NOTE: This is part two of a two-part work that details the marks that
have emerged on my body throughout my awakening process. I am finally
including this information here in the hopes that if anyone else
encounters them that they can rest assured that they are not losing
their minds and that all is well. If you are finding this and would
like to read the first installment please look at the previous post before this one for that.
I want to reiterate that everything that you are going to see here was in no way faked or created in order to make this claim. All of the marks occurred all within the context of awakening. I have held onto these images for ten years, uncertain about ever posting them. I am doing so because by now I have had two people who have written to me to tell me about their experience with similar looking marks (one of whom who was kind enough to send me photos).
Continued from the previous...
When I awoke and saw this burn on my hip, I was at a
complete loss as to how to explain
any of this.
How had I managed to burn myself and never even notice? If I
had
burned myself, I reasoned, whatever had burned me would have burned
through my clothing. I would have noticed this kind of burn. It would
have been a circular or semi-circular object. I would have clothing
that was burned through near the hip. As I searched memory, I had not
been in the kitchen or near anything that was hot enough to create a
burn like this. It just wasn't adding up the morning I got up and saw
the mark plain as day as I sat on the side of the bed before my feet hit
the floor. I knew there was
no way I could have gotten
burned just lying in bed asleep. No sharp objects, no chemicals had
come into contact with my body in the last week. And a burn? I would
have noticed it. I would have
felt it. I would feel it throbbing, begging me to put something on it to ease the pain. This was a
complete mystery!
Over
the course of the next couple of days I shot the same mark several
different times in a variety of different light just to make sure that I
had captured it. Had I been
branded? A friend later suggested
that maybe I had been branded, but perhaps branded by spirit. Had I
been taken out and abducted? Why a burn? And why didn’t it hurt? Why
didn’t it behave like a burn? It simply faded over a period of about
three days with no marks, no scaling of the skin, no itching, no
scarring at all. There was no evidence of bruising or abrasion either.
It was a complete mystery…at least as the time.
Below, see a close-up of the mark.
The Second Mark
The
next photo is of a mark that manifested in 2012 after I experienced a
powerful heart clearing. This was the third such clearing that I was
aware of, which suggested to me that this was the third kosha, level, or
dimensional aspect to be impacted through the clearing process that
kundalini helped to facilitate. In the case of the mark at my heart
chakra, it took a number of days before this mark emerged. Prior to
that, I felt a powerful magnetic effect of energy surrounding my heart
center that I can only describe as a beaming energy that was moving
outward from my heart center. It is worth noting that I had two years
prior to this had an experience with an angelic being who reached into
my heart center in a kind of psychic surgery where he pulled out what
felt like a part of my insides. All of this was energetic in nature,
but felt very physical at the time. While he had his hand in my heart
center, I was on fire with an unbelievable pulse of love that radiated
throughout my entire being at a pitch that I could scarcely believe was
even possible. It was this experience that initiated a series of
powerful heart openings that continued over the following three years
that resulted in a number of releases of old ancestral, physical,
karmic, and emotional material from my field of awareness. Once the
release came that resulted in the mark in my heart center, my heart felt
more different than it ever had. It felt as though I had a beaming
light shining from the center of my heart.
This
mark began as a single circle and over a period of months as my heart
center grew or expanded, a second lighter circle developed on top of the
first. This had the effect of two hoops or circles making a figure “8”
on my chest. I did not take photos of this new or expanding of the
mark on my body.
I noticed that when I looked at it in the mirror
over that year that the circle took one a look as though it was a circle
with many smaller flames encircling it. It reminded me a lot of the
image of Shiva dancing and being surrounded by a circle of flame. In
fact, this mark was different from the first in that it was more like a
series of marks making up a circle. It also has the effect of being
like a string of red burn-like marks strung together, which the picture
above illustrates. Again, this mark
did not come about as a
result of a fungal infection like ringworm or psoriasis and has been a
mark that at various times reemerges when I am moving strong heart
energy. I can in fact feel its presence all the time, but it gets
stronger at different times. Besides the burn mark shown earlier, I have
never had these strange burn marks that I could not account for. If
anything, the marks are more like the result of my body being slightly
irritated by the energy across the skin, perhaps more like how
electricity might burn the body more than anything. Could this be a
reaction to strong pranic energy flowing through the heart chakra? It’s
interesting to me that it is so small; this ring feels like it
corresponds to the central channel, the shushumna as it transits through
the heart chakra because my heart chakra takes up nearly my entire
chest now. There is an emergence of the most brilliant part of the
heart center that starts at the center of my chest and radiates
outward. This ring corresponds to this most intense center of energy
(and might be a slight overloading of energy that irritates my skin?).
