Kundalini Talking

Over the last few days I have been working on getting some cuttings from an old orchard so I can graft the old apple varieties onto new root stock.  As I have been out in nature trimming and collecting I have felt a resurgence of some old stuff and in so doing, it has helped to show me just how much I have changed.

Through the voice of this energy I can hear it, feel it, speaking.  Something is speaking....my higher self, the energy.....maybe they are one and the same.

Its talking about desire.  Its showing me a person who is free from most karma and this person does not seek through desire that is governed by karma.  The karma, in this case, are those things that we do unconsciously that serve to trip us up.  People we are attracted to that are themselves tied into an old karma we have yet to resolve.....and most often than not, things wind up going badly for both....and while people will tend to want to blame or point fingers, ultimately this all resolves back to the self.  Always always always......until we say "ok, I give up.  What do I have to do to drop all of this stuff that makes me do what I do not want to do?"

When karma is dropped, desire does not go away.  What remains is what governs us.  Energy, or consciousness, will always attract, will always be dynamic.  This is the nature of energy, and it is the way things are.  Even when you are not seeking, not doing, your energy field has an effect all around you. You magnetize the world based on one given wish and hope....or based on some unresolved issue having to do with self love and guess what, this winds up effecting you based on your feelings about self love....

'Round and round we go like this for aeons.  But once we dig into the karma and just decide to let it go, to lift ourselves into a better place, things get better.  We allow an old hard feeling to soften. You might not KNOW how to let things go.....do maybe they just sit inside of you until for whatever reason, you feel like its time to clean house, or to face the fact its overdue. Whatever it is that allows you to let go and feel different.

This energy suggested that we do not lose anything, we just begin to attract based on this still clearer energy.  Whatsmore, its all inside of us.  Its like peeling a potato.  You have the outer skin, but you want to peel back those rough layers to get to the core.  There, beneath all the hardness of what the ego has brought to your outsides, lies a still clearer sense of self that you may never have even realized was there.  It is inside each person.  Its so powerful, but so quiet, I am not surprised many have meditated to try and find it.  Its not a thing.  It is a feeling.  Once you begin to "get" it, it is easier to find.  Easiest still, is it is perfect, waiting for when you can peel back the layers that you thought were absolutely crucial to your being or survival prior to all of this.  It might seem that letting go of all that is before you is a giant loss, but consider that all that is right for you will remain while all that is not right, not in YOUR divine alignment, will simply drop away.  Don't let ego seek to pick it back up.  Just let youself let it all go.  In time, you will forget it was even there.  Some things that get dropped will be harder, but just keep yourself in the moment.  You will likely find, though, that things get easier.  For now, let that be the way.  There is a season and time for everything.

Once you can become more clear, you will begin to do something you have never done before, which is to attract based on this divine alignement rather than the alignment to karma.  We tell ourselves that we NEED a person or event to take place in order to satisfy our lack of self love.  But there is nothing in truth that we can lose in this divine love.  It was never gone, we just played a trick on ourselves saying it was gone, or that we were hated or not loved.  The ego, in its infancy, made a mess of things it seems.  And now, the WAY to learn is to learn from your higher self.  Time to let it do the driving.  TIme to start listening to IT and as you do, you will be much happier.  Content. Bliss-filled. The desire that remains is not based on what the ego thinks it wants or needs.  This wil be a desire based on a timeless state of being.  Not losing love or being hurt from something from the outside.  That has always seemed to befuddle the ego and all kinds of patterns are seen on the screen that is the universe.

Letting Go

I have written on my other blog about the nature of how consciousness works, or at least one aspect. I think its an important one because it can lead to powerful change in one’s life.  The concept here is that consciousness has a duality of sorts, and it mirrors the particle/wave duality seen in physics.  Imagine that all you have known in your life has been the result of your individual or particalized awareness.  Within this well defined soap bubble, or particle of being, are all your memories, all your experiences, and all of your feelings about how everything has gone down. In this soap bubble, others’ awareness does not enter in, nor does the universe impinge upon your awareness.  Further, your beliefs about how things are based on your experience tells you that you are a nice soap bubble and nothing more.  The world happens to you.  You are the result of random chemical reactions in the physical universe.  At a certain point, though, something happens.  You reach a place where your individual bubble looks for more, aware subconsciously that there IS more, and the thin wall that separates you from the universe wears thin.  At a point this wall breaks down and you become aware of the universe rushing in. Perhaps more truthfully, your own bubble merges with a larger aspect of itself, with other bubbles, other particles, and this results in forming a wave.  Up to this point, your focus on your individuality, so persistent, has excluded anything like this from happening but now you can feel beyond your bubble to a much larger aspect of your being which seems or feels very different.

You are suddenly a drop in a vast ocean, a giant wave of awareness. You are able to become more than you were before. This is not some ego trip, but a simple aspect of your being that simply was never experienced.  As you do this, as you align to the universe, all of the issues within your individual self that are not in harmony or alignment with this larger universal consciousness, are stirred up, made more obvious.  Your awareness grows about these “problems” within the individual self.  They can be translated as pain or tension.  Its like walking into a room and hearing two people singing. One person has perfect pitch, will always have perfect pitch, and this other self, which is your individual self, is off key.  When you hear this happening, it becomes incredibly obvious.  Prior to this, though, you were happily singing off key and not realizing that you were “off” by a little. The presence of this universal self who has perfect pitch makes you more aware of where you are of on the perfect harmony with the higher awareness.  This is what an awakening does.  It points these things out, and if you are brave and willing, you can release these disharmonious elements in order to learn to become something more than when all of this started.

Doing this requires an act of inner alchemy.  How do you do this?  Many know its releasing old patterns, but its not always widely understood.  Its possible, I think, that much of it is not something you work through but that you simply do. Its not a thinking thing, not something you parse like so much data.  It not mental. Its reaching into your more emotional feeling self for those things that have hung you up time and time again but that you were powerless or unaware of how to change.  When you release these notions and feelings about how the world is or how YOU are, something magical happens. Like layers of clothing, these things you thought defined you and made you what you were, slip away in the night.  Ego has a real problem with this, but as you let it slip into the background, it becomes easier to let it all go. When this does, something that had been with you forever is now gone.  Maybe its a recurring theme in your relationships that keeps you in a state of dissatisfaction over how the people wind up being.  Or it might be something related to abundance in your life.  It could be any number of things.  Ultimately, it all resolves back to self love. When you can love yourself, you can love more perfectly because being the universe as well as your individual self, you can begin to mirror this love in the universe in which you find yourself.  It might seem magic, but its a simple law of the universe that the universe will mirror back to you what you presently have within you.  When you let go of something for good, the universe is now reflecting based on fewer problems in the self and more of what the universe is, or can be for you as your universal self steps forward.

This is an important aspect that I am dealing with in the book I am writing Waking The Infinite.  How do we help ourselves to reach this place of perfect pitch?  How do we learn how to feel differently so we can release what we have for so long been attached to?  By letting go, we are able to finally find what is the best for us, and as we do, the world resolves from a world of hurt, to a world of love.  This is not a love that is predicated on anything, but is the very fabric of the universe.  Its about growing up in a real sense, to see what its like to take on the “adult” self which is this universe that is full of this love and that fills you with such bliss upon awakening.  This energy becomes unzipped, releasing orgasmic energy throughout the whole body.  It changes the physiology, and it offers a new way to be.  Its less that its just sexual as sexuality is but one aspect of this energy, which is at its root creative, and creativity has always been something that was meant to be pleasurable.  It is this because it is in perfect alignment with the universe.  Certainly you can create horrors, but you have the freewill to create based on something more in alignment with the light that shines in us all.  Shadow causes us problems, light brings us to fulfillment and peace.  The task is letting go of the things, the shadow, which always results in still more shadow (the law of attraction at work).  By bringing in more light, more light is attracted.  And so this builds to the degree that the individual self is able to let go and surrender to this vast realm of being. When we do, a new world emerges.  The world literally begins to look and act differently.  Aren’t we all seeing the same world?  I don’t think so.  And I don’t think its JUST how we feel that makes the difference, but how we change frequency and thus are freed up to see still larger dimensions of being right in front of us.  This, I suspect, is the essence of all of this 2012 stuff.  Its reaching a point of critical mass where human kind has on offer a new world within and without….realizing all along that there was no difference between the world and us.  We ARE the world and the world is us.  As a result, when you change yourself, you change the world.

Magic!

Voice of the White Lodge

A long time ago all races were known to form a cross where all people were one.  All differences were respected, revered. We are all one family here.  Attempts to divide out one group from another happen all the time, but we are all of one blood with many currents with that blood. Let us revere those currents but also not get hung up on the differences.  For surely, those differences we have at some time worn.

Amongst the People of this land, it has been long known that the earth moves through cycles.  This is why the circle has been so important a symbol.  Instead of seeing a beginning and end, sort of like how a pencil has a beginning and an end, if we see life as a circle, then endings become beginnings, and beginnings share something with endings.  These points on a circle become these transitional points were we move upward through the circle of life which is itself like a spiral....round and round we go and upwards we travel as we grow and learn and become.  We all have these cycles in our bodies, our spirits and minds.  The earth has her cycles too.  I was told that there was going to be an event here on this earth a very long time ago.  It was funny how it was given to me, but it was a message from a past life to a future one.  I literally peered down through time in a kind of portal that took me to a past life event where I was sitting atop a mountain doing something called "crying for a vision."  This was what many different native groups did to seek guidance in their lives. They sought the guidance within that place where the creator, the Great Mystery, emerges in the self.  Often, this means a kind of disassociated state, like a trance.  Some would fast and drum and pray.  Some would dig pits to sit in to act like a cradle but also a way to deprive the senses of feedback.  This often would result in visions and guidance from the spirit world. 

