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Sunday, February 27, 2011

NRG

I thought I would take a little break from the poetry and delve into a slightly different area for the  sake of variety.  I hope that you find this useful and informative.  There is a lot of information out there about the auric field, so I would like very much to know what, if anything, you find interesting, new, or different about this article on the human life field, or aura.

While some might be tempted to speak of the aura as if it were some part of a mystical mumble-jumble of new-age-ism, the reality is that perceiving the aura is part of a spectrum of perceptual experience that is coincident with seeing.  We know that by touching others we can heal.  Babies that are not held will sicken and die. We need this energy, we are hardwired for it.  Other animals have the ability to pick up on the subtle electromagnetic field put off by other life forms.  Sharks can do this as do octopus.  Sharks have been known to attack metal objects, some which were not at all shiny (it was likewise thought that maybe the metal was attracting them like a lure does for smaller fish). It was not understood until it was realized that sharks employ a way to hone in on prey by focusing their energy field on those of neighboring prey in order to track them during a critical time when they effectively will go blind.  When sharks attack, they have a lid that comes down over their eye to protect them from their prey possibly injuring their eyes.

Metal puts off a charge which is part of its electrochemical makeup.  Metals are used in creating batteries; the electric potential can be captured and used for things like your radio or computer.  While science would have us believe that these fields are JUST fields of energy, the truth is that they are merely carriers for what that energy is, which is conscious.  This is not mumbo-jumbo; however when I was younger, I did have a friend who asked me to read her aura, had her mother lay down a copy of the bible after our meeting which was open to a page that warned of consorting with people who were witches and worse!  Sadly, we are a species that can willingly seek to remain ignorant or steeped in what an ancient tradition tells us, a tradition that shows no proof of thinking things through very well (or might just be so old that its more superstition than understanding). 

Your own energy field, if detected by a special camera, might just show a blob of color or shape, but within that field of energy would ride the MESSAGE of your life.  In the same way that we can detect radio waves (which are themselves empty of any meaning until they are used by a device like a transmitter in order to take those waves and encode them with messages that are then picked up by a radio that translates all of this into sounds) so can we pick up on this electromanetic energy which crosses over into our own nervous system and is picked up and understood by the consciousness of the body to be something from "outside" and is interpreted as such in the person who reads or feels the human life field (we all FEEL this I think, but some utilize their feeling in a a way that helps them detect illness or trouble spots in the body or energy body).  So while the auric energy is electromagnetic, there is also consciousness making up that wave or field of energy, effectively being the "broadcast" with the radio waves being the carrier wave for this information.  It is this energy that we pick up on when sensing energy fields like the aura.

Understanding energy is something that we very naturally do.  Its in us to understand it at the most fundamental levels.  This is so because we ARE energy.  The trick is waking up enough to sense it.  Over the years I have had what I would call small scale awakenings that have involved, in one case, beginning to see auras, then later, sensing energy at a deeper level, and then recently, an awakening of kundalini that continues to be active 24/7 that has seemed to deepen that sensing even more.

As someone who was aware of energy before all of this happened, the difference now is that I feel it much more deeply.  Perhaps more intimately.  Its as though someone turned up the volume.  It has become much more intense.  It is also much more personal in that it reminds me on a moment by moment basis that the energy that flows through all things is part of a sacred body, and this body is the All.  Just as all our ancestors from the aboriginal tribes have said, everything is connected through a vast webwork, and so it is.  I might be walking down to the store and pass someone and feel my insides feel like they are being crushed, or I might feel a nagging sense of sadness around the edges of my awareness.  I might feel a sudden tightening in my body, say my heart or my solar plexus that has nothing to do with how I am feeling at the time. Ordinarily I do not feel these things in such a way; I know how to tune them out (otherwise I might lose it!)  There was a time when I sensed all this energy at an arm's length.  I feel like its good I can feel in this way, which is the deeper way than the way I used to.   I suspect that my work will lead me to work with energy in some way (I do this in my creative and educational work but suspect it will expand into other areas).  Learning how to remain neutral, how to allow the world to move through us without our having to become the hurt or problem or thousand other things that are part of anothers' concerns is I think where mastering this realm of sensing comes in.

Reading the aura is itself not difficult.  It involves knowing how to See.  We are picking up on subtle energy all the time and it begins to show up to our eyes as just that; like heat waves or something very faint.  We really cannot see this energy, but our brains have a way of translating the experience so that it SEEMS that we can.  Truth is, we are sensing energy but not seeing it in the usual way....our eyes simply cannot see into this wavelength.  But we are ourselves receptors for this energy, our energy bodies are amazing at what they can pick up, and so the information flows into us and is largely subconscious in nature (absent some kind of awakening or event that brings new awareness into the moment), so the brain does not pay much attention to it, which is the situation where we are filtering out the stimuli and not seeing the auric field.  When the sensing becomes conscious, then the brain begins taking notice of it, and the filters can fall.  At that point, its a matter of time before the brain finds a way to translate the information in a way that is understandable.  This all seems like mental gymnastics, and it is in a sense, but energy is one of those things we do not have a sense for in the physical (but we do inwardly which might be the rub for the brain who is so used to being able to put stuff in the right mail box for stimuli delivery and info exchange).  What results is a translating of energetic information in a way you can begin to understand or relate to (or take notes on and learn from the "syntax" the brain is setting up for you).

It might be possible that something in you just wont SEE the aura, and this is not unusual.  I know some people who are like this.  They have all been excellent at FEELING the energy.  If you ask me, this is the way we best pick up on life force energy.  By utilizing our feeling selves we stay locked out of the mind and ego, which I find is a real trap in these pursuits.  Maybe a little hard at first given that our culture has rewarded such ways of being (and now its at our peril because we NEED this feeling self so badly!)