What
I do find interesting is that in my inner work I discovered a
characteristic of prana while working with a Kahuna healer one day.
When I am having her work on me, I feel very relaxed and secure and I
often drop into a deep trance state in the hopes of facilitating the
energy she is moving in my body. As I looked down into my meridian
system I noticed something I had never seen before, which was that each
energy line was surrounded by a series of other lines, like a bundle of
fiber optic cables surrounding a central sheath. The mark on my chest
is very similar to how the channel looked when viewed in cross-section
(I am able to use the inner eye to get all kinds of views of my body
ethereally, including what is essentially a cross section view). But I
don’t know if this is connected to this discovery I made with my healer
or not, and will be something that I will be bringing up with healers in
my area to see if we can develop this further to see if these bundles
can be further looked at to work out ways to work with them for moving
energy and for healing work. So much to ponder and consider! All of
this,
no larger than the size of a dime. This is one reason
why I think that this mark corresponds to the central channel and not
the entire chakra because in both the Indian and the Chinese
methodologies, the channels are described as quite small. The Ida and
Pengali (which are nadi, or
channels, for prana) are said to be
as thin as the hair of a boar, for example. Each of the spots or
flames are themselves closer to that size while the central core or
inner circle is more in line with the shushumna channel size. I bring
this all up because this might possibly be a way to study the anatomy of
the energy body (until a scientist or engineer gets curious enough to
build a device that can detect and read prana in the body!). So given
this size of these channels, does this circular mark correspond to the
diameter of the center channel, the shushumna?
If
you would like to learn about the nadi, which are many, and the larger
system of energy that transmits prana throughout the body you can begin
with a pretty good wiki article first.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Nadi_(yoga)
What I have noticed is that my chest continues to feel
different.
It even seems to have had an effect on how my skin reacts to this
energy. Radiant, glowing almost, there is an abiding presence of all
that I have worked to bring forward within myself. The energy, though,
seems to have a slight irritating effect, which is mild, but is
ever-present. Sometimes it can lead me to want to scratch or rub it,
which can also make it sore
very easily. I have to remind
myself not to touch it, but to be aware of it, to feel what this all
represents and the change that it has brought into my life.
Marks Are Not A Given Nor A Necessity
I
don’t think that you have to have ANY physical manifestations of
awakening in your life to prove anything about your awakening
experience. In fact, the central phenomenon of awakening that is most
important to my mind is the
Presence that emerges and never
goes away, which is itself, at least to me, a higher dimensional aspect
of who and what we are potentially, and that this Presence can help to
bring great change in our lives if we allow it to do its work. This
Presence can bring awareness if we can be humble and if we can be honest
with ourselves. Then, it burrows deeper into us, integrating and
clearing as it goes. Resist, and it too will cease its development, its
movement ever-deeper.
I also consider the great likelihood that I
may have been a mystic Christian in an earlier life and either knew of,
or experienced, some aspect of stigmata before, and this may be part of
why I am experiencing these marks as I have in this life. Or not. I
will give you a couple of examples of how past life experience can
inform our experience in the here and now (hoping its not too far a
jaunt off our beaten path of the marks of awakening).
Thirty years
ago, in an effort to project consciousness out of my body, I was
approached by a serpent with the face of a man where the face of the
snake should have been. This serpent was coiled and was floating in the
air. This face looked decidedly Mayan. In the projection, I was being
told that I needed to project my consciousness into the form of the
snake. I looked at it and thought how odd an image that was, because I
knew about a Mayan God name Quetzalcoatl, but always
imagined it to be a winged or feathered serpent, not a
floating
serpent with a man’s head. I wondered why it was that I would
experience this image, obviously connected to Quetzalcoatl, in the way I
had. There
was a reason for it, I just didn't know what it
was, at least not right away. Later in life, however, I would have a
series of dreams that revealed to me that I had lived as a Mayan in the
Yucatan Peninsula and probably had some experience with this same god.
