.  It is not something your mind can conceive.  It means bringing what we think of as being our more rudimentary senses or sensibilities.  Within the hands of feeling lie our ability to conceive as broadly as the oceans spread and surge before us. The path to this place is through feeling.  Your imagination carries the keys.  Never think that your imagination is anything less than real because what is real is the least understood thing here.  Our greatest sages and gurus all want to agree that this is all illusory, but for them, that was the next big thing, but the big thing keeps expanding as our ability to imagine and conceive expands within our awareness.  In truth, its endless, our awareness, we just have to learn how to feel into it and once in it, move through it with the facility that we each have.  Time to grow up, time to enter the great cosmic community.  A world interconnected.  We are dreaming it, becoming it, trying to understand it in all its shades and possibilities, with freewill at the helm always.  We rise and fall on that one simple element planted in us, not a scourge but an opportunity for learning and becoming.  Will our need to discover and move forward overcome our need to destroy the very life that sustains us?  I am hopeful.  And if not, then a lesson it will wind up being, and it wont be the first time.  But with each step, we come closer to something deep and ineffable, entirely mysterious and deliriously wonderful. 

As we move into the deepening winter, I hope deeper things still for you, for in those depths lies the story of who you are to become within the shifting sands of freewill, the very tool that allows for creativity to unfurl within.  It makes YOU a co-creative being.  We each have a voice in all of this, each of us combining and bringing into the Collective Interconnectivity of the planet. Drops becoming waves, waves becoming the tsunami that washes up on shore, washing away what was before, making room for something new.  Its big, and its in you.  Blessings!

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

The Lineage

Your being here is no mistake.  Your being composed as you are of salt water is no mistake.  Your being arranged as you are is no mistake. The masculine is composed in the physical as a mirror of the spirit, just as is the feminine.  As we create new life physically, we create new life spiritually.

You were born of a being that was both mother and father to you.  Out of this infinite self you were conceived outside of time to live in time and space.  Only through the interplay of the creative force that is moved only by the interplay of the masculine and feminine, did you come into being. Only in this way are worlds formed, and ideas nurtured.  If you are reflective and can observe calmly as you are creative you will feel the masculine and feminine move within you.  those who are highly creative do this without giving it a single thought, but if they were to do so, they would feel how the currents and tides of the feminine await the flow of the masculine through her.  And through her, his invigorating force is given voice, purpose.  Without her, his is a frustrated universe that can teeter into madness. He needs Her just as She needs Him in order to know what her great capacity for nurturing the infinite can be.  The wo are not separate, but opposite ends of the same continuum.  The attributes we assign to each we do so out of a deeper knowing.  No man is complete without his inner feminine and no woman is complete without the masculine as well.

To know your parentage, your great spiritual lineage is to embrace the paradox of being.  its a bit like looking into a hall of mirrors.  In you lies the seed of the creator.  In you lies a channel for the creator to move and flow, like a landscape that has rivers flowing through it, bringing it life and purpose in creation.  And while the mirror of the creator lives in you, you were born or a lineage, and the consciousness that gave you being was itself given the breath of individuality by a still greater being dreaming itself.  Your parents are you, and you are your parents.  You can trace your awareness back to them and through them, you can know the vastness of being of which you are a part.  The cell that lives in your left elbow is every bit as much the body as the body is itself. All parts move together, and at no point can you say there is an individual because there is a dizzying array of individuals living in you right now, and you live within a still larger body that is the cosmos.  Your family is the human family, and the seeming final border of your skin does not keep you from exploding out into the world, into this great cosmos.

You were born royal and were born into this world like an orphan.  But the orphans of this world will discover their lineage in direct proportion to how deeply they sink into their essence.  You do not need any intermediary, for your soul is boundless and knows the realm from which it was given life.  The great trouble we have is in concieving that humans are unable to touch upon their lineage, and thus are kept in a kind of slavery to ideals that never served them. For as holy as some may be, their words if distorted, do not serve us.  In this small piece of writing, this sense is expressed, even by a greatly revered man:

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The Divine Lineage

Sri Kaleshwar performing arthi to his master, Shirdi Baba
Sri Kaleshwar performing arthi to his master, Shirdi Baba
Shirdi Baba, Jesus, Ramakrishna Paramahamsa, Ramana Maharshi and Sri Kaleshwar are part of the Divine Lineage. Sri Kaleshwar says we all need the help of divine souls to find God. “How to suck cosmic energy? That’s called the God energy. We can easily suck cosmic energy. It has to be through some holy persons. We can’t handle that cosmic energy directly. Through some holy person, maybe Jesus, Shirdi Baba, any Ma, any Baba, any Swami, any holy man, any holy soul. It’s through them. First we have to be able to receive their energy—to taste. When you are ready to taste their energy, then that energy makes you to connect to the cosmic. Without tasting the love from the master, from the holy man, from any traditional strong soul man…if you can’t get love from him, if you can’t receive the energy from him, if your heart is closed to such type of people, there is no chance––you can’t suck the cosmic energy. You can’t connect to the universe. You can’t connect to the Creation of nature. We have to understand––we’re just a small peanut in the biggest, huge God Creation. In the incredible Creation, we are just a small, small nut.”

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We are in our physical small, but we are the petal on a still larger lotus, and in being part of that lotus, can find the path towards a still greater awareness of being.  And in that awareness, we know we are far more than what we seemed we were.  To do this is nothing extraordinary.  It does not require you to go to the mountain.  You merely need to feel deeply into yourself.  It only requires reflection, openness, a willingness to think anew.  If we do not, we will live as orphans and never know the great lineage from which we have sprung.  It is time for this lineage to emerge like brilliant lines of gold ringing the planet.  It is not a grandiose thing, but a silent thing that has been with us always, waiting for when we were ready to dream it.  But to dream is not to imagine only, but to create, to enter into those worlds like this world, to find the deeper truth in what it is to be gifted in this way by Creator.  Our lineage will ring throughout the world as each person wakes up to the truth of their being beyond the pain that they feel defines them.  How about the joy that defines you?  How about the divinity that defines you?  How about the great mystery that awaits you in this vast world juicy and ripe?
Awakening cannot be explained, but experienced.  Trying to explain it is like trying to understand liquid water by studying ice.  It is close, but the opposite end of a far larger experience.  Explaining what nonduality is by talking about the ocean of being or just the individual is in a sense missing the point because in the experiencing ALL states exist at once with no paradox, no contradiction.  An Awakening breaks you out of the old accustomed modes of being and moves you into a watery realm of self that has always been there waiting for you, a fundamental aspect of your creaturehood, your being.  Like love, it can be described, but all descriptions fall short for the simple fact that its in its direct experience that it is known.  In that one moment, though, your world shifts in a significant way.  Even those who are touched by it in a temporary way are changed forever.  It is not something foreign to us, but fundamental.  When you find it, it is like awakening a long lost love, or something you always knew but had perhaps for the time being forgotten.  It is the mover of worlds.  It is a game changer, a churning of your insides until your earthly self aligns with the cosmic, and in that moment, you will know that the two were never separate.  Something inside of you served to create a rift that moved you in directions far afield from your fundamental self, your larger self.  While ego was involved, this has not been some cosmic accident, but an experiment, a journey we have chosen to take here in this world.  There is far more design in the stars than we could ever dream possible.

Unlike some, I do not feel that our more icy side is a false self.  All aspects of being serve a purpose, and we chose the arrangement of self for a purpose, which has been to learn the myriad ways that consciousness can arrange itself and express itself.  This purpose has served the infinite self in its quest for experiencing a boundless realm of awareness.  All of this, every scrap of it, is a creation, and suggesting that the creation is any less real than the consciousness that formed it forgets the nature of the infinite which is itself creative energy.  In fact, you can work your way through an Awakening by learning to allow this creative energy to flow through you.  This energy is freeing, opening, and liberating.  It actually breaks away the ice of your former being so that you may begin to experience the more watery realms of your awareness.  It isn't that the ice isn't of any benefit, its that it has its place within being, but so does the infinite ocean, and when the ice clogs the self so that the watery self cannot flow, we become limited in what we can ourselves experience in the moment.  We feel cut off from some still larger source of purpose, which is the foundation of our creaturehood; the creative.  The egoic self, the individual is a part of being, its just not the whole story.  There are vast realms of awareness quite different from the ones you know now, and it is in this broader awareness or state of being that will show you in a direct way what awaits you.  The beauty that you are, the beauty that is the universe, lies nested ---curled--- waiting to unfurl, bringing great fruit to bear in your life.

