Waking Experiencer?

The events that led up to my awakening were two issues that I felt were overhanging in my life that were big questions to me.  At the time, I thought that I could settle a nagging sense of uncertainty I had about both of them.  It was, at the time, something I considered to be a kind of house-keeping kind of move.  I had gone through life with some big questions that I felt were unanswered and I was seeking to try to reach some sense of either closure or better insight.  One of them served as the trigger point for an awakening process.  I have since read that some say you cannot know what causes awakening, but I have been a careful observer of my own process, which has come from years of my own inner search since age nine. I know that for me, the events that led to my awakening were pretty clear and actually obvious. I have searched through documents, most of them simply popping up in random searches that have pointed to the very same aspects that were present in my awakening.  Sure, I think that this is such a broad thing, often mysterious, but I think if you are honest with yourself, in 90% of the cases, there was some deeper sense of yearning, searching for something. When I awoke I thought how I had not asked for this.....and yet, as I go through my life from an early age, I was fervently seeking the great secret that lay before me.  I KNEW it lay before me.  Once it came, I felt the tension in that cord go slack.  I might not have known CONSCIOUSLY what it was I was looking for in a precise way, but even in 1984 during my days in college I observed that the point in altered states was the accumulation or awareness of greater amounts of energy.  As this energy threshold or capacity rose, I noted, all kinds of things began to happen.  Inside each of us is a dynamo that is not fully engaged in awareness, and as the clutch is engaged, it sends the wheels turning.  Once this begins, you are simply never the same again.  Two event were playing on my mind as I decided I wanted to clear up some things that had bothered me for a while.  I wasn't getting any younger, and I prided myself on an examined life, so it was time to do something about it.  The joke was on me on this examined business because awakening has taken me to levels of self examination I simply wasn't brave enough to do or did not think I had the means to do.  And it's the unexamined stuff that stands in the way of the divine.  If you do not realize or know how this is so, someday you will. 

One of these had to do with a startling experience that came into full 360° view one Saturday night in 1984 when I was sitting in the living room of some friends while away at college.  In it, I found myself sitting atop a grassy hill looking out across a sweep of majestic mountains.  Something was about to happen, I knew, but I couldn't quite put my finger on it.  As I looked down at myself, I realized I was no longer the me I had left in the living room of my friends in 1984 and was instead bare-chested with long black hair flowing down my shoulders.  I was sitting in the same position as I was in 1984, but instead of orange shag carpet (wince), I was sitting in a soft grassy spot looking east.  Feeling a sense of powerful presence behind me, I turned to look around to see a giant storm moving at break-neck pace towards me.  This began my initiation into sacred vision space where I was catapulted into a world no less real, perhaps far more real than anything I had experienced up until that point, which was where all who had gone on vision quests had returned from and who carried some form of insight into a challenge, question, or problem in their lives.  I had been catapulted back into the 1800's into the mountains near what is now called Yosemite National Park.  Less a recall of a past event, this singular encounter had all the makings of a warp in time, one that would have bearing on my life today in a world that the beings in that sacred vision space explained, would come to pass when the "Great Wheel has come full turn."

I was eighteen, white, somewhat aware of native American culture to some extent from some books I had read (my Mother had some books lying around while I was growing up and I took an interest in the concept of the world hoop of Black Elk and the modern medicine man Rolling Thunder).  But for as interested as I was, I was poorly prepared for being thrust into this world.  In what I would later learn was a Thunder Being vision, I was told about a day in the future when I would be reborn as a new person, that the earth would be sick and be in need of cleansing.  I was told things that would come to pass, and I was taken into the sky, merging into the body of the Thunder Bird to performt a purification act.  I say "act" because this was not a ritual.  It was a direct action involving the earth and the energies of the Thunder Beings.  After this stunning experience, I felt as though I was left to make sense of this sudden interface with this culture, its ways, and what seemed to be an important message to me about this future world and time.  I would have several other memories that filled in some gaps, such as a council lodge meeting wherein the name of the People was spoken, which did help me to find the culture that this vision belonged to.  After having read up on the Thunder Beings, I saw how in some cases, the Thunder Beings from one group was quite different from those of another group.  How was I to make sense of all of this?  What was the core message that I was being told in this vision?  What did it mean for me?  The truth was, after some twenty years, I felt as though I had reached a kind of stalemate in understanding.  I had spent years trying to track the culture down using this one word I heard spoken in the council lodge, all to no avail.  One linguist even suggested that it sounded more like Japanese than Native American!

So it was during the Summer of 2006 that I began writing a letter to an elder of the Lakota who I thought might be able to provide me with some sense of perspective.  I wrote five drafts of that letter and found myself with a great sense of hesitancy about it, but could not pinpoint why.  As I stood there getting ready to finish up my work in the studio for the day, I looked at the fifth draft sitting on my workshop stool.  I went to the computer to check email before closing everything out and closing up the shop.  As I did, I found myself doing another search for the Thunder Beings before leaving for the day.  On the front page there were the words of a different Lakota elder that had caught my eye.  All of my hesitancy evaporated.  I felt a sense of certainty about this man, and I felt something close to kinship somehow, and if not kinship, then the awareness of a person whose heart was generous, and a mind that was open.  This was not a rational thing, but a feeling thing. He felt familiar somehow, or if not familiar, I felt comfortable enough to contact him.  Curiously, he had his phone number and urged anyone who wanted or needed to, to contact him.  Perhaps it was because he was telling about a vision he himself had had and was conveying that in a speech before a council, perhaps it was his warmth, or my perceived sense of receptivity.  I had gone for years wondering who on earth would even listen to my unusual story of a memory from a past life speaking of the future in a time when I would be reborn as a white man instead of what I was in the past.  In the life as the Native man, I had gone up into those mountains because of the impact that the Whites were having on my culture.  The vision spoke of the death of my people, and no doubt, this was very hard to take.  I could feel the pain that this man felt over everything that had taken place. I knew the anger, the frustration, the deep sense of hurt and betrayal.  I understood the stereotypical terms often used in westerns where the Indians would mutter something about "speaking with forked tongue." Now, or then, it was real. I knew the anger that those in the Native community might harbor or still harbor towards whites. This was what tangled me up so much in the past; would I have believed some white man coming to me telling of a vision from the past after what so much of his own kind had done to my people?   It was in speaking to this man that a great weight left me, quite unexpectedly.  It was a weight I had been carrying for years, one which had grown heavy and one which I had gotten used to carrying.  I just didn't realize just how lighter letting it go would feel. I also did not realize it was enough weight to leave me feeling as though I was suddenly floating.  It was a healing of a division in me that sparked the fire of kundalini or awakening, a process that unfolded over six months and did not reach "full blown" status until early February of the following year.  Those six months, though, were marked by a whole range of phenomenon that are all classic awakening symptoms, something I would only piece together later.