In my studies in art school, I came across a nearly identical image of
Quetzalcoatl I had not seen before in the Museum of Natural History in
Mexico City that depicted him in just the same way I had seen him during
my projection work. I also read later about Quetzalcoatl and found out
that the priests who worked with this being were said to be visited by
this god and would be taken on spirit journeys. Curious, that, I
thought. It was exactly what I was being told to do when I was younger,
yet I knew nothing about Quetzalcoatl. Not at least in this lifetime
(and not until I took a course in college later simply because my
curiosity had been piqued). And in still another interesting turn, that
lifetime spent in the jungles of Palenque would bear upon many things
that would take place in a life in the future which is the life I am
living now with the whole “end” of the Mayan calendar-round in 2012.
Life is not without its interesting coincidences, and seems to be woven
into a dynamic fabric where one life informs another in useful and
coherent ways.
In an odd twist, I also found out a year after my
experience with the seraphim that visited me while reading up on
Christian mystics that there was an account written about a seraph who
visited one Christian mystic which was strikingly similar to my own
experience. The mystic was St Theresa of Avilla. Theresa wrote about
her experiences, and the account was similar, right down to the side
that the angels would come to her and how the seraphim had pulled her
insides out of her while she was “on fire with a great love of God.”
While Theresa offers no insight into why the angel did this to her, I
suspect that this was nothing short of a kind of “operation” performed
in the etheric with the matter of the meridians, prana, or chi as the
substances or systems that were being worked on. All of this sounds
crazy of course, unless you have seen and felt these systems for
yourself.
- Ecstacy of Saint Theresa by Bernini, Santa Maria della Vittoria, Rome
What
I am saying is that I think that we may have a predilection toward
certain experiences over others depending on our own turn of mind,
reincarnation background, beliefs, and our constitution. Some of us may
need this “surgery” while others may not. Some of us may “remember”
the lost or ancient gods and goddesses as they seem to make a return to
us in this age. If I could count the number of people who I know who
have had some significant experience with Isis, I would have a large
room full of people who all know an important aspect of this woman who
once walked the earth, who taught, and who was revered above mere saint
and reached goddess status. Lying deeper within us are these memories.
We are often just too busy or unaware that they exist. Awakening can
be enough to shake them loose in us and bring us face to face with these
forces in the healing and resurrection that is this experience.
For
some time, I have resisted putting these images up because I suspected
that there would naturally be those who would be skeptical. However, I
know I am not the only one, and I place these images not for the
skeptics, but for those who may have had unusual or baffling
physiological changes taking place within them that might seem alarming
or strange to them. While all of this takes place in the context of a
grand sort of unraveling and rebirth and a coming to know one’s self in a
new or expanded way, we also remain physical creatures with our own
frailties sometimes.
Everything is as it should be. And
things will continue to change along a path that is certain and for your
own betterment. Believe in yourself, your own inner voice, and the
authority placed there by the divine! The universe, while neutral, is
set up to allow you to succeed if you just know how to be authentically
in the world. Others might not understand it, or might not even get it.
And this is, in its own way, part of how things are.
Finally, and
lastly, I would add that for some time I considered that this
phenomenon might not be unlike some of the burn marks that are common
amongst those who have experienced abduction phenomenon. I hesitate to
put it too front and center in all of this because of how loaded all of
this is. Having a few things in my own past experience that have made me
wonder about the nature of my et experiences in my earlier life, I
often consider the very possibility that some of the et encounters are
themselves not entirely physical and belong to a range of experiences
not unlike those experienced in awakening. That is, that they may be a
form of out of body experience, or inner “synthetic” reality which the
ancients knew and wrote about at some length. Now I know that for some
people, these are traumatic experiences and it can be hard to hear
someone suggest blithely and perhaps unknowingly that they might not
somehow be entirely physically real in the normal sense. But I ask you;
what is real? Do you actually know what is real? It is curious to me
that the early Christians (Jesus in his “secret” teachings to his
disciples) knew about these beings and described them as a spiritual
agency that behaved more like spiritual parasites than god-like beings
(although they behave in both cases as if they are on this kind of
level). While mainline Christianity barely mentions them, the newly
discovered documents in the Nag Hammadi do, and it is there, in the
Hypostasis of the Archons
that so much can be discovered about them and how similar they are to
our modern et experience in certain strands of the phenomenon. What
books like this describe is a phenomenon with beings that fit the modern
et abduction scenario perfectly, and are too similar one to the other
to dismiss out of hand. I suspect that in these cases, we may have a
presence that is psychic or spiritual in nature that could be so present
and powerful enough to create effects in us in just the same way that
hypnotists have been able to cause burn marks to emerge on their
subject’s bodies. It is also likely or possible that what we have seen
is a kind of transiting between dimensions so that physical dna can be
taken, while in other cases, their presence is more of an internal
nature. What is sure is that these beings behave more like
shape-shifters than anything we normally know in our world.