I was shown by beings in a large storm that the world would be going through a cleansing, a shift in its energy.  It has taken me a long time to reach a place where I have been able to better understand this experience, this vision which was also a memory from the past.  The Thunder Beings revealled something not just about the world, but also about myself.  It has been a very long-lived puzzle, but has pointed to what is there for me to realize within myself.  It was itself a hidden gift that I could not see until now...and like buds on a tree that have been long silent and seemingly dead, the leaves begin to grow and branch out....

Our world is going through a change.  The Native people have spoken of this as a time of cleansing.  Others, like the Hopi, speak of a shift from one world to another.  There are stories of the earth actually moving in its orbit to be closer to the sun.  Further, the Hopi have explained that this is what has been happening for a very long time....There are numerous stories that seek to conceptualize this change which will happen with Mother Earth.  What needs I think to be understood is that as the earth goes through changes, so do you.  And in the same way, your own change further pushes her change.  We are a part of this.  By choosing joy instead of fear, we can be a part of a more vibrant energy that we are being steered towards by forces much stronger than we.

It is time to forgive yourself for seeking something that you were never able to find.  Its time to let that past go and seek a new future.  This new future will have you finding the love that is in the universe inside of you.  When you let go all the things that tie you to a love THROUGH another, you will best be able to become invested in this inner love.  This love will help heal you of the parts that tell you that you need a love from another.  By doing this, you can shed generations of pain and hurt that have become a part of you.  You will be shedding something that the earth is shedding.  This is perfect, for as the teaching comes to me to pass on to you the result is something truly remarkable.

In a way that we cannot quite understand right now through our lenses of hurt and pain, and fear, we are getting ready to slough off an old cocoon.  See, the thing is, the reason why so many are waking up is because the earth herself is waking up.  She is shedding all of this old stuff.  She is having to shed this stuff that we have ALL helped to create, and now she is going through a very real physical change.  The effect is also energetic.  Its at all levels that she is doing this. The way through this healing is with the alchemical action that is within each person for healing.  By bringing the masculine and feminine within to a unity, there is healing.  The masculine within can bear something that the feminine needs....in order to "conceive" of and understand.

In the old vision atop that hill, the Thunder Bird cleansed the earth of a dark cloud that hung around it, a kind of stain that was cleared.  The masculine brings a pure vibration of electrical energy that strikes to the very center of the earth and renews it, creating the means for it to slough off the old veils of conception.  When we can reach that place where we can feel the love within us that is the universe, we do not need to create such powerfully negative karmas in our lives that can be so hard to deal with.  Life will not be perfect because we are all learning.  Being compassionate and careful for all life here is a grace.  We are all learning to throw off this veil.  Some know this, while others are dreaming it.  It comes closer and closer to us each day.  There is a lot of talk about 2012, but this is merely the end of a long-cycle event.  We are all here for a reason, and we need not fret over what that all means.  The more you can find the peace within, the more you will understand what this time is all about.

By allowing old karmas to fall like old blankets, we will be more vulnerable, more naked than ever, but also no longer shackled by shame.  This is important.  We will find in our awakening that the earth will appear different.  And there is a reason for this.....

Earth is waking up.  She is pregnant.  She is going to give birth to a new consciousness.  It is what you are becoming inside.  We are all now swept by the current of this to greater and lesser degrees.  Some are here to witness.  Some are here to participate.  We all play parts.  We are all related.  We are all one big family.  This wont be merely a time of rainbows and light.  People will need to stand up for what they know is right, and to hold those powers that be responsible for coming along with them in this new journey.  The more we can help our brothers and sisters in government to understand that we are no longer fearful but ready for this leap, the less they will feel the need to hold onto the old ways as much. There is a great deal of fear being sown still, and we each should seek to heal that hurt and fear when we can. 

Every voice is important.  Each race is important.  Each tree and squirrel and bug and plant is important.  We will be able to see things in a very different way, and it is happening NOW.  There is a new earth waiting to be birthed.  The voices of each race, crossed, together, are more important now than ever.  The voices of the Yellow Lodge in the East, the Red Lodge in the South, the Black Lodge in the West, and the White Lode in the North.  We are all one family.  We are all one earth. 

The yellow lodge are those people who are the Asian races, the black lodge are those dark races from Africa, the red races are those who were native to North America, and the white were those races who were white. It has long been known that there were four of these lodges just as there are four directions.  It makes up the totality of our experience as a species. For a long time, the White Lodge has sat empty. It was said that the White Lodge would draw back its children into a cooperative hoop of being as all peoples would begin to learn to live at peace with the earth. 

The Price of Admission

Getting to awakening is the source of a lot of consternation.  Some conjecture, some myth-building, and some wisdom for good measure.

  I suspect that for some people some drugs serve to be a mirror to what they know deep down inside is THE mother of all experiences.  Each person is different, and I suspect that there is a kind of drug use based on physiology.  Some go for speedy drugs, some for more opiates and some for still others for other reasons.  There are the psychoactive drugs and these cover a broad swath and touch upon the speedy and opiates.  While all of this hints at something deeper, it isn’t the deeper thing.
In your body is the perfect pharmacopia for this experience.  In fact, learning how to ride the cosmic wave is all about learning through feeling for how to perch atop that wave and ride it in perfect bliss. If you open to it, the universe will start to talk to you.  You might not see mandalas turning in the sun or flowers emit smells you never really had EVER smelled like that before or saw something in a friend in such a way that it had never existed in your normal day to day consciousness, but this awareness wont wear off either. The world will continue to be silky and sumptuous, sensual, sexy even, and wonderful. When you need to know stuff, stuff will come to you.  It will be as though you are seeing into the center of all life…because this thing in you IS life.  Perhaps others will have other experiences, but that’s what I seem to get off this wonderfilled experience called awakening.
I don’t have to buy something illegal because my body produces the chemistry already and pretty dependably. I don’t have to worry about someone coming after me or of getting a bad batch.  I also don’t have to worry about how hard this will be on my body.  There are some advantages to this natural chemistry within.  For one, this stuff seems to be slowing my aging.  All my siblings are grey and I am not. My sister four years younger is almost completely grey.  I am just getting strands still. And they are on the rise, yes, but it seems that since my awakening, certain aspects of aging have slowed considerably.I have some of the deepest states of rapture where I am connected to something larger, a larger consciousness, a larger web of life.  Its not just an idea, its an experience.  Its not reflected to me in kaleidoscopic images, but through a deep and building sense of awareness, like I am on to something.  Its less as though something is happpening TO me as I and IT are happening to each other.  There is also information encoded within the experience, a knowingness, a creative field where anything I am interested in can be apprehended in some way that is entirely mysterious, but that shows just how important my ability to feel and BE is. I can ignore it, and the bliss is perfectly happy to carry me along.  I can dive down into it, and that is fine too.

And for as good as all of that is, I do have some bad trips. I don’t want it to seem like its all roses.  For as long as I have issues that tangle me up, the energy which is pure can get bent or distorted.  The resulting lack of ease has taught me that I must learn to always follow the bliss, even if this might be something that my culture has taught me not to do, like there is somehow something wrong with being happy (its kind of silly looking back on it…) The truth is, this is a kind of tiller of your psychic soil.  If there are some nasty slugs laying low, this will certain churn them up.  And in the end, its a blessing even though until you realize how to deal with all of this stuff it can be a little hard.  Some substances do the same thing sometimes, and what we experience as a bad trip is just the material within expressing itself and taking what could be bliss and distorting it some.  When the kundalini blues comes, its an invitation to learn how to let go of something buried in your subconscious.  Once its been rooted out, its never as horrible as it seemed when you went walking through the dark garden of your soul at night looking to kill off that noxious weed you knew would wrap itself around your foot and drag you into its lair.  Its actually just the opposite.  Its more like a mouse instead of a dragon, and its gone in a twinkling, never to return.  Like that.  And your life changes because of it.  Your vibration is different now, and you begin to attract based on that new vibration without that strand of karmic stuff competing with all the other stuff inside of you.  When this happens, it makes the next layer or next issue a little easier.  Having these kinds of successes is big because knowing that there is a means for dealing with these hard places within is very assuring for the journey ahead.

Consider my earlier post, which was itself a short one where my posts are considered….its about looking for stuff outside of you.  Obviously you are here in a psychical body to experience all this has to offer, but on a larger level, the species is learning one very important lesson that this awakening stuff offers, which is that we have been looking outside of ourselves for a long time for the things we need, so focused on the physical side that we have forgotten the other side of the coin, which is every bit as important as the material side of experience.  We THINK someone is out there to show us the way.  Don’t feel bad, I had this very same feeling.  Someone out there was going to be able to tell me or show me exactly what I needed to know.  Long story, but it would make sense if you knew the long story.  But not here.  Not now.  I have to keep this under 350 pages!  :-)

What I am saying is its IN you.  Intention, inner work, all of those things, can help bring forth the fountain of awakening.  Sure, a teacher might be inculcated in the process, but realize that that person may be the result of your inner self drawing that person to you, or setting up the circumstances for y9our meeting or engaging in a learning environment.  Realizing that, learning to honor the healing and growth that could come from such an exchange or relationship is a good thing, but it may not be the end-all be-all.  You are the end-all in this, and getting yourself to a place where you can become a conduit for the divine for your own joy and uplifting is a VERY healthy thing in the realm of spirit.  There is some talk of the transfer of this energy from person to person, but honestly, I think it sticks when we are ready.  Ultimately its up to you.  You are in control. If your ego has been sailing the ship and its time for the ego to let loose its grip, your inner knowing may or may not come forward enough to press for some opportunities for change.  In the end, all of you must be engaged in this pursuit in order for change to come, for healing to happen.  And when you do heal, it loosens those old threads that have had you tangled up and you are better able to approach that simple light of the infinite within which has one very basic foundation, which is love, and its unconditional.  Its the karma and the resulting threads that put conditions on things.  As we heal we can hold ever an ever greater and deeper awareness of ourselves as who we are under all the layers.