I later found an article written by the elder who I had originally wrote the letter to, and it helped to explain my hesitancy, or so I have come to believe.  This man spoke openly about the need to keep Whites out of their ceremonies, to keep their culture as pure as they could, to preserve what it was they had left in order to continue to build their sense of community and spiritual roots.  This was completely understandable, it wasn't as though I harbored any ill feelings in this regard. I realized, though, that he might have wound up being more guarded with me and this might have censored him in ways that I did not find with Sydney Has No Horses, the man I finally spoke to. In the end, though, it turned out that I really didn't need anyone to tell me the meaning of what this was all about.  That wasn't what took place at all.  What I needed was something else.  I seemed to need someone who would listen to me, to hear me, to let out all those years of frustration, a kind of confessional of some kind.  I just wasn't aware of how badly I needed this.  Before I could belong to myself, I felt like I needed someone who would not think I was some weirdo, but someone who does belong even if the particulars were a little unorthodox.  It wasn't like I was wanting to become Native American again.  I just wanted to untangle a little bit of this so I could find a greater measure of peace or to understand any purpose that it might have.  Several years after this event, however, my awakening would take an unusual turn and the vision of the Thunder Beings would come back into sharp focus in a way I could not have imagined, in a way that was entirely beyond my current willingness to consider.  This took me into the very source of who the Thunder Beings are and why they are here as archetypal images in our visions and dreams.  That, however, is another story, best saved for another day.  

I was also seeking to clear up an issue concerning a dream I had had about being on board an extra terrestrial craft as a young teen. This was experienced as a dream, and it was also in the wake of some sightings of craft in our area. In the dream,  I was being taken on a tour, I was told, and was with a bunch of other people who all looked like they had been taken out of their living rooms for a sudden look around.  Children, adults, nothing stood out except the striped red and blue shirt on a boy slightly younger than me.  As we were being taken through a door into another part of the craft, I noticed that there was a hole in the floor where there was a giant set if turbines that moved.  I stepped out of line and took a look at this device.  I noticed how it worked and thinking in terms of ordinary jet technology I thought that it could never work.  A being which was standing next to me explained simply that that was not how the device worked.  The key lay in an entirely different method which struck me as exotic technologically.  The dream, though, was incredibly vivid, and after having stepped out of line, I went back into the line as we went into another part of the craft and thus ended any recall that I had about the rest of the dream.

Perhaps because of this dream, which took place on the forward edge of what would become known as a U.F.O. wave so large in our area that it would later be noted on an episode of Unsolved Mysteries, that I began to have a lingering curiosity or wondering about what it all meant.  During this same time I had two sightings, one with a sibling of things in our night sky that defied normal explanation, and another several months later with a craft that was so close its outline could be seen against the night sky and looked like it was strung up with Christmas lights.  When I read about UFO sightings where they use "Christmas lights" I smile; I saw the same thing on that night.  In the first encounter or sighting, we watched as two very brilliant balls of light merged in the sky.  Some have offered that this was ball lightening.  The only thing about this explanation is that what we observed was a very slow process that took over half an hour to complete whereby two large brilliant objects very slowly moved across the ridge of the next row of hills until they merged.  The two objects also pulsed in a rhythmic and coordinated way.  That is, they both were pulsing in the same repetitive series many many times over.  One brilliant pulse followed by three smaller pulses, with one much dimmer pulse and a slightly larger pulse, all repeating over and over perfectly for the twenty minute encounter.  The two objects moved slowly across the sky and emitted not total silence but what I can only describe as the sound similar to a rocket without the Doppler effect.  This light was brighter than the full moon.  You could read a newspaper by it.  Once the objects merged and grew brighter, I walked into the house.  My sibling who had remained outside came into the house explaining that soon after I had left that the light went entirely silent and then shot across the sky at a very high rate of speed.

Years after the incident, I would read about close encounters and the very odd world of the people who see things in the night sky.  It quite frankly raised more questions than it answered.  It was a kind of cosmic rabbit hole of sorts that led me to read such books as Communion by Whitley Strieber among others.  Instead of answering questions, it raised others, and they were of the kind that I did not like.  All of this actually made me feel spooked.  I had met a man who had had an encounter where he had details of a device "downloaded" into his mind for possible use later.  His and my notes were curious in how they matched.  I would read about devices that many abductees would feel urged to build that operated on the same set of principles I saw at work in my dream.  The thing that bothered me was that abductees most often learned of their past "missing time" as the result of dreams that were described as being "screen memories" for more involved encounters with nonhuman beings.

I held strong to my sense that I had simply not had any physical encounters, but I was a little freaked out to be honest.  I was freaked out because these encounters were not enjoyable.  People described feeling like they were like lab rats, or were held against their will.  So during this same period of time, I went to an online community to read up on other peoples' experiences to see if there was anything that could help me to settle this nagging uncertainty once and for all.  Once I mentioned my own experience, I didn't get curious looks but people who stepped forward and described similar things.  It left me more in the dark for a bit.  What was the nature of all of this? Something was telling me that all of this was within the realm of dream.  I had no memories of being taken.  None of what I had seen was the least bit troubling to me.  As the first pieces of awakening began to trickle in, I began to sense something about a large part of this group of people; they were all experiencing a realm of energetic experience that verged on awakening.  There were instances of time slips, odd anomalies concerning time.  Other had a stronger than usual sense of precognition and intuitive abilities. This was a group of people I sensed were all in some way on the verge of something, and as awakening slowly trickled in, I began to sense this more clearly and began to understand that this phenomenon of the visitors may well be one that is not entirely physical, but which occupies a different class of space or reality.  This would explain why not a single person has had a single physical artifact taken from their many encounters aboard ships.  This could explain why so many of the encounters happen at night (although not always).  this might explain why so many encounters mirrored vivid out of body experiences wherein people were floated out of bed on blue beams of light into what seemed to be ships in the air with beings that seemed to be from another planet or world.  Experiencers, as they are called, often described how they would see ghostly apparitions, or step into future events through unknown means.  Some of the encounters were more like astral projection than anything physical.  Some sported scars or marks made during their abductions.  Some described marks that would appear.  I had a couple of these marks appear on my own body during awakening and it got me to thinking.  Isn't it just as possible that all of this is powerful psychic phenomenon being translated into very specific terms, i.e. extraterrestrial encounters?  I am not here to somehow seek to downplay any one's feelings in regards to their own experiences, and I am not one who plays the hysteria card (which is to say I do not think this is all just hysteria).  But my own intuition tells me that many people that were part of this community were on the verge of awakening.  Is it possible that their experience was in some way co opted or interpreted in a way that focused the phenomenon in a given manner much like how a dream can change in relation to how we feel about the imagery that it contains?  When we overcome certain fears, for example, in dream, the images that most often emerge as emblems of that fear, or symbols of those fears often change forever as a result of this emotional and cognitive shift.

