Healing Through The Quantum Field

Who knows the basic principles involved in bringing your life into full focus for effective manifesting of what will bring you fulfillment?  Who knows when these principles are put into place and when do they work?  Who knows the "cycle" of manifestation that actually tracks and moves an event from "inception" to full manifestation?  And who knows about the one key to bringing all of this to bear into your life in a way that is meaningful and effective?
I will give you a hint, but it wont be the kind of hint you would have ever expected.  It lies within both your psychology AND physiology.  Within the very atoms in your body, you have the ability to do things that some consider impossible.  The principles are simple, straightforward, and require a fundamental shift in your thinking, feeling, and being.  Can you achieve this?  It is up to you and you alone.  All of it is carried within your own cosmic vehicle.  The only thing that keeps you from tapping it in the way that you would like lies in your psyche.
This is one big reason for doing the "work" required to get yourself to a place where you can experience the fundamental shifts that can occur day to day and moment to moment.  The other clue or hint in all of this is that all of what lies ahead as challenges are all entirely self made.  Want to be a self made woman or man?  Well, here is your chance.

I am of course baiting you.  Normally, I do not use such catchy words and phrases, but in this case, each catch word or phrase is entirely on the mark, honest, and supported by direct experience in an environment that has shown over and over how you can unlock your potential and find greater fulfillment.  But to achieve this requires you to be different.  To feel different, to think different and to allow yourself the means to get out of your own way.
There are many ways to this goal.  There is not any one magical trick or technique because the truth is, like all techniques, they only work if you put belief behind them.  Do you remember the people who were healed by Jesus who exclaimed in amazement over the change that took place within themselves in a moment?  And do you remember what this man was said to have said?  he explained that it was their own faith, their belief, that healed them.  If you believe enough in it and if this method or belief system does not put up more roadblocks than it takes down, then you have a very good chance of it working. This is just how broad a thing this force is.  It literally underpins the movement of atoms and moves up through a little understood chain of effects or forces until it meets you squarely in the moment and place that YOU are in right now. As a result, this force may not always bring you lottery numbers, but will bring you the things that you most need for the NEXT STEP.  Without achieving those next steps, you wont ever get to the lottery or to the life your rational mind tells you is the one that you want.  And curiously, too, the moment you reach this place, it may also have the effect of erasing any concern for the old hopes that you had and MIGHT send you in a different yet much more fulfilling direction.  This is not to say that you WONT achieve your greatest dreams, only that in the process of making the changes to align you to your highest that some priorities may in fact change.  So be ready for that.  And be ready to be led.  By a higher power.  Your own inner power.  And this power links itself up in web-like fashion to the rest of the cosmos.  Truly.  And THAT dear readers, is a fine place to be!

THIS is what I am working on in my book, what one student said was the most critical to him when it comes to books about awakening:  keep the mumbo jumbo out and explain how all of this adheres to physical principles at work within the universe.  The miraculous itself will in some way adhere to physical laws in ways we may not entirely expect, see, or know. This is my task for my book Waking The Infinite.  It is my sincere hope to spell this out in ways that stray far from dogma, bias, and our need to sometimes mythologize a phenomenon that we truly don't always understand completely.  And yet, from time to time, we do have those individual who can bring the information forward in an ever-increasingly clear way so that it can be understood not through dogma or belief only, but through other channels of being.  These other channels will often be the lost or forgotten parts of you that is the missing link in bringing you a life that is full of fulfillment.....whatever that looks like to you.

Teaser

By now if you have been reading through some of what I have been posting about the nature of energy and about awakenings, you may be familiar with a model for understanding it that I call the Particle/Wave model for awareness and energy.

Its simple, and it is based on my careful observations of the energy as it has grown in my life post-awakening.

It goes like this:  your whole life you have known yourself to be an individual, and everything you have known has come from the outside of who and what you are.  This has happened as a result of your having five senses. So everything you have ever experienced has been largely determined by your senses.  These senses tell you certain things about reality, and to you, for the most part, its everything that you know.

You have been like a very discreet and perfectly bounded soap bubble who knows its shape and boundaries as this form. Your awareness has been formed by this just as many of your beliefs have. The world is most assuredly "out there" in front of you as a very real and very physical thing. This has also made you feel separate and even alone.  This state of being may have caused you to become something of a seeker, to find out what this life is all about.  the larger ontological questions we all ask such as "who am I" and "why am I here" are all such questions.  They invariably will lead you beyond yourself as seeming separate in the world.  A part of this soap bubble awareness, what I call Particalized Awareness, are your beliefs and feelings about how things are.  What you don't always realize is that you are doing what Anais Nin once described as seeing the world not as it is but as you are.  So buried into yourself are these beliefs that you cannot believe for one moment that your beliefs could have an effect on what it is you are experiencing.

