Healing The Light Body

I have something juicy for you.  Give it some time to sink in, and as you do, keep reading.  This is one simple yet powerful way to change your life for the better. Within this is lifetimes worth of imprisonment and misunderstanding fueled by hurt and your old wounds.  Let yourself read on, for the material gets good as it gets wrapped up…..I have written about this before on this blog, but this brings in some new elements that can help you in freeing yourself from the past. It is a game changing method or way of understanding the way things go.

One of the hardest things for us to do is to reflect on our own karmic entanglements.  Little do we know how it affects our light body.  Its so hard for us to do that we literally spend lifetimes trying to work our one small issue that deals with self love, for example.  Over and over, we will experience the defeat of having lost something or someone, for example, always looking past the karma at the effects, never turning a bright light on why certain things in our ever-so-short lives repeat as they do. 

Your energy or light body is made to work perfectly as a conduit for the energy of the cosmos.  Lifeforce is more than merely the body operating within certain limits that involve trillions of chemical actions and reactions every second.  When you finish with all of the biology, we are all left with the HOW but not the WHY.  Lifeforce is the WHY.  Your light body can bring you an over abundance of energy if you let it.  Here is where the abundance makes you feel incredible.  When people undergo awakening, or activate what is known as kundalini, they are bringing into their light body a process that opens the doorways to more energy.  This energy is aware and blissful, and the more you feel, the more blissful you are.  Its quite simple, really. The problem, though, is that karma causes rips or tears in the etheric body that lays you open to all kinds of influences.  Why?  Like attracts like.  Think of karma is being just like a computer virus that replicates itself.  Karma is itself an attachment to an old hurt, what I call The First Cause.  This first cause can turn in you, keeping an old wound fresh for lifetimes.  As long as this wound is fresh in you, it keeps getting re-opened because it happens to attract its mirror.  You will keep getting hurt in the way you had originally when the First Cause came about.  This could have happened scores of lifetimes ago and while you may not have been gifted with memories from these other times, experiences in awakening are revealing just how recursive these hurts have been for us.  We can’t let go of them, so they stay in us, and because they lay low in the subconscious for most of the time, we ordinarily do not think or reflect on them until some event takes place that acts like salt on that old wound and which drives the feeling to the surface.  Its in that moment of stinging pain that hardly anyone says “I am going to step back from this searing pain and ask myself why I am feeling this way to begin with.”  No, this hardly happens because in that moment, we are all just trying to tread water in that moment and we just want the hurt to go away. So quite naturally, we do not pause to reflect. You might find yourself reflecting once the hurt has subsided, but by that time, the virus that is that old pain turning in you has begun to sink into your nether world of the subconscious self.  The opportunity for stopping in the moment and stepping back some never happens, and as it turns out this is how we root out these old hurts…..when “everyone” involved is still at the scene of the crime.  I know that this might not sound right to you, but I promise you that most often we deal with the hurt or fear only when we are faced with it.  Its almost as though we need to be facing the 180° turn from bliss into fear or hurt that we actually are able to transform it.  Now, this is not an absolute, however, but realize that absent having the hurt present, you will have to have a proportionate level of compassion on hand and a willingness to face the mystery of it in its absence in order to bring about the process of self transformation.  The biggest healing happens most often in the face of greatest adversity.  The bigger the risk, the larger the reward. The only way I can describe it is that its an energetic principle.  If you are extremely insightful and disciplined, you can let it go without the bruhaha within.  

People talk about entities, negative forces, and how we are to protect ourselves.  In truth, the only reason why there is a “negative force” in our field is due to something that is yet to be resolved.  This is the karma, an old record or program running in the subconscious that keeps you from being able to glimpse your divinity, to know who you are deeper down, the real you. This creates karma something akin to a tear in our field.  In all truth, there is no physical tear because the light body does not work that way.  We are applying a very physical notion on something that works on a different set of principles.  In truth, we simply attract what we wished we didn’t into our fields because that old broken record is still there playing in us and it creates this attraction.  We might use sheer force of mind to try and keep things out of our immediate awareness, but this is more like cordoning off a small portion of your awareness while other parts are wide open.  You do not see their influence even though it is there.  This works only as a stop gap, but does not eliminate the problem, but many people in their practice do use this and it seems to work for a while, but this is not the whole story.