So its in you.  When you take substances that mimic aspects of the pharmacopia inside of you, you can also cause your body to produce less of that chemistry, which can be a concern because it can create dependence on it.  Some substances trigger a dopamine release such as sex and nicotine, for example.   Some substances may supply it directly, such as the euphoria from some narcotics.  Being able to get the chemistry within you is the most direct method that will mirror a directness in your being with your divine awareness, too.  I am not saying that a drug wont help you to glimpse what is possible.  I think it can, but I also feel that most drugs are just one facet of a still larger experience that can only be properly experienced in your own skin and with your own body reflecting a system that’s running in alignment with the energy that is trying to situate itself in you.  So as a catalyst, it might be just the thing, or not.  It might lead you to a sense like there is something more, perhaps a more direct experience, as happened with me.  We live in a day when we are being showered with the idea that we can get our problems solved with a pill.  These are the interests of the big drug companies, and their agenda is in making as much money as they can.  Children stay on anti anxiety medicines instead of doing the therapy that would rid them of the anxiety producing event in the first place.  Each day they take a pill they are reminded of how sick they are, instead of placing the power of healing in their hands.  There are a lot of voices in all of this, and its important to know what you need.  Do you need a kick start?  Steve Jobs credits taking l.s.d. as an important moment for him. It loosened up a rather tight self so that it could consider other things. It might be that the kick start is an event, a miraculous kind of coincidence that brings a teacher to your door, someone who will mirror a deeper sense in you that the universe is entirely magical and all you need to do is believe in that magical self.  There is no one road, and my hope is that the world learns to find the thing inside of them which can crack open their normal worlds and show them just how possible finding a better place can be. And as we heal and grow, so does the world.  The world is, after all, a giant mirror.

The Shift

On a larger mass scale, worldwide, there is a shift that has mirrored our own individual shift and greater numbers are beginining to experience what this shift means.

Everyone has their pet ways to describe this.  Because it comes from a world of formlessness, beyond the material, yet strikes and becomes part of our world, we are left with trying to cobble something together to try and understand just what this process is.  In truth, its just a feeling.  Just a way to feel and to be (albeit in a revolutionary way).  Since I was shown early on in my awakening how this energy behaves the same way that atomic particles do in quantum physics, and since I have observed that as each particle builds within me and reaches a certain threshold where certain phenomenon begin to exhibit themselves (which are exactly the same as the quirkly behavior of the waveform in physics), I have called these two main focuses of consciousness as essentially being “Particle” and “Wave.”

Our Need To Control

Worldwide there has been an effort on the part of a few to push for a globalist agenda.  It was spoken about by George Bush Sr. as the “New World Order” and has since been changed to globalism because those who were awake and aware began to point to at as still more evidence of an effort to create a system controlled by an elite few in finance and business, what some call the puppet masters.  All of this gets drenched in fear over what this is all about, but its very simple and its about control.  The individual or what I call the Particle self, along with ego, wants to control everything.  The Waveform Awareness is different.  Since it touches upon the higher ranges of our consciousness, it has a different way of effecting events and outcomes.  Since it is tied to a more divinely realized part of our being, its agenda is different.  As each person awakens, there is a sense of a growing Wave of awareness that goes beyond your mere self and connects into still larger parts of our being as a planetary consciousness….which in turn is tied into everything that IS. Its all connected.  But the Particle self does not see this.  To the Particle, it only believes that IT alone can effect change.  The problem we have had, is that while tied up in this form of awareness, we can be blinded to the larger realm of our awareness as Wave.

Enter The Wave

For centuries, millennia, we have as a species been struggling with these elements. Slowly but surely, we have been moving into this Wave.  Now we have a situation where Awakenings are actually becoming common place.  This is a very good thing.  As this builds steam, still more are pushed within the collective being to a place where they are ripe for this to happen.  Its not just happening with a certain type of person only.  Its happening in a much broad based way.  Its happening in Christian circles (some are quite scared by it…not having enough information about this phenomenon) and its also happening to actors (Jim Cary is one who had his brush with nondual awareness) and lawyers, road crew workers, plumbers, artists, and philosophers. The tide is rising and it is lifting all boats.
Still, though, there is a tide of the old way of being that is working hard to exert control, and I think this is natural.  Just as the individual who is going through an awakening, so is the species as a whole struggling with what this all means…moving between letting go to holding on for dear life.  Its a struggle between striking the balance between the particle and wave.  It seems like a dual thing, but what I write about is that this is birthing a new arrangement of self, of being both individually and en mass, both a particle AND a wave.  If you can learn how to surrender to this still larger sense of self and being, if you can just trust that everything is going to be alright without the need to drag the ego and individual into the center of things all the time, you can begin to taste the fruits of an expanding sense of self and reality.  The more room we give it, the more it will manifest here on the planet.  The way you do this is a simple act of intention.  You don’t even need to know how its done.  The Wave naturally comes in as you let go.  What is happening on the smaller scales is also happening at the larger.

None of this is fated in the sense that there is a WAY that its all going to go down, but already there are some things, that if true, are amazing developments that could break down the old order both without as well as within.

Evidence of A Crack In The Fascade

Very recently there was an odd event that took place that involved trillions of dollars worth of US bonds that someone sought to sell in Europe.  This was huge in the sense that either these bonds were real and someone was seeking to DUMP them or they were forgeries.  In either case, the only entities with the technology to create such forgeries or to hold that many bonds would be a government, sources have reasoned.  This involved some people trying to cross the border into Italy to try and sell these bonds.  Its interesting that in Italy there is a bank that has been connected to having been a known launderer of massive amounts of ill gotten gains in the past, and this bank is the Vatican Bank.  Now all of this is speculative, and there is a giant multi-country lawsuit at the bottom of this event that seeks to bring out into light what may well be evidence of these elites in a scheme that has been long standing and that connects quite possibly to those in finance, which also includes the US Federal Reserve, which is itself a PRIVATE bank that also serves the US govt. in making money.  Behind its money making work, its also another bank that makes giant loans to other banks worldwide.  Since they have never been audited, we don’t know what kinds of loans or accounting measures have been taken since its inception in 1913 with the Federal Reserve Act here in the US.  What some suspect is that those who seek control are themselves wealthy bankers who are also into all kinds of business dealings.  The Vatican Bank was known to have laundered vast sums for the Nazi regime.  This is not merely a rumor, but is known as a fact.  They took hundreds of millions in ill gotten gains from this regime in order to launder it, to make it all appear to be “good” money again.  Realize, one of the chief mechanisms for making bad money good is through a bank.  We trust banks, and what better way to do this than through banks that are themselves not accountable to anyone else….just the way the secretive Federal Reserve is in the U.S.  What this lawsuit seems to attempt to do is to bring to light the secretive dealings that have been going on for a long time and for a chosen few at the expense of many. Its a complicated issues that makes many eyes glaze over in the process, but in the end its really just about control.

This control is being put under threat by growing awareness on the part of the public.  Governments keep trying to institute draconian measures to fight some new threat.  IN the U.S. its terrorism.  Before terrorism, it was the Red Scare or the Cold War.  In Nazi Germany, the Reichstag or German Parliament was set fire and this allowed Hitler to institute what amounted to military law and he was given dictatorial powers.  We all know how this went down.  But it has been through these events of threat/solution that we have been offered up some sense of security in the face of such supposed threats. Very recently Obama signed an Act that gave him the power to decide who was and was not a terrorist.  It allows for no due process, and those deemed terrorists can also be executed.  Even more recently Obama signed an Executive Order that gave him and the government unlimited power to seize control over ALL resources of the United States.  This is so broad it means EVERYTHING.  Transportation, food stocks, factories, and even work force/labor.  All he needs to do is call a state of emergency, then he can institute martial law and he claims his unlimited powers which he bestowed to himself.  Understand, this has nothing whatever to do with any Congressional process. Concurrent with this was a meeting that Leon Panetta had before a Congressional Committee wherein he brazenly said that the military in conjunction with the U.N. and other interested nations would TELL the Congress that it was doing in regards to war or other efforts abroad.  The Chair of the Committee was dumbfounded;  did Panetta actually believe that he could skirt the Democratic process in this way?  Apparently so.  And its about control.  The powers that be have been very busy lately, and things seem to be coming to a head.

For as complex as this all is, its just the species coming to terms with something that is happening individually and as a group, which is a struggle between what the individual’s need for control over the Collective Soul taking away the illusion of control in favor of something still larger and remarkable for the species as a whole.  As a result, the more we can serve our divinity, the more we can serve this growing wave, the more there will be a broader support beneath the foundations of power of the elite few to change the landscape of all of this.  The ONLY way that the old regime works is if we show up and act scared and seek their solution.  When we no longer act in fear, the old solutions are seen for what they are, an effort to control.  As this happens, concerned people in higher places such as countries, banking institutions and more begin to change their old modes of feeling and acting and want to cleave more to what this Wave has always suggested or engendered. Freedom.  We are each of divine lineage, we are each sovereign beings.  There is nothing to fear in this.  We are becoming.  And as we do, some pretty amazing things will happen that are not about control but about what is right in the larger scheme.

