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Sunday, February 19, 2012

The Matrix

In the movie The Matrix, you can find the fundamental idea that the world is not as it seems.  Within the world that the Cohen Brother's created, we find that the world of human experience is at the crossroads of technology, perception, and just what is reality.  By essentially "hacking" into every body, every mind, on the planet, an alien force is able to derive energy and sustenance from us in what  one of the characters of the movie describes the human as being essentially a battery.....a form of energy.   The thing is, the world can be one of these lower life forms seeking sustenance, or it can be one where we take greater control of ourselves and what we put out for thew world to mirror.  That is right.  The world is one big mirror.  People are attracted because they have the same energy.  They don't even KNOW they are attracted.  Some of it is based in very negative stuff, some very positive.  The world shows us the images that are us.  Nothing is accidental.  If you ask deep enough, you will see that everything is following a set of parameters and even expectations, and beliefs about what is and is not possible.  The matrix has you, especially if you cannot conceive of something more uplifting than what was in the Matrix movies.  We do not win the world by fighting.  We win by releasing and following the divine flow.  Its actually completely opposite from what you might have been taught.  You have to WORK hard at all of this.  No, you have to release those inconsistent beliefs, those things that do not reflect your own inner alignment with your divinity.  But to see the world change, you DO need to be engaged with something of a process, yes. 

So the matrix movies was about this sense that the world was not quite as it seemed.  I would argue that the world of violence and fear need not be, and that includes the fear that seems to be part of the characters who are struggling against this machine world, a world devoid of human feeling.

Now what I find so interesting is how in many aspects this is actually quite true, that the Matrix movies reflect a certain sense that things aren't quite what they seem.....but that this view also is steeped in the shadow of aggressive behavior, fear, and frustration. as well as the sense that things have all gone awry and that the reality is perhaps scarier than the fantasy being fed to us.  This is a dark world with a weird green cast.  Its everything that the natural world is not.  The Matrix movies are a reflection not just of a sense of truth but also of the truth of where the people who conceived the tale were at as well.  As a result of this, we find that the effort to change one's world view, or to change the world must involve some physical struggle, with guns, cars, and explosives.  Everything actually mirrors the energetic of the Cohen Brothers, their investors, and the viewing community at large since we all buy into it in one way or another, either by buying a movie ticket or watching a video of these movies.

I would like to suggest to you that the truth is that the Matrix is anything and everything you can imagine.  When it comes to spiritual energy being focused in a reality like the physical, there are a set of rules that are the foundation for our having a common and predictable experience.  But within this predictability lies a range of movement which is the result of our forming of the events that move atop this unchanging foundation.  We can choose shadows and guns and bombs blowing up or we can choose to shift into bliss and let all of those worrisome things drop.  We do not even NEED to war with anyone to change this world because when you simply shift your vibration and remove your limiting beliefs about hwo you THINK the world works, you actually change that world.

I know.  Its not sexy.  It doesn't have seven car crashes in the first five minutes but its even more heart stoppingly amazing because of how this world will make you feel.  I will suggest to you that an Awakening is about union of the self.  This means union of all sides of you, which includes your shadow portions that might lead you to darker places, but once unified with your higher self, these parts are actually transmuted in a sense, balanced against the light side so that its now no longer just dark but a rich tapestry of being.  Likewise, the chemistry of fear, which is mirrored as adrenaline in your body, is likewise balanced and thus transmuted through the application of the mirror dopamine.  You see, these chemicals in the body are actually mirror chemistry for the spiritual, energetic or nonphysical state within you that has started all of this body chemistry.  Your body is a mirror of this energy and will respond instantly to fear by building adrenaline that gets shot out immediately.  But when you gain control over this system, you become its master and what you learn very quickly is that by balancing adrenaline with dopamine, you create an amazing cocktail of ascendancy chemistry that will leave you breathless and alive!

Experiencing adrenaline is not enough.  Adrenaline alone will strip you down very quickly.  Its very hard on your system.  If you do not learn how to add dopamine into your body through controlling your energy, your thoughts, and thus your body, you will simply feel the fear molecule at work.  What you need to do is to learn how to balance the two, fear and bliss together.  People who jump off bridges and from planes do so not just for the adrenaline rush, but for the mixture of the adrenaline AND dopamine that go together.  Dopamine gives a feeling of well being in the midst of the rush of energy.  Without the dopamine, you simply feel fear.  On the other side of this chemistry is just feeling dopamine.  If you just feel dopamine, it will bring a great sense of peace, but it will also bring an amazing sense of innactivity, a desire to withdraw from the world, or from life.  It quiets you, makes you blissed out, yes, but it also lacks a certain dynamic quality.  In the world of awakening, with the surge of dopamine, you need a surge of something else to help bring up the volume across the board and keep balance, but balance at a whole new level.  Thus adrenaline and dopamine are for now the mirrors of our inner spiritual chemistry, which is itself what alchemy is all about.

Now if you have followed me thus far, you are now just at the beginning stages of something pretty big, which is how you conceive your reality.  If you can overcome your sense of needing to fight against the order of chaos and darkness, you will find that it leaves you. Its energy simply no longer mirrors your awareness and belief.  Does this mean that there isn't something going on with chaos and shadow elsewhere?  Certainly not.  It goes on, sure, but you do  not need to take part in it.  You can heal this in your experience, and as you do, the world will also be healed.  HOW you feel is a big deal in all of this because the world, just like your body, will follow your feelings and beliefs.  If you carry the consciousness of fear, you will actually find events that are fearful happening in your life.  You will LOOK for fearful things, you will be ATTRACTED to fearful things and your energy field and awareness will be directed towards fear.  Your body will reflect this by shooting  more adrenaline into your system.  Depending on your own physiology, this could be intense or very under the radar, perhaps even hard to notice, but still the adrenal response is there working in a more subdued way, depending on the intensity of your experience.  Most people have no control over their physiology unless they utilize meditation or mindfulness. You can shift alot in you very quickly by simply being PRESENT.  By limiting how far your drift out of the moment, you can limit your natural tendency to think about what has not yet come to pass and then worry about how what has yet to pass might go awry (that's fear at work).  All of this is nothing you can control, so worrying about it is a waste of time.  You might feel its important, and thus its importance warrants worrying about it, but you are wrong again.  Worry will only breed an energetic that will serve to drop you into a shadowy world like Neo's.  You don't need that.  It can be much more blissful and light-filled.

The world will conform to your feelings.  Your body will conform to your feelings also.  Your beliefs must change if you are to feel a more expansive state of being, or to break out of old beliefs that have served to limit you.  These beliefs can have any number of origins.   Some could be about not having enough in life and the resulting vulnerability that this drives.  The truth though is that this is not something that exists in the world but that exists in you first.  The world is merely reflecting it back to you.  If you feel like you are not worthy of love for some reason, it could be that you wind up with any number of issues related to your self-esteem, mental and emotional state, even body image issues.  You might feel disempowered as a person and as a result, you are never able to rise within your company beyond a meager place.  You might be self employed and find that while you DO experience success, its always with something that comes and steals away your success in some way.  The market goes up only to come down.  You make a nice chunk of money only to see it nearly evaporate the following year.  If you change how you feel and believe, you can change the results of the events that rise up around you.  The world is your body.  And like your body, it will respond perfectly to your feelings and what you put out.  If you begin to shift your awareness away from lack and loss, you actually open your field up to the possibility of attracting something different.  You can even have competing beliefs that express themselves at different times.  I know it may sound a bit crazy, but the self runs the show and when you give yourself permission to think and feel differently, you will be amazed at how quickly events can change in your favor.