Most often, we are not aware of how these little “viruses” serve to make us to feel.  We might have lived with them for lifetimes, and have grown used to how they have acted as a filter in ourselves, literally changing how the energy feels coming into us. Its because we spend so much time dealing with the broken record that we are unable to access our own inspiration, our own divine state.  Without thinking about it, we actually become habituated to an old meme, an old feeling, and even though its destructive, we will seek out those people and events that will wind up giving us the feeling that we have so grown used to, even without realizing that this is happening. It winds up feeling natural because we have nothing else to compare it to.  But deeper down, you have an awareness that can bring you glimpses into what could be felt differently.  It is this same self that opens the doors to awakening within you and begins to also show you a new way to be.  Even in the midst of awakening, though, a hard energy can merely be amped up ten-fold so it FEELS powerful, but its not clear…..its being run through the filter of the karma.  This is why awakening will never bring you the instantaneous total enlightenment that you think it could or should be.  You still have to heal those "tears" in your field.  

What happens to you when you do this?  I rather feel that people know deeper down that its a much better place.  It is.  Its a feeling as though your own energy system has gone from hiccups to purring like a finely tuned automobile, maybe a jallopy that is now more like a race car.  That old jallopy got you down the road and seemed to work okay, but now you have this vehicle that is perfect for extradimensional travel.  Its not just a feeling of flow, its a feeling as though its all perfect.  Thought is clearer, feelings are solid.  There are no hiccups, or far far fewer hiccups. As you heal each virus running in your system, you allow your system to run that much more efficiently. Bliss fills you immediately.  Its as though the old stick in the mud is pulled out of its old hole and new energy fills the space.  The payback is instantaneous, you see.  

So how do we resolve these old karmas, hurts, wounds, or viruses running in our system?  The way is through forgiveness.  If you consider for a moment how karma makes you react, it always does so by getting you wound up within emotion.  Ego is there, helping you to identify in a singular way with how someone or something made you feel.  You wind up seeing the person who hurt you but you do not stop and consider the larger aspects at work.  If you follow the Law of Attraction to its conclusion, then you attracted this.  

Now stop and consider in this moment what is on the other side of the equation.  That person, who you attracted, is acting out based on their own hurt.  Ego will say to you in this moment that they were being selfish, cruel, uncaring.  But this is what our wounds do to us.  It keeps us from thinking and being rational about the larger picture.  We merely react.  But if we DO step back for a moment we can begin to see how the kid that beat up our own child or the bully on the playground was also acting out of their own hurt.  Does this mean that we simply let someone off the hook? Yes, you do let them off the hook.  This is what forgiveness does.  Its as though you turn away and say “I will not seek justice against this person, they are choosing to weave this in their own life. I will no longer be involved in this. Whatever comes to them comes to them as a result of their OWN karma, their OWN choice.”  By doing this, you allow them the freedom to be who they are, and their own karma will have a way of continuing to bring them what they mirror.  People who act this way will wind up in their own lives having to come face to face with the consequences of their own actions, but tell me, what good does it do to you to become enmeshed in their karma?  By gaining satisfaction that they will “get theirs” you are still quite within the karma yourself.  When you let go of all investment in whatever the problem is, you also let go of the energy and it will cease attracting these same people in your life. It may help to step back and consider what the other person is going through, right or wrong.  Very rarely do people at in a mean way who have themselves been the brunt of the same behavior.  You don’t have to even forgive all of this, you just have to forgive them and yourself. But if this is too hard, consider how it might have been for them for a moment,because when you do this, you are literally inviting compassion into your field of awareness long enough to make some shifts possible.