Since creation is itself an act of love, creativity is itself unifying and a bringer of love. This is why those who are creative, regardless of their discipline, will love what they do.  Its because the work, be it a physicist, mechanic, librarian, teacher, lawyer, or artist, bears the mark of the creative.  Otherwise, the work become work, instead of ones passion, and everything becomes ordinary, perhaps even perfunctory.  Observe anyone who is great at what they do and you will find creative energy, innovative thinking, a willingness to break out of old modes and molds. In truth, our creativity is our connection to our divinity.  Ringing within us are the faint echoes of the first impulse of creation, the very essence and secret of how worlds were formed out of a seeming "nothing" that was itself full of everything. This is why the experience of Awakening is full of passion and power, of beauty, and grace.  Its is beautiful and terrifying as the old you, so crammed with ice, finds itself on unsteady ground while the volcanic passion of this experience seethes up all around you, threatening to swallow you whole, threatening to destroy everything your egoic self has worked hard to install, protect, and propagate.  It only seems a threat at first because of how conditioned you have become to feeling like your individual self was all there was.  The ego is threatened and swings into action, creating body pain, trying to keep together the old alignment based more on a limited understanding than on anything enduringly infinite or larger than itself. Because it is a young self, it cannot be expected to move with the same depth as the soul, the infinite self.  It tries, and slowly slowly, it learns, but knowing already exists within you and it lies deep within your breast, deep within the yearning that is but the tail of a much larger tiger.  Hot blooded and alive, it moves with the certainty that its divine being has conferred.  The only threat that it brings is the threat of change.  Uncertain, there may be fear at first until you are utterly seduced and brought into a new way of being, and of feeling.  Out of the intellect and into feeling, you learn that the one language in the universe is Feeling.  It is through this that we commune with the entirety of All That Is.  Here, secrets unlock and we resolve into beings who are unmoved by those secrets.  It isn't that a secret isn't juicy and wonderful sometimes, its that using the secret it simply no longer necessary, for the secret is that it is Us.  Whatever it is, we are One with it, for this Watery realm of our being means to heal the separation that our individuality has served to create through its having been created. 

Beyond who you are, and what you think is possible, is something still more. In our conventional thinking there exists all manner of distortions and presumptions that do not serve our larger unfolding.  Knowledge is not the key to unlocking the universe.  It is love and the creative, and all of this is spoken in the language of the Creator which is FEELING.  This is the bright sun that shall melt away your ice and bring you to a new alignment to your being.   The secret to all of this is learning to feel deeply.  And in those depths of water fire and even ice, we discover through wonder what it is to be a human reaching for the stars.

Sunday, November 20, 2011

The Loveself

Kundalini is about mastery over your subconscious. This mastery, though, is less the lion-tamer and more the loving gentle lamb.It is also about love, and this love is experienced in a myriad of ways.  What we experience, though, in Awakening, is how our very consciousness begins a tantric dance with the universe, one which reveals just how infused the universe is with passion.  The degree to which we have separated ourselves from this fundamental level of experience is the degree to which we have removed ourselves from our Essential Selves.  An Awakening will begin to reacquaint you with this ocean of bliss until you learn to remove all the layers until you stand completely free, naked, with your Essential Self with is this very passionate being that is love.  This is your Loveself and it is what you have always been underneath. No need to be embarrassed, or feel shame. In fact, shame and fear and all of those feelings have been the problem.  Now its time to heal and remove those layers.  You have always been there, shining through all of that stuff. 

For lifetimes, your soul has been sending parts of itself into physical reality.  Over and over, these different selves have made a range of choices, and often these have been similar choices, choices that have caused some behaviors to become ingrained.   Each time, that which remained unresolved, would get played over and over because the earthly self would, by virtue of  its own freewill, choose something based on something that was foreign to your essential self, to that part that you might call your larger destiny.  It chose to be with someone who would not love them perfectly, who would hurt them, or who would not feel the right way.    Whatever the particular flavor of the karmic entanglement, these kinks in the self can became deep ruts and would be recorded in your being as a karmic entanglement, less because the world was hard or hurtful but more because something in you was not finding its alignment with your divine being.  So over and over, this misalignment would play itself out until whatever it was that had been the cause of the problem got resolved.  Over and over this played out, lifetime after lifetime these issues would come up with the opportunity to work through them, less as a test, and more because of how the universe is ordered, which is not that its punishing or judgemental, but because you and the universe are realy one, and being one, this universe aligned with your expectations of it.  You simply attracted what you were.  This is hard for most people to take, to accept because, after all, none of us would have ever sought or chosen for bad things to happen to us, right?  Still, though, the truth remained all along that the traumas that you experienced, the trials and tribulations all resolved around that which you were unresolved about, that served to hurt you because they simply were never anything that was in your highest.  This is the missalignment, this is the source of all trouble, problems, and suffering.  Its less about expectation as buddha said, that cuases the suffering, its that the expectation that our earthly selves sometimes choose over and over that cause the problem.  This is the seed of our growing up, of our maturation and coming to the one undel=niable truth of our being.  If you want the world to change, it is you who much change.  The old argument must cease, and the way of your feeling must change so that the old argument simply is no longer important.  No one knows this better than I. I struggle with this all the time, and is the eseence of all that I am dealing with in my awakening.  It is also what everyone struggles with.  Eventually, like small children, we learn to set aside those things that we thought were important in favor of something still deeper.  If you want to call this the illusion that some speak of as being part of life, Maya, then so be it.

I will say as an aside that I do not feel that this makes our lives here merely illusory.  This notion must change if we are to be able to take in the fullness of this experience here.  This world is not illusory, but real.  This world is a CREATION, and it is this one element in our greater being that is the one great truth; we are CREATORS.  We are seeded with this impulse, and it is what has made worlds to form.  These worlds are the means by which we work through the very thorny issues of our becoming.  This is very important, very critical to our becoming.  If we then don masks in this play, as Shakespeare suggested, and the world is a stage for this greater inner drama to unfold, then it makes this place an important one for us and all of life.  It is a way for us to come to know ourselves, to evolve, to develop.  Its only by healing the rift that we have felt all along about our place here that we will learn to come to a better place within ourselves and with the universe both expressed (or created) and residing in potential.  When we can see how everything is delicately wedded to everything else, will we see or feel how we are not separate at all.  Certainly an awakening is all about showing us how everything is connected instead of separate.   By understanding how we create our world moment by moment based on how we feel, believe, and what still remains as that hitch inside that keeps us from a developing sense of unity with ourselves, our higher being, and the universe, can we begin to resolve the separation.

If you look back at Western culture through the lens of Christianity, you will see a story of a Fall that happened in the very beginning.  This is where we can trace in a mythic way, the source of our misgivings and thus separation with creation.  If you understand that there is no God that is angry, ready to punish you for being who you are or for not obeying the commands of this God, then you can begin to understand that this Fall was one which we ourselves created.  Somewhere, a sense of falling short entered into us, perhaps somewhere where we felt our individuality and our egos perhaps too much, more than what I call our own Waveform Awareness, which is that part of our experience where we transcend beyond the particle of the self and move into unity with all other particles (be they atomic or cosmic) and into the vast being that makes up the Collective Awareness and touches upon our infinite being, upon the universe of which we are all a part.  Somewhere, though, we fell out of that Wave and into the Particle.  When we did that, we forgot who we were in completeness.  Then the grief, the sadness, the suffering began.  We felt shame and we felt naked.  Instead of being connected with the vast intelligence teeming all around us, nature became something to be conquered.  Nature also became something that we no longer trusted.  We did not speak to the animals, they did not hear us and they feared us.  We also had reason to fear them.  We lost something very important.  We saw their animal nature as something not to be trusted and this meant that  our own animal natures could not be trusted.  Our natural impulses were seen as dirty and shameful instead of arising out of that vast Wave of Creative energy that is the essence of Awakening and our greater being.  This all happened and we made a myth of it as a way to explain to ourselves why we felt the way we did.  We also served to ingrain an old wrinkle in our psyches with a story that would be handed down from one generation to the next only reinforcing those greatest of fears.  And here, the separation was never made more brilliant and certain; man and woman were pitted against one another in a distrustful way in the same way that they had chosen to distrust their own divine natures.  Men were made to toil and women would bear the weight of what this distrust encompassed.  Whew!  What a way to get started!  So little wonder that we have the trouble that we do.  Time, then, to work through this so that all the old stuff can be made peace with and the separation healed within us.  

When an Awakening stirs in you, all of these old issues get brought to the surface.   It will be through such an experience that you may begin to glimpse just how attached you became with the hurt in your pasts that mirrors your own present experiences.  The universe mirrors you also, so events will happen based on who and what you are.  If you have issues related to abundance (see the root chakra), nurture, mothering, and taking care of one's self, there are often issues lodged in the vibrational frequency range of the root, for example. It can be in other places through your energetic self, certainly, but will often tend to cluster around a specific area in you because of the particular vibratory frequency associated with the specific problem you have.  Every issue will have a certain frequency, and will tend to reside in a given part of your energy body.  An awakening bring awareness of this, and will point you to certain areas where there is pain...not so much in the physical body (although it can manifest as physical pain and sometimes even physical problems) as it is in your consciousness. This is where we can get very quickly into diagrams and systems, but the thing to remember is that this is just about a return to love.  When you find yourself having trouble, getting tangled up in the harder aspects of awakening, all you really have to do is breathe deep and ask yourself what this is all about.  Its about LOVE.  That's it.  You don't need to know any more.  If you make it too complicated, it can squeeze out the love.  Can you love?  Good. Want to talk about how consciousness is ordered and how healing plays into it?  Ok.  But its better to just feel the love. This alone will heal and smooth those hard surfaces.  There are a lot of hard people who have awakened, and they think they have softened, but this is all a matter of relativity and awareness.  You can soften more.  Your soul is crying out for a still deeper experience, and you need to give yourself to it in surrender if you are to know true happiness with your soul. This is because your soul IS love.   The soul is simply love, and the closer we get to it, the more powerful this feeling is.