Your world can begin to resolve from a shadowy place to a much better place.  It requires constant maintenance so that your feelings stay in the straight and narrow and do not wander off into negativity or fear.  This is what is meant by the straight and narrow.  By doing this, you project all the right kind of energy into your reality so that it literally fills with all the right events that will bring you lasting fulfillment.

When you Awaken kundalini, this effect is increased many fold.  This is what is behind the numerous numerical "syncs" that people talk about, of the odd synchronicities that happen with people who are awakened. It is actually the energy of life force helping to bring events into reality all the faster.  In some cases, the effect can be instantaneous.  You can be thinking of something one moment and be experiencing an aspect of it in the world the next.  I can't begin to tell you how often this happens to me now.

Some examples, which are outlined in the book I am working on:  I have the impulse to go to the nearest body of water.  This feels like an inner command.  Its odd, but I follow.  I go to the nearest body of water and wind up on a walking path, wondering why I was there.  I walked up to a tree that was near the water and then walked around it so that I was very near the shore where this lake was.  There, over a very large limb, was a post that had a small plaque.  This post was entirely obscured by a large and long low-lying limb.  I had to select THAT tree to go around in order to see the plaque. On this plaque I see a quote from a philosopher whose work I did not know.  The philosopher was Teilhard de Chardin.  The quote was how once we learn to master the power of love, we will have learned to master one of the most important  essential forces of nature.

Ok. I noted this, and felt like I had come to see what I had come to see.  I then drove from the pond to someone's house where I saw a book sitting on a table when I came in.  I opened the book and there was a quote from Teilhard de Chardin.  How odd I thought.  Ten minutes after that first happening!  Then, later that day I was in a friend's house and wound up looking in a corner of his room where I saw some videos.  Amongst the videos was a book by Chardin!  I borrowed the book and found most of it to be of little interest.  I flipped the book open to an odd page and found myself on the very page that had the quote from earlier in the day.  As I read these passages, I read about how all of our energy is reflected in a spiritual realm,that we are learning to harness the power of this love to help drive the world forward.  That was one synchronicity.  Not long ago I was thinking how I needed to get a new display for my glass work for shows and fairs.  Five days after this a woman calls me out of the blue and asks me if I would like to buy a barely used display which is made by the same company that made my old one.  The woman had noted that I had this type which a fellow potter had left at her house and never came back for, and she tracked me down two years later to ask if I'd like to buy it.  Normally these cost about $1200.00  I can't afford that kind of money with the way the economy has been.  She offered it to me for $100.00.  Two weeks later, I was thinking how I wanted to paint my mailbox.  The problem was the one I had was plastic and would not take paint very well.  A few days after this, two young men walked up my drive to explain that they had knocked down my mail box.  The came and replaced it for me.  I was able to paint it with wild designs like I had hoped.  The new mailbox was carried to my door.  In another case I sent an email to a local community college's head of curriculum development and explained how I had teaching credentials and a large studio that could handle a number of students.  I was hoping to possibly create a cooperative between education and the industry of art.  As I was exiting the email application I saw I had received an email from someone I had met a year earlier explaining that there was an opening for  teaching positions at two nearby schools.  One of them was at the same community college I had written to.  I wound up getting both jobs. 

I can go on for pages about these odd "syncs" as we call them, but after a while, its just so much stuff.  The bottom line here is that the universe is responding, sometimes IMMEDIATELY to what your thoughts and wishes are.  If you have a competing belief, its possible that your wishful thinking wont bear fruit.  If you are open to the possibilities, the possibilities open to you.  You are the universe, the universe is you.  You are here to learn that the Matrix can be anything you dream it to be.  It can be a dark world with machines and bombs or it can be a much brighter place filled with possibility and opportunity.  If you think that the environment is too tilted against you right now, then that becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy.  You have to be able to dream and imagine the possibilities, free yourself from competing beliefs that might keep your imagination from coming true, and then dream big.

Dealing with limiting beliefs is not impossible, but requires realizing that they are there, that they reflect, most often, an unresolved emotional state or karma.  Sometimes these are merely a feeling that the impossible isn't possible....like maybe its silly to even try, or that such thinking is pie in the sky.  As long as you think this way, it will BE this way.  You wont take the exercise seriously and it will simply be a waste of time.  And if your competing belief is that its maybe all silly, then it will offer you the evidence that it is so.  You wont even be able to see the other side of the coin before the competing stuff is mirrored and keeps anything unusual or interesting from emerging.  The trick here is to suspend disbelief in more than just a figurative way.  I have seen all kinds of exercises mean to clear the mind of these competing issues and I think they all can work because they all employ INTENT was the first mover.  Intent is really a biggie, but then you also need to be willing to see things differently.  One system has you imagining what you want by putting them into colored balloons and letting the wish go up and away so this wish can get working in the universe.  It can be a lot more direct if you don't use imagery.  If you send up a balloon, who knows how long that might take.  If you realize the universe can respond immediately, then the wish doesn't need to get very far out the door before the universe is forming itself around it.

The Matrix can be anything you want.  There are layers and levels to all of this, and it requires getting clear on any competing memes bound up inside of you.  Resolve those, and you are free to begin navigating the universe in a different sort of way.  Instead of the world happening TO you, it happens more BECAUSE of you.  If your world has shadows, you might want to look at that carefully.  But dealing with shadow isn't with swords and armor.  Its by letting the attachment to shadow go.  Just let go.  Let its vibration drop away enough so that more constructive vibrations to show through and predominate.  Its important to examine your feelings.  If you wish for something but wind up with something less than excited, ask yourself what the origin of that less than excited happy feeling is from.  Underneath it will likely be some unresolved hurt or a feeling like maybe you aren't worthy.  All of this is mere self-esteem issues, a lack of self love.  When you love yourself, you don't ask for things that will be bad for you.  You will naturally orient your life events towards more positive outcomes.  You don't always need to know right off that there is a problem, but you will very likely FEEL it.  You might not KNOW what it is, but that is okay, you don't need to know.  Your feeling will help you to relate to it if you are open enough.  By orienting yourself in this way, you actually begin the dialog in the same language of the universe.  FEELING.  Its not words, incantations, or any of that.  Its FEELING.  If you can express your wishes in a pure joy and happiness and excitement over having them be fulfilled, the likelihood that they will happen as you envisioned has just increased  a hundred-fold. 

As you begin this process of self reflection, you will very likely discover still deeper layers that need to be examined and those limiting feelings released.  As you do, you are on a path of inner alchemy that will build steam.  Releasing just one big issue from your insides can be enough to trigger a flood of energy into your body.  This was very much how I awoke.  I had what amounted to a log-jam inside of me, a kind of computer subroutine that was on infinite loop and was eating up hard drive space.  When I deleted that computer code, the hard drive was suddenly freed up to contemplate and FEEL a whole other world.  I awoke, and began feeling into the Collective Consciousness of humankind.  This was a game changer.  It's a world changer, for as you change yourself, you also change the world.  Sound impossible?  This dynamic feedback is exactly how these systems work, and in a future post I will cover healing the world.  Its not just possible, but it happens every day.

Nemasté.



Saturday, February 18, 2012

Healing Karma

The act of healing karma is the single most powerful act you can be involved in.  It is an act of love, compassion, and truth to your higher self.  Being able to heal karma, though, can seem to be akin to sending yourself to the moon with a slingshot. It just doesn't seem possible. 

So lets look at what happens inside of you that serves to create karma.  I am not going to look at positive karma but the type of karma that is the result of attachment to certain feelings, most often hurtful ones. It isn't that positive karma is of little concern, it isn't.  Positive karma is a very good thing, and cultivating it is just as important as knowing how to root out negative karma; they go hand in hand and as you root out negative karma, it makes it much easier to build a more positive framework for your life and what you attract.  The issue with negative karma is how much it can hang us up, making us do what we do not want to do and keeping us from doing what we want to do.