Maybe this person felt belittled in their life, and went on to somehow make themselves feel better by acting on the only behavior they knew, which was to somehow press their own superiority in the moment, their own piece of control over things.  In that moment, what we do not stop to consider is that in bullying or hurting someone, we never make ourselves feel any better….but remember, in that moment, we(or our bully) aren’t acting based on all the information.  We are merely reacting.  And yes, reaction or action IS a CHOICE.  Ego will say “yes, but they CHOSE to act that way.” This is true, but it is also true that they were acting on the wound.  They chose to go with the wound just like everyone else tends to do, but does this make any of this right?  it does not make it right on their end, but neither does it make it right on your end even if its being done TO you because in reacting, you are hurting yourself by staying in that cycle of action/reaction.  Does any of this help us to move forward?  Forgiveness.  

What forgiveness does is it makes your light body slippery in these instances.  The energy flows through you and away from you.  If there is nothing impeding its way, its more like the wind instead of an insult, or hurt.  If you happen to mirror someone who is doing this and you merely react based on the old energy, you will pull that energy into yourself and it will result in your own reaction.  This will keep the ball being tossed back and forth until someone simply stops and says “no more, I quit.”  When you quit, you don’t just use your will to stop the behavior, you allow yourself to forgive completely so the stickiness of your field does not allow the behavior to affect you.  In that moment, you will never be bothered by such actions again.  They will quite literally fade from your life from that moment onward.  If you merely use force of will to say you will no longer react, you DO help to allow the energy to fade some, and this is a good thing, but unless the root of the problem has not been pulled up entirely, it will come back to you in another relationship. 

Psychologists recognize that people who have had abusive relationships in their childhood, say in their family life, will go on seeking out people who will wind up abusing them later in their adult life. The reason for this is because the person was unable to get past it.  They were unable to forgive the people and the situations.  Because of this, they were kept in the cycle of this energy, this behavior, until they were able to grapple with it.

I once had a friend in high school many years ago whose father used to be outwardly emotionally abusive.  He showed how he wished she had not been born. She got in the way of his having the life he wished he had had he been without her.  That is a pretty hard one to take.  She grew up and left home and she went on to have relationship after relationship that involved this same form of abuse.  Time and time again, she would be rejected by the men in her life, often in rather spectacular ways.  She once called me at two in the morning in tears wanting to know why on earth she seemed to have radar for these kinds of men.  They all seemed perfectly great in the beginning, but always would do the same kinds of things to her. It wasn’t that there weren’t any good men out there, she was just attracting all the ones that mirrored this old wound of hers.  It was all done entirely unconsciously.  Her own karma served to create the attraction to these men in the first place, otherwise, she would not have considered their advances, their kind words seeking to woo her.  Now, some twenty-four years after the fact, she remains, as best I can tell, single.  Until she is able to find the means to forgive, this energy will turn in her, and it will be taken into her next life where it will play out with yet another parent, and then on into her adult life yet again.  The cycle will continue until the light goes on in her head and she summons the courage, the strength, and the inner love to free herself once and for all. This is what I mean when I say that these karmas are very hard to dispense with.  We merely react instead of stepping back and considering that while, yes, its being done to us, what is the other side to this?  The person is acting out on their own hurt….right or wrong….and regardless of how right or wrong we might want to see all of this, what makes the difference is what WE do in that moment.  

So you forgive.  Absent being able to forgive, consider that this is something you have associated with for a very long while and the tendency to be knee-jerk is habituated in you.  Continue stepping back from it. In this case, learning to be aloof at least for now will give you an inch of breathing room. Next time, it will give you two inches.  The next time it will give you five.  As each time that this same situation occurs, you can choose to react differently.  This is like digging yourself out of a hole when you weren't able to just walk away from the hole.  Its a start if you can't just let it go completely.  Use your imagination for a moment and imagine how free you could feel by not feeling like some old behavior bothers you anymore. Feel this.  Let it wash over you. Then tell yourself that you are going to call upon your higher resources to bring you the sense of forgiveness that you yourself cannot feel.  Ask to be led.  Your higher self is invisibly close to you, and you need only ask and then be patient.  Be open to becoming inspired.  