There is another reason for my wondering this, but it is one that did not come until I was digging into awakening trying to find some explanation for the phenomenon.  I had not yet hit upon kundalini as the explanation and was instead reading the Gnostic texts in the Nag Hammadi when I came across a couple of books that dealt with a curious constellation of phenomenon that were identical to the modern abduction phenomenon.  This phenomenon was being described by Jesus to one of his disciples and it outlined how a certain type of being called an Archon normally appears to humans.  The Archons come in threes.  They appear and strike terror into their human subjects due to their countenance being like a lion (they are actually described as looking like an "aborted fetus").  Once they strike terror in their subjects, the humans become paralyzed and are unable to move.  It is then that they are "taken by theft."   These beings, it is explained, try to appear as though they are like gods, but are not.  They utilize a form of synthetic reality that was called "HAL" that seems to create the appearance of events that are not entirely real.  These same beings have tried to interbreed with female humans in creating a hybrid race of the two.  All of this, by the way, is in the Nag Hammadi, particularly the Hypostasis of the Archons and the Apocryphon of John.  If you are the least bit familiar with how the abduction scenario, you know by now that all of these phenomenon are entirely coincident with the Archons of Jesus' day.  In fact, there is an interesting article written about how all of these phenomenon mesh together by the Gnostic scholar John Lash HERE.

What I have inferred since then is that the experience of the bridal chamber, which is awakening, is itself a powerful protective force that keeps such intrusions at bay.  It seems that as one awakens, ones susceptibility to beings such as the Archons goes away or fades.  I do note that within a years time of my own awakening, I knew of four other people who were going through awakenings who were visitors to this online community.  All of them I suspect were having phenomenon taking place over years that may have seemed like "visitations" but had all the hallmarks of etheric, rather than physical encounters.  Is it possible that before awakening we might move through a territory where our own growing field of energy is in some way co-opted by others in some way, but that upon awakening serves as a kind of protective field from additional intrusions?  Is it that we are like children with new perceptual powers, but just don't know how to deal with them, do not know how to break out of the old conceptual barriers and thus remain in a kind of hinterland half way between awake and asleep?  is it possible that these transition points are ideal locations for anything that feeds off human energy? 

I used to be a little freaked out by all of this, to be quite honest. However, over time, it has become clear to me that all of this adheres perfectly to the Law of Attraction.  Whatever we have not resolved in ourselves, persists energetically and like attracts like.  Something begins to happen, though, once awakening reaches a certain level.  I am not of the mind that there is a clear point of awakening, even though there are all points where we all feel the movement that feels serpentine up the spine, I simply do not buy that this is IT.  I exhibited all manner of symptoms directly tied to awakening that presaged the more obvious awakening.  It is why, I insist that our understanding of awakening is not as complete as we would like to think.  We approach awakening in the same way that we spiral through our lives.  Life is not a point A to point B experience but a series of cycles within cycles within still larger cycles.  We exist in eternity wound within the appearance of time.  As such, there is not one point where awakening is, but rather, I suspect, we approach it and certain symptoms occur when the necessary thresholds are met that will incur other phenomenon such as rising of one force or another, or hearing things, feeling flushes of intense heat, tingling on the skin, in the energy centers, vivid dreams, loss of appetite, increase in appetite, change in the production of bodily fluids, hormonal changes, and a long list of other symptoms anyone can read about on a site dealing with the symptoms of kundalini.

My earlier sense was that these folks were all preawakeend, or in a place where with the right threshold or experience, awakening could dawn quite easily.  It is a sense that you can pick up on quite easily and there are plenty of symptoms to support such an intuition.  But until that time comes, it seems that people are caught in a middle land of sorts.  Lash explains how the Gnostics were themselves involved in awakening kundalini in this quote from his site:

The lion-headed serpent of the Gnostics is called by magical names such as Ophis, Knuphis, and Abrasax. In the occult anatomy of Asian mysticism and Yoga, this reptile is known as Kundalini, the serpent power. Gnostics who practiced Kundalini yoga were called Ophites, from the Greek ophis, "snake." This cult was condemned by early Christians as pagan "snake-worshippers." To the mundane and uninitiated mind, the Kundalini serpent can only be conceived by crude literalization. To Gnostics, the lion-headed serpent crowned with solar rays was not only the image of the Lord Archon, but also of the source of spiritual power that allows human beings to resist that entity.

Until one comes into full embodiment of the kundalini force, one can be susceptible to forces that may approach such forces in a similar manner.  In my own experience I noted that an entity had been associated with someone I was aware of and had a connection to.  through the awareness brought on by the force of kundalini, super normal vision made it possible to be aware of just what was going on.  All of this defied normal reason, and I often thought I was going crazy, even though I KNEW without a doubt on one side of the equation that everything I was seeing and experiencing inwardly was in fact the case.  What is worthwhile noting was how the being or entity that had been associated with this person was not able to approach me or come close in anyway due to a field of protective energy that I seemed to be endowed with.  Within this energy, there was simply no fear.  Even as the creature attempted to menace me, I was unaffected.  I felt a powerful field of energy propagate outward from my body that gently pushed this being away as I prayed to this being that it needed to learn to create its own energy, to know its place in the universe, and its connection to the Source.  As a result of that experience I learned that while we may have something on our side that aids in creating protective effects, we can also wind up side stepping the necessary inner work that is also necessary to fully embody awakening.  Yes, it is present, yes it has its effects, but like anything, we still remain subject to those aspects of ourselves that remain unhealed and which leave openings to other intrusions into our own inner etheric sheaths, which I suspect is the entry point for these beings.  they do so through those openings where fear resides, or some past hurt or some other trauma that serves to tear our own inner fabric and keep us divided within ourselves.  When we heal these divisions, nothing matching the energy of that division may enter.  Period.