Ego is a largely unemotional part of you, and yet it can cause all kinds of emotions to fire off in you as a result of a sense that it has, based on a judgement it is making about what it THINKS it sees, as being the reality of a situation in life.  Because of how ego works, it often identifies with things having to do with past hurts and laches on to details that are then used as the filters for experience going forward.  What this does is it keeps us from seeing things as they ARE.  We can often have these distortions running inside of us for lifetimes, and they can wear deep grooves in who we are, creating a kind of recursive effect to our feeling and reactions.  It governs what we do, how we create, how we think and respond to the world around us. Dealing with this aspect of ourselves is the single most productive thing available to us in reaching a better place.  It can win freedom for you from a range of rough feelings and ways to seeing and responding to the world. In a very real way, ego keeps us from seeing the larger picture because that old hurt was just too important to it than what they truth might be.

The thing about ego is its been given a much broader place than it should have had in the psyche.  We have allowed this important filter in our being to really go overboard. Because the ego is always comparing and dividing things out, its almost always seeing differences between what one person gets and another.  Your sister gets a differently sized piece of cake, and you notice this, note it, and then wait for it to happen again.  There is karma in this. Suddenly, your ego decides the the world is just out to get you.  Because you believe this, you attract it.  That is how the Law of Attraction works. But because you are so convinced that the world is out to get you, you don't consider for five seconds that it could just be your belief system, your bias or prejudice, that is causing all of this.  As you refuse to see the truth, you dig a still deeper hole for yourself. This is a big loop and it loops round and round ad infinitum if you let it.  How does it feel to let go of a karma?  Its freedom.  Its a very simple, sweet moment of letting something go, of effectively snipping the string of a looped piece of behavior or belief in your being that has eluded you for a long time.  But no matter how long this has turned around in you, looping and waiting for the right set of circumstances that activate it, you can at any time snip the loop and watch as it simply falls away as though it had never been.

The way out of karma is not by using ego.  To do this means letting the ego slip backwards within you.  It can be a gradual process for some.  Those who are most mental will have the hardest time.  This is much easier for those people who can handle a little mystery, who don't need to control every little thing and who are happy with not always knowing what is going to happen next.  By realizing that your egoic self is but a small subset of a still larger self that is huge, you can realize that your egoic self is like a small child being led by an infinite self, almost invisibly, yet always there. Just because you cannot see where you are going does not mean that where you are being led isn't a good place.  Its a perfect place for where you are not, but this takes some trust.  If you realize that your belief fuels your experience, then you can probably appreciate that if you do not trust the world or the universe to bring you the right things, then most likely it wont.  However, if you open yourself to not needing to know every detail, and consider that while you may not see results immediately, but can trust that you are being led out of the harder parts of your life, you open up to the universe in a whole new way.  You make room in your belief that the universe isn't just out to get you but that you COULD have been influencing the universe all along.  Taking the leap, you open a door that may have been closed previously.  If you wish it, all of it can change toward something more aligned with your core being.  To do this means removing those beliefs and unresolved issues that are in truth attachments to hurt, negative karma, and once you do this, your landscape will begin to change.  Healing karma is instantaneous, and either you do or you don't, so there is no in between.  Its not a gradual thing but instead happens in a twinkling.  And once you DO heal something its amazing how it will change how you feel and react to all of the things that used to cause you to react.  But how does one achieve this kind of healing?

First, you have to feel safe about doing it.  I think you have to realize that life will be better without it turning in your life.  This can be subtle.  Sometimes I think we almost need to be at the end of our rope in order to reach that place of surrender.  Not all of us are like this, but I think its something about human beings that keep us involved, holding on, unsure of what this letting go is all about. Second, I think that the presence of a part of yourself that some call the Observer can often play a critical role in helping you gain some perspective on the drama that you wind up feeling as a result of the karma.  This portion of yourself, in the midst of a very emotionally tied up time, is critical it seems in allowing the self to feel differently by offering a different solution to how to feel. You see, most negative karma makes us feel crappy.  What the Observer does, is it removes all of that investment in feeling away.  This is a remarkable change that can take place and it is mirrored in the brain where we take our emotional centers and balance them with portions within the neocortex, the prefrontal lobes which provide us with the ability to step aside from our emotional issues and look at the impact some emotional response will have on others as well as our own selves.  Its a unique part of us, and is the next wrinkle in our development....For as much as I go on about feeling and how important it is, this part of the Observer self is just as useful and important also.  Without it, we can often get so tied up in our problems that we have a hard time seeing a way out, or where we are.  The Observer is like a neutral party that enters the scene and then asks "And just what is the problem here?"

By bringing in the Observer, the Observer can calmly teach you how to feel different in the midst of much turmoil.  It may also lead to releasing any old material that you had been hanging onto.  The Observer shows you how to BE different.  While it is calm and unemotional, it seems important for these times when we are shedding those layers. It has been in my experience that the Observer state has most often been the most use when my emotions were the highest.  I cannot speak for others, only for myself, but I suspect that there may be triggers in our brain as well as our own consciousness that bring on this aspect of our being during times of stress.  People often describe feeling an amazing sense of calm in the midst of very chaotic and even scary events.  Think of the man whose car goes down an embankment and with his child trapped in the back seat, he very calmly breaks open a window and gets the child out.  A son sees his father trapped under a car that fell off the jack and lifts the car off him. All describe a feeling of immense calm overtaking them.  They feel as though something inside of them took over but not in an emotional way.  I often wonder how we can learn to cultivate this Observer in ourselves during day to day experience.  It may be that its always there, but its presence is more obvious when we are upset.  Perhaps it seems more calm in comparison to how we felt before.  It may be a coping mechanism, even a survival mechanism.  It seems that by getting to a point where you realize all the old things you have tried have not turned up any results, you simply call on the universe to take on the problem, and you ask for help.

Consider that it may be possible that you do not know HOW to fix a problem, but if you remain open to the idea that there is a way through it that is above your own "pay grade" then you give yourself an out.  There is real merit in giving it all to God, or to some sense of a larger being, self, or universe.  If you are very process oriented, maybe you imagine that you are putting all your problems into a trunk and giving it to the universe to sort.  Consider that you are putting your deepest secrets in it, entrusting your most fragile thoughts and feelings in there for the universe to take care of.  Ask for help from a higher power.  So often, people are healed in just such a way.