I have been around a number of people who have begun seeing the aura for the first time.  I realized that in each case I was putting out a very specific wavelength of energy in each instance.  I suspect that we can actually help to remove those veils or help the consciousness of that other person to be focused enough to begin to see them.  There is almost always a certain receptivity involved.  In one case my college roommate began seeing auras as we sat chatting in our little dorm room.  You have to know John.  His eyesight was so bad that he wore these coke-bottle glasses.  He could not see anything but a blur beyond two feet. But as we spoke and his face registered the surprise that caused me to ask him what was going on, it became clear that he seemed to be seeing something.  To make sure he was not pulling my leg (and he was a real joker!) I asked him to do something that I knew he would not have known about in regards to seeing the aura.  I leaned forward and looked at him and quietly suggested that he take off his glasses.  He laid the thick glasses down on the desk near where we were sitting.  When he looked up at me his face registered a mix of bewilderment and surprise;  "The light!"  he exclaimed.  He looked like he did not believe what he was looking at.  What I knew was that other people who saw auras seemed to be able to see them without their glasses, no matter how bad their vision was.

Having perfect vision, I cannot explain how different things looked for those who saw auras and who wore glasses.  In this long winded way I am explaining to you that if you feel like you might be seeing auras, taking your glasses off might be yet another strategy for increasing your perceptual abilities.  Some six months previous to this, I met the first person whom I personally knew who could see auras and he always took his glasses off. Zack would pull off his glasses and then begin to gaze around an area that looked like he was seeing behind me, or just beyond me. I never fully understood it until I myself began seeing for the first time. 

I will admit that its quite possible that what is happening is we are utilizing some portion of the eye that can just barely pick up on the aura because this particular posture or method in sensing is reported almost universally in the literature. I also utilize this technique when I see auras, realizing that if I look directly AT the aura, I cannot see it.  This is like NOT seeing...and begins to sound a bit like Yoda telling you some little Yoda-ism "no try, only do..."...its as though you are focusing into another world except you are still very much here, fully aware.  Your awareness is perfectly fixed in this reality.  You are merely picking up on something that is already here, has always been here.  Perhaps this is what we are doing, in a matter of speaking.  Perhaps this "posture" is in truth a way to remind our bodies what it is we are doing.



Our bodies?  Yes.  Your body has consciousness (and while its built into the matrix of your overall awareness, it can also act independent of your own consciousness...this is the very nature of consciousness....but to read up on that you need to read the book I am writing....), not surprisingly; its not all in your head.  Its all over you.  Through you.  You send certain signals to your body awareness by developing certain rituals.  It also is a signal to your other layers of self to come to the fore.  I have always had the feeling as though my awareness does change, but only subtly.  This shift in awareness feels, in my body, very much like what I do when I am focusing on the pages of a book and choose to use my far vision.  Now I am far-sighted, so perhaps this does not jive with my near-sighted readers.....but I would suspect that you too can purposely choose to focus on a ground area (fore or background) in order to make a certain portion of your vision fuzzy sometimes.  When I see auras, its very much like this in a sense; I do not focus on what I am looking at....I master "the gaze."

Some Strategies

Try looking at your own aura.  Do this first by holding your hands up in front of your face as far from you as they can be.  Take your fingers and bring them closer to the fingers on your other hand so that each finger has the same finger on the other hand pointing towards it.  This will cause your aura to draw the energy from the other hand towards it.  While you might not see color, you may be able to sense the strands of energy that make up the aura, and this is a beginning. The trick here is to remain patient and not try to force anything.  Relax and just gaze and be aware of any kinds of lines or very light or subtle eddies or currents in the air.  Bring your hands slowly together and then apart and see if the energy lines, much like the iron filings around a magnet trick we all learned in school, creates these lines (think Ley line....the earth has them too!).  See how the proximity of your hands to each other effects how the field looks.  Try looking beyond your hands, a kind of gazing in their general area but without even trying to focus physically with your eyes (and let me know how it works for you!)


Environment,  Lighting

For me, even though I have said that I don't think the eyes can actually SEE this energy, I tend to like certain kinds of lighting, so hang on as I appear to contradict everything I have thus far told you about eyesight and the aura!  I like to be in rooms that have a good deal of diffuse lighting.  For as much as I dislike fluorescent lighting, it has over the years provided me with the best lighting for viewing the aura.  It also seems to me to react with the aura somehow, so my sense is not that it brightens things a certain way but somehow creates an energetic contrast perhaps.  Perhaps its the flicker rate or the pulsations per second that make a tube like this what it is (which is the hard part for me when dealing with fluorescent!).  Being in a rather large room, like a classroom, with very diffuse lighting is always preferred for me.  Having said that, I have seen auras in darkened theater rooms.  I tend to like to be some distance from my subjects. I have seen auras up real close.  I like to see them from at least six feet away.  I like to be able to see as much of the person as possible since the energy will shift and move very fast all over the person. "reading" all of these changes helps me to begin to get a feel for what is happening to the person both on a spirit, emotional and physical level.  And this is what an aura is; the matrix of all aspect of us expressed in the dancing light that can be like a fast moving aurora never the same twice!

I will pass on to you that I suspect that there is something that can happen when we silence the inner dialog that goes on almost ceaselessly within.  When I first began seeing auras, I did so vividly just after having run across the entire college campus where I was attending.  I was focused on not showing up late for a class where the professor was a real stickler for  being late.  When I got there my heart was pounding and my body seemed to be perched in a state of physical readiness as well as some fatigue.  I was completely absorbed with trying to get oxygen back into my body after my long run no worries other than just my body)!  I felt as though even my EYES were even throbbing and felt almost as though this blood flow was affecting my vision!

I will add that while all of this might seem an odd way to begin seeing auras, I was talking with a friend about a year after this who had heard my account of first seeing auras and confided in me that a friend of his had very recently explained how she had run across campus only to find that she was seeing auras around everyone!  I think my friend and I kind of pinched each other and wondered over how coincidental these two events were.  Actually I think there is something to it.  I think at the bottom of it is how we can open those channels of sensing with things that help us to shift our awareness.  Part of this is learning to silence something within that will allow us to focus on something that we have heretofore not been aware of.  I think that meditation can do it, but so can something as vigorous as a run across campus to get to class on time!