There is one thing that has been highly useful for people in all of this and it involves “giving it over to God.”  I am not a big one for the Christian dogma, but even a blind dog will catch a bird every once in a while!  And this is one method that Christianity has gotten right.  You can give it up to ANYTHING, though…..but whatever it is, you have to have some investment or belief in it in order for it to work for you.  If you can give it over to some higher power effectively, you can simply unburden yourself of it completely.   Let it be someone else’s issue. God can certainly handle our big problems as though they were nothing.  And certainly the love that the deity is can take all of our problems away. The deity knows that when you can let go of all of that junk, you will have come closer to it and to your own inner truth. If you consider that the deity is the sum total of all realities, all worlds, and all things plus a little extra, how big do you think your struggles are in comparison to a consciousness that it like that?  Miniscule.  If you think it will work for you, it can be a very potent method for gaining ground for yourself.  You see, you are not here to right the world.  You are here to realize what is right in YOUR world. Once you do that, and only when you do that, will you ever be able to help others.  Only then will you have the capability to work the larger issues. 

Another thing you could do is to imagine taking all of your problems and put them into a small boat and then untie the boat form the dock and push it out to sea.  Say to the sea “This was never mine, but I made it mine.  I am sorry for taking these things on, please forgive me.  I love you.  Thank you.”  And then in the cool dusky light, let the boat slip away from the dock as it heads out to sea. The current will gently take it and it will no longer be any concern for you. Keep doing this until you feel free from it.  The one key to all of this is visualizing it clearly.  This is where the power of the imagination works wonders. 

You could also do as I once did, which was to imagine standing by the ocean, on the sand with the wave licking at your feet as you imagine all your problems, all your issues going into a giant trunk.  You let them go into that trunk nd you close it up and say “this was never mine, but I did make it mine.  I am now returning it to you the great ocean of forgiveness so I can have a new life…please forgive it, I let it all go....”  You can use other methods, whatever your imagination suggests that is best for you.  You see, your imagination will lead you to inspiration if you let it, and inspiration is your own divinity.  I promise you.  The more inspired you can be, the better you will be in dealing with the broken record of karma.  Its in the inspired moment that your own divinity is talking and it can lead you out of this whole situation.  

There is another method that is one that is really remarkable, and I am leaving it for last.  Its based on a Hawaiian healing method called Ho’onoponopo

Imagine how I felt when I began reading up on this technique.  I had learned in my awakening how these old programs made us do what we do not want to do, but how to break out of them?  This was all karmic, and it limits us.  A friend told me about Ho’onoponopo.  It was not full of techniques, methods.  It was amazingly simple.  I will let a student of one of the people responsible for its popularity to speak for herself as she writes (link included below) :

When we were growing up and too young to know how to defend our minds we absorbed everything that was going on around us and interpreted the meanings based on our understanding of the world as a little child.

Those beliefs are still running our lives to this day.

When we don’t release the erroneous thoughts we do not act with free will as most suppose we do. We are certainly not able to act from inspiration with memories playing.

Our responses and reactions are coming from a memory. A place inside us where a memory resides. A memory which, we are probably not aware of that has attached, “un-consciously”, the meaning of a certain situation.

A certain situation or circumstance happened at some point in our past and it could be before we were born. It could have been a memory from an ancestor, relative or family member.

Somehow, a decision was made about the meaning of that situation and when we are confronted with something that triggers that memory in us today - we are not choosing how we will respond in the moment.

It could have been as innocent as a child overhearing a parent repeat the phrase “it isn’t easy” as it was with me. I spent a lifetime working harder than I needed to because somewhere inside of me, without my conscious awareness, I just knew, in order to be successful you had to work hard.

If the memory continues to play and we do not clear it - we can not hope to control our decisions today.

How often do you ask yourself why you do the things you do not want to do? Why for example can’t you accomplish the things you believe you want for your life?

For me, I wondered what it was I was working so hard for. I wasn’t enjoying my life - all I did was work. It wasn’t until I was able to release that limiting belief and others that I was able to move into the flow of my life.

Into that place where creation is easy and effortless. A place that has nothing to do with “it isn’t easy”.

You know the difference between an inspired action and one that is playing from a memory if you just observe yourself.

There are only two possibilities, we are either acting out of inspiration or memory. We know when it feels good and we loose track of time and are fully present in the moment that we are acting out of inspiration.

