This thing is self educational....over the last several days it says "Do not be IN love, BE love." And thus began this process of my insides understanding in a new way the difference between the world of karmic attachment to hurt and the woundedness and this world where we can be free. It is beyond attachment, beyond even needing to BE in love.....because once you reach this place where you ARE love, everything is perfect. No more attachments to the things that caused pain and hurt. Its hard at first because it means letting go of some pretty profound beliefs about how you think things should go in your life. When you let this love stream through you, and as you conceive of it in ever clearer ways, it has a way of building on that clarity until you almost seem to crave more inner clarity and less dross.....all along this voice is saying to try BEING love instead of wanting to BE in love. The difference, it says, is that the former transcends ego and karma, allowing one to love in a new way, in a grown up way. It suggests the old way goes away....and perhaps its a loss in a way, but this next step will take some getting used to. A careful clearing within as it sets up shop in this way. Its been fueled all along by the transformative power of kundalini.
Being love is learning to grow up. Lifetimes of hurt can be tricky to just let go, but let go we must. As we do, a new world resolves. A new life awaits us....
Nemasté
UPDATE 4/2/12: I am reading through tumblr and I see a quote that stands out. It is by Osho and he is saying not to LOVE a thing but BE the love. If you can do this, he explains, you will be much happier. Nothing to lose, nothing to not give or to withhold.....
As I think how quickly I jotted this all down I think back on the image I was being shown of the infinite self verses the earthly self or personality and egoistic self.....and how we very much need to let the earthly go so we can get to the universal self, which is free from karma. As I think about that, and how it was presented to me, it makes even more sense to me as well as what Osho managed to do in echoing it in near perfect timing without my even going looking for it (this happens all the time). This has in truth been something I have been struggling against for a while in a very egoistic way. I am finally reaching some point where I am beginning to get it......I just hope I can embody it, feel into it, learn it, and become it. I can be very stubborn sometimes...
Being love is learning to grow up. Lifetimes of hurt can be tricky to just let go, but let go we must. As we do, a new world resolves. A new life awaits us....
Nemasté
UPDATE 4/2/12: I am reading through tumblr and I see a quote that stands out. It is by Osho and he is saying not to LOVE a thing but BE the love. If you can do this, he explains, you will be much happier. Nothing to lose, nothing to not give or to withhold.....
As I think how quickly I jotted this all down I think back on the image I was being shown of the infinite self verses the earthly self or personality and egoistic self.....and how we very much need to let the earthly go so we can get to the universal self, which is free from karma. As I think about that, and how it was presented to me, it makes even more sense to me as well as what Osho managed to do in echoing it in near perfect timing without my even going looking for it (this happens all the time). This has in truth been something I have been struggling against for a while in a very egoistic way. I am finally reaching some point where I am beginning to get it......I just hope I can embody it, feel into it, learn it, and become it. I can be very stubborn sometimes...
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