So consider these things and realize that as you do, everyone has this sensing inside of them because its the very life force that makes up who you are that gets expressed as an aura.  Your energy is a field that can pick up on any other field on the planet!  While some might say that you have to be careful and protect yourself when seeing auras, I think its easier and perhaps better to simply remind yourself that you will remain neutral.  We live, after all, in a sea of energy.  I tend to feel that when we begin seeing auras its because we are ready for that level of responsibility.  By not letting these things bother us or soak up our focus, they drop away from us.  Its all a matter of where we put our focus.  We can build barriers but all of my protection has been those things that caused me to let go.  Perhaps by envisioning those beings who are your higher vibrational guides helping to protect you that your smaller self does not need to worry about whether you are protected or not....because you always are.  By remaining neutral energetically you are always best served.  And if you start seeing auras, do let me know!

Seeing auras can put you in touch with your own inner sensing.  It can also teach you a lot about energy, and also how different this energy plays through different people.  It can help you learn to avoid certain people whose colors are off.  People are very good at covering up things, and this can provide you with additional insight.  It can also lead to your learning how our energy can be used in healing.  Many healers have an intuitive awareness of the auric field if not the ability to sense it visually.   We are really quite amazing creatures, with a kaleidoscopic color field constantly changing.  Seeing or sensing them in this way can also lead to a greater appreciation and awe of  how amazing our world is (and how some of it remains out of view for some but ready to be known by all).  For myself, an understanding of energy is fueling a means toward describing a means by which we can activate higher portions of our consciousness through a process which I will begin describing in the book I am currently writing.

Good luck with your seeing and sensing!

Saturday, February 26, 2011

The Flow

I surrender to him
I surrender to you
I surrender to all.

Bliss builds
as the petals of my heart open
open to you.
I lose myself
in you
as I become
Us.  Your body stretches out
before me
she knows how I love this
its like a ritual she does
she grabs my hand and places it on her
and bids me to slide it up along her length and breadth
and smiles gently in the night
as I am filled with tears of gratitude
that you ARE.

As this melts
I am not afraid
of losing myself
we resolve Cosmic
as our energies
fuse into one
This is what I crave
for your energetic signature
is like an ancient language
I was made to recognize.
The flower of my heart
is the flower of your heart.
I will flow into your heart
with that masculine energy'
you fold back and flow into me
as you return your bliss body
so that I might flow back into you
amazed
entranced
every single movement of you
my eyes
reading a sacred text
the text of your body
your essential self
your sacred feminine.

I may know that I do not know
but in me is one thing that is certain
there is no other thing that animates me more
than This.
You.

The Work

We talk about how we do the hard work of working through our stuff.  My experience has been that I have never been so successful at anything as when I let go. That's it.  No work, no guru, no methods.  Just let go. Its actually an act of intention.  Will is involved.....but one that is willing to open the clenched fist and let the old stuff go. Some of this stuff is from lifetimes past.  Talk about something that might be a tad hard to get to!  Actually, no.  In fact, that sense of vagueness that seems to settle in around you when I say its something from a slew of lifetimes in your past is only that;  your energy body knows what it is even if you do not.  You can feel its hard little mote floating in your energy body the same way one might feel a kidney stone might move through your kidney. Its a hard thing to have to feel.  In a sense, a very real one, connecting with aspects of our higher self has its advantages; we can be like the child who knows something is wrong in the house but the parent (the higher self) does not need to explain all the gory details.  All we know is that Mother and Father took the trash out and the smell is gone. 

That's maybe a weird analogy. But its apt because at the place i am now, I know I do not need to know what buried past hurt is causing me trouble. It is as if its some foreign entity in my energy body.  And my energy body feels a lot like my physical body. I feel into my energy body the same way I'd feel into my physical body except that my energy body does not have the same perception of bounding.  I have this bouyant body of energy that has no end.  My idea of limit and identity is what seems to contain it, but it really isn't something that is containable.  But here now, in this reality, I can feel something in a portion of my field.  Maybe its a tightness that moves around until I learn to just let go.  When I let it go, it falls away.  It falls away and when it does I can feel the difference.  It feels like some weight has lifted. 

In the beginning of my kundalini awakening I had a number of very hard things that seemed to be dealt with in the first few weeks of the experience.  Once I hit the heart everything seemed to stop. Later, things picked back up.  I learned about surrender and I became much more of an intentional participant.  I also understood the role of surrender better.  I began stumbling across articles on surrender as if on cue.  I found myself sitting talking with someone who was a friend of the family who had become awakened years previously and she spoke of the importance of surrender in her path.  Its interesting how the universe will provide those resources as they are most needed right on time!

This work is not an intellectual pursuit.  The more wedded to feeling it is, the better, I have found, since Feeling is most closely tied to the soul. Not the intellect or mind. These parts of the self are most often associated with people who have not done all the work on their selves for the reason that the intellect and mind as well as ego become traps of sorts for the hurt self to stay. We move out of the heart in order to delay dealing with our stuff, so the intellect and ego often become the refuge because the mind does not feel.  The best place to go when we hurt is where the hurt is not. Short of knowing how to just let go and allow the hurt to fall away, we seek refuge from it.  The way out of this trap is through awareness. Others can bring this Awareness.  I know that for me someone very close and dear to me was able to bring awareness a to my condition. In fact she took on my pain body in such a way that I began feeling that pain body in a way I had not felt before.  It was an act of compassion even if it meant that I was in severe pain, debilitating pain, as a result of her taking on my pain body.  Somehow, she acted as a surrogate for how I was supposed to feel.  For a short period, I was able to feel a lightness of being, which came from her no doubt, only to develop a keener sense of myself through standing outside of myself in a way.  This happens because consciousness creates alliances, and can merge into other parts of itself.  The physical body is a perfect example of cellular consciousness creating an alliance with our own awareness to create a multidimensional experience which we call our physical selves.  It is in truth the result of a great deal of cooperation, compassion, and deep love which serves to connect all the parts so they can work well. I know; we have nerve fibers, synapses, and dendrites to do the job, but in all things there is an energetic component, which is this love that is naturally unifying.  When this feeling was brought to my attention, I was forever changed. I began to work on how to let go of this pain body.  This was the spiritual alchemy in motion. 