The Way Through

The way through this is not in fear, but in trust that this Wave will grow.  The odd thing about it is we cannot at the same time worry that it WONT grow while seeking to get it to grow. Its a real deep-down sense of surrender. But when we do that, the individual steps aside some and allows this quantum field to step in more and more.  And every butterfly wing beating will shift the sands of the Sahara ever so slightly until we see landslides. This is at the present, the only thing that will help bring a broad-based sense of sanity to our world.  It is also our evolutionary heritage. By living this, anchoring this awareness in your own life, we each change the world in little ways. But by BEING this, it will naturally effect our behavior and this becomes like a tsunami wave.  If you have ever sen a tsunami, most of them aren’t very big waves at all.  Most are maybe six to nine feet waves that rush up onto shore.  But because its so broad, it can wipe out whole coast lines and wash them out to sea. To see a tsunami coming, it looks so harmless, but its not.

We can’t push this wave. We must embody it. We must be the channels for it, and only in this way will it grow in force.  Its not something that we even intend to do.  That belongs to the Particle Awareness.  In that mode, its what we do that matters.  IN this other mode, its what we don’t do that gives the wave the force that will help it to bring change.  Its hard to wrap your head around sometimes, but its like harnessing forces beyond yourself, the Collective, by just letting it to have the room to inhabit you.  Then, once the wave has built in strength, its far too strong to be effected by much else.  This is the ultimate grass roots effect or effort.  It taps the power of the quantum field.  its perfect for where we are now because what else CAN you do when the world is being run by these egomaniacs who are bent on controlling things the way THEY want to?  While surrender may go against everything you have been taught to do, realize that what you have been taught has been how to manipulate your environment through the individual effort. The way things are right now, we would need incredibly organized and orchestrated efforts to turn the tide.  Its possible that the race can become more unified through this field.  We can trust that the field knows what its doing and will bring us our highest.  This means a radical shift from the way you might have learned to be.  Its a balance, I think, learning how to allow a little of this surging tsunami within to gurgle up within you.  By letting go you surrender to a massive wave of bliss on the individual level.  You also give more room in this reality for something different to happen.  Doing this also means that you do not worry if your neighbor awakens.  This is all a choice, even if the gurus say we have no choice.  Deeper down, you have always had a choice, and it is so simple, it eludes most people.  Just as we feel victim to our upbringing and our karmas, all of this was the result of a choice….many of which you aren’t even ware of ever having made. But this is your invididual self saying you are limited and thus cannot have such control to decide. But you did. You are a giant inside, you are just waking up to it. No matter what a million yogis or masters of the universe say, we are learning more about this Awakening issue than ever before.  We are not the yogis of four thousand years ago.  We are the masters of today, and life is very different.  We do not have temples and ashrams.  We have jobs and texting and t.v.’s and all sots of media yelling at us.  And we are ourselves changing.  We are learning about how we effect the physical world through the quantum field. Its real, its not pie in the sky imaginary stuff.  Learning to trust and to flow with this field will bring miracles.

An Example of How The Wave Works Miraculously

I am writing a book.  I reached a stage where I began to bring in some other sources to help illuminate my thesis more.  People seem to need these other authorities still, so I am including them.  However, I have not sought most of my sources in the usual way.  My sources have come to me through the channels of synchronistic events, coincidences.  All seem entirely out of my control.  In one case I was going to look for a book in a library and picked up on book whose title seemed interesting to me but that I had no plan on checking out.  When I looked through it, I realized it had no bearing on what I was doing at the time.  The night before I had to take the book back, I flipped through the book and opened to a random page.  There, at the bottom of the page was an account of healing being described by the author that perfectly explained the elements that I was at that time working with in my book.  Out of an entire book there was this one paragraph passage that the author innocently recounted that had nothing to do with illustrating the same issue I was dealing with in my book.  The account was described in a more innocent way, never focusing on the one element that was crucial in my book work.  The next day I was sitting with a friend who had also had kundalini a few years before and out of the blue she mentioned how she was reading a book by an animal behaviorist that turned out to be the exact  same issue I was currently dealing with in the book work.  I had not even mentioned anything related to the issues that were contained in the book my friend mentioned in our short chat.  This is how these events happen to me now.  They seem to my ego to be utterly rediculous and impossible, but what I know now is that it is merely the power of the Wave bringing into my life those things that I need most at that time.  While these are called “synchronicities” they now happen with amazing frequency.  Its efectively learning to move mountains by simply asking.  If you are aligned within yourself, then the wave will come and bring you like a tsunami, the things you need. It SEEMS its beyond your control….and perhaps in a round about way, it is, but its a different way of going about effecting change. The hard part is that you have to be clear within for this to happen. There can’t be barriers in the way.  Once you can let these go within you, you can literally magnetize the universe to behave in the way you most need it to.  Right now, getting this book done is very important, so a lot of the “miraculous” is happening centered around that.  I also pray for the old memes to fall worldwide.  I pray and intend that the need for control to crumble to give way to this still larger thing that is growing within all of us.

I promise it is in you.  Its an amazing brilliant part of what you are, and when you feel it moving it will change your life.  Its not dependant on any belief or dogma, although it can be colored by these things and we can also shutter our awareness with these memes and beliefs.  But as we let drop all our postures and positions and consider we are more like children with a divine parent now holding our hand, we can learn to trust what this divine parentage means to us here now.

This is a quantum jump, no doubt, and there is no other way around it except to consider the way is not around but through it.  The only thing you have to lose is lifetimes of fear and anxiety and hurt and trauma. The world is changing.  We are changing.  A little surrender can go a long way. In the meantime, I seek to bring just as much of this cosmic juice into the world as I can.  To sit here and radiate with this love and compassion and intent that things will move according to plan.

Nemasté

Understanding The Matrix

Its simple really.  Everything is surrounded or interpenetrated with energy that is unified.  Everything is a part of everything else.  When I woke the energy was telling me I was part of this FAMILY of consciousness….I didn’t quite get it until the experience deepened more and more things began to happen.  But if you can imagine for a moment that you are sitting next to me by this nice secluded pond with beautiful overhanging trees and dragon flies and cat tails and a few frogs and bees and lilies and…….the rocks are warm and the moss is cool and its a lovely spring day. The pond, though, is no ordinary pond.

The pond is actually conscious. It water because we are imagining it as water, but it does a LOT more than just act like water.  Its in truth an infinite field of energy in which every living thing is connected to it.  Even though things move around and through it as though they are individual (which they ARE), they also carry a kind of living image and essence of the entire pond within them.  Just as a person like you and I can sit by this pond and talk like the individuals we are experiencing ourselves as, we also know deeper down, the pond is in us.  As we talk I see you smiling and this tells me you are done talking and you just want to leap into the water!  So I watch as you gracefully dive in and I watch as I see you move through the water.  What is amazing to me is that I can actually FEEL you dive into the water.  I can FEEL how it feels to you to move through it. In this case, diving into the water means diving into your very essence as well as diving into the essence of everything.  This is how the Matrix works.  I don’ like the word because the movies are so damned violent.  But the idea has some merit….and even the fear factor projected in them is an expression of what can be for you.  But there is a little more to the story….

Some people who are sitting across the pond are not sitting comfortably.  They are kind of looking down into it and looking across anxiously as me. They look behind them, off into the woods and they are saying something about being followed.  They don’t look very settled, they look AFRAID.  Its interesting, because they are talking just now about something scary in the water.  They are also afraid of something that might be stalking them.  It seems, just a shot across the water, the world is very different. I wonder what makes that areas so scary?  Its odd.  We all see the same pond, the same energetic matrix, and yet we do seem to experience such different things you could mistake what we all see for something completely different.

In truth, the pond isnt a pond.  Its pure energy.  Its a vibrating world that has no boundary.  Its in everything and IS everything.  In our world here, in the material, its here too, and it appears differently to different people.  Some people have fear, like our friends across the way who seem so anxious.  They are warning me about not slipping on the rocks.  They heard a rumor that someone was sucked into the pond never to return.  I smile and say I will be careful. And at that moment, you rise to the surface and scare the holy bejesus out of our neighbors.  But in that moment, as you rise to break the surface, something very interesting happens. The people see my reaction, which is not in fear, but joy. I am smiling at you and asking how the water was.  They realize, our friends across the way, that MAYBE this isn’t something to fear afterall and begin to become aware that some of what they had been feeling was perhaps mistaken.

Well…..not mistaken.  The truth is, this matrix becomes what you expect it or believe it to be.  Some bring fear and see fear looking back at them, never realizing that the universal matrix was merely taking shape around them.  Its how it works.  Its not that the matrix around you, the universe, your life, is supplying the fear, its just you.  Its being powerfully generated in you and then you see its fruits in a world that is infinitely adaptable and mirroring.  In fact, its neutral.  Its your sandbox. You can turn the sand into anything you want, just like how our neighbors have just turned a wonderfully peaceful and beautiful place into a realm of the forbidden scariness.  But it happens, and people don’t even realize they are doing it.  They are just going along with the program.  The answer in changing the way this pond looks is in changing how YOU feel.

But there is something else…..

You can jump in and be a part of this matrix.  You can flow in perfect form within it and in bliss, but you can also still have those old programs running in your head.  If you can pluck them out in entire, what you see and feel wont feel as though you are somehow split between wanting to believe the pond is a nice place but secretly afraid of it….you will actually know it as different.  You change yourself by removing those old programs from your insides.  The more you do that, the freer you are.  You still experience the pond, but without the competing memes that used to come along with being in such a place.  Just being here, just reading this must mean you are ready to stand by the waters edge.  And if you are, I beckon you to just slip into the waters.  They are as bright as you make them, or as dark as you make them.  But when you do arrive you will be greeted by some smiling faces.  Some of them might just be aspects of mine.