Now, for the cutting of the loop. Even if you feel invested in an old hurt, tell yourself daily that you are working on cutting the loop of the karma. Imagine a pair of scissors cutting a loop of string inside of you that is this karma, and then watch how the string just drops away.  Now tell yourself that this is what you want to be able to do with the karma.  You may not know how you will do this, but consider that there is a way that you yourself may not know of just yet but that is within you to do (you just don't know it yet). Consider also that the feelings that keep you invested in the karma might be built on misunderstanding.....and that the reason why things are hard for you and another person caught up in this same karma is the result of just not seeing eye to eye.  You THINK you know that this person only wanted to hurt you, or maybe they did something so hard and difficult that its hard to get past.  For the most part, this is the thing that keeps a karma active, which is the inability to forgive someone.  When you are able to step back and use that Observer, sometimes you can gain perspective. In one case it took going back to a past life to see events and how they had happened to another person to understand WHY they always responded the way they did to me.  In one case, a child had died....and that person wound up having a common karma with their family members that resolved around the fear of losing a child, the fear that someone would not pay enough attention and they would lose the child....which had actually happened.  As a result of this, this person and their family line had reinforced this common karma.  What this meant was that these people would wind up with people who would mirror the behavior that this person had who was around when the child died.  This was replayed over and over until the karma was healed.  Until then, though, the people would respond in a very exaggerated way to events. Small things would become big.  It would SEEM as though the world was out to kill the child....and sure enough, events would happen in such a way that it seemed this was so, even though in truth, no one was dying.....they were just playing and replaying that old hurt over and over and it had its effects on everyone around them.  Being able to see that they were responding because of THEIR karma helped to lessen the reaction to MY karma in this regard. It helped me to see and understand that it really wasn't personal, and in many ways, it really wasn't about me....even though I have managed to become inculcated because of my OWN karma which had nothing to do with having a child die. What held me to them, though, was my inability to forgive myself for things I had done earlier in life, and it was the similarity of this hurt that bound me to them.  The release of the karma lay in my being able to see things for how they were, instead of taking a defensive posture.  By doing this, I was able to reach into a place of understanding.  I was able to have compassion for how much of a hurt this might have caused.  I was able to look upon my own qualities that led to our being attracted and realized that this was just the universe working in its usual way, which wasn't to punish, but to be the mirror that it had always been.  So what was the way out of this tangle of feelings?

The answer is forgiveness.  In this forgiveness, there is a willingness to let it all just go. Analysis in this moment stops, working through the details stops.  Finding a way to forgive stops.  Being ready to make that change, being willing to JUST let it go begins to move and turn, and its in this movement, this willingness to feel differently, that we do.  And as we do, we can feel how freeing this is for us.  Its simple, though, much like how a child can forgive so easily, and let bygones be bygones.  The forgiveness is made for the people who seemed to have created this mess to begin with (in the mind of the ego) but it spreads until you realize, no, I must forgive myself.....for in that moment, perhaps you realize that you had a hand in creating this and the deepest forgiveness must be within YOU.  And its this that binds you to the world of effects and phenomenon of a particular kind.  You see?  Without being entirely aware of it, your inability to let go of an old hurt kept it fresh and vibrant in your life so that the world simply formed itself around that hurt since like attracts like.

Want to be free?  Forgive.  Forgive yourself.  If its easier to do it by forgiving others, then do so.  Its good for them.  But I think you may find that this will lead to forgiving yourself.  Its letting it go, allowing it to go. You may well find that the feeling was there because you weren't able to forgive yourself of some past hurt or trauma, and the very act of holding on to it served to bring all these people who had been hurt by others as a result of similar actions you had been involved in merely served to bring you into the realm of this same drama. Like attracting like.  Again, the way through it, the scissors that cut the chord, is forgiveness.  Forgiveness allows for the old cord to go. 'Fessing up and forgiving takes all the power out of the karma and it drops away.  Its a nonissue from that moment onward and you can feel it dropping away as you realize you have quite literally a new lease on life.  Sometimes just feeling exhausted over this mystery of why things keep cycling over and over is enough to make you throw up your hands and cry help.  And this is the best place to be in.  HAVE no resolution!  HAVE no answer!  Its when you have not rational way around all of this that you actually find the one thing that will work.  And, again, this is why handing your problems over to God or to some higher power whatever that might be, is a powerful way of doing the same thing.  In it is the trust that whatever this higher power is, it is infinitely more capable of taking care of it.  Its enough to get the problem off your back, and when you can do this, you have sprung from the clutches of a very worrisome karma.  Yes, we are little, yes we are limited, yes we are like children.  Some things, are simply above our pay grade.  Don't TRY to solve the problem.  Let it go.  Free your mind, free your heart, because its only in this place that you can feel the rush of love that is the universe.  By punishing yourself, you literally cut yourself off from the love that IS the universe.....that you ARE....that we ALL ARE!

The way that you reach this self is by grace.  Grace allows it to happen.  It means that compassion is more important that one-upmanship, that love is the divine pulse for all life.  When you awaken to this, you will not just know it, you will feel it running all through you. By lightening your load, you literally provide more space for the divine to live within....and I promise that what this divine thing is, is beyond any religious teaching on this earth....for the experience has been so rare an event that most are guessing about its transformative power sometimes.  And yet, you can make this room in your life for it.

I will add in parting that my awakening was fueled by a choice to "work through" an old issue that I had been carrying around for years.  I thought I had a problem to somehow solve, but in the midst of trying to solve it, I found that my problem was about solving what I thought I had to solve or understand (like some math problem or riddle of the universe).  What I most needed to do was to JUST get that old burden off my back!  In Christianity, we see this as a confessional.  We have this way of getting things off our backs that have been bothering us, and when we do, we feel lighter.  When I spoke to the man who listened to my story for the first time in an understanding way, I realized I hadn't come to him for some kind of advice, I came to be heard....to confess in a sense.  When I did this, I magically felt a hundred pounds lighter.  I had not realized just how burdened I had been previously.  In being lighter, I made way for something even more powerful to come into my life.  I can't say that this will work for everyone, but it certainly catalyzed a big shift in my own experienced and launched me onto the path I am on now.

So I hope that this has helped.  I hope that it may serve as a tool that you can use in working through your own stuff, in finding that place where you can simply give it up and let it go.  When you do, you do yourself the biggest favor.  Trust me on this.  Some things are simply above our pay grade!

Nemasté

Saturday, February 11, 2012

The Abydos Helicopter - A Question Of Geometry


In Egypt there is a Temple in Abydos to Seti I also known as the Great Temple of Abydos.  While not the oldest of the buildings in Abydos, its origin dates back to 1290 to 1279 BC,  The temple was begun by Seti and finished by his Son Ramses the Great.   There are numerous temples and buildings in this area which was  called Abdu by the Egyptians and then Abydos by the Greeks.  A number of Pharonic dynasties made their mark here, building temples and burial chambers to their kings.


Its also the place of a great mystery that has troubled Egyptologists for a number of years and has excited onlookers who are able to see what appear to be a whole series of flying machines on a lintel above one of the columns in the Great Temple. I say "appear" because Egyptologists seek to explain that this is NOT what these images suggest at all, but are instead the result of two or more layers of stone that have fallen away from each other in order to create a composite image, effectively an accidental image.  According to Egyptologists, this is not something that exists as it appears.  During tours of the temple, this one interesting element is not pointed out to visitors.  There seems that there is a policy in place to simply ignore this aspect of the structure. 



The explanation by leading Egyptologists is that the markings that look like a helicopter, glider and perhaps hovercraft of some kind, is that the details were the result of plaster falling off the surface of the stone which had been placed over to hide the markings underneath by a succeeding dynasty.  The argument made by Egyptologists is that these craft are merely the result of chaotic forces, of chance, creating an illusion of something that simply isn't there.  This is something that Egyptologists call a palimpsest.  

New Note 2/13:  The argument that they make is that this is actualy a composite image, the result of two layers showing through resulting in this accidental result.  Damage or loss of layers is also part of the argument.  It was caused by accident/chaotic forces.  The other issue involves the glyph of the hand in the upper right corner.  Its called a hand by scholars, and while it does look like a hand, there is one very troubling issue with it, which is that there are NO KNOWN glyphs showing the hand that are as stretched or distorted as this one at Abydos.  All hand glyphs show a specific proportion, and the "hand" in the above hieroglyphic is over twice the length of a normal hand!  