The feeling of being free from your old hurts is because of how close we have moved to your soul. Some will want to think they are experiencing God, but in truth, you are experiencing your soul as it is connected to everything else.  Its pretty amazing, really.  And if it can feel like this, imagine what the universe might well be deeper down. This comes about in a permanent way when you learn to release those old unresolved feelings, those kinks in your self that keep you from feeling your higher self, your Essential Self.  This is about learning to align to your divine self.  Divine Alignment. 

There is a lot to learn.....and its simpler than a system.  By learning how to feel differently, you find the sacred path to your soul.  You also set up a vibration that the universe will form itself around you with, mirroring you perfectly.  Because your soul exists outside of time, it feel infinite to you.  Call it God or Goddess, whatever you want....the Cosmic Muffin...it all works....because this loveself does not need to prove anything but simply be, your way of being with this is in a quiet and uncomplicated way.  In a sense, all it is asking of you is to jump into the water.  Overcome your fear.  Overcome your inward brittleness and stiffness.  Flow with this water, flow like the ocean of being. This is because you ARE this ocean.  There is nothing else you need to know.  Oh, and just be happy. The war is over.  All of that attachment to hurt and trauma, it can be over in an instant.  Moment by moment, you learn to change the future, and you also change your association with a past that is now being changed as surely as your present is being changed.  Think how incredibly powerful this act can be.

As you do this, you make it easier for others, whether you are aware of it or not.  It is certainly what happens in the midst of the quantum field of effects.  As each person makes their own discovery, they add to the vast ocean of awareness that each awakened person is swimming in right NOW.  You shift the world with each act, and you can also make it easier for others to awaken in a way they might not have done so otherwise.  It might be one grain of sand, but we are billions in size and we are motivated via the web of the All.  This might sound a bit silly to you, but understand that nothing has ever been more true, and in so being, you must know that you can bid the tsunami to come and move your world if you need for it to. It will change and take any form you need it to, for the universe aligns with your expectations, especially those expectations which are subconscious, unresolved, pushed deep down inside of you out of shame or fear or any number of things that your karma has served to create in the choices you have made through how you have felt (conscious or not).  This is one reason why becoming aware of all your inner junk or your old baggage is important; you can live a much more rewarding life when you are more in control of what it is you believe and feel.  Since the universe forms itself around these feelings, then how you feel has never been so important.  An awakening helps to dredge the depths, and as we do, we have lots of very fertile compost with which to build a more verdant life built on what we need deep down than just the surface and what has remained troublesome and misunderstood.  The universe is conforming to your expectations of it micro second by microsecond....

You see, even if you never help another, your own experience will itself be available in an entirely perfect way to others. If you chose as I have often felt impelled to do, to slip quietly into the ocean and drift from shore, from this world and into other realms of brilliant potentiality, it would not be a loss what you would otherwise perhaps give had you stayed.  Through the potential of the Wave, that part of the experience of awakening that leads you to that different way of being where you feel yourself flowing into everything, where you feel the connection of your energy with that of the leaf, the flower, the atoms of air, and all things present and implied, obvious and subtle.  It is this part that you are able to tap the limitlesness within you.  It is here that you learn to feel differently.  And just as I was told by someone who showed up in my awareness at a certain stage of my awakening, this person said, "there is nothing more for you to do except to step into the blueprint that has been brought to bear in this time. The efforts of countless pilgrims, sages, priests and priestesses, all have unknowingly and in their own small ways, helped to contribute to what you now have before you.  There is nothing to be done except to step into this blueprint that was fashioned by Collective Consciousness, through Collective Effort."  It seemed rediculously simple at the time, but this is just how we find change in awakening; we simply choose to be different.  Its not hard work once we get there, its just a sideward move, a step to the side and the world changes. Ego thinks it has to be all this work.  Beneath it all resides what has been, waiting to be brought into greater awareness by divesting of that which held up our attention and energy.  By focusing energy in areas that are healthier for us individually, we can feel the divine flow within us more clearly and more powerfully. Instead of seeing it all through karmic lenses, we see through a nice clean and clear window....which is our birthright.  Its what we are destined to do.  Without time tables or expiration dates, the infinite expands outward.  We expand with it if we are just brave enough to let go, opening ourselves up to swift hands of divinity that can do great work for us.

By opening up to the possibilities that this world offers, we can rediscover the self that we are.  Its what we have always been.  We are learning to grow up.  But unlike C.S. Lewis, who was biased by his own lack of healing and a belief that suffering is God's way of helping us to grow, we can learn to see it differently:  suffering is what we have brought on ourselves.  Since we have freewill, and since this freewill is so important to the deity, that being wont interfere with what we choose. We learn to reap what we sow, and by learning to sow differently, we come closer to that deity, to our own relationship with it.  The truth is, the universe is love, but its not a love that is on any kind of crusade for or against us.  All of this, we have created.  It is now time to return to the garden.  It is within you and me.  It is in all of us and it is within our ability to find it if we can but remove some of the old brush that has grown up around what will resolve into perfect beauty for us, in us, through us. This is where we heal and find union with our divinity.  How wonderful is that?

Monday, November 14, 2011

I Don't Care....?

I do not care for what the experts have to say.  They are worn and weathered by ego and hurt.  They spin systems and methods.  Advaita, nonduality.....oh my goodness.  They are touching upon the nerve, but never seem to plumb the world behind the nerve.  Always touching it, happy that they are (me too...at least it is that) but it saddens me when someone writes a book about how to find a guru in an awakening, how to spot someone who has not quite "climbed the mountain."  Even those who have been soul connected, those who have swum in the deeper waters of the Collective Consciousness, know that just by feeling another who we mirror, we can catalyze change and healing, and there is nothing done but simply connecting through the Wave of the All, something that isn't talked about very much, but is I think what a guru will do (think darshan--often called "blessing" a word I learned about recently which I understand to be riding the waveform through connection and other aspects of energetic transfer) You see, when you awaken, and even before, you find things based on what you mirror.  It becomes so crystal clear, so obvious....its an elephant in the room....and its inescapable.  If you have some victim issue, your guru will mirror that and you will come into some kind of tussle or tangle with that...and either you will learn from it or you will deepen the waters of your victimhood.  The world will have proven that its out to get you while you slumber, not realizing that its YOU who are creating this.  You have ultimate responsibility.  Perhaps, in a way, this is the silly illusion they talk about.  Its silly because the illusion is real.  I mean, think about it; what is this energy made up of?  Its CREATIVE.  Even the sexual energy felt in an awakening, its just the bliss of creation flowing through us.  And we are here to create our lives....to create and learn from those creations.  Karma has been our ultimate creation in the past.  We are learning, though, the responsibility inherent in creating.  This is being done via free will.   We are free to create heavens or nightmares.  We can choose peace, or strife. Our lives are a reflection of this.  There is no destiny in this, its all subject to an infinity of choices.  Create.....watch that creation unfold. The creation is the product of the sum total of your vibration in that moment......your beliefs, your fears, your hopes....all of it.  And through this, we learn.....sadly, though, the level of discourse on this transformative topic has not risen to a level where I feel good about what's going on.  We can do more, we can do better, and a little discussion and sharing of perspective will help add to this stone soup until what we have is something greater than the sum total of its parts.

I prefer simple because the energy is simple.  It can get incredibly complex, but by understanding that you  rest astride a larger consciousness, you can sit back and watch this higher self do incredible work in your life. Like a savant, people do not see you for what you really are.....because they do not realize their own capacities.  Unawakened, they fear for people getting the "wrong" guru or teacher, or they want to point to what is and is not enlightenment, and having ridden the cosmic wave I can say that even the word enlightenment is a troubling thing to even say.  How do you mark the arrival or destination for something that is never ending.....Its like saying you graduated from college....its arbitrary in all truth because now all you have is a little piece of truth and an infinity of learning yet to do.  Its another phase, which is both an ending and a beginning.  You graduate from school and realize you have only just begun to understand.

I prefer the simple things.  This is the kingdom. It was a mustard seed.  Most do not realize what he was talking about, but it all sounded nice, even if it was a mystery to most  He knew what this was about, and it was largely swept under the rug along with the divine feminine.  It is in the book.  But the best way is to be simple, like children.  You know you are in trouble when people start saying what this is and is not....kinda silly when awakening is LIFE.  Who is to say what it is and is not?  Something DOES happen, though, and its profound and powerful; it changes you forever. Fire burns and courses in your veins 24/7 and you ride atop a wave of collective consciousness and this is not easy when you are not refined.  It hurts, its painful, dreadfully so sometimes, until the ego learns to step back some so the feeling self can grab the reins.  Forget intellect and mind.  They cannot nor will EVER grasp this.  All they can do is identify, classify, and make a complicated mess of something that is more like poetry than anything else. So when Ken Wilbur says "a schmuck before awakening, a schmuck after awakening" I cringe.  First, schmuck is what gets tossed after a circumcision, a Yiddish term that has entered our language in a pretty crass sort of way.  And the problem here is that what Wilbur has missed is the extraordinary promise an awakening can have for each and every one of us, the potential for transformation. Not just this, but people are transformed from what they were ( a Wilber "schmuck") to something greater and beautiful; what they were deep down, what they have always been perhaps.  I am not criticizing Wilbur as much as I am trying to bring a new kind of discourse into this; we know very little based on what is being said and written in our current time it seems, and when these folks open their mouths it just brings the bright light of focus.....and I wonder.....what is gained by me putting another light on this of my own?