By learning to let go we surrender to higher aspects of ourselves.  We learn how this letting go actually allows a larger aspect of our consciousness to come in.  This is what we term Cosmic Consciousness, but it is in all truth US.....inside of you is a boundless being.  It exists outside of time, but here in this reality, you seem to limited.  How on earth could we be so boundless?  This means geting out of the head and into the energy body, into the FEELING body.  When you do that, you are closer to the love and bliss body and it s THAT body that is the closest to the Cosmic you. This Cosmic you is love.  Its the most amazing thing you will feel in your life.  By learning to let go of your hurts, you learn to divest yourself of that which gets in the way of the flow of this mighty river, or surging ocean within.  Its an amazingly simple process if you let it. 

Conversation With Dorothy on Heart Opening

Not long ago I came across Dorothy Walter's site. I have from time to time read poems she has written or some piece of writing she has found and posted about Kundalini. I found Ashton's site with his poetry to the Goddess through her site, Kundalini Splendor. I noticed that Dorothy had posted a piece of writing about St Theresa of Avilla, a Carmalite nun who was taken up into "ecstasies" that for the life of me strike me as being kundalini. I found out not long ago that Theresa's experience with an angel was nearly identical to my own, right down to the experience of having her heart opened and something thrust into it and the sensation of having her insides removed. I was astonished at how similar the experience was, and was expressing this to Dorothy, who picked up on the heart opening aspect of the experience. She ended up posting some of what I wrote to her about the experience here:


Kundalini Slendor

The experience, nearly two years ago, with the angel who announced that his name was Sandalphon, showed me his face and his nature while removing something from my insides is a story detailed in the book I am currently working on about my Awakening. The thing about the experience was that the angel I saw was a very tall being. I saw a pair of angel wings the evening before in the studio, filling the building from floor to rafters, a full 25 feet tall. When he said his name and explained he was a Seraphim, I looked him up online to find out more, only to find he was a very tall angel. In the span of seconds this angel showed me some things to change about my diet, pulled something out of me and revealed that I had a dual heart center which contained the heart of another, which showed up as a very beautiful flower like a lotus with many many many petals. It turns out that this angel, Sandalphon, is the person's guide or protector whose heart center was contained or was concurrent with my own in my heart chakra. The experience was a pivotal one in how it shifted powerfully my conception of how we can feel in this life. It was a powerful turning point.

Book Excerpt 2

This excerpt is from the first chapter of the book.

You see, quite simply, your karma is an energetic attractant, which is the same with any other thought you might have…these are all things which have a life of their own, which are given energy and are thus part of the rule of attraction. It is simply energy, and that energy works perfectly to attract more of itself. Do you want to stop the cycle of hurt in your life? You must learn to let go of your karma surrounding why you feel that you will be hurt. For as you think, so shall you be.

As was explained to me, the universe itself is neutral. It will do as we instruct through our thoughts and beliefs, even if we do so unconsciously and seemingly without direction or awareness. Its part of our role as co-creators, and part of this is learning the responsibility that comes with it to use it in a thoughtful and caring way both for ourselves and those whose lives we touch. If you want things to change, let go of your attachments to these old beliefs or hurts. When you do, you begin the process of cleaning up your life and opening yourself to the divine self within you in this very exciting age where one ancient cycle is coming to an end. As it was explained, this all comes down to learning to love ourselves. When we learn to do that, the consequence is that we quite naturally want to clean up the old karmas in order to get to a better place in our lives.

As we approach 2012 it becomes clear that all this time is is a marker of one age ending and another beginning. Ultimately it is we who must decide what 2012 will bring since it has always been this way. We decide. We can choose love over fear, and we can choose empathy over discompassion.

When your energy field is cleaned up and your karma surrendered, your energy body becomes much more sensitive. We are a lot like people who have been standing in a concert whose music has been blaring so loud that we have lost a part of our hearing. We do not realize just how sensitive our ears can be in detecting sound, how marvelous our bodies are in reproducing and transferring the outer world to our inner one. And in the same way, our energy bodies have become desensitized in such a way that the very delicate sensing within the range of divine is largely lost. We are very close to being ready and as a result we will be seeing a new understanding of how this energy works, and it will begin to seep through and will be taught by those who have themselves begun to awaken. Like any new tool, we learn how to come to grips with it and what it means to us. Concurrent with this discovery will also be the discovery that our universe is itself boundlessly filled with energy, an energy that we will learn to tap and use to fuel a new world where power is no longer controlled. It is at that point that many limits which we placed on ourselves will have been removed. If we choose a responsible path, a reverent one, this will have the ability to move the world out of poverty. For as hard as this might be to understand, we are on the cusp of this and those who are in the right place can choose to make all the right choices which will benefit the world in a way that we can scarcely imagine. But the truth is that within us is boundless energy and we will find that in our world it is also made up of an energy which is ours to tap which is a clean “cosmic” energy which is all around us and is inexhaustible. These two truths mirror each other perfectly as we make our way into this New Age.

Book Introduction Excerpt

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Monday, February 14, 2011

All Ways

I will Allways love you.....
adore you
wish
and obsess over you
your essence
so beautiful to me
I bring your image up
in my minds eye
I hold you gently
as this pulse moves through us both
and I am content with the simple fact
that you ARE.

Its a miracle really.
This becomes the Turning Piont
the place where the world tips on its side
and what went before
makes a turn
it never made before
as we find ourselves
breathless
and amazed
it is finally here.
In every moment lie the seed of its becoming
and here we can nurture it
and bring its into Being.

I spend my days now
since this last falling away
asking how does my heart seek to feel
and it answers simply
by letting go
because so much of This
is discovered in letting go.

I do not know you in this world
I know you in another
and in that another
I am bound so tightly to you
that I cannot decide whether
I want to BE one with you
or if I just want to mingle
so I can enjoy ever wrinkle
and sparkle
and sigh
that you make.

Curl up with me here
and I will tell you stories
and sing you songs
and love you deep.
I love you deep.
In this world.....
I know you always....
All Ways.