This mode of awareness is perfectly fine for navigating through physical reality.  In fact, its there for a reason. However, we have become so focused in the physical that it has squeezed out our awareness of other things....bigger things....ontological stuff about the nature of reality, why we are here, what we are deeper down.  Stuff like that.  There is another side to the coin, and its what I call Waveform Awareness, and this form of being is different from what you have known thus far. This awareness is focused differently, but its no less valid and central to your being able to understand who and what you are beyond being a mere particle floating along all on your own.  It answers the question for why we are here in many respects, and it relates us to all the selves we have been and will be.  It is a multidimensional awareness because you, my dear reader, are multidimensional. You may think this silly, but its only silly when you have only known yourself as our soap bubble.

When you enter Waveform awareness, you are literally tapping a nonlocal energy source that is in everything and IS everything. It is the Source of all things.  That may sound high and mighty, but we have enough evidence to show just how true this is.  Since this form of awareness occurs from within, its been a sticky wicket to try and understand it.  Most people who do, do not seek to test and explain in materialistic ways (say through science which is materialistic in most of its orientation).  They simply know.  Why bother to do all that?  Its here, now follow me and I will show you, they say. Do the work, and you will see. But this energy is akin to your individual awareness suddenly knowing itself as part of a larger wave, and this wave is defacto everything that is.  The only thing that stands in your way of experiencing this is how your awareness is focused. Something has to come about that will break that reliance on your awareness as purely individual and move you along the wave.  Since the wave is infinite in potential, you will quite naturally begin to experience the infinite.  One such experience is that of the Source, which drives all of this.  People speak of knowing god or a deity through this method.  Its the only way. And they all say the same thing, whether it be a Christian mystic or a Hindu yogi; you find it within. Up till now, you have been looking outside and all you can get or grasp is a bunch of very finite stuff.  Facts, figures, phenomenon, belief.  There is something more, a lot more, and to get to it, you have to get to the very essence of how the universe is constructed....which isn't that there was something put here for us to inhabit, but something that emerged out of consciousness, and since we emerged out of that same consciousness, we have a very intimate relationship with the seeming external universe.  And true to form, we are finding that this is true. We are finding the linkage between our thoughts and our awareness and how it affects and forms events.  The most rudimentary of these is what we have observed as happening with subatomic and atomic particles and how they behave when they are being watched or recorded AS they do what they do.  This is the infamous "double slit" experiment where particles stopped behaving the way they normally do when there is a camera or monitoring device set up to observe what it is they are doing as they do it. We are also seeing other interesting connectives with this same line of thinking in LARGER phenomenon in, say, a person's life.  I am working on this in my book Waking The Infinite, and its very interesting indeed, since it points to a more unified theory of how the world of quantum effects can be seen effecting events in our lives.  Traditionally, quantum physics has said that the weird effects of particles behaving differently when they "know" they are being watched is limited only to small events like photons and atoms. However, there is something interesting things that are emerging, and they actually feed right into my model for Particle and Wave awareness.

There is a new model for what particles are in relationship to waves.  This model suggests that particle and waves are not just part of each other, but are the same thing, but one of them is being entrained while in the physical in order to create physical effects of a given character.  This model is consistent with the idea that as we move into particle forms, there is a force acting on a wave in some way to cause it to behave very differently. And what exactly is this different thing?  Without spoiling the surprise, it has to do with a wave being folded into itself to appear as a particle.  A wave actually begins to take on a particle appearance when it is still a wave. So folded within the particle is actually wave energy.  And this is just like how you are.  You LOOK like you are a delicate particle living its life, and yet within you is also the energy of the wave.  What is happening is something of a seeming.  This is what the yogis say is the illusion of this life. I don't like illusion as  a word because I sense its in truth a creation....and THIS is quite a different thing. It was Picasso who said "Art is the lie that helps us to see the truth."  And if you think this way, you can see how understanding this "lie" or creation can lead you to understanding some pretty damned profound things about how the world is composed.  And in understanding it, it can also lead you to knowing how to lead a very different, perhaps better, life. What would you do if you found out that you WEREN'T a finite particle, a soap bubble floating temporarily on the breeze, ready to pop at any moment, your little journey over in just a half century or two? It would be huge, I suspect.

Now for the next juicy tidbit.  As a result of this model as its been put forth, it suggests (to me) that the thing that entrains the wave is your own awareness!  What makes things seem to be as they are is your own awareness....or focus, which is, naturally, as a particle.  Its coincident that as your beliefs about the world drop away, you are able to experience the power of this wave much more clearly.  You go from an awareness that has been entraining matter around you, the universe, based on beliefs about how it happens to being more aligned with what the reality is deeper down, which is that none of this is limited at all!  Infinite.  What stands in your way?  Your beliefs, quite obviously.  No one every does anything that they do not believe is possible.  Their awareness is formed by belief and belief informs action. Now of course, I am not talking about stepping off the side of a building, but then again, I am not suggesting either that there isn't some way that you might get to a place where you COULD.  There is still more to know, to learn, and to test in order to understand what the relationship energy may have to physical phenomenon. But what's most obvious here is that the greater the presence of energy, the greater the presence of something that is called the synchronicity is in people's lives who have awakening. Its very interesting that in some gnostic texts, Jesus is explaining how one awakens awareness of the "kingdom" and he says concurrent with his prescription that when you ask the mountain to move away, it moves away.  The synchronicity is more than what we currently think it is, an odd coincidence with meaning for us in the moment. I got into how this works in the book Waking The Infinite.  I also discuss this new model or theory of the particle/wave duality which mirrors most closely my own model for understanding consciousness in terms of awareness and how conscious energy behaves depending on how it is entrained.....or focused. If it is focused in your Particalized Awareness, it follows one set of rules, but when it is entrained through the Waveform Awareness, things begin to happen differently.  Events actually change, and what we might have described as miracles two centuries ago become more understood for what they are; a hitherto poorly understood quality of how energy and matter interact.