It makes me want to pull away from it all, to simply let it all go....why do I need to write a book?  Why do I need to help anyone?  Why?  I know why, or I knew why, and this why feels like a boat that once carried a full crew full of concerned souls, and now is just a floating vessel emptied of everything as I abandoned it for slipping into the ocean alone and naked.  It could not be simpler.  I pray to this ocean to take me....and my trust resolves into a deeper and deeper appreciation for its great and wonderous mystery and beauty.

We are this ocean.  This ocean is us.  Everything is connected.  Not just simple platitudes, but deep certain reality.  Everything sings with this marvelous voice, even the pained ones who cry out in their own self imposed dark cells of pity and victimization.  Each so hungry for love, so desirious for it, yet so punishing and hard.  And I ask why I even need to say anything about what IS and is not enlightenment.  Lets forget that and remember what it is to love.  For this, dear reader, is the one thing we need so badly that its enough that you run from the moment in order to discover its presence inside of you, a dark pulsation so utterly remarkable....so simple....

Maybe it was never meant to be talked about, but experienced.  Maybe we have everything we need.  Maybe we CAN bring awareness to others through the power of the Waveform Awareness, which is Collective Consciousness.  This is how we connect to that endless ocean.  We, a particle like a photon, discovers how it is entangled with the All and can feel the All inside of its seemingly finite body...knowing itself to be infinite and able to feel everyone around it....and feel the pulse of all life rising up within it....and so through others sometimes we learn something that eluded us, and so we can learn directly...and maybe if we are to learn from the other perhaps it is through this direct cognition that is the Waveform Awareness, the infinite, the universe inside of us. Perhaps this is how we need to learn, silently and with a prayerful purpose.  The man who spoke of the kingdom also said in a gospel that was hidden and then buried in NAg Hammadi Egypt that he bore a fire and was himself fanning its flames until the whole world would catch its fire.  This fire is the fire of awakening, of kundalini.  Sadly, we have lost a lot of what was taught from the man, because what the scrolls have given us and what some insightful scholars have been able to tease out from his Aramaic (not Greek as the documents accepted were written in) that there was probably a good deal of mistranslation. Maybe they weren't ready then and maybe they aren't ready now?   But maybe we do not need the teaching since people are waking up without benefit of ANY meditation or diet or nadi cleansing or any of that.  Perhaps only because the wave of the collective is growing, building in potential, like the flame Jesus was talking about.....

Its a fire, its an ocean, its a mystery.

So with the innocence of children, the freshness of their hearts and minds, let us forgive and let go what has come before.  Let us in this moment just let it all go within us.  None of it matters.  There is an infinity waiting.  Its more than we could ever dare dream.  Here, we can play and watch as we create and realize what the ramifications are of those creations.....

Goodnight, and heal well, Wilbur.

Monday, September 26, 2011

REviSioninG KundAlini

I very much want people to understand that everything written about kundalini or awakenings is based on a feeling, but is describing something that can't be felt seen or touched.  Its not conventional when first experienced.  Its a horse of an entirely different color, and yet, it becomes the entirety of being as this energy begins to swell and grow within, a tidal wave that sweeps away the debris of a lost life, now a growing memory in the face of the fires of the soul.

But the idea that kundalini is a serpent wound three times around the base of the spine is a nice way to envision it, but its not correct.  The deeper truth is that within the resonant energy that is the soul self, you are interconnected with a vast field of energy.  This energy is like the background radiation of the cosmos, or the waters of the earth; they are everywhere and connect through vast networks.  This energy builds much like a wave might build and within this wave is an entire octave of harmonics.  As in all energy, there are harmonics, like octaves on a musical scale, and these are all a part of a standing wave of energy.  It does not go UP the spine.  It potentiates.  Within the base energy lies all the other energies in potential.  As this energy builds and as you clear the debris within your field which is  years of muck left untended, the ability for this subtle life force energy to further build within itself those other frequencies is realized as we simply surrender and open ourselves to what we learn is the divine flow (it winds up being so different from what the books would have us believe!....another good reason to consider rethinking some of this!).

So the idea that kundalini rises only tells half the story.  I know; I have experienced it in about every possible aspect one might imagine, and kundalini does not operate in a linear fashion as a rule, but it can.  Kundalini moves through each center and works with that energy center until the debris is worked through, but centers can open in a totally nonlinear fashion as was the case with me. The things is, on balance, one frequency of energy will tend to push the frequency next to it, but if there is resistance to the orderly rise, then it will seem to jump around.  There is no right way, no more orderly way, or more divine way.  Kundalini, being intelligent, knows what it is doing, and deep within you, its knowing is your knowing.

Interlaced through all of this is the masculine and feminine energy, yes.  These two poles serve as archetypal forms that loom large in the psyche and mass awareness of the race;  they are mother and father, they are husband and wife, and they also happen to make up an important part of who we are both physically and nonphysically. Having these parts at work are a critical part of our unfolding process because the energy itself seems to oscilates between these two poles.  This makes the dynamic flow that is this energy.  Each of us, composed of differing percentages of masculine and feminine energy will align in our own way to this universal flow of energy which is itself beyond duality yet seems to be this as a result of the way our world is ordered.  All of this is discovering your potential, and everything that happens will serve this in some degree. As this happens, your Essential Self moves to the fore, into your more conscious self in a way that may reveal a great deal of who you are but had been submerged.  In some cases, long lost parts of yourself are enlivened only to recognize and discard as no longer needed.  This amazing sorting process that kundalini presses upon us helps us to redefine who we are in terms of the cosmic and divine.  Within this is the "rise" of kundalini, but the "rise" is merely discovering your fuller potential.  In many ways we are much more like onions than centers of energy that are linked one after the other.  Each of these energy systems, by the way, called chakras, themselves operate as funnels for bringing in nonphysical energy and while connected as if in a chain are in truth more like funnels that move from front to back of the body and repsond to a given frequency range of energy. We then have certain "centers" that just happen to correspond to these energies and that also have a tie into our psychology or spiritual physiology, but its more as a result of what each energy range is capable of containing or carrying much in the same way that a radio frequency carries information.  When you need more or different information of a different wavelength, you have to tune into finer vibrations, and these naturally will lead you into different parts of the enrrgy body, into these funnels we call chakras.  But they are indeed funnels because they draw in and push out energy in the same way that a black and white hole operates.  In truth, chakras look just like a black hole that sucks in energy and pushes energy out.  Each funnel is resonantly tied and overlaps with the chakras physically near it so that these energies all operate as a whole.  Within you there are all manner of tides of energy, and not a single serpent to be found.  Thinking of it as a serpent has its purpose, but we are also entering a new world where our sensing will be more refined than ever before as an increasing number of people come to this experience.  If thinking of it as a snake helps you, great.  I think in the final analysis you will find the movement of kundalini to be much more nuanced than a mere snake as well as something that isn't linear but does act upon a body system in a way where certain centers will feel a flow one to the other sometimes.

An awakening is a powerful and mind blowing experience.  It can also be one of the most challenging experiences of your life, too.  Being able to come to this experience with a nondogmatic understanding of its potential I think is a good first step in realizing that some of what we have in our past is limiting.  We do not want to limit our envisioning of what it is we can become.  In the face of an awakening, it sure feels limitless!
 

Saturday, September 24, 2011

What We Are

I have been making a few changes to the pages, trying not to have things too cluttered.  As I look through the stats for the site I see some interesting things.  Not to worry; Blogger provides some information about where people come here from, like a referring site, and their country of origin, but its pretty basic information. 

What strikes me about the people reading the blog is that they come from such a broad range of countries.  I will see someone from the United Arab Emirates, just one or two, every now and again, but consistently coming on and reading.  U.S., Canada, U.K., Russia, Ireland, Italy, and South America continue to be the heaviest traffic, but the stats show a consistent broad-based readership.  It is for this reason that I have been upset about their not being a good translator application available for blogger so you can view this site in a range of languages that may be more comfortable, easier, and enjoyable for you to have at your fingertips.  If the translators become available again (they used to be but that widget has become corrupted and no good alternative is currently available) then I will use them for the blog.

It is my hope that the interest and experience with this thing called nonduality or awakening will continue, that its presence will spread not just in an academic way but in a real life way, helping to deepen the mystery of your life and the lives of countless people here now.  The experience is simply the feeling of FEELING how you have suddenly become connected to a larger sense of being....to the world, to the universe....it might seem very over the top, but its very simple, this.  Within each of us is the capacity for this experience and once you do, it wont seem strange or unusual, but like a long lost friend who has returned to you.  Or who has returned you to a part of yourself that was perhaps getting covered over in the worldly stuff.

