Today is a gift. Another day that I get to spend working on my
book. I am taking a break from writing in order to write. I just
finished a section that had to do with larger effects across the
Collective Consciousness that are happening currently. And it is
exciting.
I can remember those early days of awakening where I looked out through new windows, a returned sense of perception. I sensed I could feel the collective awareness, knew I was doing this now, and in sensing it, could feel, like a pulse, what was moving in the Collective Awareness. I had never heard of anyone sensing in this way so I kept quiet about it for a while except for my closest of friends like Alison who has been experiencing this since she was young. About six months ago while visiting my grandmother I listened to an interview with U.G. Krishnamurti when I had little to do in the house where I was staying. Krishnamurti was describing the same thing I had experienced and said how we awaken to this state, less of just the individual and more of the Collective Consciousness. “Yes, yes!” I thought, “like shifting gears from one singular focus to a much larger focus which now makes up the whole of my experience now….”
What I experienced in those early days was a very clear awareness that something was afoot! It was! All these beings, people, all awakening! I could feel them like stars shimmering against the dark coat of night….each pulsation having its effect on the whole. A giant webwork, a network of being that was becoming conscious at this level! What I felt within this was how the Collective felt “pregnant” with awakening, that the incident of awakening would expand. You could just FEEL it. It wasn’t rocket science, it wasn’t something hard to get at, at least I didn’t think so. As I observed it seemed that more and more younger people were waking up all in a more spontaneous way, or with the barest of triggers. What I feel now is a feeling of something rolling out, unfolding. In some ways, I have focused much more on my own process, on me, instead of looking out into the Collective. I think at the time this new feeling felt novel so I spent a lot of time just poking it and feeling around inside of it like some new skin. I know, that probably sounded weird. At least it isn’t an old bear skin or something…
Something is being birthed.
After about two years of experiencing kundalini, I had this feeling like there was something more, and that some of the ideas that people were saying about soul connections, twin souls, just didn’t make sense to me anymore. The idea that kundalini yoga being the only way to wake up was obviously proven incorrect since I had done so without it or without any discernible practice. I mean, yes, I had my own form of meditation which I had used for years, but I never read up on it, I never followed anyone’s method or technique. I was a do-it-yourselfer; DIY kundalini! And then kundalini shifted into a whole new gear, ripping me to shreds pretty much (or so it felt—I was actually just resisting it…that happens when you resist the waves instead of surf them!). Tsunami waves broke apart the old me and left the core of me on the beach to decide what was next. As I struggled through this portion of the process I was visited by someone I call “my zen guy” and who wound up looking like an actual zen master named Taishen Deshimuru. I mention it because of just how similar he appeared, although the living Taishen died about two decades ago….This was what I was writing about in my book just a few moments ago….
But anyway…..zen guy. I was feeling this hard spot inside of me and it caused me sadness and upset. He came to me and sat down to my side asked me “Why do you struggle? Don’t you know that all of this is happening just as it should? Don’t you realize that all of the monks and followers and aspirants all through the ages have each unwittingly had their effect by helping to create what is here now? Each devotional prayer has helped to shape this template and now it is ready for you and all of your kind to simply step into it. This is not a crevass to jump. It is like stepping outside. It is one small step. You only need to step into it to inhabit it, to be it. “ After he said that, it seemed such a simple thing; like all of this was about stepping out of an old suit of clothes into one that fit better. Thus began my thinking in terms of the Collective not just as something I felt but that was now a tangible part of life experience. On the one hand, it all seemed so big and formidable, but on the other, it seemed to simple. We get to choose whether we want it easy or hard, since we are creating it. We can, in the words of someone I recently read — we can “unfuck the world.” I know perhaps it sounds bit indelicate, but this is what is happening. We are loosening the threads that bind us and freeing ourselves…..person by person. Can you feel the sweet air of freedom?
Now, back to writing!
I can remember those early days of awakening where I looked out through new windows, a returned sense of perception. I sensed I could feel the collective awareness, knew I was doing this now, and in sensing it, could feel, like a pulse, what was moving in the Collective Awareness. I had never heard of anyone sensing in this way so I kept quiet about it for a while except for my closest of friends like Alison who has been experiencing this since she was young. About six months ago while visiting my grandmother I listened to an interview with U.G. Krishnamurti when I had little to do in the house where I was staying. Krishnamurti was describing the same thing I had experienced and said how we awaken to this state, less of just the individual and more of the Collective Consciousness. “Yes, yes!” I thought, “like shifting gears from one singular focus to a much larger focus which now makes up the whole of my experience now….”
What I experienced in those early days was a very clear awareness that something was afoot! It was! All these beings, people, all awakening! I could feel them like stars shimmering against the dark coat of night….each pulsation having its effect on the whole. A giant webwork, a network of being that was becoming conscious at this level! What I felt within this was how the Collective felt “pregnant” with awakening, that the incident of awakening would expand. You could just FEEL it. It wasn’t rocket science, it wasn’t something hard to get at, at least I didn’t think so. As I observed it seemed that more and more younger people were waking up all in a more spontaneous way, or with the barest of triggers. What I feel now is a feeling of something rolling out, unfolding. In some ways, I have focused much more on my own process, on me, instead of looking out into the Collective. I think at the time this new feeling felt novel so I spent a lot of time just poking it and feeling around inside of it like some new skin. I know, that probably sounded weird. At least it isn’t an old bear skin or something…
Something is being birthed.
After about two years of experiencing kundalini, I had this feeling like there was something more, and that some of the ideas that people were saying about soul connections, twin souls, just didn’t make sense to me anymore. The idea that kundalini yoga being the only way to wake up was obviously proven incorrect since I had done so without it or without any discernible practice. I mean, yes, I had my own form of meditation which I had used for years, but I never read up on it, I never followed anyone’s method or technique. I was a do-it-yourselfer; DIY kundalini! And then kundalini shifted into a whole new gear, ripping me to shreds pretty much (or so it felt—I was actually just resisting it…that happens when you resist the waves instead of surf them!). Tsunami waves broke apart the old me and left the core of me on the beach to decide what was next. As I struggled through this portion of the process I was visited by someone I call “my zen guy” and who wound up looking like an actual zen master named Taishen Deshimuru. I mention it because of just how similar he appeared, although the living Taishen died about two decades ago….This was what I was writing about in my book just a few moments ago….
But anyway…..zen guy. I was feeling this hard spot inside of me and it caused me sadness and upset. He came to me and sat down to my side asked me “Why do you struggle? Don’t you know that all of this is happening just as it should? Don’t you realize that all of the monks and followers and aspirants all through the ages have each unwittingly had their effect by helping to create what is here now? Each devotional prayer has helped to shape this template and now it is ready for you and all of your kind to simply step into it. This is not a crevass to jump. It is like stepping outside. It is one small step. You only need to step into it to inhabit it, to be it. “ After he said that, it seemed such a simple thing; like all of this was about stepping out of an old suit of clothes into one that fit better. Thus began my thinking in terms of the Collective not just as something I felt but that was now a tangible part of life experience. On the one hand, it all seemed so big and formidable, but on the other, it seemed to simple. We get to choose whether we want it easy or hard, since we are creating it. We can, in the words of someone I recently read — we can “unfuck the world.” I know perhaps it sounds bit indelicate, but this is what is happening. We are loosening the threads that bind us and freeing ourselves…..person by person. Can you feel the sweet air of freedom?
Now, back to writing!
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