This new model for understanding the particle/wave duality in physics is very interesting and could blow the lid off of how we see physical reality itself. I have to say that thus far, its very compelling, and very simple, fits in with my own model of the duality principles and may well help to inform our thinking as we go forward not just in physics, but in what would have been called pseudo-science very recently.....the science of awakening.

So I know its a bit of a tease that I am offering up here, and I do hope that if you are interested in finding out more that once I get the book out, that you will buy it, read it, and let me know what you think!  I feel that we are entering a time when the veils of our past conceptualizing of this field will fall away even more as our own biases and beliefs soften.  What will be revealed will be far cooler and interesting a world than we ever through or could imagine.

Nemasté

There is More to Learn

In the eastern traditions there is a strong adherence to destroying ego,  to obliterating what stands in the way of the transcendent This view emphasizes the infinite field, which is where soul resides, where the Waveform Awareness emerges. It is the All.  These folks sink into the infinite and they dissapear.  Then they come back and all their stuff is there waiting for them like forgotten luggage.  By dissolving attatchements, the motor purrs instead of chugging. To do this means the small and large self work together.  These easterners don’t understand this it seems.  They seek this inifinite path by way of dissolving. It works, but it has a consequence to it.  As a result, there is this reliance on not feeling, whatever that means.  Thing is, is that while I would agree that you can’t drag raw emotion into this, you cannot help BUT feel.  The universe IS feeling, so its a bit silly to even be talking this way.  The way you interface with the infinite is through feeling.  Its how you are able to shift and be aware of this universe, the All.  Its simple; the All is aware and feeling.  I am not talking run away emotion, that’s what’s waiting for them when they get back.  Its why they talk about it I imagine.  They do well in getting there, but there is something big that not many even talk about because this is where the rubber meets the road.

We have more to learn.  Wed like to cleave to ancient texts and scrolls, but we as a species are changing, and we just dont sit in a temple all day meditating. We are texting and cooking and picking up children and having meetings and being barraged by the absolute bullshit of a world gone mad. We tend to think if you wear a funny hat and a Sari that this makes you spiritual. But merely being you makes you this.  As a result, we need a more robust sense of integration for the self.  Small self is just used to small things….but if it can surrender well then the larger self can light up and you are on your way.

The universe is alive.  Every atom and molecule feels.  Its consciousness and its in everything.  It is THIS feeling that you connect with and so feeling is very important.  As you shed the dross ever more greater ranges open up to you.  Most people carry a huge load around with them without ever knowing it.  Surrender becomes the only way they know to get up to the light speed necessary for things to get interesting. We can be awake while still loaded.  This is what brings on the dark nights of the soul, this is what brings about what some call Kundalini Syndrome.  Its ego trying to dredge up karmic attachments that simply cant travel at the speed of the universal consciousness.  But we still try.  The art of learning to divest of karmic attachments is a seemingly magical process where old hurts and connections to lifelong issues suddenly go away….like a leaf falling quiet from a tree. They do not return.  And all of the dark nights of the soul are most often brought on by this dross.  For most the process is entirely mysterious….and THIS is what we have yet to learn well enough so that as more awaken, we can speed up this process, improve upon it instead of looking to cultures thousands of years old and soaked in issues and attachments that simply are not part of our emerging Collective Consciousness.  Even the Collective is changing.

I know….I am just an upstart pipsqueek. But its through our own development, never assuming there isn’t more to learn, that we do.

Its an exciting time.  Not easy, never that, but looking into our present with feet place forward, instead of into the past is the way to go. And awaken.