Below is a standard glyph of a hand with a comparison of the glyph at Abydos.  
                 the hieroglyph d doesn't fit the glyph
the hand hieroglyph is not a good fit here


The argument is that this is all accidental, and we are just seeing something that does not exist except in composite or the result of damage.  Inscriptions were made on the lintel and then were covered with plaster to alter what was underneath to some degree. When the plaster fell off the stone inscriptions, it resulted in changes to the structure beneath.  Sometimes there is a blending of imagery that can make one believe they are seeing something that just isn't there.  I am going to include in this post some very interesting geometric analysis of the above image done by Jiri Mruzek which I think you will find compelling 






              Above:  images of the flower of life on vertical slab at Osirian Temple.



                                 Above:  closeup of the Flower of Life inscription.

For more information on this interesting image and the many other forms that can be derived from it (such as the Kabalah's Tree of Life) go here.


 It is worth noting, as an aside, that at an adjacent building, older than The Great Temple, is a smaller temple built to honor Osiris.  It is in this building that an image of the Flower of Life can be seen.  What is interesting about this image is that it shows up all over the world.  Its seen on the robes of monks in zen monestaries in Japan, it shows up in Europe and is in Egypt.  What's even more interesting is that when the Flower of Life design is expanded beyond its traditional border, a 3-D image of a cube emerges, often called Metatron's Cube.  This is a series of spheres that serve to make not a flat pattern but a cube which is made up of a number of circular cells.  To add to this, some are now claiming that the image etched onto the stone is done without the aid of pigment or dyes, but is actually etched somehow INTO the stone itself.  Other sources explain that the image emerges as a result of the use of a red ochre, a very stable colorant used in ancient times.   Some feel that this is a model of something, a form of geometry that contains presently unknown information about the structure of something....but what, we aren't sure.  Was it meant to be a teaching tool for understanding consciousness, or was it a tool or mathematical model to help describe how energy and matter interact?  Within the flower of life the five platonic solids can be found, so it could have been a way of containing a broad range of information in one form that was so esteemed, that it has shown up all over the world (except North or South America)

The assumption most often being made about such advanced technology is that if the knowledge for building airplanes and other air ships  were developed in the ancient past, why haven't we found evidence of it? Why no flying machines being dug up in the desert or in a temple somewhere?  Its a valid question, and can perhaps be explained by saying that the images here in Abydos may have been the result of still more ancient technology, perhaps only available in drawings  or scrolls that were themselves ancient which have since been lost to time.   It is possible that this was part of something much older than those doing the decorating or inscribing.  There may be reasons that just are not clear to us as to the why.  However, the emergence of this material is itself a possible proof for airships, even if we do not find any actual airships.  There are stories emerging from India that describe air machines, constructed vehicles called Vimanas that were used to fly all over the earth and out into the celestial realm.  

Consider that in India there is a book referred to as the Ramayana which describes Vimana as a double-deck, circular aircraft with portholes and a dome on its top.  It was described as flying with the speed of the wind and made a melodious sound.  Ancient texts on VImana are very numerous.  The ancient Indians wrote what amounted to flight manuals on the the control of various types of Vimanas.  There were four types of these craft:  the Shakuna, Sundara, Rukma, and Tripura Vimana.  At the very least, these accounts are very curious.  There is nothing about the accounts that would suggest that these books or writings were done in any kind of jest, a kind of ancient science fiction, that we can tell. For many, they are set aside as mere curiosities (perhaps because what they could represent is too troublesome to contemplate.  

It turns out, though, that other airships have emerged in other parts of the world, too, and there are some important elements that serve to lift these objects above mere fantastical models or delightful bird jewelry.  In South America, several craft in the form of medallions and jewelry show delta winged craft.  Realize that a delta wing craft bears no resembelance to a bird, but is something that emerged as a result of our own development of motorized flight in the last 100 years, and is one of the few ways to properly stabilize the rear portion of the plane and help it to steer properly through the air.  No bird has this device as part of their flying apparatus.  The forms from South America show an open cockpit, windshield, wings and the delta wing in the back.  When scanned and built to scale in the current day by a group of interested engineers, their model took off and flew on its first flight!  So on the one hand, we may not have an intact craft to point to, but we do have some very fascinating images as well as miniatures that are all extremely specific to the engineering requirements for flight.  Understanding how a delta wing operates would very likely require a working vehicle and not just a model in order to refine the development of the rear wing orientation.  It would be difficult to develop a model since it would likely involve a series of strings that would allow the individual to pull the model so it could attain the lift needed for flight and then to have another string (actually two in all likelihood) for turning the rear tail section to see how it would affect turning in flight.  

If you would like to see images of these planes, you can go to this post written last year about the same issue, but with less depth than this article.  Planes.  (this link will open a new window in your browser so you do not lose your place on the blog)

What follows is the analysis by Mruzek, describing how proportions emerge throughout the objects, more than just suggesting that the work was more than the result of an accident whereby some material was destroyed while other portions remained, creating a composite, which is called a  palimpsest. 



 

Egyptians Knew the Golden Section - Reconstruction as Proof

Contrary to being chaotic, the Abydos Helicopter scene is a deliberate creation. Its order is of the highest magnitude, being based on the historically famous Golden Section. The palimpsest explanation is simply out of the question, because one can just fire up a CAD program, and easily recreate the area under the helicopter in its exact main proportions from memory. The engraving utilizes Geometry, and the layout of the area is a variation on the basic Golden Section, wih emphasis on Golden Rectangles. The measure of ability to produce a given item measures understanding of that item. Pure opinions are hard to measure.
To begin with, golden rectangles in the area are quite auspicious, and beg testing. 
To test the area under the helicopter for golden section proportions I had assumed the semicircle's diameter as the starting unit for the construction below.

1 -
a unit (semi)circle 
2 -
an axis 
                               

Above - The semicircle in the glyph looks quite true, when tested by a circle. 



The usual construction begins with the six operations, or steps, as shown above. Circles '4', and '5' help in obtaining the axial cross, and are discarded afterwards. After this we have a choice of two operations, which will produce the Φ-ratio in the position. The diagram below uses the big green circle concentric with the red circle.
The yellow circle represents the glyphic semicircle, and becomes the red circle in the diagram below. The green circle from above is replaced by the blue square below.

the classic Golden Section construction
The diagram of the classic Golden Section was imported into the Abydos image by scaling the unit circle to the semicircle in the image. As seen below, this experiment worked like a charm.



We are looking at the proof that the glyphs are proportioned by the Golden Section along the horizontal axis. The area under the helicopter is sectioned by vertical lines into Î¦ proportions. 

If the semi-circle's radius counts as 1 then the
breadth of the row of six columns on the horizontal axis is (Φ²)  2.618..  From the semi-circle to the left on the axis
we see successively the distances of  
  0.5  ←→ 0.5 ←→ Φ-1 (0.618..)   ←→  Î¦-1 x Î¦-1 (0.381966..)   ←→ Φ-1  

and combined distances like

    1   ←→  Î¦ (1.618..)   ←→  2   ←→    Î¦² ( 2.618..)






Above - A square divided by golden grid
The square that we employed for the Golden Section turns out to fit the square formation of columns, and triangles.
To get to its present location,
the square rotates 45 degrees, and slides to the area's boundary on the left. Then it slides down, until the x-axis becomes the square's upper Golden Section divide (below).

the square is inscribed in a circle with a diameter of two Units

The square fits the glyphic square of columns, and triangles very well on three sides, but we do see a bit of imprecision at the top. But, this is amply made up for by the accuracy of the Φ-rectangles within this square.
Here, it should be pointed out that it is the triangles, which give us the width of the square, and actuate the golden  proportion. According to Egyptologists' chronology, the columns came first, but according to the reconstruction by the Golden Section, the points of the square had been given  before any corresponding columns could be created
! 