I am including a list of all the countries, or most of them, that I have noted over the last year since I started taking notice. 

US
Canada
UK
Scotland
Philippines
India
Germany
Japan
Singapore
United Arab Emirates
Australia
Mauritius
Mexico
Argentina
Jakarta
Brazil
Belgium
Ireland
South Africa
Argentina
Peruguay
Russia
Denmark
France
Italy
Spain
Sweden
Poland
Greece
China
Syria
Kuwait
Singapore
New Zealand
Iran
Croatia
Serbia
Latvia
Serbia
Zimbabwe




Thursday, September 15, 2011

The Cosmic Kaleidescope



I say a lot that I feel strongly about.  Some of it is simple, sometimes complicated.  There is in truth little I know with certainty except this one thing.  Out of it worlds form. Something like the simplicity of an atom, an entire universe rests upon it....that is the kind of poetry I can wrap myself around. 

But I will readily admit some things have me stumped.  Some things don't make sense to me.  And maybe its a flaw in my being able to tap into this thing...

If we come from a perfect place, a boundless sea of perfection, then why do our soul fragments, those parts of our oversoul which projects itself into this and other realities wind up with selves that are themselves less than perfect?

Is it in the manufacture? Is there a glitch along the way, or is it more nuanced?  Could it be that in the translation something happens that does not or will not allow perfection to move through the barriers between one world and the next?  Is it the effect that duality itself has upon us, a way of multiplying the smallest into something ridiculously big?  Is it the result of the Cosmic Kaleidoscope?  Is it the result of a scattering of a few disparate things, like facets on a still larger ball of being that simply results in a loss in translating our deep soulfulness or perfection?  Or do all souls travel this path in duality and......and is there really no answer?  Do we make souls little and then watch them and help them grow in the nursery of these worlds and since they have freewill they can decide crazy paths, ones our soul might not choose simply because it already knows the outcome or simply doesn't focus on all those mistakes it made outside of time?

Or is it perhaps that in a perfect state its less that things are perfect as we do not mind the imperfection and thus are at peace and it is this peace that we sense or are aware of?  Do we simply tune it out, not mind it?

Or perhaps is this a factor, a result of what our world does....by limiting our dimensionality, it also exaggerates something in the process?

Maybe its possible  that this other realm isn't perfect, never was perfect, and we seek some means for ascending that fabled stairway of the spiritual through means such as these and others, all like petals turning on a great and boundless flower garden full of lotus, petunia, honeysuckle, poppy, lily, sunflower, begonia, and fern.  Maybe we assume all if perfect elsewhere....

Certainly the Gnostics, an early Christian sect, felt that this world was the result of some  flaw that had turned within creation, something that came about as a result of an imperfect union at a much higher level.  The Hindus and others have expressed this sense that this world was less than perfect, and it has always been my sense that less than perfect here, we are less than perfect, perhaps sense this deeply yet do not quite enunciate the knowing quite right, injecting our own inner loathing into the mix, a projection less than a reality in the heart of the matter?  I feel like its not completely black and white, though.....

What do you think?

Friday, September 9, 2011

Trusting The Multiverse

Trust your experience
your feelings
to tell you what needs to be known
for this very moment.
For all that remains
clouding your vision
it is there to be realized by none other than you.
As your own inner compass tells you that something might not be
quite right
something knowing
in you
begins to turn
and the Truth
which is none other than you
whispers the Way.

The world  may tell you a million different things
or the most trusted authority might say
some ridiculous thing
that you took as utter truth
that has you turning on your heel
wondering how on earth you EVER
believed such a thing.

Love is the way.
Simple as that.
Anything else falls short.
This love has three petals;
mother, father, child.
Nothing else need be known.
Our religions seek to ferret out this truth
all to greater and lesser degrees
but what lay at the heart of religion
lies in our hearts vibrant and alive
in this singular moment.
By tapping the power of the moment
we tap infinity.
This is how things are in our world
where time flows in one direction
and so thus our point of power is in the moment
and in no other stream
for now.

As we begin to change the matrix surrounding the earth
as we are handed the keys to ever greater making
we will begin to change how things used to go
and write a new Way.

There will be those who will cleave to the old and say
things were this way forever,
the authorities were correct
we must follow tradition
and the old teachings....

For a time, they were right
but I am here to say things are beginning to change.
Something is looming
and it has to do with creation.
We are cocreators
children of a still greater Being
that brought All to Be
through a simple act of intention
which was itself an act
a pulse
of divine love.
we are thus forever formed and informed by this
through all time and all place.

Rest in this moment
listening to your heart.
If something pulls you
it pulls you for a reason
and there is something to be learned there.

When the moment begins to resolve kaleidoscopic
in the moment
it may be the time
of many times
coming upon us.
This is where you will have to listen
to what you feel is true.
Its simple
and brilliant
and confused by your mind
which is why they all say to quiet the mind.
Open the heart
open yourself
to the universe
and to that which is you.

The part of you that is looking
is the same part that is in the universe
looking
you are being looked for
and you are looking.
When you reach that moment
when you touch upon the universe
as you
looking out
looking in
something powerful will resolve
as you know the journey just reached a final stage
all of that searching
living
life after life
has now reached an 'end'
which is a beginning

Trust what you feel
your experience
and quiet the mind...

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

The Way of Things

I read through sites that explain how to attain enlightenment with a posture, a breathing technique, with a way of holding the hands, a diet to follow.  These are all tangible things that we can wrap our heads around, something that feels stable and useful.  Its like a recipe.  If you follow it, you are likely to get a good result with some practice.  The makings of the cosmic muffin might be mysterious, but at least you have a recipe.

But what if I were to tell you that kundalini can be awakened with just a word, with just a breath of intent, with destiny flowing in fullness....that all of this has within it a miracle waiting to be known....and until this great secret is revealed, we cleave to what we think works best, which are words and chants and prayers.  All good enough, and sometimes will work.  But they don't work just by saying them.  Within is the power of intention.  Within is a new way of feeling.  Breaking through to that place is what its all about.  Moving enough material within to spark the shift, to begin the movement of the fire within you....

There is an idea that certain words like Sat Naum will help you to raise kundalini energy.  Or certain mantras.  The idea here is that they have a certain vibration in sound that helps with raising a certain energy within.  The other part is that countless adherents over the centuries have chanted this word and when you chant it, you are accessing a wellspring of that collective awareness and intent that has been pushed into service with that one act, the mantra or chant.  All of this makes some sense, and can be useful in a certain way.  But I am going to suggest something far more powerful, more direct, and more true about all of this.  It is what Awakening has brought to awareness and knowing, it is what this experience of the cosmic that visits one, changes and informs. The presence of awakening IS knowing, for the Awakening is an energy, a universal life force energy that is conscious.  When it inhabits you, it brings gnosis. It is simple, like looking out across a field of grass and knowing something in that instant that had escaped you for years, but whose answer seems now to be so simple, so obvious now.

Intent is key. The way to Awakening is not through a practice but an intent.  If a practice helps you to focus intent, good, otherwise, it is a corpse and you may not realize that you are doing things that do not serve awakening.  I will say the unpopular thing and explain that chants and diets will not work.  Releasing yourself of those entangling issues enough for your body to register cosmic energy will.  So if you imagine the energy moving upwards, fine, but it wont move upwards unless you have cleared the way for it. No amount of chanting or mudras or postures will do it, even if it is a centuries' old and respected method.  I am not a traditionalist.  I do what works instead of getting stuck on the romance of what a way or affectation will bring.  Perhaps I am a fire brand. I don't think so.  The same thing happens in the church where people go to church thinking going there will somehow confer purity and divinity upon them.  The act will not do it. The intent will, or can.  The bread and wine do not become the body of Christ unless it becomes that in your own intent.

Awakening is about being different.  Its not about chants or postures or ways of life. When you are ready to peer into the center of things, when you are ready to look at your life in a way you have never done before, to do the heavy lifting and work required to release the material clinging to you that will free you to ever greater realms of awareness, you may be left wondering just what this is all about.

It is about being.  You do not need a method, or guru.  You can listen quietly to it and it will tell you if you will but listen.  And then, when you hear it, be ready to love in a way you may have never loved before.

This may not be popular or believed, but it is true.  It is simple, and it is beautiful.  It is also you, and it is mysterious and amazing.  It will fill you with purpose while emptying your life of it all at the same time.  Your old life may dissolve like an alka-seltzer while something else almost beyond your control takes its place. You might want to end it all, or you might wish you could sleep for a hundred years.  You might want to shine like the brilliant diamond  you are or throw your hands up, trying so hard to align the world you thought you knew with the new world that faces you. Its not an easy path, this, but its real.  You might need a practice just to stay sane, but it could be as simple as knitting or listening to a certain kind of music with your eyes closed. There isn't a special magical or properly proportioned recipe or method that will make you feel a certain way.....you will feel a certain way by FEELING a certain way.  Do you get what I mean?  How could this be so simple as being a FEELING, and yet, its ALL about the FEELING.  Its not about methods or intellectualizing or egoistical postures or ideas or any of that......so going into its flow could be as simple as calming down at the end of day while in bed (I used to do this a lot and it worked GREAT!).  Or it could be done in full lotus in the middle of day in your office while striking a water bowl and holding your tongue on the roof of your mouth and your eyes on a certain spot, in just a certain way.  But just because a Buddha did it this way does not mean you have to.  Things change, and this is not some complex equation, but a surrender into something deep.  However you get there, you are there through something genuine, not faked, not affected or like dressing up on Sunday thinking this will make you something just by doing it when it all springs within.  A robe or a turban wont confer anything on you that you do not already have.  Its your human-ness that you have to plumb deeply into in order to get to this special place.  Its your human-ness that will spark the awakening.  And then you will be a goner. In the best of ways. 