Nemasté

Beyond This Little Place

Beyond this little moment
this place
this state of being
there is something that has been with you
but hidden, too.
Its a passionate fire breath of a moment
where your body relaxes and begs to be taken by the ALL.
The universe surges around you
you surge within the universe
confused, ego takes a trip for a time
so true universal mind can move powerfully through you
heretical
passionate
and unapologetic.
Everyone wants to think they know what an Awakening is all about.
Books are written that entirely miss the point with blah blah blah
No special pose or diet or breathing or any of that, but an intention to feel deeply, passionately, sexually, tantricaly, multidimensionaly, quantum-fide and nonlocal.
Powered, your essence can flow through the tiny cracks left by those in the world who do not notice them
You are rendered passionate
slave to the universe
you beg for more
to find that place where your being rides the wave of the infinite
and passion and desire pours through your body
less like what you used to know
and now like liquid fire.
For as much as you want to leap out of your skin
for as much as you seek a passionate embrace
you sit quiet and still
your insides exploding quietly
as the passionate universe surges all through you.
All this talk about purity
propriety
and holiness….
it just fades into the background
so much nonsense.
My divinity is the masculine seeking his feminine
of the feminine feeling his hands all over her a thousand miles away
his presence incapable of being anywhere but within her
like currents of light or water streaming all through her
in their noble pagan dance of passion.
His is not an act of propriety
but of his pure masculine essence
what so many denied as impure, improper, and unclean.
What utter bullshit. Id rather be a rough and tumble pagan
than a pure and carefully put together peitous follower.
Id rather howl at the moon and feel every fish and bird
moving through me that moves through the hot steamy jungles of Belize
and the passionate currents that stream through Fort Wayne Indiana.
The truth is, it all moves through me
and its intense creative energy is like a giant orgasmic tsunami
that I cannot make any sense of save to feel and experience in the moment
what the collective is doing and feeling.
I know out of this I can tease great energy for making incredible things happen
and I know I was sent here to do that
and I know I ought not worry
but I also know I aint getting any younger
and perhaps I need to show the explosive potential in all of this
as my mere intention of kissing the world
will make it result into a billion hungry lips
waiting for the creative touch
the light ray
the water drop
the life spark….

The Path To The Transcendant

Within each person is the means to reaching a fuller sense of being, a way towards understanding and experiencing life in a way that frees you from the prison that has been life.  I use this term with the understanding that it is we who have made this prison.  It has been built by us each choice by choice.
The way out is fairly simple.  Understanding how to live a life that is married to the transcendent is, I feel, what we all yearn for within.  We want very much to feel connected to something larger.  This something larger is your birthright.  To get there, a few prerequisites....

At the front of your awareness, normally, is your ego and mind.  They are so present that most people aren't even aware of them.  Its like that ring on your finger you had there for so long that you forget its even there.  What all of this is about is letting down mind and ego, and when you do this the universe comes into view.  I have some ideas about how we can go about letting that universe in based on clues in my own awakening.  Everyone is different, certainly, and not everything will work for everyone.  I never did those things that we are told we must do through other traditions such as the Hindu one which involves mediation and clearing the nadis, part of your energy system.  What I did do, which is very telling to me, is I released an old burden emotionally that I had been holding onto for years.  As a result of a vision I had at age 18, I was left wondering what it all meant for me now because it dealt with events that I was told would come to pass.  I spent years feeling like I was not doing enough to understand it, to honor it in the right way.  As a result of this I had a knot of guilt and frustration over the whole thing. For years I merely ignored it, unable to come to any conclusion.  Finally, though, I wound up staring at a page about the thunder beings, which this vision was about.  There, on the page, this man was giving a speech before a tribal council and he gave his phone number.  I had a draft of a letter to another elder that I was going to send hoping to gain some insight on this matter, but something about it bothered me. I couldn't quite pin it.  I kept writing it and rewriting it.  As I sat there, what would be the fourth and final draft of the letter sat ready to be mailed.  For whatever reason I knew I had to call this man.  The interesting thing that happened was that not a lot of resolved or explained.  This kind man listened to my story and then suggested that perhaps it was time for another vision quest...what I found from speaking to him was that I felt about 80 pounds lighter.  I had let go of something that had been occupying my mind in such a way that I was not fully aware of just how much it was weighing me down.  Suddenly, somehow, I felt as though I had confessed my sins to some priest (I am not Catholic, but I assume this must be what it is like), and was released from it somehow.  I felt so much better.  Somewhere, in there, I realized that it was all going to be okay, and I was able to forgive myself.

After that, I began to feel very different.  I began to feel as though a presence was calling me, making itself known to me as if it were upon the breeze, somewhere "off over there somewhere" as I felt into this sudden awareness of something more.  I felt how I belonged to a realm of being, a family of consciousness.  After that, more and more things took place.  While I do not meditate in any organized way, I do sink into what is essentially a meditative state.  I also did do one meditation which may have helped to spark what I call waveform awareness.  I have discussed this a number of times and its what is behind getting the hang of this type of awareness.  I contend that its a lot easier to do when you divest yourself of something, or things, that may be weighing on you. These things quite literally drag you down, keep you engaged in ego and mind without your realizing it.  We are so used to solving a problem like this when there really is not solving it other than finding a way to just let it go.  If its a problem to you, then surely your mind and ego together have sought a way to deal with it. Like me, you will find that you do not solve anything.  You let it go. The past is the past.  You are no longer in that past.  The power that you have resides in the moment.  So in this life, be in the moment.  This is where you can change things for the better by simply being different.  Letting go of those chew bones of the mind, the mind has nothing to do and when you can let the mind go in a quiet and contemplative way and feel into your being....you can become aware of what has always been within you but carefully covered over.  Doing this, you effectively release a damming up of your awareness and your energy field. Perhaps you imagine yourself stripping down, imagining that you are removing layers.  Perhaps, also, you try Qi Gong, something that has been very helpful for me later on when I became more aware of the blocks in my field. You then can let the universe through.  By feeling into yourself you find that place where the universe can be felt. The mind and ego are filters, though, so they have to go, set aside for a bit.  They are important for small tasks, but not helpful when trying to conceive of the universe.  Lighten your being, breath, and focus on the third eye.  Be quiet.  Be so quiet and still that there is no other focus but the third eye.  If you drift, return.  Keep returning and then focus on nothing else.  Over time, you will find yourself as if you were dreaming....something is happening.  What is happening is that you have moved from particalized egoic awareness to the wave form.  its not bad to fall asleep.  I often meditate prior to bed so that if I do fall asleep, its a bonus.  I can get back to it the next day.  The universe is beginning to enter in.  If you are ready for an awakening, you may find a host of other symptoms that begin to take place as this energy situates itself within you.