Instantaneous

Some change is instantaneous.  In order for it to happen several things must be in order.  First, you must surrender.  To do this, you may need Grace. What is grace?  This Grace is the creative impulse.  Its not the NEED to create but what happens to our insides when we are in its flow. When we are in that flow, little bothers us or hurts us.  Its not something you foster, its something you FEEL.  When you become more awakened you can begin to feel things in your energy field the same way one might feel objects in your body.  These things that get lodged in your field can be like thorny plants that have long since died.  Some of them are things that simply need to be removed.  The angel Sandalphon who came to me and showed me what I was, my deepest truth, showed also how I could tap the most exquisite love.  This involved his reaching in and pulling something out of my field.  I understood this to be something that was old and was no longer needed.  What was it? Was it a list of things that had begun to rot in my field?  These things sure felt like dead flayed bodies.  Kind of gross, yes, but the feeling was so vivid in this way, that it expressed this sense of something that I no longer used that was inside of me but was like some tooth that needed to just be pulled even though it had long since died.  I think that we are habitual creatures and hold onto things without even realizing what it is we are doing.  So some awareness is what will help each of us.  And a whole lot of love and understanding.

Wouldn't it be great to have someone who is willing to understand you each step along the way, not judging you but gently urging you to let go of your hurt and anger and all the rest so you could love deeper and deeper?  When you begin to feel this love inside of you as the animate thing that it is, the cosmic carrot is at work.  The real work is where this experience changes you.    The measure for me is when my behavior actually changes.  This is where the real work comes in....a persistant willingness to continue improving. The carrot, the reward, is this bliss I keep mentioning.  Its the love inside of you and I promise you, you have the means to know how to open your heart.  We now know that the heart sends more information to the brain than the information the brain sends to the heart.  This is a form of intelligence. And was it really a big surprise?  This heart field is the great Gateway that makes possible our compassion and deepest love. 

So today ask yourself not if you are worth such an experience but how are you going to reach such a place? You have always been worth it.  Here there is no retribution, no one-ups or payback.  No more of that.  This notion of punishment does not work, never worked.  It just filled a world full of worry and hurt and fear. Does fear ever work?  No, fear does not ever work when it comes to the higher self, the soul.  Here, we are stepping out of something old and into something new and remarkable.  We are remaking the Human Race and stepping into the next phase of our becoming. Truly.  So consider it a new day.  New slate. We will all make mistakes; we are human.  That's why we are here!  Make a mistake, but lets carry compassion and forgiveness so when someone messes up of falls or misses the garden path we can cover their hurts and let them know that this time around, there is no retribution, only compassion....because when you see and feel the soul you will know that every single person on the planet is a beautiful being with so much love inside of them....we are just trying to get that love out through the briars of our becoming.  As we learn to clear the way, we feel better and better.....and change can turn on a single decision.

So just as Sandalophon asked me recently to me as I walked across the parking lot, "wouldn't it be nice to just let go of that hurt in you?  Wouldn't it feel so much better to just let it go?"  I agreed that he was right, yes it would be.    He then showed me how I would begin to feel.  This is our great gift to each other; we can let others feel through us.  This is why a soul connection can be so important because that person can let you feel how they feel about you if you have poor self image, self esteem, or any number of things.  Perhaps that person is better able to feel into something more than you.  By using your intention to feel into their awareness of you, you can quite literally see yourself from a perspective you might not have been able to do before. This is what empathy and compassion can bring when dealing with Collective Consciousness.  With soul connections we feel each other from the inside out, and this method of relationship is important I think for being able to break free from our old bounds and old conceptions as well of what we thought was and was not possible.  Just as a room full of other people in a conversation can provide us with different perspectives that we might not have considered, so can a soul connection provide this but on a much more intimate and ground breaking way if we let it.  This is how, in a moment, we can realize something about our process or ourselves that we never saw or understood before.  And in that moment we can also realize that our old way of doing something just does not work, or might be so much better if done a different way.  And what am I reffering to here?  Anything. You name it.  And we get to be gifts to one another in the process. 

So consider how so much of your investments can lovingly, and gracefully, can go up in a puff of smoke and free you. You might even feel yourself all over wondering what just happened....as though you were utterly changed.  Its because in a sense, you just were!

This Surrender

The very essence of this is in letting go.  When we let go, breathless we enter the kingdom...shimmering and yearning and smiling red faced.  Lovely, entwined, awakened, loved, loving, something inside of us recognizes and the heart stretches open.  It gives itself up to the higher. As a man, this surrender is different from anything I have known I might experience, and yet this surrender becomes like a total experience as He, my higher self, moves through me and filling me with the most sensual of bliss while he at the same time seeks his beloved in this realm, this expression of existence.  This one petal, small, part of such a boundless expression, is still cherished.  The very nature of This is to cherish down to the very smallest to the largest.  Within All lies the channel for connecting to the divine so the ability drives through every single thing that Is.  This is what our ancestors called the Atman.  This is our divine spark, what connects us in a kaleidoscopic fashion to our larger selves and then to Creation and to each other. 

Surrender.  Its in us, and we crave it once we can get beyond the fear of letting go.....really letting go.  The more we can do this, the more we can let come that part of us which is our divine heritage.  THis, our higher self is our divine selves.....the presence of our divinity.  Once you have touched this, or have made room for it in your life, it turns into something life changing.  When you touch this in an awakening it brings such intensity and opening.  Its strength and depth is proportional to the work that you are willing to do on yourself.  If like me, at some point it was like a tipping point where the bliss overcame the pain body.  Then, as the material was removed from me, my heart began to feel very different.  An emergence of a deeper kind happens.  Your field begins to be even more sensitized and you realize that the pain you had before you had become numb to which dictated some of your hurt feelings and behavior.  This changes and you feel as though a whole new layer of spiritual nerve endings woke up or stopped being numb and began feeding new sensory stimuli into your being.  This continues as the process continues.  This process is continuous.  There is no end to it. It only gets better and better. 