The columns and triangles form golden ratios

Horizontal lines from
E, and F, with the vertical line from H, divide the square into golden sections. The lines are set by both the top and bottom of the middle triangle row,  the upper columns, and by the upper edges of the inner rectangles at bottom left . The square as above contains no less than eight Golden Rectangles, plus corresponding squares. All fit the layout of the engraved square really well.


• Two big golden rectangles: horizontal width = 2.618..units, height = 1.618 units 
• Golden rectangles based on the unit circle (base 1 unit long, height 0.618)




We can recreate the golden rectangle limiting the area under the helicopter, because its left bottom corner coincides with the square's corner. The big rectangle from under the helicopter just happens to also be the perfect container for the upper two craft on the right, as well, if we see the plane as transporting a suspended object.  The plane's horizontal axis, which seems engraved in, is at the same time a Golden Section line for the rectangle. 
The rectangle on the left contains five smaller golden-rectangles, and they all fit the engraving. The entire area under the helicopter forms a perfect Golden Rectangle, when t
he helicopter's belly rests upon the upper line of the rectangle, although it's hard to see at this resolution. Fortunately, this marvellous [sic] fit is easy to see in the blow-up below.
(end of quoted document)

You can see the entire analysis that Mruzek makes here. 

 I wanted to include the proportional data here to suggest the possibility that there is more to this than meets the eye....or DOES meet the eye!  I think its a fascinating possibility.  For myself, I do not buy into the ET hypothesis.  Why can't humans come up with this stuff?  Why must it always come from off the planet? We essentially have the same brain as we had three thousand years ago, and even seven thousand and longer....so it stands to reason that while we might not have had the technology as a result of the particular arc of how civilization had developed up to a certain point, this doesn't preclude the possibility that we HAD developed all kinds of technology in our distant past, with most evidence of it having been destroyed.  When I hear the argument about the physical evidence, I can understand, but some things aren't so strange....dynasties destroy the great works of their predecessors, and remarkable things can wind up on the dust heap...






Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Awakening








The language of Awakening is Union.  






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The Path To Awakening

You live as though you are awake, but a part of you sleeps.  You think and feel and believe it to be what you are.  You are more.  When you feel deeply you touch upon hints of what can be within you.  Somehow, you have been cut off from the universe, but its been so long, you don't even remember the day it happened, or that it happened at all. 

This world does a lot to keep people in a scattered and seperated state of consciousness.  There is much that is created and driven that quite naturally keeps you distracted and unaware of the elephant in the room.  I used to feel like this was some kind of conspiracy, and while some insist it is, I suspect its more innocent than that.  Its merely the blind leading the blind.  What else more can they do?  A person who is awake will sound like a total lunatic because s/he can see.  And what they see is absolutely revolutionary.  And it changes them in a very significant way, and it makes them seem different.  And the blind cannot believe that a sighted person could see such things.  It just sounds like nonsense.  And so the blind are happier being led by still blinder people than even they are.  The sighted most often get shot or crucified or assasinated.  This is how deeply ingrained the blindness is in your kind. 

We make things that keep us distracted because we aren't aware there is something more to fix our attention on that is more worthwhile.  We enjoy having a fragmented awareness because it FEELS like we are busy and being industrious.  What we are doing is splintering the self and creating a habit of dividing awareness away from the unified beam that is your higher consciousness. It is true we are many things, many petals all on the same flower, but in order to know what you are in your higher or larger context, you cannot be scattered.  You have to be unified.  You actually have to begin to vibrate in the same way that your higher self vibrates.  And it does vibrate.  It does INTEND.  It does focus in a certain way.  And if you can begin to fall into that alignment, you will begin to hear the voice of your greater being speak to you in a language so broad you might not even think of it as language.....dreams, visions, seeming hallucinations, intuitions, extrasensory perceptions. 

The way toward awakening is by becoming more unified. And what is this unification?  What does it taste smell or look like?

Some people reach it through meditation, but most simply awaken without diets or postures or mantras or any of that.  I was told by a guide early on that the race was ready for simply stepping into this higher form of consciousness now.  It suggested to me that Awakenings would be on the increase. And they have, most certainly.  What happens in an awakening is when the self becomes more unified, less distracted.  The ego moves back just a bit as the feeling self is allowed more room.  There are some ancient texts that were ordered burned when the Christian church was first being formed that turned up in the Nag Hammadi Scrolls, discovered in 1945 and named for the town near where they were discovered in Egypt.  In them Jesus explains how two eyes become one, how the masculine becomes the feminine, and how a woman becomes a man.  He is explaining the process of inner unification that takes place as the alchemy of the self begins. If you can imagine that you have two wires at the top of your head that have been pulled out of their connections.  One wire is the positive and one wire is the negative.  Positive flows to the negative and they move in this way such that a circuit is made.  The two are made one and the lights come on.  if you can think of it that way, it might help you to understand that your being begins to move closer into itself so that the maculine energy that is you merges into the feminine energy that is you.

I know what you are thinking.  We have a lot of hangups about sex. Manly men, many of them, often tend to be a little homophobic.  Women can be just as scared and intimidated by gay women.  The truth is, though, every single person has both masculine and feminine in them.  Its what rocks the universe. Its what keeps the lights on.  Its life force.  Its how it is constructed. This cycling of energy is what keeps the energy moving and creative.  When these two energies move into unity there is an explosion of bliss which is orgasmic.  Orgasmic energy no longer is kept in the base chakra or limited to the genitals.  This energy flows through you as if some wildfire has been unleashed.  This is what some call the awakening of the serpent fire out of the base or root chakra and into the rest of the body.  The masculine and feminine within you connects and begins to build ever greater amounts of energy as you learn to hold ever greater amounts of it.  And to what end?  The end is the means, and the means is bliss. This is establishing a new baseline way of feeling.  Before, it was as though you were dead and you awoke.  This is exactly how it has been described in some of the early Christian texts when they described resurrection. The resurrection was when an individual awakened.  If you read these texts, its curious how they were set aside, ordered cast out of doctrine.  These were the very words that gave voice to what the kingdom was/is all about.  Kundalini began to move in them, it animated them, it arose through them like a torrent moving up the spine.  You can choose to think of it as two serpents, or any number of things, but all of these will simply be descriptions and not the thing itself.  All of this will simply be an image, and the image, if not chosen clearly will paint a distorted picture of what it is intended to describe. The point I am making is that you have both of these currents in you. Every particle that IS has these currents.  Everything has a positive and negative charge.  Everything.  The entire world is holographic, built on this principle down to the most elementary particles.  Everything emerged OUT of this singular principle. And when you can merge these two in your self, and feel them dance, you have awakened. 

...or on your way to awakening. 

The way that you awaken may be an entire mystery.  For some it is this way.  I certainly didn't do anything intentional to awaken it. I sometimes meditate, but not regularly.  I suspect that for me, the release came when I released an old guilt I had carried about my spiritual path.  When I let go of that, my energy soared. Everything began to change after that.  I had been holding so much of my own energy hostage without realizing it, I had literally had become distracted and tying myself up in knots.  When the knot came undone, I was no longer able to be the person I had been before.

Within you is a place where you are unified.  It is a feeling. It bring bliss and it can also bring anxiety for how strong it is (this is ego talking).  But as you surrender like a lover to it, the bliss flows and unity is yours.  Healing begins apace and you are on your way to becoming your more Essential Self, the personages Jesus described as the Father and Mother (Holy Ghost).  It is also what happens in the Hindu conceptualization when Shakti and Siva merge together in the crown (the truth though is they merge at the very beginning and flow up together....but that is another story).

When you become one, you will know this kingdom....

Monday, February 6, 2012

Cooling It (Coping Skill # 865)

Kundalini is not the wild energy that many would want to make it into.  Its less that the energy is wild and more that the individual is out of sync with this universal energy.  Once you understand that, things can be a lot easier to deal with.