It could be a machine world with dire conspiracies and consequences or it could be a sparkling world of possibility.  It could look very normal, very subdued and hidden in a way, or it could be absolutely totally cosmic-land.  As you touch it, it will respond to your touch.  Make it a touch that is ready for love….because at its most basic, it IS love….but less as a feeling and more as a force.  And once you get and feel that, you are so much closer to feeling it head on on its own terms….

Happy swimming!

There is More to Learn

In the eastern traditions there is a strong adherence to destroying ego,  to obliterating what stands in the way of the transcendent This view emphasizes the infinite field, which is where soul resides, where the Waveform Awareness emerges. It is the All.  These folks sink into the infinite and they dissapear.  Then they come back and all their stuff is there waiting for them like forgotten luggage.  By dissolving attatchements, the motor purrs instead of chugging. To do this means the small and large self work together.  These easterners don’t understand this it seems.  They seek this inifinite path by way of dissolving. It works, but it has a consequence to it.  As a result, there is this reliance on not feeling, whatever that means.  Thing is, is that while I would agree that you can’t drag raw emotion into this, you cannot help BUT feel.  The universe IS feeling, so its a bit silly to even be talking this way.  The way you interface with the infinite is through feeling.  Its how you are able to shift and be aware of this universe, the All.  Its simple; the All is aware and feeling.  I am not talking run away emotion, that’s what’s waiting for them when they get back.  Its why they talk about it I imagine.  They do well in getting there, but there is something big that not many even talk about because this is where the rubber meets the road.

We have more to learn.  Wed like to cleave to ancient texts and scrolls, but we as a species are changing, and we just dont sit in a temple all day meditating. We are texting and cooking and picking up children and having meetings and being barraged by the absolute bullshit of a world gone mad. We tend to think if you wear a funny hat and a Sari that this makes you spiritual. But merely being you makes you this.  As a result, we need a more robust sense of integration for the self.  Small self is just used to small things….but if it can surrender well then the larger self can light up and you are on your way.

The universe is alive.  Every atom and molecule feels.  Its consciousness and its in everything.  It is THIS feeling that you connect with and so feeling is very important.  As you shed the dross ever more greater ranges open up to you.  Most people carry a huge load around with them without ever knowing it.  Surrender becomes the only way they know to get up to the light speed necessary for things to get interesting. We can be awake while still loaded.  This is what brings on the dark nights of the soul, this is what brings about what some call Kundalini Syndrome.  Its ego trying to dredge up karmic attachments that simply cant travel at the speed of the universal consciousness.  But we still try.  The art of learning to divest of karmic attachments is a seemingly magical process where old hurts and connections to lifelong issues suddenly go away….like a leaf falling quiet from a tree. They do not return.  And all of the dark nights of the soul are most often brought on by this dross.  For most the process is entirely mysterious….and THIS is what we have yet to learn well enough so that as more awaken, we can speed up this process, improve upon it instead of looking to cultures thousands of years old and soaked in issues and attachments that simply are not part of our emerging Collective Consciousness.  Even the Collective is changing.

I know….I am just an upstart pipsqueek. But its through our own development, never assuming there isn’t more to learn, that we do.

Its an exciting time.  Not easy, never that, but looking into our present with feet place forward, instead of into the past is the way to go. And awaken.

Nemasté

The Point

Waking up and moving beyond old hurts is about building awareness.  There comes a time when you either are or are not aware that the pain and tightness felt is the result of your own misalignment with your divine flow.  Its not that you are bad.  Its that you have allowed material that is inconsequential to your infinite or Essential Self to come between you and it.

People who awaken often have all kinds of symptoms of pain which isn't anything that medicine can diagnose.  Many go home with some prescription or other, but it never solves the problem.  These issues often clear up in time, but only once kundalini helps to identify and bring awareness that its not your BODY that is feeling this, but its your energy body.  In chinese medicine, pain and trauma gets lodged in the energy field.  The idea that we push stuff down is true.  it isn't just in the brain or head.  Its all through us.  Things of a sexual and nurturing nature get lodged in the root.  Issues related to our sensuality are in the sacral.  Issues concerning our individuality are in our gut.  The heart is about our ability to sense in an instinctive way what truth is, divine truth...as well as the pulse of love.  Our throat chakra is involved with being heard and speaking our truth.  And on and on it goes.  These chakras are aligned to feelings because of vibratory frequencies involved in each center.  Taken together, these centers form a complete octave, a kind of range of colors in vibration that make a rainbow.  Its energy and like attracts like.  So naturally, as you become aware, you can feel how your stomach is tight, or how your root is unsettled and tight.  When this happens, it can help you to identify what you are doing with your thoughts and feelings.  It can make you more self aware.  It can help you to learn to get beyond those feelings, and fill that space with a better feeling. FEELING.  Not emotions, though.  We have emotions, and they can often be just as unsettled as our karmas....are often inculcated right alongside our karmas, our attachments to hurts and old old trauma.  This can go back for lifetimes, often resulting in a repeating pattern that is a bit of a rut.  The great thing is this rut can be healed in just one lifetime.  Sometimes in moments.  If you are aware and ready to let go of that old investment.  Problem is, our pains often define us.  It seems kind of crazy, but we are all this way.  And in so being, the way to healing is with a healthy does of compassion and understanding.  For all of us. 

This is about stripping down to nothing.  Then, when you have all the dross of this world removed, you can build based on what your higher self offers.  Your higher self is the parent, is the father and mother that Jesus spoke of (the mother got swept under the rug, but in recently discovered texts he DOES say mother/Holy ghost, which was known as the feminine aspect of the divinity).  Others speak of the same thing.  Your insides are dying to feel into this broad range of being that will flow instead of feel stopped up.  Learning to listen to your inner parentage, your higher self which is both masculine and feminine, is an important tool in developing freedom.  Sadly, the Christian tradition could not allow the feminine her place…..but when you heal the rift between your masculine and feminine, you will FEEL your masculine and feminine in your higher self much more clearly.  There is a lot of work to do, so do not be fooled you have it licked.  You don’t.  You are just a very young being compared to your higher self.  Your higher self has this licked.  Learning to listen to it will never lead you astray.  But most people are clueless about how to do this.  Or how the role of the creative can get them out of the log-jam of their pain and suffering.

Learning to cast awareness is the first step.  Understanding that all that comes between you and the infinite is karmic.  Much of this is so close to you that its hard to see.  There is no work; this is a misunderstood illusory thing.  The only work there is is in letting it all go.  And how do you do that?  Grace.  There is another way to understand it, but I have said it over and over until I am blue.  I am now feeling other colors would be nicer for me.  You do not need a teacher.  The teacher is in you.  What you need is someone who will remind you of your vast storehouse of potential.  What trips you up?  Kundalini?  Nonsense.  You know better than that.  That’s victim talk.  What trips you up is you.  And if you realize that this is true, then what is it in your that is causing all the tripping?  Are you the least bit curious?  If you are, then getting to understand that everything that remains for you in your “process” is entirely inside you.  It is also reflected outside of you in the world, but don’t be fooled into thinking that this reflection IS the reality.  It isn’t.

The Law of Attraction means you will attract the same based on where you are, what you are.  the people in your life reflect all of this.  If you are looking for a teacher and you cannot find awareness, your teacher will also have problems with awareness.  So where will this get you?  The true authority is within you.  You must learn how to grab the can opener and open your own cans.  Otherwise, you give your power over to someone who will rob you of your wealth inwardly.  We have ALL been doing this for centuries.  That is another story.

Learn to feel, learn about grace, and remember what you are.  You are infinite.  Let go.  The universe is calling.

The River

I always believed that one must follow the path of least resistance.  Most denied this was nothing more than getting lost, being lazy, or not really trying. I felt deep down it was a way of being found, as well as a way to reach a goal with the greatest degree of grace.  For in the letting go, the surrender to those larger currents, we surrender to the currents of life, a giant entity that swirls and moves around us….amazing in proportion, and we are a part of it, wedded all through it, seemingly a droplet in its river, yet capable of being the entirety of it. It was our incredible need to control everything that leads to feeling like life is something we have to fight against, to resist the flow.  All along, I was not moving with the larger current that was all around me.

And then I awoke. 

I hear rivers speak to me, they speak of the inevitability of letting go, of flowing into the All. And I know that the river leads to the sea. I began to awaken to the fact that life itself was entirely supportive, but I had to trust that what I was attracting was good for me, and if it wasn’t right, I had to simply change how I felt, what I believed.  By doing this work, new things emerged and moved into my life.  This life force filled me with bliss and a boundless feeling of being part of it, no longer a cog in the giant machinery, but a strand in a web that now pulsed with a message of energy. I had awakened to my larger, truer nature.  It was cosmic, orgasmic, and beautiful.  We have been seeking to put up barriers to this through beliefs that somehow our true nature is somehow bad.  Going against the flow has served only to shield us from our very animal nature, that nature we have said was sinful and bad.  By trusting in what the Creator put before us, fulfillment and wonder replaced loathing and guilt and shame.  I was able to take one step closer to the Garden.

This is the greatest love, of letting go of the roots and rocks so we may all float easy and naturally in our natures as the ancient knowing that we are flows in around us and we are slowly melted by its great passion.

The river is where we must all go, stepping in gently and then becoming embraced by it.  It is our passionate embrace, the touch of the divine kiss that knows the incredible beauty that is every soul.
Let the current take you.  It will protect you if you believe it will. It will take you to the right place if you can suspend old judgements and trust long enough for this unfolding sense of self to flow through you, in you and around you.  We never were separate from the flow that now pulls at us seemingly separate, but begging us to know the deeper truth.  Losing control is the first step in regaining your birthright, which is more than your smaller awareness.  Surrendering the control opens up a whole new world, a larger self, a delicious realm of being.