But its also just the beginning.  There are countless people who do not let this awakening touch them deeply.  As we begin to let go, we let go of those investments we made in ego.  As we let go we let go of those karmic entanglements that occupied our energy field in the same way that a slow turning through occupies your brain, like a song that just wont go away.  That's it.    With a picture like that, doesn't it make sense to ask the simple question what is it I need to surrender?  What can I let go of in order to feel something truly remarkable and beautiful (my soul)?  All of this self improvement stuff, its just that; stuff.  Its not the deeper path into This without a self that is willing to be shaped and is willing to become the essence of surrender.  We can ALL experience what an Awakening brings.  It brings the cosmic carrot....but we must not just follow but must be willing to be shaped by this experience.  Part of this is a combination of ingredients.  Surrender is chief amongst them.  With Surrender there is also Grace, a necessary ingredient, because it is Grace that gives us the capacity to let go of those hurts and resentments.  It lets us see how critical it is for us to begin this divestment within. 

I know how hard it can be. We are talking lifetimes of investments.  They all present themselves in our field in our Now. Within us, though, is the unique capacity to make clean breaks.  Even in our dna there is this thing we call mutation. Our scientists think of it as merely accidental.  But when something mutates, it can express a change in the organism that is entirely new and different. Some species can go through rapid change in relatively short time spans.  It appears as though some species merely emerge as if at the snap of some cosmic finger.  We have this same characteristic spiritually.  While the Collective Self of humankind might be weighed down with the result of what we have worked through these last 10,000 years, there is still this amazing thing in us that sparks change like you snap your fingers.  Just as we have grace spiritually we have its counterpart in an evolutionary fashion, too.  Its a matter of focus.  We can at any time turn away from that which held us back.  We are more blessed than we realize. 


Follow The Heart

I still feel that Valentine's day is a sad commentary on how we choose to celebrate love in this world. But its what we have and its why I am here.....to write about love.  Its actually great we have set aside a day for love, I just think that we need to mine it more deeply as it relates to our Core Self.

Inside of each of us is something truly remarkable. It is a pathway back to ourselves, to a Dominion of Being that is at once forgotten yet the most powerful reminder of who and what we are.  This path leads to a bliss that is nothing short of exquisite and marvelous.   What this is is our soul love.  In us is a soul that is nothing but love.  This love is a force....not a feeling...but a moving line of force that interpenetrates everything. We are all so hungry for this love that we tend to spend our lifetimes tied up in knots over it in one way or another.  Just now there is a window where we can begin to feel this marvelous pulsation in our world.  It is who we are, it is what we are underneath all the insulation.  Furthermore, reaching it is not a mysterious thing.  Reaching it is merely an act of surrender. When we surrender our karmic entanglements and heal ourselves we are in fact healing the universe.  When we do this a cascade of events begin to happen. This leads to still greater things.

An angel once said to me that I would not have been going through the machinations I was if I knew what lay on the other side of the experience.  I was in truth tied up in knots over my fractured self, that part of me which has vibrated at the frequency of hurt and pain and loss for countless lifetimes.  This being was offering me a pathway to a love so incredible as to be disarming.

The world is so hungry for love. Lets make a commitment to learning to plumb our deepest depths knowing that within there is something so wonderful and beautiful there that it will take your breath away.  Inside of us is a world, a self, that is perfect.  We can come into communion with this self and allow its presence in our lives to begin to heal and strip us of all that never fit our higher purpose.  Its an amazing alchemy of the self, if you will but allow yourself the possibility of its happening.  Its time to discover that we are each sovereign, that we each exist in a boundless way and that this is a very crucial time for us all to wake up and brush off the dust and feel how the love of which I speak can begin to animate us.  Its important.  Its what we are.  Thus far, its been through a glass darkly, or a mirror that has ben smudged a bit.  Time to see and feel more clearly.  Time to know the magic that we are, the love that we embody.

Not so long ago I was visited by an angel.  He reached into me and changed my life.  His mere touch in my heart center awakened some part of me, revealing something truly amazing about us and what's possible here on this planet. What's more he sent me on a trajectory that forever changed the way I see things.  What he gave me was the greatest gift. He showed me what we are capable of. Its beyond imagining.  But lets not imagine just because its beyond.  Its now time to begin to conceive of what seemed impossible, to feel what is ours to feel.  Your soul is love.  Lets give the tide it rides on some room in our lives.

On this Valentine's day consider for a moment that there is something so lush and juicy waiting for all of us, and its a love that will change your notions of what you thought this was all about. Just say yes.  Consider its possibility; your Authentic Self knows what to do with the rest.  Such an act of intention is a powerful act of sovereignty.

Happy Valentine's Day.  May union rein!

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Prison


All around you
are the effects that have grown up around you
in this life
and countless others
which have become hardened
like steel
just as your conceptions have
just like your beliefs
case hardened
immovable
and in many cases
forgotten.

We forget
that we exist inside a prison
of our own making.
No one makes this for us
yet we rail against it sometimes
pointing to a "them" or some vast conspiracy.
Truth be told
we are so clever
and creative
we do it to ourselves
until we wake up and realize
we are doing it to ourselves
and then we let slip
away
those defenses which kept us tied up
and hemmed in.

The moment of freedom
comes like a light
a delicate wave of bliss
that builds
in a direction where the self
teeters at the top of its experience
then tumbles down the other side
and finds itself in another world entirely.
Same world
different world
it is you who have changed;
shaking off the bars
that were your own imprisoning.

Just a few days ago a student worked quietly
at his art project
a brain with a key hidden inside of it
just where the pineal gland would be.
His concept in a flash became revealed to me.
Smiling he asked me if I knew what the pineal was
I began to speak about Awakening and our own inner chemistry of Ascension
and was proud of him;
his spirit knew
we live as if in a prison
and inside of us is the key.
He has been searching for ways to get at this key
and now he speaks of it in his work
wordless
but true.

"Throughout all of nature I have left you keys
to your greater becoming..."
he said inside of me so many moons ago
and I was so glad to see someone so close
speak so openly
and clearly.

Inside of you
lies the means for removing the shackles.
You wonder about those shackles
they are utterly invisible to you
and they hold you in a place
that once you leave
you wonder how you ever remained.