What is hopeful to me is what Lash has dug up about the Gnostics, which include Jesus, in terms of the protective nature of awakening:

Gnostics taught that nous, the spiritual intelligence endowed in humanity, could be blocked by the Archons. This occurs through Archontic intrusion affected by a kind of subliminal invasion at the level of thought and language (i.e., mental syntax). But nous could be reinforced through accessing the power of Kundalini, an ecstatic current that normally rests dormant in the human body. In his monograph on the Archons, I. S. Gilhus notes that "the erotic strategy is the most important means used by the pneumatics to save the lost light." (p. 51) Pneumatics is the Gnostic terms for humans who pursue the path of psychosomatic illumination, the key method of Gnostic religion. Pneuma, "spiritual force," is developed by cultvation of nous, "higher intelligence." But the Archons present a blind field of resistance to this process: in short, they rely on humans remaining ignorant of their inherent spiritual potential.
When Kundalini is raised from its dormant state, higher intelligence blossoms, and there are other effects as well. Gnostic sects such as the Ophites practiced the communal raising of Kundalini to produce an protective envelope against Archontic intrusion. In effect, they held Kundalini, the sexual-spiritual energy locked in the body structure, to be the main instrument of defense against the Archons. The Dialogue of the Savior, NHC III, 5 (85), contains this exchange:

Judas said, "Behold, The authorities (Archons) dwell above us, so it is they who will rule over us."
The savior said, "It is you who will rule over them. But only when you rid yourselves of jealousy, and take on the protection of the Light, and enter the nymphion (bridal chamber)."

The savior-teacher is emphatic that we have power over the Archons, but he also makes it clear that some human failings impede the use of our power. The Greek word phthonos may be translated as "jealousy" or "envy." Gnostics considered envy to be the signature of the Archons, as well as the key human failing that makes us vulnerable to their intrusion. "The protection of the Light" comes through activated Kundalini, often described as a lightning-like tide of electrified light that pours through the body. "Nymphion" is a code word for the ambient cell of psychophysical protection generated by high levels of Kundalini. Sir John Woodruffe, the great transmitter of Hindu Tantric wisdom to the West, directly identified the practice of Kundalini yoga (raising the serpent power through the channels of the spine) with Gnostic rites of "serpent worship." (Shakti and Shakta, p. 191 ff.) Buddhist scholars such as E. A. Evans-Wentz, J. M. Reynolds, and H. V. Guenther have made similar observations, but Gnostic scholars have not reciprocated because they do not look outside their genre to understand the theory and practice of Gnosis.

We are all on the spiraling path, all each in our own way in our own timing.  We are all approaching our own greater becoming each and every moment, and yet in each moment there lies the potential for it all along, which means that choice is there, rather than some destiny; we move moment by moment by virtue of freewill just as our own soul essence whispers what we surely have known all along but have kept at the periphery of our waking awareness.  What happens today bears on tomorrow, and as we reach those clusters of events that help us to reflect in just the right way and to resolve the old barriers to held us divided (which the Gnostics write about!) then the door is increasingly opened to the channels opening in our awareness that allow us to realize who and what we are in still broader dimension; we awaken.  

I don't have a fascination of these Archonic beings, though.  I have a fascination with what brings us closer to our divine natures, what breaks the bonds of our limitations, and old awareness.  Do we do this through a perfunctory understanding of what awakening is and its protective nature?  No.  I don't feel that awakening can in any way be brought about as a result of a rational process at all.  Just as emotion is often perceived as irrational, so too does the awakening force transcend our habituated tendency towards resting in our left brains and sparks both hemispheres into action in awakening.  Latent portions of the brain begin to mirror the phenomenon now taking place as it happens.  We would like to think its all JUST energy, but everything I have experienced so far has shown that everything happens together; body and soul are married and thus one is experienced because the other is capable of experiencing it also.  It isn't that we are JUST spiritual beings, but that we are here wedded to duality for  a PURPOSE which is to bring heaven and earth together.  Married.  Just as we marry soul to body, we marry heaven and earth together.  Father Sky, Mother Earth.  Shakti is often seen as the world of the physical, the manifesting of creation, the great womb of creation.  She is filled to the brim with her consort, the initiating force, and they cycle one into the other in a harmonious circuit of creation that is the very essence of bliss.  This is the bridal chamber, the nymphion as the Gnostics term it.  All of these things are themselves images that seek to put to word and into analogous form what exists in a more primordial manner, a pre-existent state, which just so happens to be where both the "father" and the "mother" exist.  They are not begotten, but are the unbegotten begetters, which is to say they are before form and manifestation, the deities if there ever were any. 

My interest in our reaching a place as a race where we can get beyond the veils of our own ignorance to see and know what is.  As the dross is removed, as the force of awakening clears and cleanses, we have the opportunity to live a life unlike anything we may have known previously.  We emerge as if out of dream, an old dream with many nightmares, ones which we began to question. Is this all there is?  Is this as good as it gets?  Is there something I am somehow missing?  How do I resolve this nagging sense of uncertainty about these events in my life?  How is it that I can reach a state of greater peace within?  Do I just accept how things have gone, or is there a better way?  What IS that way?  These are the fateful words of a seeker turning within and setting free the chains that hold her and him to what was illusory. 

Perhaps there is something more waiting for you on the other side of all of this.  We will each find it in our own time, in the moment when the choice is made, when the turning of the soul shines brighter than our rational mind and our limiting beliefs do.  I remain hopeful for our clan of humans here.  We ache too much for a better world for it to be anything except that. 

Its telling.
That I would find the truth in hidden scrolls from early Christianity that had been deemed heretical that described or explained how one awakens.

Its curious how the work of someone could get so tangled or mangled.  How did it all get turned into harps and clouds and some dude with a book sitting up front of some pearly gates?

So if you want to know the truth, always look in the back alleys, from the mouths of the heretics, the unseemly and the sinners, for Lord knows you wont be getting it from those who say they are in the know.

I am much happier with some Ju-ju Momma from Louisiana, shaking her rattle and giving me the evil eye.
"Oh come on now, Momma, you know that voodoo stuff don't do nothing for me...." I'd say.  She'd scrunch her face up even more, smiling and busting out laughing as she tried to keep up the look.  We'd roll on the floor and pick up an ant and proclaim there was more divine in that creature than all the Popes of yesteryear.

And I think it would be true.

So If we think we are going to get true enlightenment from the church or the authorities, you have to think again. In those documents Jesus says that the priests of the temple kept the keys to knowing away from everybody including themselves.  Now that's a pretty good way to explain.  But those books never saw the light of day.  Well, they did, about two thousand years later.