Awakened

Awakening can move you beyond all form, all philosophy, and belief.  It can reveal deep meaning with the greatest of compassion, something that is often difficult for most to grasp at first.  So when I seek to explain what awakening is, I do not go into descriptions  but simply explain:  YOU are the awakening.

I say “can” because many remain safely ensconsed in their biases and beliefs, even if they are notions that are incorrect.  We are a bundle of beliefs often fed to us without our thinking. We want to belong to the herd, so we accept what the herd is gobbling up.  Ideas and beliefs can be shaped by TV.  An entire nation can be taken into war just by talking heads on tv giving a rational reason, but a wholly cooked up by the powers that be.  The release from your own limiting beliefs is often the release from notions you never really questioned because you were too busy trying to fit in.  Kundalini for me was like waking up one morning and discovering I was speaking a strange language.  From another planet.
Be brave.  Wake up to what is real.  And then, the world will evolve back into a place that is more just, egalitarian and real.  But we will each have to do our part. Sitting on a nirvana cloud wont do it, although I would agree that it could help shift the wave in the Collective to burgeon others to awaken too.  Yes.  But there is an old proverb that goes something like “you can believe in something, but until you do something, its only partial being.”  Let us root the power of the awakened here.  Already people, vast numbers, know something is not right.  And in catching on, the world is beginning to look different from the fairy tale they were told about.  Waking up, they have found far more bliss than any tv could have given them in their distraction. Time to begin to call the elite on their greed and the suffering this has caused.  And realize we have all been culpable, for we allowed it to happen as we sat happy to be distracted by our ipads and tv’s.

Beyond all of that is a marvelous place for us to be.  Its real.  And it has a fantastic future, if we can simply believe its possible. When rightly aligned with the divine, belief can fuel peaceful revolutions for the benefit of all.

Awake

When I awoke A world of knowing flooded in. Pure, it arose and was reflected in everything, or everything reflected It.  What It was was the former of all things, and things reflected what is.  I was at first surprised to find these reflections in what others had observed, from quantum physics to the oldest of notions about how things are.  Amongst it was chaff, the incomplete reflection, the distortion, which was karmic, a lack of understanding of the IT.  Over time we have struggled to understand this, keeping our old biases in place, glitches in the code.  This is why you will see some traditions say on the one hand that the divine feminine is important, yet the culture wont honor the feminine.  Nor will its adherents.  It will be lip service because they know its true, but they just can’t embody it. This is the same thing as followers aping the teachings of a master without really getting it, without BEING it, without feeling it.  Much of this is fine turning feeling until the inevitable truth resolves in the moment.  And it can be a process.  Sometimes we need others to show us that the Emperor has no clothes.  Bit by bit, both collectively and individually, we shed the dross and keep the gold.  Bit by bit we learn to see the pearls amidst the sand.  Eventually, we learn how to engender the teachings, to live it, to anchor its being in our being. Small self learns from big self.  Child learning from its divine parent.  Jesus spoke of not just the Father but also of the Mother.  This was a model, a form, an image, for how a part of the self works.  We exist in higher forms and they are LIKE a father and mother.  You have the feminine and masculine within and they are the gateway to healing yourself.  By realizing its just another reflection, you do not get hung up on the material nature of the image, but seek the essence, the deeper truth that the image seeks to express.  In the higher form, there is no form.  There is feeling, and out of feeling comes action; creativity.  What will be created?  Awaking, the world turned inside out.  And yet, it did not turn inside out.  This is merely an image pointing to a direction….learning not just to read in your particle awareness but in the feeling, the collective can lead you to this world.  We all burgeon each others’ awakenings.  We carry the sacred flame which is transferred, undiminished as a candle transfers its flame undivided, enlarged through its realization that it can be in ALL.

It spoke to me and it showed me not in movement or in smell or taste or anything material, yet I saw perfectly how it moved, how it tasted and felt through all sensoral perception.  I was shown a world where particles, individual were evolving towards its higher being, which was expressed as a wave.  Every atom has this, electron, person, tree, galaxy and cosmos. We are it and it is us.  We stare out at it through the particle awareness and think it separate, but in merging with the wave, of all those other particles, a higher form of awareness emerged. Everything was caught up in this dance and it was passionate, engaged, and incredibly creative.

As I looked out into the world of things, problems arose.  We wanted to say that what we see is illusion, that the world here is bad or fallen. We want to say that what we see is somehow not real, and yet Source has chosen through all of us to experience this.  This is not some delusion.  The delusion is that we are JUST a particle and nothing else.  We are BOTH.  And its one or the other.  There is as much delusion in thinking that we are just All as in thinking we are just One, or singular.  We are both.  Out of this both, out of this dual awareness forms the basis for a larger unfolding sense of being.  It is the triad of awareness, and it fills us and awakens us to our own spiritual dna.

The pulse of life is creative.  Its very essence is creative.  When we turn away from such creativity we also turn away from our very essence.  Some want to say that creating is folly, but in truth creativity is a product of our choices, including karma and misunderstandings.  When we get to the core, the whole of It emerges as holographic.  Everything is entangled, connected.  We experience both the particle and wave.  In quantum mechanics, the particle/wave duality is a kind of paradox. Its also two expressions of the same thing.  And its how the universe is ordered.  You see it in photons that can become entangled only to respond as though they are still connected.  What connects us is without mass, and thus is everywhere and every-when.  It allows for true transcendence through All because you ARE the ALL while also being yourself.  The distortion comes in trying to make them separate.  They aren’t.
When there is over identification of one mode over another, there is a kind of suffering that takes place.  This can be done through the ego on one end of the spectrum where one sees only the self as separate, and in so being, there is suffering from that staste of alienation.  On the other end is the pilgrim suffused in the bliss of All but unable to use the All to create.  On this end, there is nothing to do, and identification with ego is a judgement of bad.  Still, its ego.  The trick is riding the wave with both.  Fork and spoon.  Two very different tools, but both necessary.  Stepping on firm soil or slippping gently upon a wave.  Finding the balance seems to be key.  There is a reason why you are here.  Its no mistake, its not the result of being fallen.  That is the illusion. The illumination is in creating what will fulfill you, but in this is free choice always.  Eventually as the self heals and sheds the dross, a finer sense of what is fulfilling emerges.

Choices change, and a larger sense of self emerges.  You grow up.  this growing up need not involve suffering.  Some say suffering is the path to enlightenment, but this is only so because so many have struggled with letting go.  Its a bit like saying that all have suffered because they are keeping their hands in the fire and thus are burned and feel pain and suffering.  Knowing that you don’t need to keep your hand on the fire is an important step in not suffering.  Its possible not to even feel pain.  Just because everyone is suffering doesn’t make suffering the de-facto path towards enlightenment.  Its just what everyone is doing.  Just because everyone does it doesn’t necessarily make it THE path.  It is A path.  In this moment you can see how suffering is not necessary.  To do that means seeing beyond all that serves to make you feel justified in suffering.  We cling to suffering in the same way we cling to ego.  By balancing, we see that on one end is an over-identification with this part of us that suffers through our own shadow whereas another part of us can show us the way out of that suffering.
In a single moment you can awake to the perfection that you are.  In this moment there is this knowing that everything is perfect.  At the crossroads of both individuality and the wave of the All lies who you are in perfect balance.  What choices will you be making in how to feel, how to think, how to act?  There is no rulebook.  No guide, for within you IS the guide. This is the universe.  You are this.  And when you unfold, the universe will show you its secrets.  You already know them.  As you winnow the chaff from the wheat, you will find what is most essential.  Bit by bit, as your intent moves you forward in blossoming, more and more material will emerge for you to keep or discard.  Its all yours and up to your divine awareness to choose.  The world can resolve kaleidoscopic with the simple truth reflecting itself through all worlds and expressions.

We will each carry a candle that will be lit by our own inner divine impulse.

Understanding The Matrix

Its simple really.  Everything is surrounded or interpenetrated with energy that is unified.  Everything is a part of everything else.  When I woke the energy was telling me I was part of this FAMILY of consciousness….I didn’t quite get it until the experience deepened more and more things began to happen.  But if you can imagine for a moment that you are sitting next to me by this nice secluded pond with beautiful overhanging trees and dragon flies and cat tails and a few frogs and bees and lilies and…….the rocks are warm and the moss is cool and its a lovely spring day. The pond, though, is no ordinary pond.

The pond is actually conscious. It water because we are imagining it as water, but it does a LOT more than just act like water.  Its in truth an infinite field of energy in which every living thing is connected to it.  Even though things move around and through it as though they are individual (which they ARE), they also carry a kind of living image and essence of the entire pond within them.  Just as a person like you and I can sit by this pond and talk like the individuals we are experiencing ourselves as, we also know deeper down, the pond is in us.  As we talk I see you smiling and this tells me you are done talking and you just want to leap into the water!  So I watch as you gracefully dive in and I watch as I see you move through the water.  What is amazing to me is that I can actually FEEL you dive into the water.  I can FEEL how it feels to you to move through it. In this case, diving into the water means diving into your very essence as well as diving into the essence of everything.  This is how the Matrix works.  I don’ like the word because the movies are so damned violent.  But the idea has some merit….and even the fear factor projected in them is an expression of what can be for you.  But there is a little more to the story….

Some people who are sitting across the pond are not sitting comfortably.  They are kind of looking down into it and looking across anxiously as me. They look behind them, off into the woods and they are saying something about being followed.  They don’t look very settled, they look AFRAID.  Its interesting, because they are talking just now about something scary in the water.  They are also afraid of something that might be stalking them.  It seems, just a shot across the water, the world is very different. I wonder what makes that areas so scary?  Its odd.  We all see the same pond, the same energetic matrix, and yet we do seem to experience such different things you could mistake what we all see for something completely different.