And when you do come to this, you will come to all of us, and some part of each of us will welcome you on that day. Its within your grasp. 

Monday, August 22, 2011

All potentialities exist alongside each other. You have the power to view a new world and you through a new you residing alongside you...an infinity of them.

Sunday, August 21, 2011

We only need a few David's to overcome a Goliath. Time to think anew....

The Divine Feminine

Centuries, millenia ago, there was a tide of paternalism.  It didn't happen all at once, but happened here and there....in one country or region a tribe would begin to adopt a polarized position in regards to their gods and goddesses.  It mirrored a move towards a more linear reasoning sense of being, a desire to gain control over nature, a weird twist that happened in our becoming where we went from working with all of nature, of literally communing with it on a deep level energetically (we swam through currents of special lines of awareness in dream and meditation just as we swam through rivers to get to new land while awake) to distrusting nature and pitting ourselves against it. Because the feminine was seen as being aligned with nature, men literally made themselves an enemy with the feminine, and priestesses and seeresses began to go extinct. 

So polarized, and so strong did the masculine energy become in the human consciousness that the two which were one began to seem different, separate instead of being the compliments which they always had been before all of this (and it was biologically imperative for there to be parity for the survival of the tribe and family).  Even women were themselves more masculine as they were raised in an ever broadening sense of linearity, individual consciousness, as it was pitted against nature, which was seen as dark, mysterious, full of strange urges and scary monstrous animals that would leap out at night to eat, destroy, and terrorize.  Instead of understanding nature by communing with it as they had had at deeper levels,  nature was to be controlled or gained dominion over. Our religious books and stories reflected this idea that all of nature should be dominated, controlled. Anything that was not predictable would become a target for a need for control.  We see this in our world today where elements of freedom that result in unpredicatable behavior are increasingly more and more controlled and monitored.  When in the book of Genesis human beings were given dominion over the earth, it was the masculine exerting its control over the body of the feminine. The feminine was to be used, focused, and as a result, was not a sacred thing, but an object of ownership.  Within this world women had no rights.  No rights for bettering themselves such as education, since women were seen as not having the mental faculties to do well in advanced learning.  Efforts were made to downgrade the feminine on just about every front.  What kind of effect does this have on a population? Women were not afforded the right to own land.  A woman had to marry if she wanted to keep her land, otherwise the feudal lords of Europe would take it.  Women did not vote.  Women were very much treated like stock that was allowed to live in the home instead of a stable or barn. The move to create a deepening rift of separation was well underway and hit at different places at different times but grew into a tide that resulted in what we have today.  And as this tide seems to be at its zenith, we are seeing a change underway where all of our development is affording some room for change.  Its a fascinating shift that is happening, and very hopeful for us not just for the female population, but for ALL people because this signals a deeper reverence for the feminine in the world in general, and this means that we will revere Her within ourselves, and we need this force within because it is the feminine that is the healing force in consciousness. 

As this tide of paternalism happened, our religions reflected the change.  The feminine, which was seen as being earthly, was driven underground.  Woman was the portion take from the male in order to BE.  It was woman who took the fruit and tempted Adam with it.  It was woman who looked back and became that pillar of salt.  Jesus's consort was a prostitute (Magdeline), even though the church admitted centuries later that she was not a prostitute.  Still, the damage had been done, and woman lost any hope for any real standing within the institution of the Christian Church.  Same for the Hindu faith, and same for the Muslim faith as well, even though everyone wants to say how much they honor and revere women in their culture....  The focus began to grow towards the heavens into some other world where the masculine resided.  Priestesses of Greece were themselves deep in the earth, connected to underground waterways and the mysterious nature of the earth as the eternal void, the womb of possibility waiting to be filled, primed with the spark of divine energetics.  Quite suddenly, the Gods, the male gods, were pushed farther from the earth and began to reside outside our world while the feminine went underground.  One existed in the sky, another existed in the earth.  We can see this in Greek myths as well as Native American ones.  The Thunder Beings would strike the earth with its pulse of energy, purifying and replenishing it with rain. Sadly, however, Christianity pushed the feminine further out.  When it came to Jesus discussing elements of the feminine in terms of spirituality, it was pushed underground, hidden.  Some of these elements would reemerge with the discovery of the Nag Hammadi in Egypt.  What was not convenient for the time, such as recognizing the parity that the female had spirituality with men, was cast out.  Instead, forged documents were allowed in, one by Peter, another by Paul.  Why?  The men who made up the Nicean Council (and who selected the books of the Bible and rejected others) were not interest in the truth, but what they thought they knew was the truth (there is ample examples of this arising in forged documents due to someone's over zealous desire to put their stamp of belief upon the doctrine by creating a letter or gospel that had specific elements within it that the author believed was important to consider or believe).  For as much as Christians think how inviolate and perfect the bible is, its a hostorical document that was chosen based on what was out there, true or not, forged or original, selected to suite a view these men had three hundred and fifty years after the death of Jesus.  The fact remains that there were many other books that just so happen to follow a better understanding of the nature of divine awakening that were all slipped under the rug and hidden (and these involve the role that the feminine has to play in consciousness).  340 years is a long time for loads of documents to spring up that have distortions or even fraudulent material included in them.  Based on the scholarly study of these documents, its clear that some books in the New Testament are themselves fraudulent, were known to be fraudulent in their day yet were kept in the bible.

Why?

Christians are not taught about any of this by their pastors or priests because a schism happened somewhere between the seminary and the pulpit.  We all want our religions to be "right" and people will ignore all kinds of facts to make this so.  What happens is that we fashion something as we have always fashioned it; out of fantasy and magic.  This is fine, because religion always points to a higher truth, but when seeking to purport the events of something that happened in the physical world, this is where it just aint so.  For those who want to know more about these problems you should buy and read Bart Ehrman's powerful and well researched book Jesus Interrupted.  This work helps to show, from a scholarly perspective, what we have known about the books of the New Testament for ages, but that have not trickled down to the laity. 

All of this resulted in the God being relegated to the clouds and the Goddess sunk beneath the waves, hidden in the caverns of the earth.  What happened?  Was it not convenient to have the feminine present in our world?  What was it that made people feel like women were somehow inferior or not to be trusted?  Is it possible that men did not have a way to learn to trust their own wild and intuitive, even uncontrolled natures?  Our two most precious portions of our being, our divine natures, were divided.  Why?  They were divided in our world and they were divided within each person. Listening to the intuition was tantamount to madness in a paternalistic world.  This could not be!  You have to cite sources, not speak from your own experience....why that might be thinking for yourself!  And if you look around, you see the marks of this and what it has done to our perspective throughout our culture.  You see how we have to rely upon others for the authority of truth instead of looking within to discern the truth.  I can remember being in an art history class years ago and the PhD was showing ceramics from South America. Knowing very little about Asian work, I remarked how Asian the work looked.  I then looked at the figures, and they all looked Asian. The professor exclaimed saying that there is NO evidence whatsoever of any Asian influence.  All of the authorities could not point to any influence along these lines.  I sat there and explained that you don't need proof; its so obviously present in the work that anyone could see it.  Even he could, but he refused to admit the similarity.  Because there were no primary sources that suggested a possible link, no one bothered to mention the obvious.  Unfortunately, this leads to a one-sided way of being and seeing.

In this age, though, we are seeing women afforded the rights and freedoms she has long needed.  No longer treated like cattle, like objects - a pretty urn of gold - woman is now emerging in our world with ever greater freedom to BE.  And as this happens, something marvelous takes place; we all begin to recognize the importance of the feminine in our own insides.  Is it possible that the greatest revolution in consciousness will be the emergence of those aspects of ourselves within men and women both that are considered feminine?  I think so.  Every single thing points to it, and its hopeful.  Each man need not be afraid of his inner woman for she will help him know how to connect even more intimately with the woman he loves.  And the same is true for a woman.  Her own masculine nature will help her relate to and connect with her masculine counterpart.  And as the feminine bubbles up in each person, a divine alchemy take s place, a long desired, needed, magic beings to turn in the race.  We all, in dream, find ourselves gathering before giant fires where we dance and turn and sway as the currents that wer man and woman move round and round like giant magnetic belts of energy that brings us within knowing and into mystery as we merge with the divine in total and individualy.  Here, in these places deep within, we begin to bring out those things that we have all longed for.  As we do this, latent ability within the species begin to come to the fore.  Those of us ready for the change show up in perfect timing and become the channels by which a new way of being can be birthed as we reemerge into a world where human and nature are no longer at odds but come back into that ancient alignment which we knew so long ago.... the one which we crave where we and the animals were not enemies or at odds but part of a dynamic relationship.....