Our hurts
traumas
all  become  prisons
as our insides turn off
and lock us up
to protect
and in protecting
insulate us from the divine.
We spend the rest of Waking Up
removing those bars
chains
and shackles
only to realize in the end
that even the idea of the prison
was a creation
for our intention to remove
like a lover before
her beloved
before they jump in that great sea of honey.

Hidden in each of us
promised
in the turning of our genetic code sequences
are the keys to our liberation.

Just now
no one seems to know
how to take the key to unlock
only that the lock is opened one day
when before it was locked.

I am here to say
we each bear this key
intentionally
and are about to learn to use it;
it spreads like fire.
We are its fire.
Its fire does not burn in us
we ARE the fire
and we pass this fire
through intention
and resonance.
We are vibrating ourselves awake
where keys drop like rain

Just now
something turns inside
the collective WE
the All of Us
and its now undeniable.
Its a way of waking up where its hard to lie and have it stick.
Suddenly a world full of lies and deceit
is emptied of its purpose
as one world transits another
a soft brush against your shoulder
as you feel the hopes of a trillion seers
since the beginning
they tug hard on you
as the wind of this change
says that its time
time to let go those bars
that prison.
Inside of you is the pharmacopia necessary to unlock you
no price for admission
no street price
no law to break
no chants
no diets
just the spark which will light you
set you aflame
as you awaken into gnosis
and gnosis blooms in you.

What will unlock you will be its marvelously vibrating love
not a feeling FOR someone
but a wave
a force
a presence
and here things will turn and shift
as you realize
even the prison wasn't real
but it sure helped us find that key....

Saturday, February 5, 2011

What Is Required

All we need to do
to change this world
is to do one thing
and that one thing
has within it
the seeds
of our transformation.

See....

I once loved.
I thought I knew what love was.
But as my life unfolded
so did love
when I awoke
so did this love.
No longer just a feeling for another
but a pulse of Being
love is an awareness
a desiring
a force beyond anything else.

Bring all the mushroom clouds
toxic thoughts
and creations
none of them stand before love
like love stands.

So learn to love
and if you have not felt love like this force
just know its up ahead
we all have to unfold in just the right way
for it to be felt
and when its here
its grand.
Amazing.

All we have to do is love.
Just love.
We do not need to hold banners
or join Crusades
or try to save others from themselves
because THIS love does not exist
except when unconditional
so no conditions.
Love begetting love.

That is all that is required to win the world
and the heavens contained therein.

Zeitgeist















I have a secret.

Its a big juicy one.

Its been turning in humanity since day one
and its here.
Now.

So here it goes.....

This world is duality, pure and simple.
Sages and gurus all say this is illusion
and yet, if it were illusion, then it would not need to be.

Its needing to be is what makes it real.
No games on that one.
Simple and straight.
Told like it is.

So there is a greater reality,
a place where everything emanates
and everything is a projection of.
Kaleidoscopic.

Gurus and Sages all say
the world is illusion
but it is not illusion.
It is a creation
and we are free to create something new.
Its the learning to bring in the infinite
into the moment
and hold it there
learning its juicy secret of love
unconditional
that can change hearts and minds
and resolve the world back
to the pearl
the diamond
that it has always been.

Awakenings reveal our connectedness
the diamond in all things
but the problem is, it does not remove
duality in this plane.
Some say duality is illusion
but duality was a gift from the Creator
it is not forgotten or wiped clean away.
Its bell cannot be unrung
or conveniently pushed under the cosmic
Kardashian rug.

So All is real;
for all is created
Each of us is the All....
One.
No quibbling
just simply that; One.
But we are also divided out
individual.
Its our great gift from our Creator,
the way back to the promised land.

The big secret is how the two are now coming to know themselves
how these two ends of the uroboros will become one....but first....

To explain how important this individuality was
and is
The Creator would have been driven mad had it not released
all of its countless creations
to the Great uncertainty of individuation.

Within the great heart of the All
the first great wave, what would become the foundation of Creation
were the "first" to know freedom from Creator
moved and knew itself as itself
but not apart from the Creator
and that Creator was slowly going mad;
and there was only one answer.
Surrender.

The answer was echoed by a pulsating blast hard to describe.
Imagine an orgasm
that contains within it
ALL of the potentiality
bound up within it
not fully realizing
until the grand shudder began to ripple through its furthest corners
that grand orgasm had some surprises in store for Creator.
It was a hell of a lot bigger than it bargained for
for what that shudder contained was not just that which it sought
to release
but countless infinite releases of everything that that first wave would
become
imagine infinity tied up neatly
and released
not so neatly
and such suprises which emerged from that which was not known
by Creator.
In that amzing moment worlds unfolded
amazing worlds which I cannot begin to even describe
one which was this world
but countless worlds
infinities of them
were in that moment released
as they began to evolve and radiate outward
itself creating more of itself
as Consciousness has a want to do....

So

The biggest risk
and biggest payback
as EVERYTHING
sprang forth
and moved "outward"
from that point of awareness that was
Is
Creator.
Created.
And we in turn do the same thing; creators.

In that moment
Creator felt something so sublime
a joy
and relief
oh my
I did not die
I am no longer mad
but I am driven
as if mad
and look at this shimmering realm
moving "outward"
as what was released
grew in geometric fashion
as more things were created
all which existed as if some seed
within the first seed
as potential
not fully realized
but existant within the whole somehow
as consciousness then sought to create more of itself
and from this grand grand lineage
you and I were born
quite literally
from the loins of those greater than you and I
yet yearning to see us grow into our own versions
of the Creator.

This love is what echoes down through the ages
and its nothing short of the best tidal-wave of passion
that will leave you breathless....
realizing that this is not about dual and nondual
but about BOTH
and what that presents itself to us in this age
this place
just now.

We are godlings.
See, speaking such heresy was never so easy; nor more true.
We each, masculine and feminine
swirling with our own special brand
concoction of the mix
transform ourselves
and find those parts of us
which existed
born of that potentiality
now knowing itself
One
Separate (Creator was alone once....)
sacred equivalents
coming back in this time
as it will visit us in other windows down through time
as we climb that spiral staircase.

