Actually...

Actually.
I do.
I do!
I do care
it is why I am here
apparently!

That this world might be improved in some measure
maybe not by grand sweeps of events
but by a simple whisper
sent out on the wind
or a glance
resolving into peace and awe.

Something in me
the best that I bear
is why I care...
such a grand creation as this
bearing such genius
in its design.
I am awed by its masterful assembly
intertied,
connected,
multiversal
uncompounded
and whole.

It is enough for me to forgive
all of the trouble found there
with all the possibility standing before it.
Can't we make it so?
It could happen....
so simply.

But I know that for it to be
it must be for me
and me alone
owned,
known
deeply felt.
Certain
and upfront
I hope it undoes me
completely.

For without that special force
that has been working in me
even as I tremble
holding onto the edges
of what was
I tell myself
"This is why I am here.
To be completely undone."
For without it, how can I know the More
I have come here for?

Gosh!
Such a frail being
held
bounded
by minutae
and flesh
but ready to burst
flower-like
cosmic mandella
touching upon the infinities.

I need only say it
and it can be.....

Care

I don't care.....
the world might turn to dust
and the sky run dark
and all of it pass away
but I just can't care
for the illusions
that all of this
could matter more than this love that lives inside
that animates
and tells me there is no others
finer than this.

So bad news
it has always been.
Good news or not,
it all transits
imperishabillity. 

Between me and God
Between God and me.
All lessons learned
was it ever about any other? 

If I can keep it between me and that other greatness
then all will resolve into such greatness....
I take this small place to stand
this humble beginning
stepping from beginning to beginning
each moment fresh as the opening bloom
as brilliant as the lightening flash
as sure as the lessons of the past
to bolster me in the challenges which stand
waiting along the wings of all my tomorrows.

True to this heart
no more pretense
making it be between anything other than the divine
is just asking for trouble
when the world opens up its treasure trove
possibilities
rendered as multiplicities
infinity dancing on the head of a pin
and wonder in a drop
and a world waiting for me
as I feel its trembling presences
exploding into meanings
I have always hid
but can no longer
as water-like
it flows out of me
like creeks to a deep blue sea.
The inevitability shakes me....

All Ways

Listen to your heart
to the drum beating
the lesson coiled
lying so close within
that in more troubled times
it eludes you.

Don't let it elude.

Bring it so close, hold it so precious
believe in what it says
for it is never wrong.
Its love is broader than the broadest sky
and not listening will only darken your days
and trouble your nights.

You don't even need to know how tomorrow will turn out.
Only that right this moment
what your heart has prepared for you
is enough.
Tomorrow?
This is never promised
but the heart in the brilliances of Now
knows with wisdom
what the mind cannot.

So wear it on your sleeve
scatter it through your life
and believe in what it is telling you
and urging you to
because a heart opened
in truth
and innocence
will bring you to what is always your very best.

I know
that I lived a life where I tried to please
others by not listening to the one thing
most important
and in so doing
slipped and feel from a great height.
But I am making my way back
to its blessed light.
No one might be there
Nothing may greet me
and the world could turn to ash
but this one great love
can build all worlds anew
within me
because
and for
me.

And so can it do
for you
and anyone else who dares
to listen to that drum beating
deep within.
Different drummer?
Most certainly
it MUST be!

So listen
even if it makes no sense,
no ordinary listening
is required of this
but deeper down beyond all noisy desire
and into the place of great silences
paused only by that great drawing in
before pushing the great blood of life out
again
and again and again.
There it is
all around you
All Ways.