You are a being of many layers.  Out front is normally your mind and ego.  The ego is most often the part of us that is tasked with deciding what we want.  These wants can be shaped by the limited perspective that the ego has, and as a result, can also house wants reflective of our beliefs.  Our beliefs are whatever we accept, and within us is a tendency to look to an authority for what it is that is important, or what we think we need.  In a family situation, you learn from your parents and family, but you take on belief from others around you, including media.  Its understood in sales that we as humans have a built in resistance to anything new until we are bombarded by it enough.  I can remember being told that after a given number of "no's" said to a sales person that the average person will eventually cave in and begin saying yes.  This is similar to how horses are trained by the horse whisperer.  What this man has discovered is that horses have a built-in flight response which is aroud a kilometer.  Something curious will happen with a horse after it has satisfied its flight response; it will essentially "give up" and accept whomever is nearest it as its leader and its nature will become suddenly succeptible to whatever direction its given.  The horse whisperer uses this as a way for training the horse to take direction form the human "leader."  So understanding this principle that plays out in people as well as horses, you can see how succeptible we are on a psychological and biological level to patterning which also includes beliefs.

When you look at how the world is, how media is oriented within it, our beliefs could well be informed by those things which are the antithesis of this transcendent state.  This transcendent state is simply your super conscious, your larger self, and this self exists with a higher sense of right and goodness.  It is part of a vast system of cooperation, creation, and fulfillment that is beyond most any smaller-scale fulfillment's, which is why when you are situated within the ego mind that when you seek to manifest things in your life that are not for your higher good, they simply will not come to be.  These smaller scale fulfillment's are not bad, they are simply the most immediate things that the self seems to want, or believes that it wants.  Since its subject to beliefs of what it wants, it can also be formed and shaped.  By being exposed to the way media is today, it doesn't take much to see how formed people can be, even on subtle levels.  After 9/11, we wound up invading Iraq.  All of the prerequisites were there to help solidify public support for such a move, but to this date, there is no evidence linking Iraq to what happened on 9/11.  In fact, Wesley Clark states in an interview that he saw plans just days after 9/11 for invading a series of countries which included Libya, Egypt, and Syria.  This is just now playing out with our involvement in these other countries for one reason or another.  To consider that rebellion could be fomented by those people on the ground, influenced or supported by our own covert agencies in the U.S. is troubling, but shows how these "arguments" are constructed, formed, and to what great lengths a country will go for meddling in another country.  Freedom at work.  But this is just to illustrate how your beliefs can indeed be shaped out of whole cloth fabrication. By learning to FEEL into the truth, beyond all the mentalizing and egoic struggling, there lies a pulse of love.  This is not a love FOR something, the kind of love we most often feel in our particle individualized consciousness, but a love that literally animates all of life and IS life. the very source of life.  Its not something you have to do anything for but to simply be. Like a birthright, or a lovely inheritance. 

As you awaken more and more, you begin to sense, feel, know, that there is a deeper form of authority within and that you do not need to look for it outside of yourself.   This is one reason, not surprisingly, why people who are awakened, reach a place almost universally, where they have to turn off the t.v. and also be careful what music they listen to or what movies they watch because buried within the message is an energetic alignment that is out of whack with what their insides are telling them.  I know I am taking a bit of a peripheral view in explaining some of this, but hopefully you can begin to understand in a more tangible way how the mechanics of manipulation can take place. Then, you can become more free by choosing no longer to be afraid or caught in the vise of whatever happens to be going on.  You can be a more natural human being, and happier, too. 

The presence of this transcendent self is beginning to influence your wants and behavior as its presence is known.  When you understand that many of your wants may not be based on your deeper needs but something that is part of a script, you can begin to be more aware of what is happening to you. I am not suggesting that everything you have been told is not true or that its the result of a vast conspiracy, but that most of what is in our world has been so mixed up in distortions that it can be hard to reach the still deeper self.   Karma is tied up in this, and karma is most often emotional in nature.  Fear of not fitting in, needing to out-Jones the Jones's.....we call this competitiveness, but it also points to a fear of failure, a feeling of needing to prove ones self for fear of not being adequate, or needing others' approval.  All of this keeps the ego in motion, engaged in your psyche, and it also can help keep awakening at bay because this awakening happens when you begin to disengage from the falsehood that exists, the distortions in reality, in this level of awareness.  The higher self does not need this stuff, it knows that it is perfect because of where it is in the cosmic order.  This is so because the higher self is situated within the energy of love and love never seeks to do harm, nor does it seek to work against the larger good.  This is what ascetics call disengaging from the world of "illusion."  While we may not feel good about ourselves, its because of some misalignment within ourselves in comparison to our higher being.