When we can’t quiet our minds and seemingly small things frustrate us; when our reactions to a situation seem bigger than the situation warrants…or simply when we are not living the life we want to live…we are working from a place of memory.

Observe how you are feeling in any moment and you will know if you are living in memory or inspiration. A little trick I learned from Dolf de Roos was to set a timer or your palm pilot or ipod or whatever you use at noon and say 3:00 pm. When the alarm goes off - just notice whether you are in inspiration or memory.

You will be able to tell - remember, inspiration feels good. You will be absorbed in what you are doing. The alarm should snap you back into this world so to speak.

This is the same thing I have been talking about…..how we do what we do not want to do, how gripped we are by this past hurt.  Its in the words of its author Fran Horvath, memory.   The technique is simple.  It involves finally taking responsiblity for everything you see, that you come into contact with, understanding that it came about as a result of something unhealed in you which you have attracted all this time.  The method that Dr. Len taught to her and countless others was one that had allowed him to heal himself and in so doing, it released the problem in the other person.  This is just how potent this kind of healing is, and is what I have saved for the last; there is the possibility for you not just to heal yourself, but also the part of the person involved in the entanglements you have thus far experienced!  Sound impossible? Isn’t healing something that we agree to?  Yes. But karma also becomes a contract just as healing can be a contract, or agreement to do something.  In this way, more than one person is involved in the healing when you change the energy.  Now THAT is pretty cool.  And it happens.  When I have let go of age old karmas, the people around me who were caught up in them changed.  At the time, and in my situation, I didn’t test them or question them to find out more, but their actions certainly showed the change quite clearly.  One day they were acting mean, then next day they made offers and actions that were much more fair and considered.  

So Fran Horvath lays out the technique simply and directly.  Try it and let me know how it works for you!  You say this as though you are speaking to the broken record, to the thing in you that caused the problem to begin with.  You are thanking it for making you aware of the problem in the first place.....

The way we dust ourselves off is through 4 simple phrases:

• I love You
• I’m sorry
• Please forgive me
• Thank you

When you observe an undesired feeling or thought - ask yourself what is it in me that created that “feeling”?

Your super-conscious petitions divinity for release of the memory. You are addressing your subconscious, your inner child, when you repeat the 4 phrases.

Your inner child is the one who holds the memory. You are asking the child for forgiveness for holding onto the erroneous thoughts. Your petition never goes directly to divinity.

There is always the filter of our memories that transforms our petitions to what divinity eventually hears. We must clean the filters so that we can return to the original state.

I hope that this has helped to bring awareness to this one issue that can change your life.  You can go from banging your head against the wall to having life run much more effortlessly.  Its true.  I am proof of it.  You just have to let the old stuff go so that your system can get back to working at 100%.   

Feel free to share this, because the more people know this one technique, the stronger its effect will be.  Imagine clusters of people all doing this type of work….releasing and healing others.  A hundred people can grow to a thousand very quickly.  A thousand can grow to a million in a very short time.  At this point, the effect on the Collective self becomes undeniable.  Its one reason why we are waking up in the numbers that we are.  Its less that we are coming into a gallactic alignment and more that we have been slowly turning towards this culminating event that just so happens to coincide with these larger events.  It was in a sense fated because of the power of numbers.  And in this way, the power of numbers can continue to work miracles. So I urge you to pass this on to others for the powerful effects that it can have.  

Here are a few articles on the method of Ho’onoponopo for your reading pleasure:

Fran Horvath

Ho’oponopono blog article

The following three videos are part of a larger interview....these should be enough to get you into the material enough for you to decide if you want to watch the whole video.  Highly recommended!

Stan Hew Lin Interview

Nemasté!! ! ! !

Changing What You Attract

The Law of Attraction works.  It works because the universe aligns to your thoughts and feelings and beliefs.  The problem, though, is the issue of being able to heal the self of those beliefs or attitudes that are contrary to what you want. You might not LIKE poverty, or relationships that do not honor your highest, but until you can resolve the deeper issues within you that keep you from realizing what you want in your mind, problems will continue along the same lines as they have in the past.