Understanding that the energy responds to your feelings and thoughts is a biggies, but leads back to the first principle I just mentioned.

Any visualization you want or need to do to help calm kundalini will work.  That's because you don't need a system or a guru or some special stamp of certification from the kundalini institute for advanced consciousness.  No, this stuff is as old as the hills, and its kind of the most ancient vehicle for enlightenment and self transformation.  As such, it is entirely free from all of OUR conceptualizations.  Consider it like a meteor falling to earth, cracking open and giving you a view into the fundamentals of how things ARE....all without language or images even.  Its ancient.  And groovy because if you understand its not out to eat you, but to free you, you will have an easier way with it.

Realize that kundalini responds to intent.  If you want the energy to rise, it will.  I generally have about 12 hours after saying "rise" for it to begin to build in intensity.  I don't think its necessarily listening to me as much as my own system is doing what it can to follow or align to my intent.  Its possible, though, that if there is enough conflicting messages swimming around (maybe say fear about it even though you might think you want it to increase in strength), and in this case, you need to be clear about what it is you want before getting dependable results.  It will listen to you, and even "speak" to you in the language of feeling, so watch for this.  Its one aspect of the energy that can help you expand your relationship to it and give you more tools for coping. 

The fear you feel, that's unresolved fear in your subconscious.  You will want to tag the energy with it. Not exactly. Its YOUR energy and the fear and anxiety is all within you.  Kundalini isn't making you do anything. Its merely highlighting what was already there, but ignored.  You do not wrestle with kundalini, you simple surrender.  You let go.  When things are hard, its Kundalini telling you there is a knot to dissolve or let go. In the same way you might use a visualization to cool down and calm kundalini when its all the rage inside of you, so too can you begin to let things go by imagining things that slip away.  I often had images of slipping into a small boat at a dock in the cool of the evening and being entirely rudderless.  This image helped me surrender deeply to the force of my own making.

By visualizing cooling and calming things, your own energy will follow suit.  If you want kundalini to strengthen, simply ask that it do so, and I will guarantee that it will.  I have used this method for years when I was ready for the next round of churning that this energy does to your subconscious.  By doing this, by letting go deeper and deeper, we can heal all those knots and issues that we hadn't paid any attention to.  However, if you do not have control over your feelings or some aspect of your subconscious, you might have some trouble with what this part seems to be doing inside of you. 

You can even do a patterning exercise whereby you do a  mediation that focuses on cooling and calming energies.  At the beginning and end of the meditation, if you have an object that you can associate with the meditation and all the images contained in that meditation, you can, by simply touching your finger on the photo or object, enter a calm state very quickly.  It will take a few times to pattern your insides some, but it will be a wildly effective method.  This is one reason why there is so much ritual in practice.  It doesn't need the stamp of certification from the kundalini institute, though (pardon me if there IS such a place...I am merely making a point).

I can have a piece of turquoise paper, solid, representing the vastness of the ocean....very abstract, yet a touchstone to the larger experience.  When I do that, I find a sense of calm.  Sometimes I can merely imagine I am touching this piece of paper.  And I am there.  It can be that simple.  It can be more complex.  Whatever you choose will work.  there is no magic in someone telling you postures or any of that, even though everyone will tell you that there is/ There isn't.  there is a lot of patterning in all of that, and perhaps you can reach a place where countless others have been.  But do you want to be where others have been, or do you want to go where your soul is calling?  Its a wide open road and you are SAFE.  You have been protected all this time, and you are blessed!

Understanding that kundalini is much closer to your own natural self will help you in knowing how to create a system that works for you.  Once you realize that this really is a kind of game in a sense, all these systems and methods, you can fashion your own with great confidence in its working.  And if you HAVE no confidence, well, then you will probably be looking on the net for some methods to try.  No harm in that.  Its all perfect!

Good luck, and imagine cooling waters......if that's what you need.

Namasté

Saturday, February 4, 2012

Dropping Pain Body

(Work In Progress)

One aspect of Awakening is a more acute awareness of karmic issues and old traumas through the medium of the energy body.  People who are awakened can have such exruciation pain in their bodies that they go to see doctors, always to no avail.  Its not real physical pain, but the effect of awareness of the buried pain now being brought to the fore.  All of this is a transmutation of that pain into joy.

The presence of the pain body can be  positive thing in that you are now aware of something you weren't aware of before.  This is a first important step.    The next step is to release what the energy has brought into your awareness.  Its a simple thing; its either pain or bliss.  You know the bliss and you know the pain, and you may know a blend of the two. Letting it all go, ceaseing identification with the issues that you cannot wrestle with, improve, fix or even patch that well, is in line with how our own healing takes place.  If we had been capable of healing it, it would have been healed by now; most hurts are ingrained from lifetimes ago....our hardest issues are those that have repeated over and over and over again.  Lime a theme, a cord running though all of our lives.  Ultimately, no matter the details, it all comes down to love.  In the end, all of this....everything in this world comes down to SELF love. Can you allow yourself to feel the love of the universe so powerfully that YOU are able to let go of everything that stands in the way of the experience?  Can you cease trying to compare yourself against another, or whether you got as much love as another, or whether you measured up in the eyes of others. 

The pain that you feel is the result of sitting at the table of life and reaching across that table seeking the love and approval of others instead of allowing the bliss field to resolve deep within you.  Absent that, a crack or fracture has developed.  Its against the true function of becoming; fix yourself and that singular act prepares you for meeting the perfect bliss of the universe instead of perceiving it through the distorted lens of karma.....any emotional frailty that leads to expectations that are unrealistic.  By knowing that YOU are o.k. first, you can begin to effect the release you need in order for your energy body to begin to disassociate itself with the energetic pattern you have clung to for so long.  Which is it?  Lack of love?  Abuse?  Poverty?  Some guilt could resolve as a pain in your heart.  A disconnect between your deeper bliss field and your feelings could result in a root chakra that is overactive.  Anything that has been suppressed rise to the surface more active than ever. 

(Work In Progress)

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Breaking Free

There seems to be a correlation between Awakening and a shift in how one begins to see the world, or relate to it.  For me, the world was beginning to seem different to me.  There was a conspiratorial edge to all of this in the beginning which felt like an underlying sense that all was not as it should be in the world, and a general sense that all was not well here.  Something was off kilter, not right, and it seemed as though the obvious was being decried as conspiratorial bunk.

We live in a world where information is controlled, fed based on what those higher powers wish us to hear.  Its not pure evil, its simply greed, because behind it is a need to keep an old outmoded system running that does not play fair.  Its a battle for the mind, for if you can control information from the top, you can control it throughout the system.  There are numerous examples of this, and its hardly surprising, but it happens.  There remain so many unanswered questions to what happened on 9/11 that it warrants a new investigation.  Explosions in the basement observed by work crews before a plane ever hit.  Molten metal pouring out of the building even though jet fuel does not burn hot enough to cause metal to melt.  Some have offered that the metal we see is actually aluminum, which does melt at a lower temperature.  However, being involved in the foundry process and as someone who has experience melting these metals, aluminum does not get hot enough to emit radiation.  This only happens once you get above a thousand degrees.  Only then does metal show emissivity.  Aluminum wont ever do this.   When molten, it looks like liquid aluminum, or precisely like what mercury looks like at room temperature.  Its shiny.  Not brilliant as the video footage shows, red and orange sparks flowing alongside this molten metal.  And if this happened, then what caused metal to become molten like this if jet fuel could not do it?  And why would firemen observe and report on seeing "molten metal running down the rails as if you were in a foundry" weeks after the collapse?  This is not explained.  Its a technical impossibility, and its not something that will go away.  Despite this and independent testing results that show conclusively the presence of an engineered form of thermite, something called "nano-thermite" which is used to not just cut steel, but vaporize it, the public still wants to follow the story fed to them by mainstream press, which is that nothing untoward is going on. Thousands of engineers and architects who have looked into what happened on that day have banded together to explain to the public that the collapse of the three buildings on 9/11 (there were three not two, and each were perfectly symetrical collapses) were a statistical impossibility.  Never in the history of steel frame buildings has ANY building collapsed due to fire.  The towers were designed to take a direct hit from a large airliner.  While the jets that struck the buildings on that day were larger than the ones that were used to determine how to protect from such catastrophic collapses, many architects who have studied this issue closely tend to agree that what happened on 9/11 simply does not follow facts in the real world.