So individual
yes
One
most assuredly
but the claim
for the age
the Zeitgeist
will be
the two folded over into each other.
Verily I say to you
Christ
Buddha
and a thousand guru saints
all dance upon this one certainty
now no longer secret.

Come;
let us weave singularity
and unity
into a new tapestry
lets knit back all of this horrible sadness
into a new joy
these thoudands of years
swimming across oceans of tears
lets lift ourselves up
Awakened
ready for the grandness
that lies within us
for all of the hurt we have carried
and created
must have been for something.

Come, the shuttle moves across the warp
as the threads of our smaller being
are consumed by the threads of something larger
as Individuality
and Unity
Forge a new alliance,
a new folding over
here
now.

Friday, February 4, 2011

Warning


I am here
once again
to explain
I am dangerous.
You don't know
what I am capable of
do you?



Inside of me
there moves
the reptile
my basest nature
moving up through the depths
He is powerful
strong
and he desires
insatiably.
He eyes you continually
and taken alone,
he is hazard
danger
and raw.
he also moves through our world
a little too uncontrolled
or alone
to be of great service.
His advantage,
though,
is he knows what he wants.
There is no equivocation,
and he has a thing or two to teach the world.
He is here to bring certainty to the moment.
For as reviled as he has been
he offers something central
and necessary.
While cocky and egoistic
he is needed in This
Awakening Time
and he carries the sacred seed
which you will feel pulsing
In you
through all of nature
his presence shimmering in you
and
which will crack you open
as your sacred feminine lifts and blooms
like a flowering tree
into heaven.

I have felt him
before the saint emerged
which was merely the healing
and Surrender
I feel Him
but he no longer lurks
but is harnessed
by quick deft hands
as my eyes move across him
his skin ripples in the blue night
his passion
growling deep within him
rumbling all around him
his musky scent emanating
concentrating
around you
as your perfume
draws him close.

His world is not one which is alone
a wild animal no longer roaming the wood.
But the truth is
every woman ever born
has ached for that HIM
to run with her through the wood
taking her hand
as his blue skin glows
and his divine self lights up with an old recognition
birthed in this One moment
and steers his lower self
as the multiple layers of
reptile
mammal
and primate
merge
the triadic brain awakens
to its true potential
as the wild animal in him
in Me
howls in the night
and calls you
calls you
as your body wraps itself around mine
and unfolds
in layers
deeper
deeper

feel me

my deepest most animal
to my most sainted
all as a piece
moving with wonder and joy
that we are here
just like this.

We carry it all with us
no part is wasted
nor reviled.
All is delivered.
Redeemed.

Wizardly

Cernunnos




















What will you do
when your insides begin to revolve
as It begins
inside of you
the cosmos awakening within itself
and tearing down your precious preconceptions
revealing your precious soulconception
which unveils the divine conception
that you are birthed to.

Your Mother and Father
birthed you
from such divine bliss
that it echoes down through your
essence
and  all that you concieve
are
and birth.

The divine spreads itself
subtly
through our being
out beyond
in the grass
and the wind
and also in my body
as it knows itself to be one
with that same grass
and wind
so that when my hand rises up to touch you
from thousands of miles away
I touch you through  intent
which is both timeless and unbound
neither contained nor defined by it
- free.
Freed, my hand slides down your throat
and warms itself against your chest
as a vibration begins
a circuitry reveals itself
as my hand cups your breast
and lightening moves through me
as a great secret
Divine Energetics
reveal themselves in us.

My very essence becomes comb-like
as my hands rake through your essence
and I breathe in your feminine
which drives in me an endless
boundless
desire
as you flow
into me
and from me I plough back into you
that beingness which the ancients knew
would make the flowers grow
and the fields build fertility
as we dance
catalytic
and bring to life
innumerable things.



The reason why he was horned
was because he was fertile
fecund
and ready.
His horn
sharp
hard
could penetrate through the darkness
and awaken within her
her greatest secret
her greatest desire
and her holiest love.
Awakening to the All
is to awaken to this divine pulse
of desiring...
which is a rending,
a tearing,
a reconfiguring
as we become better vessels for what the All
offers.

What makes me so powerful
is that I know
that the All moves through my veins.
I am myself a small man
 a singular man
but a man who stands in a river
and bids that river become him
as it bids him to become it
as the two merge
in a union
I cannot describe to you
both because it is so sacred
potent
beyond true conveyance by word
but not to touch
or carrying
as it moves through you
nonlocal
like combs
and horns
heavy with His
All
seeking deeper within you
deeper
deeper
always deeper
as He reveals more of you
awakens and invigorates
the She that you are
His passionate yearning
wed to the All
touches your infinite self
your Goddess
aches to know Him
as another kind of Her
which moves in golden circles
taking her essence
her lace
and returns and renews
as they both touch this great secret
which builds the Third
as He knows someday he will touch all of you
and will have to bring all aspects together
in a divine marriage of aspects
which will ring as the kingdom here on earth.

I stand before you
distanced
but no walls can now hold me
no barriers insulate me
from you
as electric
I crackle
as my hand moves all across your field
as my intent resolves,
hardens
sharpens
to pierce
and break open new flows
from their rocky corridors
caverns of soulfulness
your boundles beauty
known to me
to Him
as his breath becomes orgasmic
as he breaths worlds into you
from across this physical divide
as he feels you build in potentiality
as we break open
build
and break again
building new levels of potential
as the body of our selves
conception
enables for greater knowing
as my hands move over you
as they crave to touch you
cool and slick and tight and happy
joyful
and breathless
bound
unbound
quiversome
and glad.....

I will open you.

I will breathe my hardened passion into you
as my kiss threads deep into you
as I move
my essence rubbing against you
making static grow
inside of you
divine yearning
these wordless pleasures
like mantras
on my lips
your lips
move next to mine
in this dance
which leads into forever.

Your simplest glance speaks worlds
and shifts my own
as she dances her truth
sings her truth
awakens to her truth
which beckons Him to come
make more fertile
in this union of souls.

Godlings we are -
sacred
simple
small
and utterly infinite.



What will you do
when your insides begin to revolve
as It begins
inside of you
the cosmos awakening