Once you begin to examine your outer layer stuff, you can begin the work that will help to remove these layers of illusion....getting back to what you what you genuinely need and what will be best for you and your long term goals and happiness.  The path is simple and is through feeling.  Realize that this self exists outside of time and as a result can make decisions in what seems nanoseconds with an incredible deftness and attention to detail.  If there is something up ahead that might make a choice your ego wants to accept but that it cannot see (because it is a very limited part of your being and unable to wrap itself around this timeless dimension), then whatever it is that is not good for you and your higher good, will simply not be.  The ego itself does not have the power to intend things so they manifest in your life.  Ego will decide based on very immediate surface things.  The transcendent sense of self which is plugged into the entirety of the universe has the power and means to manifest nearly anything you need. This is because it IS the energy of the universe.  Your self needs to be able to come to a place where it not only knows this, but has beliefs that truly support this notion...less that it needs the power of belief behind it, and more that it needs those beliefs that simply support it.    A small but important difference.

In order to get to the core of your power as an unlimited being requires you to move beyond the veils, the layers of yourself to get to this boundless self.  In truth the individual self has very limited power until it learns to let go of its idea of individual awareness here in order to begin to soak up this cosmic flow just "beyond" you  (seemingly). To do this, though, requires that you leave ego behind.  It requires that you surrender your emotional baggage, your karmas, before you can begin to experience samadhi, satori, or bliss. You CAN feel this bliss without surrender, but it will be more as though you have abided by the river side rather than jumping into its curents.  Reaching this state is like suddenly finding yourself before a vast ocean of being. At first it seems like this ocean is not you, but once situated within it, you realize it IS you.  It is all of us.And it is love. It is all the love you never got, all the love you refused yourself without realizing it. No matter how much you loved another, it could be that it was somehow never enough. that was because something was missing.  What was missing was the love of the universe filling you and making a real woman or man of you.  This love is orgasmic, it is the deepest form of love affair with the cosmic, and it will reflect back to you everything that you are until you refine and become more like it. Not that YOU are erased.  You aren't. Think of this force as being like a parent who is showing you how to be.  A father admonishes the child, correcting her, showing her how to be....and over time, she learns the correct habits and attitudes so that they become more like a habit, and then she does not have to work at it so hard. In some ways, this is like this....learning how to grow up in a new way, learning how to become a new kind of person all without ever shedding the beautiful mark of your own individuality and personality.  Because this energy is so vast, it has room for you to be whomever you wish, but because of how this love is, this divine pulse, it will show you how to be if you look to it as the one who can model the best that is within you. You do not need a religion for this.  You need only let this force in like a lover sneaks in through the back gate and into your chamber. This force will love you perfectly if you turn your attention to it, which means turning from your mind long enough to glimpse this shimmering realm of love.  You need only follow it and always ask fo it how you can be a more perfect lover for it....and it will show you.

This is the core energy of the universe, of all things that shape and mold the world we know.  This is the intelligence that created dna, that gives shape to molecules, to gravity, and to the cellular structures of simple and complex life forms.  This organizing energy is creative and it is constantly forming and reforming in countless worlds.  Our world is not merely material that gives rise to life, but rather this energy IS the material world.  When you step behind the curtain of your present ego awareness, you dip into this vast ocean and you can literally have an influence upon events.  Having said this, this does not mean that you can wreak havoc or bring the world to total peace.  It does not work that way.  This is a higher intelligence and while its powerful, so is free will.  Free will is what can make a very egoic person do things that are not in the interest of the whole.  This is what leads to senseless suffering when the planet could be liberated by the sense of cooperativeness and pushing the species and the rest of the planet upwards to a better tomorrow instead of a world where people do terrible things.  Its not that  some god is silent as much as this spirit is present in ALL things and set up this lab of a planet to learn about being co-creative and in order to do this, we need to understand how our actions can cause real effects in the world.

Creation is itself the very epitome of intention, so in order to learn to be a good creator, you and I must be free to learn the ropes of this type of being.  This means that free will must reign supreme.  Some would say that this world is not real, and I have to disagree.  Nothing created by consciousness is NOT real.  A creation gives form to this creative force in all things.  In order to create sanely, we need to learn how to handle the reins and responsibility that this act involves.  Understanding this one prerequisite will help you to understand how this marvelous intelligence which you can feel within you works.  While we may wring our hands and wonder "where is God?" in the midst of bad events, we must understand tha this presence is all around us every moment.  It is literally in everything.  It animates everything.  Its as though our consciousness literally rides upon a wave that is this vast force.  The more you can do to become aware of it in your body, the better able you are to understand how it can be utilized to give you a better life.