I know
that such a mention might seem far afield to you, but I suspect that
all of these things may cross at a place where body and mind might have a
lot to tell us about ourselves and the capacity for us to release or
express hidden or submerged memory, emotion, or knowledge when a thought
or feeling contains sufficient force to manifest in these ways. And it
is here that burn marks emerge along with a few minor other types of
markings as well. We may yet be only on the edge of understanding the
full breadth of what all of this means or is about.
So the marks
of my awakening are my own. Others have experienced them, and still
others may experience them in the days, months, and years to come. I
simply want you to know that all is well, it’s just your body expressing
a truth or a knowing or awareness that it needs to get out for your
conscious mind to see. In the case of my first burn mark, this took
place just prior to the full rise of kundalini. However, I will remind
my readers that my awakening was gentle and gradual (taken in phases or
steps). I had a six-month period where the full power of awakening was
released in distinct stages through my own inner practice and hearing a
voice inside of me that guided me. I was brave enough to not think I
was going crazy and I listened to that “voice” or inner prompting. As a
result, it led to what I think was a much gentler form of awakening
that could help others to awaken more peacefully and with less worry or
fear. And still, even then, it was quite a wild ride because….well….
kundalini.
Finally, in sum, I would like to add one small point that might be why the first mark emerged as it did. Ten years
after
that mark emerged on my right hip, at a time when I had removed layer
after layer of piled on junk from my consciousness, I found myself at a
place where I felt like I had reached nearly the end of the material I
had worked so diligently to remove after this decade of inner work. As
this vista came into view, I have noted that it is in this same location
in my body that the single most difficult block has remained. I have
learned a lot about what this represents in the esoteric systems that
describe it. This is the point, an acupuncturist once observed, that
resided along a meridian line that was tied to the gall bladder. Being
solar
in character, it could create specific digestive problems aligned with
this hot or solar energy (which I have had throughout awakening related
to bouts of nausea and even diarrhea in the first six months of the
awakening process). Here in the hip, so close to the root chakra, along
the yang energy line, we have masculine energy stuck in a realm having
to do with nurture and a sense of safety, and personal abundance. Here,
too, is very likely the emotion of both fear as well as anger, stopped
up in a block, held in tension without a place yet for the psyche to
know how to let it go, and which can be felt as an almost physical
sensation which no physical doctor would be able to ever detect unless
the block were to manifest as a physical condition such as illness. So
in the last few weeks I have received guidance on the inside that has
told me what next I need to do to neutralize this last block. This is
ultimately bringing in the feminine yin to balance the masculine and
neutralize the block and to heal this last rift which has been so
stubborn. I suspect that blocks can be this way; the easiest and least
activated are likely to go first while the more dug in and most
activated ones remain until the end. But by the time that day comes and
one block remains in a field that has been cleansed, having even the
stubbornest of blocks does not feel like an impossible feat to remove. I
know that when I can bring up all the right feelings that I need to
both acknowledge and move through, this block, like the hundreds before
it, will also go into the ether as it is transmuted back into a clear
and brilliant body that has been my life work here these past number of
years. And maybe the crescent holds some symbolic meaning for me. It
might have been the image of the seers of old, or emblazoned on the
heads of priestesses and priests in Atlantis, Egypt, or pre-Christian
Europe. Perhaps once this cycle is complete, I might just find out.
Until then, it’s for me a sign of the times playing out on the
intelligence of my body.
Until next time...
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