It all sounds good, right?  But when you wake up for sure, child, you see how everything that aint truth, it just melts before your gaze.  that doesn't make you high and mighty.  It makes you one of the "righteous" but look how they tried to demonize those cats before they realized they could co-opt them.  Before that happened, they were the righteous.  That meant they knew.  They listened to God the father and the Mother before they made her into a Ghost. Righteous....

Yes, I 'd rather be a heretic than Holy any time of the day.  And now, with this big badge on my heart, I guess its official. 

The Great Secret

If you would know the great secret you would know the one who has begotten you before your life in a world where all die.  It was through the father and mother of the great light that you were begotten. To know your lineage is to know their union.  To know your union, you must know your lineage.  In their union, is the life.  It is only through them that you will taste the true resurrection that was spoken about which had nothing to do with the casting off of a body or of dying and coming back to life.  People live in this life as though they are dead. Once they taste the resurrection, they will know the deeper life, the true life. Restoring this to earth has ben the mission of many boddhi’s including a man known amongst the Tibetans as Issa who had been crucified and who was said to have lived out his days with them with a woman named Mary.  There is a grave stone that has the foot prints of a man sculpted into it that shows the scars of crucifixion. This was how the word was expressed by one teacher whose teachings were not fully understood.  Much was hidden early on, but what was hidden has also been revealed.  If you can but have the eyes to see, you can understand that there was a teaching much like the Hindu that was based on the two irrefutable poles of conscious energy; masculine and feminine in union.  This is their perfect state, they were never meant to be separate.

The resurrection was not well understood.  It was aped by followers who did not fully know what was meant.  To truly know what this was all about, you had to experience it.  Jesus brought the Darshan, what he called a fire whcih he was casting upon the earth.  You will not read these words in the texts as handed down because many were ordered destroyed after Constantine met with the men (no women) who would choose the books that would constitute the first bible.  However, seeing the writing on the wall, books were spirited out of the region and were buried in the desert of Nag Hammadi.  These would emerge in perfect timing for our very best translators to examine and bring forth for us.  IN them the triad was the mother/father/son.  Consciousness was in truth ordered in the way a family was ordered.  The masculine pole and feminine pole would beget new life.  We were and are born from this lineage of masculine and feminine and bear them in the coding of our souls. When you awaken, what they termed “resurrection” it was as though you had been dead previously. Your body came alive in ways you would not believe.  The truth of the feminine could not be entirely hidden, but many forgot just who the Holy Ghost was supposed to be. Most assumed it was an other aspect of an all-male deity.  The early church fathers had bastardized the teachings….not just the teachings, but the irrefutable truth……for when you awaken, you cannot ignore the presence of both shakti and shiva in you….which is the father and mother or father and holy ghost.

In the gospel of Philip, a very important document for revealing the truth of the feminine and masculine as making up the deity….as well as the higher self, he points out the obvious saying that those who say Mary begot with the Holy Ghost are in error, for when does a woman beget with a woman?  He was pointing out an issue that was already something of a mystery to people….or it was already the subject of people seeking to lessen the presence of the female in the truth.

Go as far afield as you wish in any faith.  When you awaken, the truth fills every cell in your body as the presence of THEIR ecstatic union fills you.  You feel bliss because they are now in union within.  These are your cosmic parents and through them, you may learn all secrets of the universe.  You must learn how to listen at the portals of reverie and imagination….for it is here in these unlikely places that the universe will rush in to you. If you look at the world and see how it poo poos the imagination as nothing real is the degree to which the world has forgotten how to access the mysteries.  These are those who ape and mimic but do not feel the indwelling spirit. But even they have it within themselves to feel this, to embody it…..as soon as they dispense with their twisted dogma that demonizes bliss.
Every awakening will prove this right. Every awakening serves to face the awakened with the irrefutable truth of what is moving within them.  For some, it is a struggle to throw off the shackles of old limiting beliefs or “patterns” or karmas.  The true light of this will keep pressing by its sheer presence.  It is the one true tuning fork; all else that is dissonant must fall away or suffering will continue.  Those who fear letting go of the small self shall not ascend into the larger self.  This is a rearranging of the earthly self to the celestial one.  If you can but trust what this seeks to do, the going becomes light and bliss filled in ever deeper ways.  Some would seek teachers, but as long as the old ways move within, the vibration will only attract those teachers with the same limits and frailties.  This energy is not some simple walk in the park.  It has the ability to move across space/time.  It can reveal to you your frailties if you but listen and become humble before it….that is, willing to entertain that your cherished notions which now cause pain are not serving you and a better way is before you.
You are born of a dual being of both masculine and feminine.  All life reflects this begetting that has its source in Source, the All.  This is an ancient teaching that many have sought to hide and change to their own egoistic whims. It does not change its truth and reality.  It waits for you, for the day when you cast off the shackles of your old life. Like two wires loosened in your being, connecting them will bring the current of the ALL into you immediately.  It will come like a freight train….or a great wind….or a surge up the spine.  It will be so strong it can take you out of your body.  Ecstasy will be a daily experience.  You will learn to open more and more to this or become blocked with pain and anxiety for it is agains the natural law to resist the infinite when it awakens within you.  And as you awaken, you strengthen the field within all people. It grows, it builds, it is like a begetting that comes into itself. You learn what Thales, teacher of Pythagoras knew; all things are full of gods.  Within the petal of your awareness, there is a still larger awareness of your whole self….the divine flower.  Every particle in nature and in ALL is built in this way.  It has its higher form, its “god” as Thales once proclaimed so correctly.  Sadly, there are those who do not understand what this means, and would seek to show that it is an arrogation to think this way.  But it is not arrogance.  It is truth.

The masculine will reflect into the feminine and through that reflection will come the divine engine for growth and becoming.  You will be attracted to those awakened who have the same frailties as you until you heal those frailties and ascend ever higher into a new life.  It is true that there are countless versions of this world….all existing in potentiality.  When you live a life that is dark, you will not see the light in the higher dimensions that are within the many spheres of the earth.  This is the meaning of the entrance into a new world.  That world is not something that will come to all people unless it comes within them first.  Only then will they see with deeper dimension what had been there all along. The world will not flash and suddenly reveal a new world.  Tht world lies curled within the world you know, waiting for you to awaken to still higher levels of it both within you and within the world. For as you do this, you actually awaken the world itself. Earth herself evolves along with you in a co-creative way.  The world will truly change in a twinkling….and it will be entirely seamless in quality.  The world will seem different.  The people in it will reflect this more healed state that is in you.  What is healed in you is atually healed in THEM.  I did not get this at first.  How could this be?  How could my will change their condition?  This did not seem correct….but it IS correct….for they remain the same in their old potential in a different layer, a different world.  We literally ascend into new earths….and we meet those in the world in their ascended forms.  You see, this is infinite.  Yo put yourself into a world where those people you knew who were not ascended ARE ascended.  You do not awaken to a world that is empty of all those who did not ascend AS you ascended.  No.  You awaken to the world where both you and them are already that.  And if you think that the world is bounded by limit, then you do not know the incredible miracle that is reality.