It is time to begin in each moment to pray Her into the world.  Encourage her, seek Her, love Her, adore and Worship Her.  Time.  Time.  Time.......

The Work, The Awareness

Krishanmurti was the quintessential awakened one.  He said "nothing disturbs me..." he was way cool out there on his bliss lotus.  He had it all worked out.  And all these gurus, they tell us the way while falling for the prettiest of their followers and not following their own advice to keep things chaste and holy.  People, all so ascended yet so full of unresolved issues that drive into their core, their roots twining around their being, making slaves of them, distorting their sight, their perception, making them hard, making them unaware and even blind.

We are all human.  We are here because we were drawn here the same way like attracts like. Its an energetic law of the universe....the multiverse.  We all do the work we came here to do, except on this one issue, we get hung up.  For lifetimes.  Hundreds, even thousands.  Like a skipping record.  We get to that one place in our development where there is that one deep scratch and then the stylus refuses to advance.  Lifetime after lifetime we hear that same sweet refrain repeated over and over until we are about ready to go mad.  Or run out into the cosmic street of night and yell "stop!!!"

Stopping is the equivalent of kundalini rising in you, the switch tripping and your body suddenly doing something it has not done yet has been programmed to do....a wonderous little trick, a feat of evolution, a wonderful cosmic turning of the interdimensional transmission in that wonderfilled groove microbus covered with groovy paint and curiosity.....forever changed....forever different....returned to your Essential Self. Except sometimes we get stuck on the curb just getting the bus onto the road and rolling with the sweet magic of pushing forward through the cosmic winds....

When Krishnamurti was a year from passing from this life into the next, he was full of a bitterness, of old hurts left unresolved.  I am not judging him, but observing that if the man who was the World Teacher could have such an inventory left over from an Awakening after a long life of work and teaching, what does this suggest to us here now?  I think the most important part of all of this is divesting ourselves of the things that hurt us, that turn in us and that enslave us.  These things have a life of their own, hitching a ride on that bus like some stranger who entwines itself so close into our awareness that its no longer seen and we then think lifetimes later that its just who we are.....except it isn't.  Growing in us are the roots of something that we often trim back to maintain, keeping it good looking for the world to see, but in truth, its unmanageable when we get right down to it.  Most people simply do not have the awareness necessary to know how to deal with what it is that is inside of them that isn't them, but that they have allowed to take that ride and thus become ingratiated within them.  Perhaps in a more accurate way, its a little rift inside that is a lot like the scratch on that old vinyl record I was mentioning earlier.  it keeps us from sometimes getting to the next groove, the next lesson. We think there is work to be done, but my sense has been its not about work. Someone shot you in that life as a sailer and you never got over it. So here you are.  But its less that you have something to work out with another person as you have to work out with yourself.  Nothing happens to you that has not first been attracted to you.  As hard or as easy as that might be, if you go all the way to the source of the hurt, you will be surprised with what you find.  The law of attraction is not here to punish us.  Its here to offer up a mirror.

We become enmeshed in our dramas.  They become very real, important.  Much of it has to do with ego.  "We" are hurt.  "We" endured a trial.  Because it was done to us, or me, the identification is set upon the one.  It wasn't right that we were dissabused of our rights, or that someone took advantage of us.  But that person was attracted to something in us that sent out a certain vibration.  The law of attraction at work.  Look deeper, beyond the insult to your self and to what lies at the core.  This is the hard part, the part where awareness is key. Lifetimes ago I did not stand up for what was right and many people suffered and probably died.  I was in a position of power and I could have said "no" to what was happening but did not.  I felt guilt and shame over that for lifetimes.  And for lifetimes, because I did not stand up, I was a target for being scapegoated by others.  This went on since the 13th century until a few months ago.  The day that I let the root of that old vine slip out of the earth of my being, things began to change.  People began to deal more fairly with me.  I did not fear the truth.  I knew, in my heart, that the truth would set me free.  But in that life as a priest I came against the Grand Inquisitor and it was he who sought to do his will through me, using the church for some grizzly work.  But I do not need to go back to him to settle the account.  No.  I need to settle the account within me.  There will be Inquisitors a plenty in this world, and to do work with them all would be missing the point.  By recognizing that the issue is within me and not in others, I can more clearly and properly settle upon what it is that needs to be done.  If something bothers me about someone, chances are its due to some misalignment in me rather than in them. Some people are just mean, and you can't help that but you can also choose not to have it effect you.  Let them be, let them live their life.  They are on their way to the promised land, too, and we are all on our own schedule.  No one needs to do anything according to our clock or belief system or way. 

We are each important, we each matter, but the ego can overidentify with a misalignment with its divine nature, and this divine nature has to do with how it processes energy.  This is very much about "being in the flow."  When we limit the flow, we can feel it as backing up, creating anxiety, even physical pain.  We are made to let that flow move through us and when we do not, something is amiss....but because so much of this is processed at subconscious levels for so many people, it can be easy to have something go awry within and the waters begin to get blocked at the entry...

Learning to be more aware is probably the single most important aspect you will learn.  Following your instincts, being able to determine between fear and flow, to follow your bliss, is an important part of training your insides to want to want the bliss instead of the age-old hurts you have adopted that curl themselves so deep that you and they feel one and the same. 

Forgiving, letting go, surrendering, letting all of that anger, angst, abrasiveness go is so important to your being able to feel an every more divine flow.  And as this happens, your awareness will likewise grow in accord with divine law. When you can signal that you are ready to perceive an ever broader sweep of the inner realms, you will be accorded more freedom.  Let go your investment in how that lawyer treated your family, or how someone in your childhood did less than kind by you.  Whatever it is that is gripping you, it is using up energy and perception that could be put to better use.  And you would feel happier, more one with yourself and the universe.  You'd also be that much closer to being a master or seeress of the universe.  No more Dark Side of the Moon....

As each of you let go of something, it makes it easier for others to do so; this is important and overlooked.  The work of a thousand lifetimes is now bearing fruit.  The resonant field of searchers, adepts, dreamers, and priestesses, are all bearing upon the collective self in the present time, and we will see more awakenings as we continue to press forward and build what is an energetic field of potentiality.  Now, for the first time in a very long time, awakenings are building in number and as we each push the envelope, we can help to build this thing from the inside out.  This is how it works, effecting change not in the world but in the world of each person, and as the tide rises and more people are forever changed by this experience, the effect of every single person will and is being felt.  This is the single best way to bring change into the world; via the power of the Waveform Awareness principle of consciousness, which transcends the efforts of singular people and brings the power of the universe and out ability to manifest on a larger level more possible.  As crazy as that might seem, anyone who has become awakened is familiar with the concept of the synchronicity or "sync." This is the very same energy in action, following your thoughts, intent, and will.  The trick becomes how to direct the wave for the highest purpose.  With each shift, each change within, the whole, the all, shifts and changes like the caterpillar in its cocoon, ready to grow those wings and emerge......

So join me, look inside deep, and ask yourself what remains.  What is it that causes you the most trouble?  Can you feel what part of your body registers the anxiety, tightness or pain?  If you look at what chakra it corresponds with you can look up to find what each chakra deals with, and for as silly as you might think that is, I have found the chakra  guides are pretty much on the mark.  Its an ascending range of energy from root to crown.  One site you could look at to help identify where some problems might be emerging is here Charka Chart

Another possible source is the one I just stumbled across in looking for another chart to past into the blog, but instead found a site on the divine feminine, a nice thing to find since I am getting ready to write about the feminine and our history, how She was submerged in our world and how She is reemerging.  I will add this link which discusses the chakras.  Let me know what you think of the site.  Looks promising!  Sister Spirit Sanctuary

Whatever path you take, whatever your insides tell you to do, building awareness is the single most important part of the journey through the brambles of your soul.  If you need help in this awareness I suggest a gifted intuitive who has always been able to hone in directly onto a problem immediately.  This person is Alison Neville and she can be contacted through her blog Here.

Good luck in your journey!

-Parker

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

Knowing

For those who might wonder or doubt that we are more than what we seem, I will offer you one very simple experiment to try.

We are awash in energy.  We are soaking it up all the time, and being effected by it on subtle levels.  This exercise will help you to understand that we do not need to communicate through the usual senses but through the language of energetic exchange. 

Find someone that you know who will be willing to join in this experiment with you.  For it to work the best, do not tell your friend what it is you are doing.  You could say that you are attempting to find out about how their own awareness is able to pick up on inner commands from others.  This would be true, but it would not reveal exactly what the experiment will entail.