I am not suggesting that this power be used to help you win the lottery, although if its in your highest for this to happen, there are ways where this could happen. The trick is being clear enough within yourself to know what will in the end really make you happiest and most fulfilled.  While most people would say that winning the lottery would make them happiest, I need only think of the many people who, a year after having won, find themselves in a less than ideal situation.  Some wind up being "taken" in investment scams, or jealousy in the family or amongst friends takes it toll.  Because of the life they led up to that point and the karmas attracting those people to them, they often wind up in bad situations that weren't so good for them.  By simply going to the store to buy a ticket and winning, they effected a very physical change in their life, one which their ego told them would be good for them. On the other side of the coin are also people who were happy and fulfilled by their choice to play and then win the lottery.  It all depends on where your inner glitches lie.  The superself, though, is never wrong, and even if it keeps us from landing that seemingly perfect job or wining the lottery, there are things ahead that will wind up helping to serve our greater purpose in the end.  To do this, though, requires a leap of faith.  This is hard and its something that causes the ego to want to jump in and try to manage.    This happens when there is fear or uncertainty.  This is the one emotion that blocks access to the higher self.

Part of an awakening is learning to stay our of fear and stay in the bliss of the boundless awareness that is in everything.  This is done also by keeping the ego mind in its place enough for this universal flow to move through you.  When you give in to fear, you effectively put a kink in your essence as a vessel for your divine or super self.  When you do that, you block yourself from the larger dominion of your being.  Learning how to allow this flow to move through you is the next evolutionary wrinkle in your being on this planet.  By learning to be in this flow, you learn to move this energy through you and as you do that, you can begin to direct this energy for the good of your own life and for the good of all.  Nothing else is as important as that.  When you learn to direct this universal flow in your life, you are literally learning how to create at a whole new level.  You are a multi-leveled being and by opening in this way you are learning about a part of yourself a vast dominion of your being that straddles physical reality and time.  This being exists both in and out of time all at once.  This being is capable of communicating a feeling what others feel.

This being can also learn to create in a way that is in harmony with a higher purpose.  This higher purpose will always create that which is best.  Since you are also a being that is learning, you may have things happen in the midst of this which may seem to be accidents, things out of alignment with peace and harmony.  This is because you can begin to feel and direct this universal energy before you have completely divested yourself of those things that stand in the way of being one with this larger sense of self.  the biggest impediment is karma....and karma, as I have said, is itself a misalignment, most often emotionally, with the larger or higher purpose or self. It is also a misalignment with reality.

As is often the case, we can have opinions and attitudes about things that are less about how things really are as we feel them to be or believe them to be.  If our own insides are not in tune with the universe, then it will feel and wish and hope for things based on this lack of alignment and can bring about creations that do not always work out perfectly.  If you remain engaged, willing to learn from these mistakes, you will find the thing that was at odds in the act of creating and will help you to learn to take the guidance of the higher self better in the future.  The good thing, though, is that this higher self wont ever be wrong. If you can simply sit back and hand the reins over to this higher self it will guide you.  You might not feel like you are in control like you used to be, but then having your ego in control of the universe would be very dangerous indeed.  Ego is good for very limited things.  It can help you to discern between me and the, a necessary thing for living in a dual universe, but it is only the first layer of experience...a bit like the shimmering light on the surface of the water. Beyond the surface lies something much larger, boundless, and this is the universe which you are a part of in a much larger way than you can imagine.

The way to this state of being is by learning how to move from particle awareness to wave awareness.  Particle awareness is your egoic awareness.  It is limited, but it is also an important aspect of your experience here.

The other part is the wave form of awareness, and in this state your particle shifts into an alliance with the energy of the universe in building a wave that is limitless in potential.  the more is succumbs or surrenders to this state of being, the more aware it is of this larger wave.  Out of this wave, you can channel the energy of the universe in creating here on this planet.  Out of this you can see and learn things about the mystery of being.  It is quite literally at your fingertips because the energy is shimmering and alive.  As you are perched upon this wave, you can draw any amount of inspiration from it.  You can also simply rest in bliss as some monks have done, happy to simply ride that wave of the All.  Learning how to ride this wave and be in this bliss AND operate in the world all at the same time is the practice of mastery.  To do this requires that you allow the influence of the bliss to enter into your life and change it.

Anyone can feel this bliss of the All, and they can do this through the layers of karmic entanglement, and you can in a sense be perched in what I call superposition, a term used by quantum physicists, but with all the material you still contain, the effects will be limited.  But as you use the energy to help create a better arrangement of your being by doing the work of divesting yourself of those "clods" that serve to block the flow of this energy, you begin to see real change in who you are, how you respond to others, and to your belief system, which begins to change and become more aligned to this larger reality of being.

If your beliefs are limiting, your experience wil likewise be limited also.  If, for example, you have an incomplete knowing about good and evil, for example, your perception of this energy might reflect something that is less that focused or resolved.  There will invariably be distortions in your mind and body about what all of this is about.  By having beliefs that are more in alignment with the ay things are, you will begin to feel and know this higher self in a more complete and clear way.  It will also change your behavior and you will begin to mature spiritually.