You do not leave this world for another like some rapture where only a select few go.  This is not some exclusive club. You literally shift your awareness on this plane to a new dimension.  In that dimension everyone is there.  EVERYONE.  So as you awaken, as you heal, the world does change, but this change is not noticed by most.  But its irrefutable truth shines for those with eyes to see.  What you gain in leting go is not a loss but a gain that is so huge, so immeasurable, it will leave you wondering why you didn’t do it sooner.

And this all sounds crazy because the world is just this crazy, so lost, driven so far.  And yet, there are those who are ready.  The great thing is, you don’t have to do much to observe this in motion.  Just heal.  Just surrender.  Just let go.  As you let go of all the things that did not serve you, a new world will resolve around you without a single jitter or overlap of the old with the new.  Its as though one layer becomes transparent in that moment of bliss and you are where you were before, but the world has gotten brighter, less troublesome, more healed.  You will see evidence for this immediately.  A neighbor who had been troublesome ceases being so.  A coworker that had had been abrasive suddenly is no longer that.    You have shifted your location within the many earths.  Its this simple.
This is possible through healing.  Knowing where you came from, who you are deep down, will help in revealing the truth, a much deeper more ecstatic truth.  As you grow comfortable in this new arrangement, the need to DO anything diminishes and what you call synchronicity is seen for what it truly is.  Some say synchronicity is divine guidance from the universe.  In a sense this is correct, but it is the universe within YOU that is doing the guiding. The synchronicity is hinting at your true potential.  If you learn to utilize it free from limiting belief, you can bid mountains to come to you.

When you awaken to this truth, you will need no teacher to tell you what is true.  The truth will live inside of you in the most perfect of ways.

The Secret Doctrine

I have been doing some research for this and another book about how Christinity had contained within it, the very seed of awakening, a deeper greater mystery than what was allowed out into the public.  I often read scholars who say why we got the book in the bible right, and its laughable really, to hear how people will seek to justify what was nothing more than a grab for power.  It was less about plumbing the truth, although there was some effort at doing that, but these were all people who were themselves not awakened.  How could they know or spot writings that pointed to awakening?  Its odd because it does not look like awakening was on their agenda at all. Something great and wonderful was hidden.  Something was swept under the rug. 

I came into this life with this feeling.  I know its not born out of some odd little disturbance in my neurology.  Something was not fully told, revealed, allowed out into the public.  To do so might have compromised the power structure that was being built, and a tide of paternalism that had been in place for centuries.  Millenia.  The documents that were hidden, burned after the Nicean Council did not get rid of all of the books which contained the truth.  Almost two thousand years later a cache of documents in the desert of Nag Hammadi would offer up its gift in the form of a ceramic jar.  Some of the documents were burned for kindling, but most survived.  Still steeped in the tide of paternalism, some documents were not. One very special one, a hard one to follow for the language it used, but had some very clear portions that helped to lay out once and for all the shape of human consciousness as being dual, both masculine and feminine within one, that the deity was itself dual, masculine and feminine....and that the Holy Ghost was known by most back in the day as being the feminine counterpart to the masculine "father."  They understood how karma would stay active in a person and would make a person a slave to it, making people do things they do not wish to do....and that there was only ONE way to get rid of these karmic threads....

So its time to bring forth this secret doctrine.  It lays out a pathway for any human, for this is not a Christian path, but a human path.  Hindus, Muslims, Zorasters, Christians, and more, can benefit from it not as a process of faith, but as a practice of intention.  Beyond where we are lies the promise of tomorrow in the love that is what we are within.  We, each like islands, are bounded by a vast ocean, and it is this vast ocean that connects each of us into one.  Whatsmore, this ocean is love.  And it is you. It is waiting....The book, which still remains unnamed, will contain the seeds of the Secret Doctrine within it.  The truth is that the Secret Doctrine is something that ought not be secret, but known, and in our age, we have the opportunity to bring it forward for all to know if it is their wish.

The second book outline is done, laid out, and the chapters are being written.  This process is much more sane than writing a book the way I did the first "like a quilt" I said.  At some point you have to arrange all the squares to make sense of what has been written!  I am currently tightening up the manuscript in an effort to begin sending it out to prospective literary agents.  Fingers crossed!

Aliens!

What a messed up soup of things this is.  Everyone has their theories.  But in the end, it seems this is like sand.  We feel the sand slipping between our fingers, but at the end of the day what do we have?  Do we have recovered craft material?  Some would say we do.  Certainly there are eyewitness testimony to support the possibility that our government has crashed craft. There were even some documents that slipped through the fingers of government and into FOIA fingers (the public domain)  which took the form of a memo marked top secret that had names redacted that explained that three beings were aboard a craft that was recovered in New Mexico in the mid 40's here in the U.S.  People see craft in the sky.  Certainly my sister and I saw a craft that exhibited qualities that could not be explained with conventional craft.  Two very brilliant lights slowly merged into one and shot over the house.  It spent a good half hour before the merge as they slowly moved from the far ridge near our home to the point where they were for all intents and purposes, a single object.  This was not a crash.  This was a slow and controlled thing.  Well okay, I am adding in the controlled part.  Since I have never seen ball lightening roar like a jet, and since I have never seen a jet or rocket move as slowly as this object did, nor any other object light up with the brilliance of this thing, I am left making some assumptions about the sand that slipped between my fingers on that hair-raising night.

I am going to take you into another world right now.  Its a sudden and jerky transition but keep your mind open for a moment.  This is another weird crazy hair-brained theory.  Another one.

Come with me to the gnostic texts of James and others of these largely hidden or marginalized documents that were cast aside, burned in the wake of the Council of Nicea, that august body that was tasked with determining what would be the doctrine, the canon, of Christendom.  I am going to take you into the world of the archons, beings that have an interesting intersection with the current Abduction literature.