In truth, the pond isnt a pond.  Its pure energy.  Its a vibrating world that has no boundary.  Its in everything and IS everything.  In our world here, in the material, its here too, and it appears differently to different people.  Some people have fear, like our friends across the way who seem so anxious.  They are warning me about not slipping on the rocks.  They heard a rumor that someone was sucked into the pond never to return.  I smile and say I will be careful. And at that moment, you rise to the surface and scare the holy bejesus out of our neighbors.  But in that moment, as you rise to break the surface, something very interesting happens. The people see my reaction, which is not in fear, but joy. I am smiling at you and asking how the water was.  They realize, our friends across the way, that MAYBE this isn’t something to fear afterall and begin to become aware that some of what they had been feeling was perhaps mistaken.

Well…..not mistaken.  The truth is, this matrix becomes what you expect it or believe it to be.  Some bring fear and see fear looking back at them, never realizing that the universal matrix was merely taking shape around them.  Its how it works.  Its not that the matrix around you, the universe, your life, is supplying the fear, its just you.  Its being powerfully generated in you and then you see its fruits in a world that is infinitely adaptable and mirroring.  In fact, its neutral.  Its your sandbox. You can turn the sand into anything you want, just like how our neighbors have just turned a wonderfully peaceful and beautiful place into a realm of the forbidden scariness.  But it happens, and people don’t even realize they are doing it.  They are just going along with the program.  The answer in changing the way this pond looks is in changing how YOU feel.

But there is something else…..

You can jump in and be a part of this matrix.  You can flow in perfect form within it and in bliss, but you can also still have those old programs running in your head.  If you can pluck them out in entire, what you see and feel wont feel as though you are somehow split between wanting to believe the pond is a nice place but secretly afraid of it….you will actually know it as different.  You change yourself by removing those old programs from your insides.  The more you do that, the freer you are.  You still experience the pond, but without the competing memes that used to come along with being in such a place.  Just being here, just reading this must mean you are ready to stand by the waters edge.  And if you are, I beckon you to just slip into the waters.  They are as bright as you make them, or as dark as you make them.  But when you do arrive you will be greeted by some smiling faces.  Some of them might just be aspects of mine.

It could be a machine world with dire conspiracies and consequences or it could be a sparkling world of possibility.  It could look very normal, very subdued and hidden in a way, or it could be absolutely totally cosmic-land.  As you touch it, it will respond to your touch.  Make it a touch that is ready for love….because at its most basic, it IS love….but less as a feeling and more as a force.  And once you get and feel that, you are so much closer to feeling it head on on its own terms….

Happy swimming!

Beyond This Little Place

Beyond this little moment
this place
this state of being
there is something that has been with you
but hidden, too.
Its a passionate fire breath of a moment
where your body relaxes and begs to be taken by the ALL.
The universe surges around you
you surge within the universe
confused, ego takes a trip for a time
so true universal mind can move powerfully through you
heretical
passionate
and unapologetic.
Everyone wants to think they know what an Awakening is all about.
Books are written that entirely miss the point with blah blah blah
No special pose or diet or breathing or any of that, but an intention to feel deeply, passionately, sexually, tantricaly, multidimensionaly, quantum-fide and nonlocal.
Powered, your essence can flow through the tiny cracks left by those in the world who do not notice them
You are rendered passionate
slave to the universe
you beg for more
to find that place where your being rides the wave of the infinite
and passion and desire pours through your body
less like what you used to know
and now like liquid fire.
For as much as you want to leap out of your skin
for as much as you seek a passionate embrace
you sit quiet and still
your insides exploding quietly
as the passionate universe surges all through you.
All this talk about purity
propriety
and holiness….
it just fades into the background
so much nonsense.
My divinity is the masculine seeking his feminine
of the feminine feeling his hands all over her a thousand miles away
his presence incapable of being anywhere but within her
like currents of light or water streaming all through her
in their noble pagan dance of passion.
His is not an act of propriety
but of his pure masculine essence
what so many denied as impure, improper, and unclean.
What utter bullshit. Id rather be a rough and tumble pagan
than a pure and carefully put together peitous follower.
Id rather howl at the moon and feel every fish and bird
moving through me that moves through the hot steamy jungles of Belize
and the passionate currents that stream through Fort Wayne Indiana.
The truth is, it all moves through me
and its intense creative energy is like a giant orgasmic tsunami
that I cannot make any sense of save to feel and experience in the moment
what the collective is doing and feeling.
I know out of this I can tease great energy for making incredible things happen
and I know I was sent here to do that
and I know I ought not worry
but I also know I aint getting any younger
and perhaps I need to show the explosive potential in all of this
as my mere intention of kissing the world
will make it result into a billion hungry lips
waiting for the creative touch
the light ray
the water drop
the life spark….

Union II

Union occurs when your wiring is allowed to shift so that the masculine and feminine within you becomes charged with the energy of the cosmos; bliss.  Everyone calls kundalini sexual energy.  It is the baseline for ALL energy.  Out of it arises ALL.  If you can feel how it MOVES you would understand how it can animate material from mere lifelessness!

Connect your inner feminine to your inner masculine and the flow begins to build.  A standing wave builds in potential.  Until the personality and ego resist its tide, it will continue to build.  Ego fears this part, but the more you allow ego to move aisde, the stronger this wave will be.  Connect the red and green wires….the masculine and feminine…the black and white….they are meant to be connected together.  And as this energy begins to build in you, interesting things will happen around you.
Somewhere, somehow, you got rewired.  Now is the time to put things right.  I am here to tell you that the divine is yours to have in this life!  We all bear the fire of transformation.  Fanning its flames in this place, it is growing to become a might fire sweeping across the land.

We are all a bit like Osiris who got obliterated.  Time to get put back together again the right way…..

Enlightenment

Awakened Energy is Creative Energy!  Creative Energy is Love.

Whatever Enlightenment is, one thing is for sure;  at the crossroads of the infinite "I Am" or what I call the "Waveform Awareness, and the younger “earthbound” personality, lies creativity.  I think the sages miss something when they say there is nothing to do; the universe is inherently creative…..and even the sages who say there is nothing to do, themselves DO things (which I will bet is creative!)!

The most liberating practice, the best mudra, the best mantra, is to simply be creative.  That sensual energy cracks open more dry husks of your perception than a million postures and positions! Frees you!  Awakens you more!  Greater and greater sensual bliss!  This is the Universe!  Waking up to this is waking up to the powerful potential resting in the universe; we are here to burn this potential in the fires of our souls here on earth!

Creativity is Grace.

Changing What You Attract

The Law of Attraction works.  It works because the universe aligns to your thoughts and feelings and beliefs.  The problem, though, is the issue of being able to heal the self of those beliefs or attitudes that are contrary to what you want. You might not LIKE poverty, or relationships that do not honor your highest, but until you can resolve the deeper issues within you that keep you from realizing what you want in your mind, problems will continue along the same lines as they have in the past.

We are a bundle of unresolved feelings and beliefs.  These can be so simple, so fundamental, that they are entirely missed by the individual awareness.  Some of it gets relegated to the subconscious simply because whatever it is that remains is so hard and thorny.  Perhaps you grew up in a family that treated you in a way that hurt you somehow.  You may have the fallout from this winding up ingrained in you.  You don’t WANT to not be loved, but you question whether you are lovable because of the past.  The deeper truth, though, is that what you came into this life with represents overhanging issues from BEFORE you were born.  This life is like the next volume in a still larger story, and in the current volume the plot is still the same, the author is still the same, and the story line continues.  You come into a life that mirrors all the things that were left undone.  Look at your life early on and you will see the perfect mirror in those around you.  Its very easy for us to blame where we are on parents or circumstance but what this does is it ignores one little issue which is Attraction.

Until we can be honest and begin to realize that everything we experience is the direct result of what the Law of Attraction does in the universe, we wont be able to face up to just what the root cause is of our hurts. As long as that hurt is there, it causes the canvas of your life to mirror at least some colors that are from that hurt....and it adds to your life those strains of color to the composition that don't jive....that don't feel quite right.  That's because they aren't. But when you pluck out that vine by the roots, it no longer grows and has a life in you....and the creative production that is your life changes.....because your life, along with the universe, mirror each other....like a living canvas or mirror.  Even events that seem entirely unchangeable will change like magic.....some of them can change overnight....I have seen it happen and its quite miraculous and powerful for evidence for the role that the Law of Attraction has in our lives. 

It isn’t that we are bad people.  It has very much to do with an involvement in a notion, which is incorrect, that we are somehow disenfranchised, not worthy, or not lovable.  Because we do not have a lot of love, it might also make us feel we are not worthy of material abundance and so we struggle with that as well.  We all want good things, but we still have hurdles erected in our way that keep that from happening.