There were explosions in the basement BEFORE the first plane hit, for example.  Numerous eyewitnesses reported explosions going off before the planes hit, explosions so severe and so close (not from above) that they reduced the basement levels to rubble.  These explosions were described as like grenades that went off over a long time frame.   These were not explosions from above, but came from the basement, pushing witnesses upward, not pushing down ceiling times as happened when the plane DID hit (these are two very different kinds of events and centered in the building very differently).  Some videos on this here.  While it has been edited in a distracting way, the testimony is important. 

It is interesting to note that Rodriguez and his coworkers contacted the 9/11 Commission to tell them their story, to include the evidence of explosions before planes hit the buildings, and their calls were never returned, there was never any follow up and their accounts were never entered into the evidence as presented.  Further, when a NIST official gave a talk to media about their findings, he was asked about molten metal in the buildings, he claimed no knowledge despite numerous well documented and televised accounts of officials and citizens all observing extremely high temperatures, hot enough to melt steel. Even Rudy Guiliani commented to the 911 Commission that there were temperatures in excess of 1500°F. in the rubble (metal glowing red hot) months after the buildings fell, and yet NIST has continued to deny the evidence before them.  For engineers and scientists, this is not mere incompetence.  Regardless, many Americans  continue to buy into the mainstream press's assertion that all of this was caused by planes crashing into the buildings. 

When we entered the Vietnam war, our most decorated naval ship the U.S.S. Liberty was attacked by unmarked fighter jets that officers aboard described as being consistent with Israeli fighter jets strafed the carrier for an hour, seeking to sink it.  On a phone call with President Johnson, Macnemara overheard Johnson calling off air support by a fleet in the area, saying "call off the wings!"  explaining that he wanted to see the ship go to the bottom of the ocean.  The assumption was that Johnson wanted to garner as much outrage over this incident as possible in order to have a reason for entering the Vietnam War.  Without a direct attack, it would have been hard for Johnson to rationalize or make a case for entering such an action as he did.  We now know that the Gulf of Tomkin Incident as it is now called was part of a false flag operation that brought us to war.  For those who think this kind of behavior is an aberation, or an isolated event,  consider that only a few year previous, during the Kennedy Administration,  acts of false flag terror were submitted by a member of the Joint Chiefs as a way to get the U.S. to attack Cuba. Some of the incidents called for the U.S. to shoot down a U.S. plane full of college students returning from Spring break in South America over Cuban airspace and blame it on Castro.  Another scenario suggested flying a plane out of a Chicago airport, land it at a CIA base, place the same numbers on the tail as was on the commercial liner and fly it over Cuban airspace where it could be shot down by our own missiles while blaming it on Castro.  The memo suggested that by filming fake footage of bodies being burned, the public out cry would be so great that a war with Castro would be all but assured.

You can download the original document, obtained via a FOIA request here.

Now, for as doom and gloom as all of that may seem, the other side to the shadow in all of this is the light, and this is the good part.  Part of waking up is seeing the world for what it is and choosing to experience the light rather than staying in the shadows, which is where the likes of Dick Cheney have remained.  Waking up means seeing things more clearly, but also not just falling for the truth of shadow, but the truth of our divinity.  We have freewill, free choice, and part of this means choosing the light.  Only there can you laugh at the absurdity of what we have chosen to build here, the idea that this is all there is.  It isn't.  Within us is the equal capacity for shadow and light, and part of waking up is choosing where we are going to focus our energies.  For as hard as it might be to know that bad things happen and people lie about it, the truth is, this has always been the case.  People have all chosen to do good or ill because of free will.  By changing ourselves, by choosing the light, we actually change the vibration of Collective Consciousness.  We change our species from the inside out.  By loving ourselves first, we are more able to love others in a divine way, which means that the good rain falls on ALL.  This bestowal is what the divine does.  Its life force, which is love and compassion flows to all. What we choose to do with it is a choice.  Always we have choice.  And beyond this world is the womb of the All.  For as precious as it is here, this is not all there is.   Its a ride, a glorious ride, but nothing more.  Its the universe waking up in its dream and asking "Hey, what the heck?  What was I just dreaming a moment ago!!!???"  And so we wake up. Piece by piece, person by person, we turn this inside out. Sweep out the cobwebs and hope that the species continues to wake up.  As this happens, though, there is a kind of drawing back on the part of those not awakened.  The balance is upset as a shift occurs. We do not need to continually teeter between the yin and yang.  We can shift the gears and enter a whole new way of operating.  We can bring it up a notch.  The next step will be people waking up who will have to grapple with their shadow side who have stayed in the shadows.  They will need a lot of compassion, love and understanding so that they will not languish in fear but marinate themselves in the bliss that their souls have craved since day one.  Sure, there are killers amongst us. Killers of people who are themselves immortal.  Bodies will die, but souls will continue. Am I minimizing our place here as a species?  Never.  In truth, this is like a dream within a still larger dream.  Its a lovely dream with money to be made, lives to protect, ideas to defend, and battles to be fought.  But still, its a bit like a dream, and we are in it.  Why do you think we have so many movies touching up on this idea lately? Its swimming inside the Collective.  Its gurgling up.  We are taking the Red pill. The deeper truth is that we dont need to take a pill and we wont see the truth as something horrible, just as it is, which is the result of greed and shortsightedness.  Its why Jesus turned over the tables in the Temple over their hoarding the half-sheckle which was the form of tribute paid by the Jews at that time.  it was a money making scheme and the bankers were allowed into the holiest of places, the Temple.  Well, folks, the same thing is happening now.  You and I can choose different.  We can do the good and BE the good.  And then, as we grow in number, how many crooked people will there be to fill Congress of the White House?  Slowly, the face of even our worst institutions will change.  It wont be a sudden revolutionary movement, but a gentle rocking of that baby into another dream where something different is experienced and brought to be.  Maybe you think that is pie in the sky or fanciful thinking, but its how it will happen short of violent overthrows and aggressive acts.

When we wake up we will simply say "no more" and because all of us will be saying it, there wont be a need to change anyone's minds.  For we will Be That.

Waking up is a pretty radical shift at first.  Over time, its seen in broader perspective.  This is not to say that we sit idly while unjust things happen.  You have a voice and YOU can choose to use it.  Will it matter if the powers that be don't want change?  Slowly, change will come for we WILL be the change.  We will teach our children something different and they will respond without even thinking.  They will esteem this new way without thinking twice.  Slowly, we will change.  We have already changed.  We have shown that a man or woman doesn't have to be judged just for the color of their skin.  We followed the Constitution, and we did so largely peacefully as Dr. King's movement showed, and just as Gandhi's movement showed.  It CAN be done.  And it can change the world.  It already has.  And it will continue to do so.

Do not fear the shadow, for it is a new dawn. Soon, it will all be light....