Have your friend stand beside you and slightly in front of you.  Place your hand against their hand in such a way that you can sense their strength.  You will need to have your friend lift up their hand at their side not in front of them, but to their side.  this way, you can place your hand over their hand to test their strength.  The first time that you do this, you will simply be registering how strong they are.  Have them lift up as forcefully as they can.  This should not take a long period of time, but a matter of a few seconds.  You are holding their hand down in order to gauge their strength.  Once you have done this, give your friend a few moments to recover their strength.  While you give them this opportunity, I want you to stand with your hand behind your friend and use your thumb to point downward.  As you do this, think how they are getting very weak.  FEEL how you are drawing down their strength, making them weak, or asking their body to show how it can hear your thoughts by being weak instead of strong.  Then, once you have done this in a way where you feel like its been communicated well, test your friend's strength and gauge it against the first test.  After this, you can then test again with your thumb pointing up behind their back and thinking how much stronger they will be.  Align your hand along their spine and with your thumb pointing upwards, think how their energy is increasing.  Then test their strength again and compare with the other two tests.

When you are doing this test, you can stand on your friend's left side but slightly to the back of them.  As you do this your hands can be free to hold down their hand as well as having a hand free that points up or down so that you friend cannot see you doing this. 

Let me know what you find.  You may have to try this a few times.  The clearer you are in your own mind about what it is you are doing, I think the clearer your results will be. 

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

The Fortunate Teller

When you gaze downward as she looks at your hand, when you sit with your eyes off to the side as he looks at your aura, or as you sit on the other end of the phone waiting for answers to come out of the ether for the sensitive or psychic on the other end of the line, it would be nice to know that you were just looking for answers to life's most vexing problems, but you weren't.

When you go to the temple and pray, you aren't asking for the world to be delivered, nor are you wanting peace on earth.  You might ask for this because you feel its your duty to do so, and maybe you care about peace, but what really is at the core of all of this is something entirely different.

We want to know there is something more beyond what we see.  Captured as we are by Particle Awareness, we are like 6.5 billion soap bubbles that wont pop.  Inside is all that we are, but something inside of what we are whispers to us that we are much more, that there is something much more and somehow it seems this lays outside of us.  Except it doesn't.  Its as much us as anything else is.  It has been the beginning and end of my journey here, and it will occupy all journies for me, I know.  For me, there is nothing else as important as this one thing, and it animates every single person on the planet and it is currently beckoning from deep within you in a way you could not even begin to imagine, save experience directly.  This is a force that holds everything together, and it expands everything into a whole new constellation.  It brings worlds into being and it also brings them to their conclusion. It is the very essence of creation and Oneness.  It is the font from which we drink deeply and never seem able to get enough.  This is love.

We have love for others, love for things, and any number of other experiences related to what we feel we love.  There is, though, a love that will encompass you if you let it, will seep in all around you and take you to its home.  It will show you a new way of being and feeling.  It will make you turn red in the face and you wont know how to control its passion as it moves all through you. it will open doors in you as you feel entire rooms of your being opened up by this love.  this love is a dizzying pulse that is unlike any other love you have felt, for its less a feeling you feel in your heart or head as it is a pulsation that moves from universe to universe, that is so simple and small yet so huge, as it spirals out and into all known and unknown worlds.

I know that sounds grandiose, but it is.  Its grandiose because its true.  This is not something that can be understood, but experienced, and it is the wish of everything that Is to feel its presence.  Once you have done this, you are a goner.  You can never be the same again.  You have, like I described in my book, awakened one day speaking martian. But the language is beautiful, and it will take you to new levels of understanding if you let it.  It will peel away all your layers, sometimes painfully, but always compassionately.  You will be asked to stand naked before All, and when you do, there will only be one things remaining in you, and it will be love.

To know it is to embrace it with a simplicity and directness.  This is in everything, and it can be in you, too.  In fact, it IS in you, and if you can trip the switch that turns an awakening from a chance encounter with the cosmic into something more enduring, you will see how this is all about remembering what you have always been.  Its like a lover coming up to you whom you have not seen in your entirety of lifetimes who is suddenly there, her everything reminding you of some ancient promise we have all sought to keep.  In that moment, it will be as though worlds rush through you as the origin lands you in the place where it all began.  And when you feel that beginning, it will be like a hoop whose end starts at the beginning of itself, and you might well feel a unity of being and connectedness to your life and the lost pages of your past in a way that makes you smile, for you now do not need someone to tell you if you will be rich, or if you will live on another planet in a life in the future, or if you can talk to your long lost father or grandmother, or if the lines on your hand spell fortune or great insight.  In that moment, there will be just what you had been looking for.  It will be love.  Perfectly crafted from the One from which we have all come from and to which we all aspire, and seek to find in each other.

There are a number of ways to awaken.  The first is with intention.  Is it in you to seek this?  If it is, it will build all around you.  I was just watching a movie with Jim Carrey in it called the Truman Show. Not so long ago, Jim had an awakening experience, and when I look at the work he has done recently, I see these elements alive in his work before the awakening happened.  In the Truman show, things are not quite what they seem.  It turns out that the True-man is entirely fooled by what he thinks he sees all around him.  He slowly begins to realize that there is something more out there, and sets about to find it.  Maybe life feels that way to you sometimes.  I know when I was young I had this feeling as though this was all some kind of play or set-up....and I have found others who had the exact same notion as kids.  Its not so unusual as we might think because it all points to this sense that there is something more than just this.  Neo in those very violent Matrix movies wakes up to find his old world was not what he thought it was.  Sadly, though, the real world for him was more like a nightmare than a saving grace.  I suppose, though, that we can choose how we see it, even though it has infinite potential and will be like putty in our hands if we but let it resolve into what is best for us. The single best way to awaken is to learn to let go.  Something inside of you lets go, and then slowly, it is seduced into the fires of transformation like some ancient rite of passage.  Some of the flames can hurt, but only because whatever it was you were wearing was not compatible with the flames....

Let go of something simple, easy, but it needs to be real.  Let go of some old guilt or hurt that you piled onto yourself.  Perhaps a confession will help, and it might just be that you can confess to someone who is a neutral party.   Make it count. The release might just lighten your being enough to let a stream of energy move through you that helps to establish that flow. Tell someone how you feel that you have been holding back on for years.  or maybe when you were little you blamed your sister for something that she did not do.  Do something that will lighten your load a little, and then go out and smell the sweet air and feel how this makes you feel different. And if that does not do it, a simple focus on the third eye while breathing deeply and imagining a deep energy rising up into the third eye, drawn up through your attention to the third eye.  If that doesn't work,  ask  your soul simply and directly to show you the way to awakening if its in your highest to know it in this life.  Awakening is a real challenge,so its best to do when you are ready.  Once you have it, its a bit like being wed to something that you simply wont shake.  You can't.  Acupuncture might help.  I found some interesting things happening when I tried acupuncture.  The one needle that did the most was something called the Gateway and it was connected to the heart.  It turned me into an ocean of flow.  You can try kundalini yoga, but for most people today, awakenings aren't happening through that avenue as much as they are simply happening.  The air is being filled with the passion of this vibration, and more and more are being effected by a still broadening morphic field.  I suspect it will continue to grow as long as there are people who are energetically close to the threshold for it to take hold in them.

Its all about love.  Learning to love yourself, not in a selfish way, but in a true way.  To feel the love of the universe AS you and to feel the love reflected through all things.  This pulse is what keeps the planets in their orbit and the frogs singing on cool Spring nights.  its what draws us to each other and to professions in the hopes of greater fulfillment.  We sometimes get lost in it and mistake it for things like money or jobs or keeping up with the Jones's.  This love seeks nothing but itself and asks nothing but itself.  To achieve this means letting go of a good deal of the things you have clung to.....since so much have been in truth stumbling blocks for you, or miscalculations, however carefully conceieved....some have turned into traps without your even realizing it.  Waking into this love, you will be drawn away from that which does not serve your greater being.  As long as your old karmas lay within you, they will energize you and tell you they are important until you see differently, that there is still more to divest, to let go. Do not be afraid to stand completely naked, to allow your Essential Self shine forth without any static from your ego or mind.  Forget what you THINK will happen and just consider whatever DOES happen will be perfect.

You are being asked to move from bubble to wave.  this will require you to stretch out and become something entirely different, but perfect.  And beautiful.  As I breath in deep I hear the universe reminding me that all these people searching will find what they need as they need.  It tells me to just keep breathing deep, to breathe life into this growing organism we are building that is the collective self that is not just the collective, but the collective portion that is becoming AWARE as Infinite and awake in the moment, here, on earth, now.  As this energy builds, so does it help to push others over the edge.  We are all like these brilliant cells in a larger body as a ripple of some complex chemistry seeks to change and send a message, like a hormonal end electrical pulse, perfectly timed that changes how we, little motes in the body of something larger, think and feel and KNOW.  Awake, the world is very different.  We feed from a larger body of being and can feel this subtle energy moving all through this larger body.  We are each waking up in our own time and in our own way.

You don't need someone to tell you are special, or if your destiny is written in the stars.  You ARE the stars, silly.  Everything you had hoped to hear from soothesayers was just the same thing you always yearned for, which was that there was something more.  This something more was love.  But what a love!  So powerful, so challenging, so encompassing!  When they look up at you to tell you your destiny, you can smile knowing that you KNOW what your destiny is, which is in essence the same as everyone else's on the planet: to be love.....the most unordinary love you could ever imagine, but is what you have been seeking all through your lifetimes and helps to shape your curiosity and hope for this something more.   It seems outside of you, but rests like a sleeping baby within you. 

I keep breathing in deep and whispering my prayers for All.