We are a bundle of unresolved feelings and beliefs.  These can be so simple, so fundamental, that they are entirely missed by the individual awareness.  Some of it gets relegated to the subconscious simply because whatever it is that remains is so hard and thorny.  Perhaps you grew up in a family that treated you in a way that hurt you somehow.  You may have the fallout from this winding up ingrained in you.  You don’t WANT to not be loved, but you question whether you are lovable because of the past.  The deeper truth, though, is that what you came into this life with represents overhanging issues from BEFORE you were born.  This life is like the next volume in a still larger story, and in the current volume the plot is still the same, the author is still the same, and the story line continues.  You come into a life that mirrors all the things that were left undone.  Look at your life early on and you will see the perfect mirror in those around you.  Its very easy for us to blame where we are on parents or circumstance but what this does is it ignores one little issue which is Attraction.

Until we can be honest and begin to realize that everything we experience is the direct result of what the Law of Attraction does in the universe, we wont be able to face up to just what the root cause is of our hurts. As long as that hurt is there, it causes the canvas of your life to mirror at least some colors that are from that hurt....and it adds to your life those strains of color to the composition that don't jive....that don't feel quite right.  That's because they aren't. But when you pluck out that vine by the roots, it no longer grows and has a life in you....and the creative production that is your life changes.....because your life, along with the universe, mirror each other....like a living canvas or mirror.  Even events that seem entirely unchangeable will change like magic.....some of them can change overnight....I have seen it happen and its quite miraculous and powerful for evidence for the role that the Law of Attraction has in our lives. 

It isn’t that we are bad people.  It has very much to do with an involvement in a notion, which is incorrect, that we are somehow disenfranchised, not worthy, or not lovable.  Because we do not have a lot of love, it might also make us feel we are not worthy of material abundance and so we struggle with that as well.  We all want good things, but we still have hurdles erected in our way that keep that from happening.

The way out is to change how you feel.  Part of this is being able to recognize where these problems are and WHAT they are.  This can be hard because lack of love in our lives is very hard to face.  Its hard to face that WE were the ones that barred ourselves from wonder and beauty and the joy and bliss that love can bring.  Why would we EVER do such a thing to ourselves?  Philip in his gospel (gnostic) describes how these things make us do what we do not want to do and keeps us from doing what we want to do.  His prescription is not just to trim the vine but to reach into its root and pull it out entire.  Once this is done, the self is free from the problem that this issue or position represented.
But how do we deal with this stuff if we don’t know how to get to it, if its partially subconscious?
First, I suggest that you realize or know (even if taken on faith) that inside of you is a sleeping giant, capacities you have not yet realized you have because perhaps you have identified with the individual self so much that this other side of you have had little room to shine through.  Second, there is a part of you which can aid you in letting go of these thorny issues and its what I called the “Watcher” for a long time because of how it felt.  I have since learned that its better known as the “Observer.”  When I experienced the Observer, I noted just how detached it was from all outcomes, from all positions in my life.  It was as if someone had jumped into me who stood there looking around trying to figure out what all the hub-bub was all about.  Imagine stepping into an office and hearing people all chattering about what so-and -so did and how this upset someone and….and have you ever wondered why on earth the people were so engaged in such stuff?  This part of you is like this, except it brings a sense of detachment from all your issues, and it is this sense of detachment that has given me the ability to step back from the root of this vine Philip mentions long enough to realize how unnecessary something in my inner life was.

I will give you an example of this in motion.  Back this past Spring I was struggling with a bunch of stuff that I had dealt with my whole life.  I have been in the midst of a divorce from a person who had demonized me, used my kids in a way that felt particularly manipulative and unkind.  I felt how unfair it was that this person’s own need to make me out to be the bad guy was so over powering that she felt she should inculcate my children in such bad behavior.  It just felt horrible.  It also kept me in a space where I was energized by the bad behavior.  Its a bit like a bunch of kids who need to have the last word….and in so doing, they simply keep the argument alive and the deeper issue of the karma going in a way that is like a giant loop.  There IS no resolution.  People wont offer you resolution always.  People will be who they are based on what you attracted in the first place.  So the answer meant that I had to search inside myself to remove the thorn so I would no longer react to it.  Boy, how do you do that? Hard. Everything in my emotional make up said you did not just walk away….this was just not RIGHT!