The way out is to change how you feel.  Part of this is being able to recognize where these problems are and WHAT they are.  This can be hard because lack of love in our lives is very hard to face.  Its hard to face that WE were the ones that barred ourselves from wonder and beauty and the joy and bliss that love can bring.  Why would we EVER do such a thing to ourselves?  Philip in his gospel (gnostic) describes how these things make us do what we do not want to do and keeps us from doing what we want to do.  His prescription is not just to trim the vine but to reach into its root and pull it out entire.  Once this is done, the self is free from the problem that this issue or position represented.
But how do we deal with this stuff if we don’t know how to get to it, if its partially subconscious?
First, I suggest that you realize or know (even if taken on faith) that inside of you is a sleeping giant, capacities you have not yet realized you have because perhaps you have identified with the individual self so much that this other side of you have had little room to shine through.  Second, there is a part of you which can aid you in letting go of these thorny issues and its what I called the “Watcher” for a long time because of how it felt.  I have since learned that its better known as the “Observer.”  When I experienced the Observer, I noted just how detached it was from all outcomes, from all positions in my life.  It was as if someone had jumped into me who stood there looking around trying to figure out what all the hub-bub was all about.  Imagine stepping into an office and hearing people all chattering about what so-and -so did and how this upset someone and….and have you ever wondered why on earth the people were so engaged in such stuff?  This part of you is like this, except it brings a sense of detachment from all your issues, and it is this sense of detachment that has given me the ability to step back from the root of this vine Philip mentions long enough to realize how unnecessary something in my inner life was.

I will give you an example of this in motion.  Back this past Spring I was struggling with a bunch of stuff that I had dealt with my whole life.  I have been in the midst of a divorce from a person who had demonized me, used my kids in a way that felt particularly manipulative and unkind.  I felt how unfair it was that this person’s own need to make me out to be the bad guy was so over powering that she felt she should inculcate my children in such bad behavior.  It just felt horrible.  It also kept me in a space where I was energized by the bad behavior.  Its a bit like a bunch of kids who need to have the last word….and in so doing, they simply keep the argument alive and the deeper issue of the karma going in a way that is like a giant loop.  There IS no resolution.  People wont offer you resolution always.  People will be who they are based on what you attracted in the first place.  So the answer meant that I had to search inside myself to remove the thorn so I would no longer react to it.  Boy, how do you do that? Hard. Everything in my emotional make up said you did not just walk away….this was just not RIGHT!

When the Observer stepped in, there I was, all knotted up in tears. It looked around and wondered what the problem was.  Instantly I could feel its calm, and a part of me deeper down calmed down also.  Why was I so upset? I realized I had been the scapegoat all my life, even as a kid.  The reason came from me, I knew, since the Law of Attraction works perfectly.  But what would lead to that?  I was always blamed for things, even as a kid.  I was often spanked for things I had no earthly idea why it was happening.  The thing was, I had a giant target painted on me that attracted a certain type of person who could not resist shooting at that target.  None of this was fair, certainly, but I was the one attracting it.

It resolved around a past life involving the Inquisition.  I had been a priest in a village when the Inquisition rode into town.  Because I had issues concerning allegiance within the church, I did not stand up and say “No!” to what the church chose to do to my people.  While it was probably true that I could have died myself for standing in their way, the guilt that I bore from NOT standing up far outweighed any issue concerning my own physical welfare.  People died and suffered as a result of my being involved in a chain of command.  While I was not directly responsible for the suffering that came upon my people, I bore the guilt of never having stood up like I felt I should have.  And I carried that guilt around for lifetimes.  It was a pain that I began to feel when my own awakening began to take a more intense turn after several years.  Suddenly my heart center felt as if it had a rocky outer core, like a hard husk that my heart would rub up against with every heart beat.  This was a constant pain that I had no memory or knowledge of.  It led directly to all of my scapegoating issues and it all resolved around guilt and hurt that I could not let go of.

When I saw the images of the Inquisitor riding up to me on that day, I watched in relative detachment as I saw what the genesis was for this event. I was shown that this had to do with an edict that was sent down my the church and it involved the Inquisition.  I didn’t really need to know all of this since at the time what was taking place was a form of inner alchemy.  The memory show that the past was the past.  This was from another lifetime.  It was time to let it go.  It was time to forgive myself.  When I did, I felt all those memories rise up and out of me like bubbles rising above you as you swim in the water.  They just disappeared and broke the surface and were gone.  For as much pain as I felt in my heart, it had now resolved into something completely different.  It was now joy beaming from my heart.  I had carried this around for a long time.  The presence of the Observer was enough to loosen me inwardly so I could just let go of this age old problem and it did.  After this, I felt differently.  I no longer felt disempowered when someone tried to say something untrue or incorrect about me. I could stand in my own truth and not feel how I had felt before, which actually had an air of suspiciousness about it.  I was a skape-goat because I was not resolved about this inner issue and it probably showed.  Somehow, I was guilty.  The thing is, though, most of what I was blamed for, I wasn’t guilty for.  Perhaps my voice was just too shrill in protest.  Deeper down I was not settled, and it showed and people could feel it.

Using the Observer as a way to release is a very useful way to loosen the cords.  Letting go is complete. Its not the idea of letting go, it is a complete and unequivocal surrender of all of it.  Once done, the issue is gone forever.

Another way of dealing with this material is through intent.  The surface or particle self might not KNOW how to let go, but there are parts of you that DO know how.  By calling upon your own higher power to help you in healing this, it can be done.  Ask to be led, and be willing to follow the higher self’s lead.  You can ask the universe for help, it doesn’t even need to be directed toward anyone in particular.  As you seek so shall you find.  And if you remain open to the possibility that change could come, it opens the door that much wider for it to happen.

You can seed your subconscious with your intent before going to bed, telling yourself that your dream self will help you in resolving the issue, to help in releasing what is causing you trouble.  The way forward is to a love you may not have allowed yourself to feel, and it would be very good to be able to feel this bestowal in your own body.  Affirmations also help because they help to change the negative programming in your mind and emotions.  You ARE worth being loved, you ARE worthy of a good life. No one is keeping you from this.  There is a lovely party going on upstairs and you simply have to lay your burden down in order to climb those stairs!

You do not need to know what is wrong. Something deeper does.  Ask the universe for forgiveness. Ask humbly.  “I do not know how to fix this….I ask for your forgiveness” and because you and the universe ARE one and the same, you ARE asking yourself AND the Deity for forgiveness.  Whatever it is that you did, the pain, the years of hurt, the reactionary behavior, the defensiveness, all arose out of that fundamental kink in you that now needs to be healed.  By no longer trying to wrestle with it yourself you offer it up to the universe.  I was made aware of a powerful method for healing by Alison Neville, a gifted intuitive who is involved in healing work of all kinds.  She discovered the work that is done by the Hawaiians called Ho’oponopono.  It has only recently come to light and is now being practiced by many people with great results.  Until last night, I wrestled a little with the concept.
Ho’oponopono was brought to the world’s attention by the Hawaiian healer Morrnah Nalamuku Simeona.  It was through her that Joe Vital found out about this method and made it more widely available.  Since then, a local practitioner of the method has found ways to simplify it so that it can be practiced by anyone without the need of a mediator.  Dr Hu Lin learned of this method as a result of having his daughter healed by Simeona.

It has to do with how what we see in our lives is a mirror of something in us that is not healed that causes the problems we face.  In a dramatic and powerful demonstration of the power that this method has, I turn to Dr Hu Lin.  Dr Lin was reasonable for high security for hospitals in Hawaii that house the criminally insane.  These are killers, and rapists.  These were people who had to be medicated and restrained.  Dr. Lin was asked if he could come help with the problem that this group of very hardened people represented for the staff at the hospital.  Dr. Lin was hesitant, and chose to use Ho’oponoponopo while he looked at the files for each of the inmates.  He didn’t even go to the hospital to do this, but did so from a distance.  He practiced this healing method over the files. Within a few years, all of the members who had been prayed over using Ho’oponoponopo were no longer in restrains and all of them were released to less violent hospitals.  The hospital itself was closed as a result of this healing act.  All of this is well documented with witnesses.  What Dr. Lin explained was that he was less seeking to heal the other people as much as he was healing himself, the part of himself that was creating, attracting this event and the people involved, in his life.  By healing this part of himself, it also healed the other people.  This explains how powerful this method is for making change, and for healing. 

When WE change, the world changes also.  While it can be difficult to reason how this could happen, its a fundamental element involving the Law of Attraction.  Everyone you know currently mirrors something in you that is unhealed.  By not wishing to know WHAT is unhealed, but by simply asking forgiveness, you provide the room for the universe to heal you.  In so doing, what was an issue is also healed. You simply are no longer mirroring that in others as well as yourself.
I can see quite clearly that as I heal myself, the type of students I have also change.  In the beginning, the students engaged in what I felt was unfair behavior.  Once I healed that, the type of student I had was also changed.  I went from struggling to feeling free, feeling like what I was trying to teach would not be looked at with skepticism but accepted more as a viable possibility.  Now my students are of a different caliber than before.  I get more involvement, more enthusiasm, and better work.  My relationship with coworkers has also changed.  I continue to change, heal, and so does the world around me. 

Why I wrestled with HOW Ho’oponopono works I am not sure.  I had examples of how this shifts your world right in front of me!  But in those moments when you can step outside of all your hot button issues, you can feel what it feels like to be free.  Suddenly the universe isn’t this thing that is out to get you, but is merely reflecting back to you perfectly.  It might be hard to believe this is so, but if you give it room to resolve in your awareness, you can begin to see how everything works this way.  By ceasing the rationalizing, you can be free to accept its something you cannot heal, you can leave it up to something that is infinitely more capable of helping you.

For an article on some background on this method go here.

The problem I often have with how typical awakenings are dealt with is that they often do not address the healing side of the equation.  How do we release those hard knots within?  As long as we remain knotted up, it affects our ability to feel the divine flow. It distorts the energy somewhat.  Sure, the universe is pouring through us, but its like a window that has smears across its surface.  Clearing away the smears, the light shines clearly.  Some of our assumptions about this light are enlarged, seen more clearly, and we are less troubled and more free to soar.  Feeling the universe rushing through you is a marvelous thing.  Being able to remove the blocks that attenuate its rush is an equally marvelous thing.  As you heal yourself, you change your life and you also change the world around you.  That is nothing short of amazing.