To get to a new level, learning to listen to this larger self and learn from it, you can effect change in your life.  this requires a great deal of faith and surrender.  This is not easy to do, but very recently I was willing to listen to this deeper self and it was able to guide me perfectly in the direction that I sorely needed in order to get through a hard period in my life.  It feels like we are taking our hands off the wheel, and in many ways we are.  Learning to let go is not irresponsible.  Learning to let go means you still tend to the day to day things necessary in life.  You do not simply remove yourself from life, no, but with the bigger things in your life, you simply allow the bigger part of you to take control and guide the bus. 

Now what I am going to tell you is that as a result of this experience, you can learn how to unhook from the grid of control that is part of this world.  Instead of simply being in the world but not of it, my sincere feeling is that we are here to learn to create in as high a vibration as we can. We are human and we are imperfect, but we are also learning to hook into and dial into this self which is not entangled in our world as we are.  By feeling into this larger self, very often you can simply sense what is not quite right in things of this world and it can serve to help you to steer away from it and to create something different.

When I awakened, I began to feel, in a slightly paranoid way, that there was something seriously amiss with the world.  I could just FEEL it.....but since I was only marginally tuned in, I could not quite get what it was.  As my awakening came on more strongly, I began to see evidence of how wrong the world was.  I realized that there was a lot about our world that simply was not being talked about much, and those who did were labeled loonies. What is so ironic is that now, those conspiracy "nutjobs" are now being called correct in their assessment of what was underway with our world (this has even trickled into mainstream media in regards to world government, for example---and this was reported on Fox even!).

Taking a broader view, I was able to understand how other energies were involved in the game of control in our world.  I understood that consciousness, the very nature of it, is made so it can form alliances.  We do so in forming the waveform of awareness.  We literally merge with the collective awareness to become "one."  Likewise, every cell in your body has its own unique awareness, and your own awareness 'rides' on the wave of its being as literally billions of cells live and die in the moment, replacing themselves with the right speed to maintain the wave that is your body and being.  This is an example of the built in 'code' that governs the entire universe, most notably life here.  This cooperative experience is what we are, it is the essence of us, and unfortunately this can also mean that we can make alliances with forces which are probably not so good for us in the long run.

So to the meat of this....it is now possible, through the power of superposition or cosmic awareness to intend a better world. Things are not so good right now, but we can in our time stop being passive and begin to take a more active role in our gifts to the world.  We can mediate each morning and intend that the best world come about for the good of all, wishing or hoping or praying for a better world to come about in these times....a world that is guided more and more by this cosmic principle.  And then you can also do more by taking classes that will help you to move energy blocks in your field so the energy will flow more freely. You might try running or exercising.  Movement helps a lot!  You might save up money and go to a conference or workshop on learning how to work in a higher manner for the good of all.  Maybe its a class taught by someone whose at the forefront of global awareness, or you might teach a class on your own of how to bring this awareness into your own body and those of your students. Maybe its a book club that deals with the new world or maybe you write your own book.  Maybe its as simple as volunteering to do work in your community in order to support a better local sense of togetherness.  By learning to co-create, you use what may seem a passive bliss energy to create out of this bliss instead of the old paradigm of separation.  Maybe you write an article for a yoga journal, or an online resource like Nonduality Magazine, or Nonduality America, or any number of other resources out there.  Perhaps you volunteer for hospice, or do work through a church or other organization.  Who knows what it could be.  But by bringing this vibration into the world you create something that shimmers with this energy.  By making the energy solid by manifesting it in the world, you literally push more good energy into the world.  Maybe you go pick up a handful of gravel and you pray over these little inconsequential pieces of rock and see yourself investing them with all the power of your awakened being, all the love that can flow through you, anchored in that stone, and then go about your day, placing these little stones everywhere you go..

As I sit and write this, it is possible for you to access a font of energy that is not just my energy but that of the entirety of he universe.  You can allow yourself in this moment to become inspired, hopeful, and awake about your place on the planet.  Free will will always rein, yes, so in this case you can also use your free will to put some of the love into the world, for even the flutter of a butterfly does have some small effect.  By bringing in the intention of your boundless self, you bring the power of a universe of such wings into the moment!

For those of you wanting some exercise that might help you reduce your inner junk (as I call it), I suggest that you go back to this page and scroll down to the bottom to find the link near the end.  In it, you will be led to a meditation by Osho that I think you can find to be useful in releasing the inner junk that can lead to feeling the bliss of this experience. I say this because in the book I am writing I can see that there was a link between my letting go of some old buried guilt I had been carrying and my feeling a sense of release as well as a sense of needing to make some changes in my life. The spirit was very willing and just a nudge in the right direction set me on a course with an Awakening.  I cannot say it will be so for you, but I understand that if you are overburdened with karmic stuff, it might be hard to begin to feel the first strains of this revolutionary energy.  Ultimately only your own soul can know if its right for you for this particular time, but if it is right for you then by using intention and asking for the right signs and teachers or helpers or events to come into your life to help burgeon your awakening, then it will happen.  In fact, nothing can stop it from happening.  It is our birthright....

Nemaste