When the Observer stepped in, there I was, all knotted up in tears. It looked around and wondered what the problem was.  Instantly I could feel its calm, and a part of me deeper down calmed down also.  Why was I so upset? I realized I had been the scapegoat all my life, even as a kid.  The reason came from me, I knew, since the Law of Attraction works perfectly.  But what would lead to that?  I was always blamed for things, even as a kid.  I was often spanked for things I had no earthly idea why it was happening.  The thing was, I had a giant target painted on me that attracted a certain type of person who could not resist shooting at that target.  None of this was fair, certainly, but I was the one attracting it.

It resolved around a past life involving the Inquisition.  I had been a priest in a village when the Inquisition rode into town.  Because I had issues concerning allegiance within the church, I did not stand up and say “No!” to what the church chose to do to my people.  While it was probably true that I could have died myself for standing in their way, the guilt that I bore from NOT standing up far outweighed any issue concerning my own physical welfare.  People died and suffered as a result of my being involved in a chain of command.  While I was not directly responsible for the suffering that came upon my people, I bore the guilt of never having stood up like I felt I should have.  And I carried that guilt around for lifetimes.  It was a pain that I began to feel when my own awakening began to take a more intense turn after several years.  Suddenly my heart center felt as if it had a rocky outer core, like a hard husk that my heart would rub up against with every heart beat.  This was a constant pain that I had no memory or knowledge of.  It led directly to all of my scapegoating issues and it all resolved around guilt and hurt that I could not let go of.

When I saw the images of the Inquisitor riding up to me on that day, I watched in relative detachment as I saw what the genesis was for this event. I was shown that this had to do with an edict that was sent down my the church and it involved the Inquisition.  I didn’t really need to know all of this since at the time what was taking place was a form of inner alchemy.  The memory show that the past was the past.  This was from another lifetime.  It was time to let it go.  It was time to forgive myself.  When I did, I felt all those memories rise up and out of me like bubbles rising above you as you swim in the water.  They just disappeared and broke the surface and were gone.  For as much pain as I felt in my heart, it had now resolved into something completely different.  It was now joy beaming from my heart.  I had carried this around for a long time.  The presence of the Observer was enough to loosen me inwardly so I could just let go of this age old problem and it did.  After this, I felt differently.  I no longer felt disempowered when someone tried to say something untrue or incorrect about me. I could stand in my own truth and not feel how I had felt before, which actually had an air of suspiciousness about it.  I was a skape-goat because I was not resolved about this inner issue and it probably showed.  Somehow, I was guilty.  The thing is, though, most of what I was blamed for, I wasn’t guilty for.  Perhaps my voice was just too shrill in protest.  Deeper down I was not settled, and it showed and people could feel it.

Using the Observer as a way to release is a very useful way to loosen the cords.  Letting go is complete. Its not the idea of letting go, it is a complete and unequivocal surrender of all of it.  Once done, the issue is gone forever.

Another way of dealing with this material is through intent.  The surface or particle self might not KNOW how to let go, but there are parts of you that DO know how.  By calling upon your own higher power to help you in healing this, it can be done.  Ask to be led, and be willing to follow the higher self’s lead.  You can ask the universe for help, it doesn’t even need to be directed toward anyone in particular.  As you seek so shall you find.  And if you remain open to the possibility that change could come, it opens the door that much wider for it to happen.

You can seed your subconscious with your intent before going to bed, telling yourself that your dream self will help you in resolving the issue, to help in releasing what is causing you trouble.  The way forward is to a love you may not have allowed yourself to feel, and it would be very good to be able to feel this bestowal in your own body.  Affirmations also help because they help to change the negative programming in your mind and emotions.  You ARE worth being loved, you ARE worthy of a good life. No one is keeping you from this.  There is a lovely party going on upstairs and you simply have to lay your burden down in order to climb those stairs!