Archons don't show up a lot in the regular King Jame version of the Bible.  They are mentioned enough so we know they were beings that sought to deceive humans into thinking they were something more than they were.  In the Hypostasis of the Archons, a gnostic text, there is some descriptions of how they came into being.  Lets look at some of their characteristics for a moment to understand more.  These beings are androgynous.  They have a countenance "like a lion" and they believe that they are like Gods.  In the same book it is mentioned that they sought to reproduce with humans.  Now hang on to that thought for a moment.  For reference I am including the book just mentioned here: 

Hypostasis of the Archons

A quote from the book that I find interesting to mention here, which folds into what Awakenings are about in my estimation:
"There, I have taught you about the pattern of the rulers; and the matter in which it was expressed; and their parent; and their universe."  But I said, "Sir, am I also from their matter?"
"You, together with your offspring, are from the primeval father; from above, out of the imperishable light, their souls are come. Thus the authorities cannot approach them, because of the spirit of truth present within them; and all who have become acquainted with this way exist deathless in the midst of dying mankind. Still, that sown element will not become known now. Instead, after three generations it will come to be known, and it has freed them from the bondage of the authorities' error."
Then I said, "Sir, how much longer?" He said to me, "Until the moment when the true man, within a modeled form, reveals the existence of the spirit of truth, which the father has sent.
Then he will teach them about everything, and he will anoint them with the unction of life eternal, given him from the undominated generation.  Then they will be freed of blind thought, and they will trample underfoot death, which is of the authorities, and they will ascend into the limitless light where this sown element belongs.  Then the authorities will relinquish their ages, and their angels will weep over their destruction, and their demons will lament their death.

What is being referred to here, I believe, is Jesus as the one who is helping people to know of their divine lineage as opposed to the lie that these beings seek to cast into the minds of people.  The Father, for my purposes also includes the Mother, but which was swept under the rug, hidden by calling her the Holy Ghost.  If you do your research in this area it becomes clear what the Holy Ghost is even though today its considered an aspect of a rather select boys club (bit it really isn't....this is the error that has changed it over time and with a desire to lessen Her presence in all of this spiritual stuff).  The idea of death is not about physical, but a spiritual death.  Many gnostic books speaks of "life" and "death" in these terms. This suggests strongly that the Resurrection was simply a process we all could take part in in which, through an awakening, we could cleanse ourselves of those things of this world (karma) so that we can achieve this enlightened state which very much feels like coming alive.  One very much feels forever changed, brought into a new life than the one that came before.  So in a sense, this victory over death was not about a literal physical death (despite the focus on Jesus being crucified and coming back to life---the gnostic texts show a very different take on this idea and its one that very much fits hand in glove with kundalini.....along with terminology that just happens to be present in the gnostic texts which, like their Indian counterparts, spoke of the union of the feminine current and masculine current that makes up the entirety of creation in the midst of our waking up or being reborn in this spirit that comes into us).


Now on to other things....

Jesus is speaking to his disciple, explaining how to deal with the Archons.  These beings set themselves up as "authorities" and in fact, this language shows up in the gnostic literature.  Jesus explains that these beings come when one is in a drowsy state, daydreaming or getting ready for sleep or in sleep itself. He says that they have a countenance like a lion, create a deep fear in people, and once having gotten their control into the person, they take that person "by theft."  Oh, and these beings show up in threes.  Jesus then explains how to deal with such attacks, the language to use.  These beings ingratiate themselves into the host and can cause a lot of subliminal or subtle changes to take place.

John Lash, one of the few people to cover this issue does so with a great deal of clarity and knowledge of the texts.  What he observes is how the current UFO wave corresponded with the discovery of the Nag Hammadi, a series of documents that had the largest trove of information about the Archons.  Accident? Here is what Lash has to say in his web site Metahistory.org (the link will be at the end)

Physical descriptions of Archons occur in several Gnostic codices. Two types are clearly identified: a neonate or embryonic type, and a draconic or reptilian type. Obviously, these descriptions fit the Greys and Reptilians of contemporary reports to a T. Or I should say, to an ET.

Delving into the Gnostic materials, it is quite a shock to discover that ancient seers detected and investigated the problem of alien intrusion during the first century CE, and certainly well before. (The Mysteries date from many centuries before the Christian Era.) What is amazing about the Gnostic theory of the Archons is not only the cosmological background (explaining the origin of these entities and the reason for their enmeshment with humanity), but the specificity of information on the alien m.o., describing how they operate and what they want from us. For one thing, Gnostics taught that these entities envy us and feed on our fear. Above all, they attempt to keep us from claiming and evolving our “inner light,” the gift of divine intelligence within. While I would not claim that Gnostic teachings on the Archons, or what remains of such teachings, have all the answers to the ET/UFO enigma, one thing is clear: they present a coherent and comprehensive analysis of alien intrusion, as well as specific practices for resisting it. They are far more complete and sophisticated than any theory in discussion today.

In short, the ancient seers of the Mysteries in Europe and the Levant seem to have accomplished 2000 years ago what many of us have been attempting to do since 1947: figure out who the ETs are, where they originate, how they relate to us, and most important of all, how we ought to relate to them.

As far as I know, apart from myself only one writer on the ET/UFO issue has directly identified the Gnostic Archons with contemporary ETs. This is Nigel Kerner, whose book, The Song of the Greys, is a strange, singular and little-known contribution to the debate. Kerner cites the Nag Hammadi texts just in passing, and does not elaborate on Gnostic teachings about the Archons. He makes a strong case for alien interference with the human genome, but this claim does not stand up against Gnostic analysis. Gnostic texts use mythological language to describe actual events in prehistory as well as long-term developments in the human psyche. According to the ancient seers, Archons cannot access our genetic makeup but they can fake an intervention. Considering the confusion of humanity in modern times, a faked intervention would be as good as real. This typifies the Archon tactic of getting us to imagine and believe things that are not true, and to accept simulation for reality. In this way, Gnostics taught, these alien cousins can deviate the human species from its true and proper course of evolution.

Metahistory - Archons 

In the abduction literature its interesting how the abduction scenario follows the behavior of the Archons so well.  Most often abductions take place with three androgynous beings present.  The person most often feels absolute terror.  Animals act very aggressively toward them, for example.  Maybe like how they might if a Lion were to come into the room?  A threat?  But terror is certainly a part of the experience and after feeling terror the abductee finds him or herself to be paralyzed.  After this, the beings take the person "by theft."  They go onto a craft and are poked and prodded.  Some women describe an insemination procedure.  Many describe being forced to hold weird babies that looked like they were hybrids of humans and their race. The babies were dying without human touch.  They needed human touch. Perhaps this is because the beings themselves are more imaginal than physical?  Interdimensional?  Could they be practicing a giant hoax on people with collecting ovums and sperm and skin and other tissue samples while all along not really able to do what they SEEM to be doing, creating another race.  Perhaps this is itself an elaborate hoax as Lash suggests?  At this level of incredible possibility, I think that anything is possible.