You do not need to know what is wrong. Something deeper does.  Ask the universe for forgiveness. Ask humbly.  “I do not know how to fix this….I ask for your forgiveness” and because you and the universe ARE one and the same, you ARE asking yourself AND the Deity for forgiveness.  Whatever it is that you did, the pain, the years of hurt, the reactionary behavior, the defensiveness, all arose out of that fundamental kink in you that now needs to be healed.  By no longer trying to wrestle with it yourself you offer it up to the universe.  I was made aware of a powerful method for healing by Alison Neville, a gifted intuitive who is involved in healing work of all kinds.  She discovered the work that is done by the Hawaiians called Ho’oponopono.  It has only recently come to light and is now being practiced by many people with great results.  Until last night, I wrestled a little with the concept.
Ho’oponopono was brought to the world’s attention by the Hawaiian healer Morrnah Nalamuku Simeona.  It was through her that Joe Vital found out about this method and made it more widely available.  Since then, a local practitioner of the method has found ways to simplify it so that it can be practiced by anyone without the need of a mediator.  Dr Hu Lin learned of this method as a result of having his daughter healed by Simeona.

It has to do with how what we see in our lives is a mirror of something in us that is not healed that causes the problems we face.  In a dramatic and powerful demonstration of the power that this method has, I turn to Dr Hu Lin.  Dr Lin was reasonable for high security for hospitals in Hawaii that house the criminally insane.  These are killers, and rapists.  These were people who had to be medicated and restrained.  Dr. Lin was asked if he could come help with the problem that this group of very hardened people represented for the staff at the hospital.  Dr. Lin was hesitant, and chose to use Ho’oponoponopo while he looked at the files for each of the inmates.  He didn’t even go to the hospital to do this, but did so from a distance.  He practiced this healing method over the files. Within a few years, all of the members who had been prayed over using Ho’oponoponopo were no longer in restrains and all of them were released to less violent hospitals.  The hospital itself was closed as a result of this healing act.  All of this is well documented with witnesses.  What Dr. Lin explained was that he was less seeking to heal the other people as much as he was healing himself, the part of himself that was creating, attracting this event and the people involved, in his life.  By healing this part of himself, it also healed the other people.  This explains how powerful this method is for making change, and for healing. 

When WE change, the world changes also.  While it can be difficult to reason how this could happen, its a fundamental element involving the Law of Attraction.  Everyone you know currently mirrors something in you that is unhealed.  By not wishing to know WHAT is unhealed, but by simply asking forgiveness, you provide the room for the universe to heal you.  In so doing, what was an issue is also healed. You simply are no longer mirroring that in others as well as yourself.
I can see quite clearly that as I heal myself, the type of students I have also change.  In the beginning, the students engaged in what I felt was unfair behavior.  Once I healed that, the type of student I had was also changed.  I went from struggling to feeling free, feeling like what I was trying to teach would not be looked at with skepticism but accepted more as a viable possibility.  Now my students are of a different caliber than before.  I get more involvement, more enthusiasm, and better work.  My relationship with coworkers has also changed.  I continue to change, heal, and so does the world around me. 

Why I wrestled with HOW Ho’oponopono works I am not sure.  I had examples of how this shifts your world right in front of me!  But in those moments when you can step outside of all your hot button issues, you can feel what it feels like to be free.  Suddenly the universe isn’t this thing that is out to get you, but is merely reflecting back to you perfectly.  It might be hard to believe this is so, but if you give it room to resolve in your awareness, you can begin to see how everything works this way.  By ceasing the rationalizing, you can be free to accept its something you cannot heal, you can leave it up to something that is infinitely more capable of helping you.

For an article on some background on this method go here.

The problem I often have with how typical awakenings are dealt with is that they often do not address the healing side of the equation.  How do we release those hard knots within?  As long as we remain knotted up, it affects our ability to feel the divine flow. It distorts the energy somewhat.  Sure, the universe is pouring through us, but its like a window that has smears across its surface.  Clearing away the smears, the light shines clearly.  Some of our assumptions about this light are enlarged, seen more clearly, and we are less troubled and more free to soar.  Feeling the universe rushing through you is a marvelous thing.  Being able to remove the blocks that attenuate its rush is an equally marvelous thing.  As you heal yourself, you change your life and you also change the world around you.  That is nothing short of amazing.