It gets more interesting though. There is a dirty little secret in the Abduction Community, one that many do not want to mention, but its beginning to make its way into the literature.  Understandably, given that one believes that the data they are gathering is about beings seeking to gain genetic material from humans, it would seem strange to have something come out of left field like this, but its an amazing thing.....because of how it fits into these beings playing a gatekeeper role in the gnostic texts.
Its about Near Death Experiences.

With our technology, the cases of NDE's has shot up because we can snatch people from the clutches of death through improved technology.  One things that has begun to come up is a rather unexpected correlation with these experiences and the Abduction community.  You guessed it; aliens.  Or Archons.
People are beginning to experience these aliens as acting as gatekeepers in many cases.  Accounts involve people who themselves have never had any conscious experiences involving E.T.'s but incidents of this are beginning to come into the community. I reference this through a story that a friend who worked at a hospital as a chaplain described to me as having happened with one woman who quite innocently explained after her NDE and subsequent resuscitation, came to him for counseling that she had seen three of these alien grays in her experience of the afterlife.  This man, himself an abductee, couldn't believe what he was hearing. Is this showing up in the literature? I have not seen any of it. And yet, if these beings are beginning to populate these after death experiences, its a curious little cross-over, if you will forgive the pun.  

But one more wrinkle in this.  The other side of the coin are people in the abduction community who actually see people aboard alien craft who are themselves already dead.  Whitley Strieber recounts in one of his books one such incident involving a man he later discovered had already died. At the time of the abduction, he didn't know this man had died. This was a man whom he knew in life, and just this moment I do not have the resource close enough at hand, but have clear enough memory to recount the basics of the experience.  Others in the community have described similar experiences, all independent of one another.   I understand how one might wish to think that maybe they weren't dead....or they were brought to life.  But maybe another possibility looms, which is that we really do not understand this phenomenon for what it is and that a still plausible but incredible possibility exists which plays right into Lash's own thesis of who or what these beings really are. 

So maybe I have just muddied the water too much.  But consider that the truth is stranger than fiction.  But is it really happening?  the problem that so many people have is that these beings are elusive.  No one yet has been able to produce anything that is an artifact of their existence. There are stories about craft, about beings recovered.  The govt. has been hush hush about it, and yet many people are finding that a lot of the craft in our skies are looking decidedly terrestrial.  If you go to the web site nuforc.org

ufo sighting database

and look up triangular black craft, you find a device that looks a lot like our stealth technology, that also has, not always, but often, a more regular schedule to their sightings (which suggests a very human schedule instead of something that could be totally out of this world and adhering to a very different sense of schedule.....I am mostly thinking the sightings often correspond to a late night flight).  Also some, not all, of the flights, also happen near military bases.  Maybe not a coincidence, there.

I know that for myself, I had run-ins with beings, some, but not all, that were presented in a way that made them look like bees or similar to the grays except mine looked darker.  I also know that some beings, though, felt less like aliens and felt more like dragons or similar kinds of beings.  Perhaps this, then, is what Lash suggests in the case of the two types.  I was aware that these beings sought to connect and ingratiate themselves into the energy fields of their hosts who were themselves blissfully unaware that anything was going on.  In one case where I removed one being at the beginning of my awakening, the person was aware that she had been haunted by dreams over the years that used sex and fear as part of a recurring scenario (as a way to feed off both of these vibrations).  These beings attach themselves in a parasitic way to us.  We speak of casting out demons and spirits, and I can't help but think that this phenomenon could also include the archonic field of experience.  What I find so interesting is that once one has the awareness that these beings are there, getting rid of them isn't that hard actually.  In one case I had three that dissapeared with little fanfare.  It reminded me very much like pigeons in an attic space when a window was opened. With a little shooing (awareness!) they were gone.

I was aware that these beings were in what I could only describe as a cavity corresponding with my bodily cavity but that it was entirely energetic.  I also know that in the run up to becoming aware of them I felt what I suspected was their efforts and affecting my energy field in order to create as much fear as they could in order to keep me out of an ascending state.

This points to something else about these beings.  If you are in the midst of change, these really aren't that big of a threat to you. Yes they feed off of those energies which are created as a result of karmic attachments that have not been resolved (unresolved hurt, anger, abuse, etc.).  They seem formidable at first, but in the end, they fly off like pigeons in the rafters of our being.

So are these archons?  Are these aliens? Is there even a connection?  I think that I like to consider even the most preposterous ideas because yesterday's preposterous idea has a way of becoming accepted mainstream theory or understanding.  There was a time when it was suggested no train could ever go over 70 mph because, it was thought, the air would be sucked out of the cabin of the train.  We look back on this and think how silly to think that.  So what if Jesus and the gnostics had a line on this etheric realm and watched their movements with clarity and understanding in the midst of their kundalini awakenings? Certainly, if you look at the gnostic texts of Philip you will see how he describes the mechanics of awakening in his book.  He speaks like a hindu might about the union of the feminine and masculine just like shakti and siva do in their journey to the crown and out into the cosmic reaches of our being.  We are begotten through two parents which Philip explains is a man and woman spirit, that those who say Mary begot Jesus with the Holy Spirit are in error, because, as everyone back in Philips day knew, or should know, the Holy Spirit was the feminine face of the Creator.  "They are in error" he says and, "they don't know what they are talking about."  Certainly the idea of "begetting" souls would make sense that you have two forces in union, right?  In the Hindu tradition this is divine union, the result is transcendent consciousness.  Perhaps this is the "child" of their union in a sense, the Christ or Cosmic consciousness.  When Jesus came, he bore the good news. The good news my friends is that lying inside of you is the means to awaken. Its what you have awaited for so long.....

Ok.  Thank you for humoring me on this fanciful jaunt through something that I felt was important to consider, to spread because when we begin to face the issues of our awakening in a more frank manner, I think that it becomes easier.  The unknown gets less scary, and we realize that its really not so hard to get through it if we have knowledge.  I don't think its a conspiracy as much as its a lot of misunderstanding as well as a govt that might just be hiding something big under that whole alien thing.  I could be wrong, though. I am willing to keep my mind open and consider a few strange things rather than keep it shut tight. One thing is for sure; these etheric beings DO exist and many DO encounter them in one way or another through this.  Those who become aware of them signal a real shift in their awareness because awareness in these matters is the first step in moving beyond their efforts for control.